I'm in Japanese class right now but I have jack shit to do right now therefor

Throughout the day I guess I might as well work on this

Well I mean since you have no friends and all you need soooomething to do right?

Stfu you lonely piece of potato you're part of my head

If I have "no friends" then you don't either.

Hey if I'm part of your head does that just mean you're not only fucking nuts :)

Eh….Ju…. Go to hell ;-;

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Marco Bott was dead.

I watched as they slowly wheeled the body in a sickening looking hospital bed out of our area, like he was some deceased patient.

Marco didn't deserve this, he didn't deserve to come here to be poked and prodded for a sickness he sure as hell didn't have.

"He only had a few more weeks you know…" I turned around surprised to see Jean in the hallway, flowers in his hand. He was going to see Marco..

For the first time I truly had felt sorry for him.

"We were going to go off somewhere… together. Join the Military Co. college.. He always wanted to go." His hands were shaking as petals fell. He stood there, just watching, as the love of his life was taken down the hallways for the last time.

Those bastard of parents were probably burned their poor fucking son. That's just what they would have done. Probably make this crooked ass funeral that only certain people could come to just so they could purposely exclude those of us his parents didn't approve of. It'd probably be a nice ceremony, other than the fact our beloved friend wasn't there, and he'd be ashes in a fucking tiny ass box.

"Jean.. you alright?" I heard someone say as I looked up, to see him visibly shaking extensively.

"I.. I think I'm just going to go.." He croaked out, as he stumbled to the elevator, the pink and white roses he held in a bouquet on the floor in ruins.

Shit.. What the hell is going on with everyone around me?

Seemed like everyone I knew in love were either falling, or holding tightly to a breaking branch. And I was one of them. Though if I was going to be honest myself (which I wasn't) I was holding onto a leaf not a branch.

I stumbled back a bit as I tried to take in what just happened. I looked up and saw everything distorted. Black was everywhere, it was all I could see. Black figures roamed around, brushing into me, some were surrounding Marco as he continued down the long.. hallway..

The hallway.. is longer..

I fell backward onto the floor as I sat there for a moment, listening to murmurs I couldn't make out.

I watched as the figures grew muscle, and somewhat flesh. They roamed around aimlessly, moaning, and gurgling.

"G..get away.." I whispered horrified to the figures as they slowly approached. "Get away from me!"

I screeched as I covered my face, trying to stop the tears roll slowly down. This is what had become of everyone. This was what I had to look forward to, an assortment of flesh and bone that stumbled around aimlessly with no direction, no future, past, present.

"EREN!" One of them screamed and I looked up to see a beast in front of me. The muscled monster looked face to face with me as steam slowly rose from his mouth.

I backed into the distorted wall behind me that moved like liquid as I stared in horror, the monster slowly crouching forward, as I hear voices in the distance getting louder.

"HEY! Hey Eren! Come on brat come back to us.. Hey!"

Levi?

I stared confused as suddenly light flooded everywhere, as I looked I looked at the ceiling.

"Come on.. Wake up.. You're okay you hear me? Open your eyes Eren.."

I looked over at him confusingly as I realized I wasn't in the room I was just in.

Petra, Hanji, Erwin, and a few others stood around with concerned looks on their faces.

"W..where am I?" I whispered, my voice hoarse and scratchy, sore as if I'd just sang a two hour opera.

"Eren what do you remember?" a firm voice rose, and I looked to see Erwin walk over to the bed I was lying in.

I was genuinely confused at this point as I tried to touch my head, it was throbbing intensely but, I couldn't. Something was stopping me from moving as I looked down to see what the problem was.

A fucking straight jacket? Are they shitting with me?

I struggled around before Levi touched my shoulder. His face was so serious. What had I done?

"What do you mean do I remember. The fuck you all looking me like I'm some disease or something.. and why the fuck am I in this?" I struggled again, despite Levi's hand on my shoulder, his pleading eyes telling me to stop though his face hard like cement showing no emotion to the others.

"Eren please… stop." He whispered in a gruff yet soft tone.

I didn't understand why everyone was so freaked out, till I realized something wet on my forehead, that seemed to be covered by a suffocating cloth.

"Eren. Listen carefully, you tried to kill yourself. Understand?" Erwin's voice startled me as I stared at him like he was crazy. I was just standing in the common room area.. how the hell did I kill myself in such a "safe" place?

"You ran into the bathroom. Remember? You smashed your head into the sink.. you fought us until we had no choice but to sedate you.."

I glared at him dangerously as I listened carefully, realizing I was shaking.

"And..?" I muttered, waiting for anything else they were going to leisurely let me know.

"We know that.. you and Marco did know each other before… he was admitted therefore we've taken into account that-"

"That what? That we may have.. infected each other? That he triggered something in me? Didn't you ever once fucking find out why he was admitted? Why he truly was admitted? You're just like his fucking parents. If things didn't go their way, they'd label it as faulty and ship it out of their sight. You want to know why he was admitted? Because his fucking parents didn't like the fact he loved another man. That's fucking why. You all think you can fix anything by drugs and talks.. but you can't fix something that's not broken damn it. All you can do is make it worse."

I didn't really know why I was ranting, but I didn't want it to stop. All the anger that had built up since my mother left was just boiling out of the pot.

"You call us all sick but then what does that make you all? I can't take it anymore! I can't take all you lying pieces of shits that hide behind your bullshit of who's sick and who's not. I may be sick.. but then what the fuck are you all. What was Marco. Was he sick too? Was he sick for being in love with another man? Because if that's the case then you should be dead and not him."

I didn't even realized I'd start to direct this as Levi, but it was too late, the words had already came out my mouth. His facade because unreadable, even for me. Then he patted Erwin's shoulder, nodded, and walked out of the room.

"Eren you're going to stay here for a day or two before you can join the others again. Therapy is at noon." Erwin calmly said, though I didn't meet his eyes. I didn't look at anyone. I just nodded slowly and curled up, my head resting on my knees.

Petra unbuckled the jacket just before leaving and with that, I was all alone, left with nothing but my thoughts..

Flashback

"Hey.. Everything's going to better now. Aright? I'm going to get you better.. I'm going to keep you safe." I nodded, my heart pleading him to stop talking as I felt tears start to form in my eyes.

"Come here brat.." He whispered, pulling me in for a hug, as I sniffled.

"Please don't leave…" I whispered softly, holding tightly to the back of his shirt.

"I don't want to be alone.." I bit my lip, trying to cry as best I could.

He lead us over to my room, setting me in the bed as he got in beside me. "Shh.." He whispered soothingly, brushing my hair between his fingers.

"I'll never leave you.. Never again.."

Rewind

"I..I'm sorry"

I whispered into the phone, more tears slowly gliding down my face.

"F..forgive me.."

I slowly picked up the knife, putting the phone down on the floor as I sat there against the cabinets.

"Forgive you for what? Eren? Eren! Speak damn it! Let me know you're okay!"

"G..goodbye Levi…. I'm sorry."

Before I knew it, the knife was in my side as I let out a surprised yell at the coldness of the small blade.

"Eren! Eren where are you! Speak to me! Let me know you're okay!"

"Stay with me.. Until I fall asleep..."

I dropped to my side with a sickening sound as I started at the picture in my phone, a picture I had taken a few nights after we had slept together, when he was looking at the sunrise. It was a beautiful picture, I was proud of taking it.

I was glad that it would be the last thing I saw.

"Eren! Eren I'm on my way. Come on Eren.. Say something damn it! Anything!"

Darkness slowly started to cover my vision as I smiled staring at the phone, my lips parting to whisper.

"I Love You…"

Rewind

I dragged my feet as I followed Levi into the house my head down in shame.

It suddenly hit me like a rush of cold hair.

Nothing is wrong with them…. It's me that's something's wrong with..

I started to tremble as I quickly ran upstairs into the nearest bathroom while I listened to Levi explain to Petra while we were back home so quickly.

Not meaning to, I slammed the door loudly as I rushed to the toilet, feeling it slowly coming. My throat was warm as I tried to hold it in long as I can feeling nauseous.

Have I been treated so badly my whole life I don't recognize kindness anymore? Am I that blind?

I gripped the rim of the toilet as my stomach tightened, and I threw up. I coughed as my throat burned from the acids of my stomach.

Make it stop

I prayed as my stomach tightened once again for another round. I choked slightly at the warm lingering taste in my mouth as tears started to run down my face.

Don't cry damn it… Don't let them see you like this. Don't let them see you weak!

My stomach churned into fear this time as I heard pounding on the door.

Petra…

"Eren? Are you okay? Open the door!"

I didn't answer as I was already throwing up again, my throat seemingly on fire.

Go away damn it… I can't have you see me weak..

My heart almost stopped as Levi's voice suddenly boomed from the other side of the door.

"Damn it brat, open the door before I kick it down"

I was about to respond by yelling at him to go away when I suddenly threw up again, stomach feeling as though there was nothing left inside to come out. I was terribly wrong.

I threw up once more, coughing and sputtering before Levi suddenly kicked down the actual fucking door.

How strong can this damn grumpy dwarf be…?

Was my last thought before I hurled once more, Petra coming to my side and rubbing my back gently.

"Shh…. Relax. Just let it all out… It's okay Eren we're here.."

I coughed violently as I shakily tried to get away from her.

"Y..you can't s..see me like t..t..this…"

I sputtered as Levi suddenly came over stomping angrily, and I automatically put my hands over my head protectively.

"Damn it Brat…"

He muttered. Shocked I opened my eyes slightly to see him looking as though he was going to cry. What happened to the tough façade? Where was the emotionless man I thought I met?

"What the hell have you been through these past years….?"

I let out a puff of air I didn't know I was holding in, as tears streamed down my face.

I tensed as he leaned down beside me, hugging tightly.

End Of Flashbacks

"Eren… Come with us we need to talk to you about something.." I opened my eyes to see Petra and Hanji in the doorway, looking grim.

"W..what is it?" I muttered softly, looking up and walking over to them groggily as I rubbed my eyes. I wasn't really in the mood for any more bad news.

"It's about Levi."

With that, my whole world came crashing down as I stood there dumbstruck.

"What about him..?"

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Heuheuheu.

Okay so this took two days to make so you're welcome. (almost said seldom..)

Anyway so my friends and I were skyping and talking about this chapter while they read it a bit and suddenly I looked back as see..

You call us sinks but then what does that make you all?

Me: '-' *SPONTANEOUSLY LAUGHS*

So I stopped writing and my friends I drew a bunch of sink related AoT shit

My bad..

But I thought I would leave with a cliffhanger though since this has a lot of flashbacks

Yeah nice going genius

Well Bye guys~