A/N: Hey everyone, sorry I didn't upload last week I stayed at a hotel with my friend around the time I usually upload. Also, this Saturday I'm leaving on a trip to Alaska to visit my sister-in-law and brother who is in the Army. I will be there for two weeks so I probably wont update while I'm there because ill be busy spending time with them so I just wanted to warn you, not that anyone has been begging for me to update but I'm just letting you know. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter and let me know what you think. I love reviews, they keep me going! I'm also sorry for any mistakes I made, I didn't really have time to go over it that well so I could have messed up But anyways, enjoy!
The rest of the period was pretty Awkward, trying to ignore the unwelcomed woman. Chloe felt really tense, she could also feel Beca getting tense. The rest of class went by really slow, with Beca gripping Chloe's chair like it was a lifeline. Chloe attempted to grab Beca's hand to calm her down but when she did, she flinched it away. Chloe was hurt that Beca reacted that way and she knows its only because her mind is going into overdrive with Heather's presence, but it still hurt.
When the bell rang, Beca was packing up her things as quickly as possible, trying to avoid Heather at all cost's. The brunette hurried out of the room before Chloe could even say anything, Jesse gave her an apologetic look. He understood why his cousin was acting this way and felt bad for Chloe who was only trying to help, but that girl damaged her good and knew she needed alone time to process this.
"Listen Chloe, there's a lot that happened with them and she is overwhelmed and upset. Just give her some time and she'll come around. She cares so much about you, don't be upset. That girl hurt her bad and it took her a while to recover, don't give up on her."
"I wish I understood but she has never told me about what happened. It kills me that she was hurt in the past, if I could take away the pain, I would. I'm not giving up on her, I wont but how can I help her when she wont talk to me?"
"Just give her time. Maybe call he later and see how she's doing."
"I'll see her seventh period, ill talk to her then."
"Yeah." Jesse started "I don't think so." Chloe was confused.
"What do you mean? We have Anatomy together, she sits with me, ill try and talk to her."
"When Beca gets upset, she usually goes to the office to cool down. The vice principal, Mrs. Baker is pretty close with Beca. Whenever she is mad or needs someone to talk too, she goes to her and she lets Beca sit there and calm down. Usually she doesn't talk she just sits there for a while in her own head."
"Wow, how do you know all that?"
"Sometimes she requests me out of class to come down and talk to her and I end up sitting there for as long as she wants."
"So, she doesn't talk to you either?"
"Oh no, she usually does, just not all the time."
"I'm so worried about her. I need to see her."
"Like I said, just give her a little and she'll come to you, don't worry."
"Thanks Jesse." Chloe offered him a hug and he graciously accepted it. Before she walked away she turned to Jesse and said one last thing.
"If you see her, tell her I'm not going anywhere and I'll be waiting to talk when she's ready. Jesse smiled and gave her a nod.
When she got to seventh period later that day, she waited to see if the brunette would show up and to Jesse's prediction, she didn't. she waited to see if maybe she would come back later into the period but again, she didn't show up. Chloe had left her text messages and called her but she got no answer. She was getting upset and more worried than she already was. She didn't want Beca to ever feel the pain Heather caused her again and with her resurfacing, she was reliving her horrible past.
When Chloe got home she did some homework, checked in with Aubrey and some of the others but she kept thinking about Beca and how she was. It had been five hours since she has seen or heard from the brunette and she couldn't take it any longer. Close to seven o'clock, she grabbed her keys and went to Beca's. When Chloe arrived at her house, she could see the light coming from Beca's room since it was located in the front of the house. She knew her parents weren't home yet because she didn't see their car in the driveway, so Beca was alone and upset.
Chloe rang the doorbell and waited. After a minute of nobody answering, she rang again. Beca didn't seem to come to the door but she noticed her window open. She ran over to wear it was located and yelled up at her.
"Beca open up, I know you're in there I can hear music." Still with no answer she decided to text her.
"Baby please, I'm dying worrying about you. Please open the door."
Chloe was about to get really comfortable waiting outside her front door for Beca to come out when the door opened and the brunette revealed herself. Chloe launched herself into Beca's arms and held on tight. It took Beca a few seconds but she wrapped her arms around Chloe and pulled her in. When they broke apart, Chloe looked at her so scared and sad.
"Beca, I'm so worried about you, I've been thinking about you all day. Why didn't you answer my calls or text's? and where did you go seventh period? Did I do something wrong? Are you mad at me? Cause I'm sor- "
She was cut off by the brunette grabbing her and pulling her back in for a bone crushing hug. She held her for a while, stroking her hair. When she let go she motioned for her to come upstairs. As then ascended the stairs, hand in hand, they got into Beca's room and sat down on the bed. After not saying anything since third period, the brunette spoke up.
"I am so sorry Chloe, I just needed some time. I was so mad she had the audacity to return here after what she put me through and how she treated other people. I use to think that girl was so sweet and caring but she's none of those things. She starts off by being this "Innocent" (putting air quotes around the word innocent) girl but then she flips the script and turns into this monster who says nothing but hurtful things and to not just me but people around her. I don't want you exposed to her or anything hurtful she might say. I wasn't ready to open up because that's hard for me. I've only done that with a limited amount of people. Jesse mostly but its not something that comes easy to me so I just need you to be patient and eventually ill come around." Chloe stroked Beca's cheek and grabbed her hands.
"Beca, I completely understand where you're coming from. It just hurt me how you pulled away and walked out on me." Beca's eyes started to get teary and she looked down at her lap where their hands lied. "Do you know how that makes me feel? Hurt, very hurt. I am one person you can trust, believe me when I say I'm not going anywhere and I want to be there for you and help you with your problems and nightmares." She lifted up Beca's chin to look into her eyes. "Nothing you went through in your past can scare me away. I'm here for the long run. For this relationship to work you have to trust me."
"I do trust you." Beca cut her off.
"Do you? Because it didn't seem like that when you ran away from me instead of telling me what's up."
"We were in school! I didn't want to go into detail right then and there and like I said I was overwhelmed, I needed time on my own and I feel like such an asshole for leaving you like that believe me, when I got to the office I kicked myself for not telling you anything. But believe me now when I say I wont so that again. I never thought I would have to really say anything because she wasn't here anymore and I could leave the past in the past but apparently she just had to come back and fuck everything up."
"Hey" Chloe started in a calming matter. "She didn't fuck anything up, I'm here and ready to listen."
"I don't know if I'm ready to- "
"Beca, please." The brunette looked into those gorgeous baby blue eyes of hers filled with nothing but concern and something else Beca couldn't quite distinguish but she liked it. It made her feel calm and at home and she was ready to open up to her girlfriend, she blew out a breath and began.
"It all started the summer before eighth grade. I met Heather at a birthday party for my friend. At first, I looked at her and thought, wow this girl is pretty, I feel like we could get along really well, not thinking anything of it. I went along with the party and we talked briefly, I don't remember what about but then when school started she was in my sixth period math class. Class already started the first day with everyone talking while I was writing something in my notebook. I heard heals walking up my isle where I was sitting and looked up and there she was. I smiled at her and I she said 'hey I know you from that party' and then we just got to talking, still not thinking anything of it. After about two weeks I knew I liked her and then over time it just became abundantly clear to me I really liked her. Eventually she reciprocated those same feelings and we just started going out. It was great at first, I was happy, she was all I thought about. We use to walk together to classes, her fifth period was right across from mine so I would wait for her after and we would walk to math together. Then as time went on she became nasty, she said the meanest things to me and judged me constantly. I became ashamed of myself, I didn't want to be near her but at the same time I craved her. I craved her attention, her love, her scent, her presence. It dawned on me how unhealthy this relationship was, she was hurtful and didn't give a shit about me and it pissed me off. She wasn't all in it, she was sleeping with other asshole's and didn't even think twice about me. She was gone for a while and I wouldn't see her, then she would get mad at me for not talking to her or talking to other girls." The tears started to stream down Beca's face and Chloe just pulled her in tighter.
"She would say the absolute worst things to me, I don't even want to repeat them. She would get mad at me for wondering where she's been, being so hypocritical when she would do the same thing. Sometimes she would get so mad she would throw me into a wall and scream in my face or worse, she would hit me and throw things at me. I have a scar to prove the harm she has caused on me." Chloe was now forced to tears.
"Until one day, I gave up. I ended it and she didn't like that, she was always there and would always find me. Spread rumors about me about how 'I was such a freak and was obsessed with her and would always be there when she would try to get away from me'. She made me look like a fool, an idiot who needed therapy or something when all I was, was a girl who cared and wanted to be loved, I thought I was in love but I was wrong, that wasn't love. Love wouldn't treat you that way and I regret ever talking to her and perusing her. She destroyed me. I haven't talked or dated anyone since. She ruined other girls for me, I could never trust or feel for anyone like that again. I am so mad I gave her my heart, she broke it. She threw it around like it was nothing and she truly never cared, it was all just a game for her. I'm done with her and will always be done with her, in any aspect whether it be talking to her, looking at her or just giving her the time of day. It was the best news when I heard she was moving the summer before freshman year and when I started high school, she was gone and I was thrilled. I never gave anyone a chance and honestly, I regret it, feel bad I pushed away some good people that were nothing but good to me and now I they probably think I'm damaged goods but it is what it is. I built back up my reputation over the years, just focusing on me. Now everything is good and I have pretty great friends in my life and people respect me, I'm doing alright. Then I meet you. I didn't know what it was about you but I couldn't get enough, I wanted to know more about you and when I was done talking to you, it left me with this feel good feeling. You know, like when you leave a good movie or something and you say wow, that was good and it gets you thinking. You felt like that to me, and I wanted more. I'm not good at explaining myself or my feelings so I hope that makes sense but boy am I glad I met you. You m'lady, are so special to me, you are a bright light. You are so genuine and you make me want to be a better person. You are absolutely beautiful and I am so lucky that you came into my life and helped me realize, there are great people in the world and people that can make you happy, you just have to be patient and the right person will come along, you are the right person for me, Chloe and I'm so grateful you're here and putting up with me right now and this might be a lot to process but I hope you understood where I was coming from and will still stick by me because I don't think I can handle losing you at this point."
Chloe was in awe; she was absolutely livid at how Heather treated her. Beca didn't deserve any of it and she is deeply hurt that someone would be that cold and do things like that to such a beautiful person like Beca Mitchell. Chloe wants to hold her, kiss the pain away and promise nothing like that will ever happen to her again because she's with Chloe now and Chloe will cherish her until she day she die's or doesn't want her anymore which she can't even imagine with how in deep she is with the brunette. She loves Beca. She was in love with Beca and she couldn't take losing her. She wants to show Beca how loved she is, how special she is, how nobody will ever love her like Chloe can.
"Beca, I am so sorry. It makes me sick she treated you like that. You are worth so much more than what she made you believe you were. You are everything. Everything to me, to Jesse, to your friends and parents. You are one of the best people I've ever met. Your kindness, your intelligence, your loving personality is what makes you one of a kind and I can't imagine being with anyone else. You say I'm special to you but you are so much more special to me and who needs Heather or any of the other asshole's when you've got people who love you and care about you for who you are. I am so happy you decided to tell me to not write in colored ink that first day in Anatomy because then it wouldn't have led to this, us. I promise you Beca I will treat you right, I will make you feel loved everyday for as long as you'll let me because… I-I love you, Beca."
Beca was in tears for Chloe's entire speech. Nobody has ever treated her like Chloe has, nobody had ever made her feel like she's worth something other than Chloe. I know she puts on this badass persona but deep down she had insecurities and fears just like everyone else and Chloe is making that all go away with her beautiful words and kind heart. She told Beca she loved her and it was music to her ears, she has ever wanted, needed to hear something so bad from anyone before she she is so happy they found each other because Beca is completely head over heals in love with Chloe Beale and there's something about this beautiful redheaded woman that makes her not afraid at all. Beca jumped into Chloe's arms, tears still streaming down her face, returning the four worded phrase that Chloe was scared she wasn't gonna hear back.
"I love you too."