Chapter 4: My Aphrodisiac Is Not You

Dinner was a silent affair for Loki that night. Laufey wanted to bed him again. Loki was terrified. Laufey had hurt him last night and Loki wasn't looking forward to the second bedding. Midway through feasting Frigga tried to convince Laufey to dance but he politely refused stating that he wanted to preserve his energy. Loki had paled, shivered and stared in horror as Laufey grinned at him and leaned closer to kiss his cheek. Loki stood, quickly excusing himself and went to dance with Thor, to get away.

Thor led Loki gracefully around the dance floor and spoke to him in a hushed tone. "Loki, you'll be alright. You know this don't you?"

Loki wanted to cry. He wasn't alright, he would never be alright. Laufey was going to bed him again and all Thor could say was "You'll be alright."? The nerve! Thor had no idea what Loki went through! Before he could spit these hateful thoughts at Thor he saw Laufey stand and come towards them. Loki panicked and gripped Thor's biceps tightly and froze in fear.

Thor soothed him quietly and when Laufey requested that Loki return to "Their" room Thor had to let him go. Loki was pulled out of the room by Laufey and all he could do was stare at Thor over his shoulder, sadly.

In the corridor Laufey spoke to Loki.

"I know what you think Loki, you think I will bed you now." Laufey looked at him and Loki just stared at the floor as they continued to walk. "You are of course correct, but first we need to talk. I didn't appreciate the struggle last night and I will thank you to not do it again."

"Then you shouldn't give me a reason to do it." Loki murmured.

Laufey paused and looked at him again. "You know I need a male heir out of you before Jotunheim will get the Casket of Ancient Winters, therefore I must continue to mate you. We cannot miss the opportunity to get you pregnant, Loki I need you to be on the same page as I am. My people have suffered without the Casket, we need it to live, and we need you to get it. I am aware you were pure and new to this but it is in your nature to want me, as I said last night; by now we should have four babes together."

Loki felt fury bubble up inside him; he was not a play thing to be tampered with! It was not his fault that Laufey started a war which resulted in the loss of the Casket and Loki shouldn't have to pay for Laufey's mistakes! As for having four babies well Loki would make damn sure they didn't even have one. He would fight and kick and scream and curse at Laufey every night until the king gave up on trying to bed him.

That thought in mind Loki planted his feet and resisted when Laufey pulled on his arm. He glared stubbornly up at the king. Laufey looked confused and surprised, with just a touch of annoyance.

"Loki, come with me."

'Not moving.'

"Loki…"

'Scary tones will not persuade me.'

Laufey pursed his lips and huffed. He let go and turned his back on Loki. He stared out of a window for a few minutes before turning back with a mischievous little smile. "Ah I see, you think that if we don't return to your chambers we won't mate. Well I have no shame in taking you right here in the hall Loki, make your choice."

Loki decided to call his bluff and planted his feet firmer.

Laufey approached him again and stepped behind him placing large hands on Loki's hips and waist. Nibbling on his ear and down the back of his neck, making Loki shiver but he wouldn't back down from Laufey. Large fingers pulling his shirt from his trousers, those blue fingers on his skin, rubbing in smooth circles around his nipples and belly button. Loki was getting nervous; the king's fingers were steadily slipping further to caress his navel, trying to dip into Loki's trousers.

'Thank you for the belt mother!' he prayed gratefully.

The belt was undone and Loki's eyes widened when Laufey's fingers began to slip beneath his trousers.

"Stop! I'm going." Hurt pride made him pout and sound sulky.

Laufey smiled and pulled him along again. "Good to know."

They got to Loki's room to soon and he stared with trepidation at the bed, but Laufey seemed to ignore him entirely, just pulling him along towards it. Loki was lifted and placed in the centre of the bed, Laufey lay down beside him. Loki waited for Laufey to strip him like he did in Jotunheim but Laufey just lay stroking his hair peacefully.

'This must be a trap.' He thought firmly. 'But what is it about?'

"Loki I want you to tell me how you felt when I was in you last night, not emotionally, physically."

Loki hadn't really noticed anything more than pain last night, emotional and physical; he had focused on that and not tried to find any other sensations. Laufey expected an answer and by the way he tugged Loki's hair he was getting impatient. "It hurt." He said finally, Laufey scoffed quietly.

"Nonsense."

"It's true! You hurt me last night! You were wrong about everything! I didn't want more, I don't want more and I didn't like it." Loki replied heatedly, turning so his back was to Laufey.

The frost king took that as an invitation and he cuddled closer to Loki, wrapping an arm around his middle.

"You caused your own pain Loki, I told you to relax more than once; if you cannot follow a simple instruction then you will suffer." Laufey sounded frustrated. "This is natural Loki, we are natural. There is no reason why this shouldn't be good for you. I will continue to mate you and you will have to learn to like it, Frostfemme like it Loki. You are a Frostfemme, you cannot tell me you didn't enjoy it, you became wet for me."

Loki felt his lip wobble, the king blamed him for the terrible first time? As if Loki wanted it in the first place? How could he have been expected to relax and enjoy it if he didn't want it?

'I wonder if mother ever feels like I do right now.' Laufey was undressing him.

Frigga sat at her vanity table, brushing her hair for the night. Odin sat on her bed waiting for her. She didn't feel like talking to him, she was still upset with him for marrying Loki to Laufey. As his wife she had no control over him in every matter, but it was a relationship and they had been able to work through worse problems before. She went to her husband and he brought her to sit on his lap, he ran his fingers through her hair and down her back slowly. She tried to find the words to use and found she couldn't find them, to tired and sad to think of any words at all.

"You are angry with me." She looked at Odin in surprise and frowned, still no words, she nodded. He sighed and held her a little tighter. "What would you have me do? How can I soothe your distressed heart my wife?"

She pressed her face into Odin's neck to hide from the world for just a little longer. Her arms were wrapped around his neck and he put one arm under her knees to lift her and place her on the bed before he lay down beside her. She pressed back against him once he was settled and let him stroke her hair again silently.

"I just imagine Loki feeling as hopeless and worthless as I did in our first years." She whispered. Odin tightened his hold on her and pressed a kiss to her forehead.

"I see the same behaviour from him as I did from you and I realise that Loki has a long path ahead of him, but like you he must trust his husband to help him through. Loki is not alone in this, he is not the first person to be married in this way, nor is he ever going to be the last. Others have survived it and so will he." Frigga didn't respond and Odin quieted down for a few minutes again.

"I spoke with Laufey and asked that he teach Loki the ways of going about such dealings, so that it might be easier for Loki to come to terms with his new nocturnal schedule."

Frigga frowned. "He agreed?"

"Yes, he agreed to teach Loki, I believe that is why they retired early."

"So-" she looked up at Odin uncertainly. "So he will not mate with Loki again until Loki is comfortable?" her husband sighed and kissed her cheek fondly.

"Even though Loki will be learning to relax beneath Laufey and take pleasure in their activities, they must still mate afterwards. Laufey is eager for a male heir and in fact he would have four children by now if Loki had grown up on Jotunheim." Frigga frowned distastefully and hid her face again.

"This has truly brought some of your worst memories to the surface of your mind hasn't it?"

"How could it not?"

"Everything will work out, just wait and see."

Laufey was being surprisingly gentle that night; he had undressed himself and Loki and spent half an hour just kissing Loki's neck and chest.

'Suspicious.' He thought. 'He must be trying to lull me into a false sense of security. But it is rather nice to be kissed like this; it's relaxing…No! No relaxing! Stay vigilant Loki!'

Laufey nibbled up his neck to his ear and murmured softly to him. "The purpose of this is to relax you; it was working so well until a moment ago, what on Asgard is going through your mind child?"

"You're trying to trick me into this, trying to make me relax so that I can't call it what it is; rape."

Laufey laughed softly and nibbled on Loki's ear. "If you say so. I'm going to show you how your body works, where your soft spots are, where Frostfemme are most sensitive."

Nails raked down Loki's side, scratching him softly as they went to scratch at his navel. Laufey followed to kiss at the scratches as he made them. Loki had discovered that long ago, there wasn't a single thing Laufey knew that Loki didn't.

Laufey's face dipped lower and he pushed his tongue deep into Loki's vagina roughly, causing Loki to squawk in alarm and arousal. He stared at Laufey in shock as the king sniggered into one on Loki's pale thighs. The king ceased his sniggers and looked at Loki, only to resume his sniggering against Loki's belly. The prince scowled and clawed at Laufey's head, not understanding yet that it was an arousing thing to be scratched. The king bit one of the thighs and Loki hissed at him angrily.

Laufey sat up. 'I think that is quite enough teaching for one night. He is ready.'

He climbed onto Loki and positioned himself. Remembering his promise Loki began squirming, growling and kicking at Laufey furiously as the ice king gipped Loki's arms and tried to keep him still.

'Loki will not allow mating tonight.' the king realised with a scowl.

The king continued fighting back and trying his best to win without hurting Loki's frail body. Realising Loki wasn't going to surrender Laufey stopped. 'Just keep up the foreplay. He can't hold out forever, instinct won't allow him.'

He leaned down and began his placating kisses again. Loki frowned in confusion but stayed still. Laufey was scratching him in all the right places and he bit his lip to hold back any encouraging sounds from escaping. He arched his back a little when Laufey nibbled at his stomach and the king looked up at him with a smile. Loki knew the king was getting him wetter for sex but he couldn't stop his reaction to the king, he smelt right and dominant and Loki wanted that.

'A perfect mate, lots of babies from him, and a very nice co-.' Loki choked in shock. 'Where did that thought come from?! I don't want Laufey!' Before he knew it his arms were crossed over each other above his head and Laufey was between his legs, nudging at his entrance.

"Wait! Stop!" Loki had only been thinking about keeping the giant off of him, he hadn't thought about what to do when he was defenceless and about to be impaled. He couldn't get lose and he was panicked, he begged the king to stop and he tried to squirm away from him without any luck.

"Loki, stop. Shhh relax like I told you, just remember it's natural, you're ready Loki. It will only hurt if you are too tense."

"No no no please stop. Please let go. It's too big, it'll hurt no matter what, please stop!"

Loki's hysterical voice made Laufey force himself to stop. He was getting irritated with Loki now, the boy was being unnatural, this was good for him. It was frustration that made Laufey switch their positions so that he was on his back and Loki was sitting on top of him.

"Look Loki. Look at my body properly, come to terms with my length and get over it so that we can continue." He snapped.

The boy winced and pouted sadly, but he did look at Laufey's form as he was told to. Laufey was muscled and handsome for a frost giant; Loki had no qualms about that.

He did however have a few arguments about the erection against the king's stomach. It was huge, Loki was sure he would need nine hands to wrap around it. Loki could see creamy precum on the tip, it dripped onto Laufey's stomach so Loki scooped it off his stomach, no need to make the giant think Loki wanted to touch him. It felt like raw egg white and smelt salty, Loki wrinkled his nose a bit and wiped his hand on the blanket.

Laufey was watching him, and when Loki stopped touching sniffing and frowning at his body he spoke.

"You see? Nothing to fear. It is just an erection, which you were made to take inside of your body."

Loki shook his head and quietly responded. "It's too big."

Laufey sighed. He just wanted to mate and go to sleep, why was Loki making this so difficult? Inspiration struck Laufey suddenly and he looked into Loki's eyes. "If I stretch you and use oil and I swear to be gentle will you mate with me?"

Loki's eyebrows rose in surprise and then dropped in a suspicious frown. "I have no ill will towards you Loki, I simply want to mate and go to sleep. Lie back and let me work you open?"

'Cute how he nibbles his lips.'

Loki lay back down on the bed and Laufey came between his legs, before Laufey could touch Loki his bride spoke.

"I won't mate with you." Laufey felt his face flush and he gave up entirely.

Huffing he moved and lay down on the other side of the bed with his back to Loki. Loki was surprised, it had worked! Laufey got so tired of fighting with him that he just surrendered.

'Laufey won't touch me again.' Loki filed the nights events away for future use and went to sleep.

Frigga woke to a sound in her living area, sobbing?

'Loki' she thought with icy dread filling her stomach. She got up and rushed out to find it was indeed Loki hiding in her living room.

"What happened?" she wrapped him up in her arms.

Loki thought he had gotten away with not mating but unknown to him Laufey had lain awake, waiting for Loki to sleep. When he heard his brides breath even out he rose from the bed and went to a small bag of herbs he had brought with him from Jotunheim.

Inside he looked for a special jar which held a cream, one with aphrodisiac properties. He brought it to the bed and looked at Loki silently; he lay back down on the bed and waited for dawn.

While he waited he watched Loki's peaceful face and listened to his even breathing.

'You are so beautiful Loki, I wish you wouldn't force my hand…perhaps I should just let it go for one night…no he would never take me seriously again if I give in to his will so soon in our relationship.' Laufey sighed and ran a hand across his face, rubbing his eyes tiredly.

He didn't want to do this to Loki but he had to. Laufey had a reason in favour of mating at least, Loki had nothing in favour of not mating. They boy was just frightened and probably very angry at his parents and Laufey.

'Well I suppose I would feel awful if my parents forced me to mate with some strange frost giant after telling me I'm adopted and the queen of another realm.' Laufey scoffed and shook his head.

He looked at Loki and opened himself to the other male and watched his dreams fly by. Loki had a very interesting dream in progress, he dreamt of snow and blood and a wailing child. He dreamt of his own death delivering this child. Laufey shivered, disturbed by Loki's dream he shook himself and withdrew for his brides thoughts.

'That decides my next move…' the king thought sadly as dawn neared.

Near to dawn Laufey carefully applied the cream to Loki's lips; the boy would inhale the scent and hopefully begin to react favourably to Laufey. Not five minutes later Loki had rolled onto his stomach and was whimpering and rubbing himself on the bed below.

The cream had started a wet dream, Loki was aroused and so was Laufey. The boy's body was relaxed in sleep and Laufey turned him over gently. Climbing on top of him and fingering him to make sure he was ready. Loki was stirring when Laufey pressed into him and started mating with him. Laufey was slow and used firm pressure as he thrust in and out of Loki. Loki wasn't fully awake and thought he was dreaming, he hadn't opened his eyes yet.

Laufey kissed Loki on the neck, and whispered in his ear. "You are so good Loki, such a good boy. That's it relax, enjoy this. I know you enjoy this, you're getting wetter for me."

Loki frowned and opened his eyes finally more awake. "What are you doing? Stop it!" he moaned, barely getting the words out as Laufey changed angles to strike Loki's sweet spot.

Laufey licked Loki's lips and then plunged his tongue into Loki's mouth, trying to get the aphrodisiac in. Loki noticed the strange taste and he stared in horror as he realised what Laufey had done. Unfortunately his heavy breathing only brought more of the scent into his system.

He moaned and scratched Laufey hard, his body feeling sensitive and eager.

"That's it Loki, feel it, embrace it, relax…." Laufey gasped into the younger male's ear as he felt Loki's muscles contract around his member.

Loki struggled to stop himself but every nerve seemed to be on fire. He arched up against every thrust and drove his hips down towards Laufey's. It felt good, Loki groaned loudly as he felt the pressure build, Laufey was thrusting faster now with less coordination. Loki panted beneath him and whined, his nails scraping Laufey's arms.

Loki groaned once more when Laufey wrapped his hand around Loki's erection and coaxed Loki's release out. Laufey slammed in deeper one last time and gave his seed to Loki's rushing flow, murmuring a prayer that it would take this time.

Loki lay still and frozen beneath Laufey, he raised his head to look at his brides face, wincing internally at the silent fear and horror he found there.

"Loki-"

"You raped me."

"Loki I had to, we need to have this baby, if you had cooperated earlier I wouldn't have needed to do this."

SLAP

"How dare you blame me for your sick perversions!? I told you I don't want you and you ignored me and pursued your own pleasure! Poisoned me with an aphrodisiac!"

"Loki-"

"I don't want to talk to you! I want my mother."

Loki ran out before Laufey could grab him and he sighed knowing he would face the queens wrath. He had to speak with Odin, before the queen did.

That is what Loki told Frigga, by the end of his broken explanation she was ready to spit fire at the Jotun king.

"Come Loki, put on this robe and we will go see your father!"

"Mother wait! What if father won't help? He wants this just as much as Laufey does." Loki looked so sad and Frigga felt her resolve harden.

"I will rip off his leg and beat him with it."