I woke up feeling confused. I looked around and saw that it was morning. I looked down and saw that I was laying on top of Jane. Then everything came back to me. What happened with Riley, the argument, Jane leaving. Im just so happy she came back to me.

"Jane, wake up." Nothing, I shake her a little bit she mumbled something but went back to sleep. It's so hard to wake her up.

"Baby, wake up" I said a little bit louder and I rocked my hips until she woke up.

"What man" she mumbled and her hand slid to my ass, her favorite place.

"Lets go get a couple more hours of sleep in our bed" I said

"Wait we have to talk about some stuff" she said. Ugh I knew I wasn't going to get out of this conversation.

"Jane I already know what you're about to say. Don't make it a big deal"I said getting off of her and walking in the kitchen. Clearly I wasn't going back to sleep. Jane followed me and blocked the refrigerator "Jane move so I can make breakfast"

"No maura, I think you have a drinking problem" she said sternly

"Why do you think that? Just because I drink when im upset? If that's the case then you have a drinking problem too, now move" I said sternly "Come on, Jane please don't piss me off today. We just made up, I don't want to fight again"

"I'm not trying to fight Maura. I'm trying to have a conversation with you"

"Oh for the love of.. I don't want to have a fucking conversation with you, I want you to get the fuck out of my way! Damn just move!" I yelled

"Okay fine, we won't have a conversation. We don't ever have to have a fucking conversation " she said trying to keep her cool but failing. She moved away from the refrigerator and walked by the front door grabbed her suitcase and went into our bedroom.

After about thirty minutes, she came downstairs, her hair still dripping wet from the shower. I had her breakfast ready and we sat in an awkward silence and ate our food until I got a txt from nina.

Nina: Barry just dumped me over the phone and he wouldn't tell me why.

Me:oh my god, were you guys fighting?

Nina:no that's the crazy thing we had an amazing time last night. He was supposed to go out with his friends but I guess it got cancelled or something so he surprised me with a date. I think it was the best date we have ever had. After I went home this morning he txt me saying we have to break up and it wasn't my fault and he will always love me.

Me:that's not like Frost, ill have Jane talk to him

I gave Jane my phone and she read it and gave it back to me. She didn't say anything though. She's gonna give me the silent treatment, great.

Nina:please do, I need him Maura, I love that man with all my heart. And I think im pregnant

Me:have you taken a pregnancy test

Nina:no I've been to scared to take it.

Me:why don't you come over here to take the test, so you won't be alone

Nina:okay ill be over in twenty minutes

Me:kk

"Babe im gonna go get dressed, Nina is coming over" I said taking our plates to the sink and cleaning them.

"Okay im going to go check on Frost. That doesn't sound like him at all, I'm just going to make sure he's okay" she said walking to the living room grabbing her gun and cell phone "I'll see you later"

"Uh yeah, sure. I love you"

"I love you too" she said walking out without kissing me. I sighed and went in my room. I brushed my teeth and I put on a white spaghetti strap shirt and black shorts with light makeup. By the time I was done I heard the door bell.

"Nina, come in" I said opening the door. She came in and I closed the door. I gave her a hug and we walked in the living room and sat on the couch. "Would you like something to drink"

"No, im just gonna go take the test" she said sadly

"You know where the bathroom is" she sighed and went to the bathroom.

"Well this is gonna be the longest five minutes of my life" she told me as she came out of the restroomminutes. She sat down and stared at the stick and sighed "what if im pregnant. I'm not ready to be a mother" she said trying to hold back her tears.

"It's gonna be okay Nina" I said putting my hand on her knee "Don't stress yourself out. You don't even know the results yet"

"I'm so scared,but your right. I shouldn't stress myself out. Tell me something so I can take my mind off of things" she said, I sighed and sat back.

"Well, yesterday after I got home fron work I was attacked by Riley. She decided she wanted revenge for me beating the shit out of her. So the bitch knocked me out and tied me up, she slapped me a couple times and choked me. Jane came to help me but the crazy bitch pulled out a gun. And jane thought it was necessary to play along with her, and said some disrespectful things. Well I thought they were disrespectful. Anyway Korsak and Frost showed up, and took care crazy ass, I guess that's why the plans got cancelled. After they left Jane and I got into this heated argument, she pack a bag and left. Well I was upset and I got something to drink, I like to drink when im upset it helps me. Well this morning me and Jane got into a fight again about my drinking. Well I blew up on her and it wasn't necessary now that I look back on it. And I'll admit that I have been drinking a lot but I don't think I have a problem. Do I ? Oh god I do"

"Maybe you need to have a conversation with her about this. You don't have to deal with it by yourself. And you caught it before it got to bad" Nina said putting her hand on my knee

"Maybe your right. I just hope she still wants to have a conversation with me. I was really rude to her this morning for no reason she was just trying to help me" I shake my head at my behavior.

"She loves you maura, she'll always be there for you. And if she's not then I'll fight her for you" that made me laugh.

"Thank you Nina"

"You're so welcome. Well I guess it's time to take a look at this test" she took a deep breath and checked the test.

"What does it say" she looks at me with tears in her eyes.

"Its positive, I'm pregnant" she whispered and released the tears

"Oh Nina, its going to be okay" I get up and pull her up into a hug

"What am I going to do Maura, I can't do this by myself" she sobbed

"Your not by yourself. You have me, and Jane, Korsak, Frankie and Frost. You're not alone sweetie" I whispered

"I don't have barry. He broke up with me, and I don't know why. But I do know I'm not telling him a damn thing" she sobbed, I held her until she calmed down she pulled back and sat down.

"Nina you have to, he's the father" I sat down as well

"He left me,so he's not gonna know about his child Maura. End of discussion"

"Nina-" I was cut off by the sound of Jane's ringtone "hold on for a second Jane's calling. Hey babe what's up"

"Frostsomuchbloodicouldntstophimhewouldntlistentomebabyohmygosh" Jane was hysterically crying and she was panicking. It was hard for me to understand what she was saying.

"Baby, calm down for me. I need you to breathe for me." I said trying to calm her down. After a few minutes she calmed down a little "tell me what's wrong"

"He's gone baby, I couldn't stop him" she sobbed."He's dead"

"What" I whispered

"He blew his fucking brains out in front of me Maura" she sobbed

All the color drained from my face and tears poured from my eyes.

"What's wrong Maura" Nina asked . She came and sat by me. I Ignored her and continued to talk to Jane.

"Where are you babe" I whispered

"I'm at his apartment I locked myself in his bedroom. I called it in before I called you. I dont want to give the statement babe. I'm covered in his blood! I don't know what to do Maur, I need you"

"Im on way, hold on okay. I love you baby"

"I love you too" she hung up and I looked at Nina and the look on my face tells it all.

"No, Maura no" she said crying

"Im so sorry Nina."

"How"

"Suicide" she shook her head. She grabbed her things and ran out the door.

"Nina!" I said running after her. She jumped in her car and drove off.

"God" I run in the house, grabbed my things. I got in my car and drove to Frost house to support my fiancee.

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RIP Lee Thompson young :(

Sorry for the mistakes