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Emma POV
The rest of the day was trying to dodge Julian till dinner. When she walked in Julian gave her this look that she had never seen on him before, like an emptiness that she had only seen after the dark wars on people who had seen their family, there very reason for living taken away from them. His sea blue green eyes looked darker to her, like the light that shone through them was turned off. Emma sat down as Mark came in smiled at Emma, and then sat down next to her. Then Ty and Livvy came in, announcing that "the pizza's here".
Julian was passing out the plates when Christian and Diego came in, before Christina said,
"Hi guys we need to talk to you." Everyone look up from the pizza, "Well Diego and I are leaving in two days for Mexico and we staying for a few weeks and then I'm coming back." Dru was first to speak,
"And what about Diego? Please tell me perfect Diego's coming back I don't think I could go on if he didn't." Emma had to stifle a laugh. "Dru." Diego explained almost like a 5 year old who was being told bad news "I'm sorry I can't the Scholomance need me I only just managed to get the few weeks in Mexico." Dru look like she was a puppy that had just been kicked, before Diego and Christian sat down and began answering questions about the trip.
Everyone was still asking questions about the trip, so they didn't see Julian take the first slice of the pizza. He looked with a cheeky smile, and it was almost like the light was back in his eyes, but then he glanced at Mark and his eyes returned to darkness.
"I didn't think I would miss Nightshade's pizzas so much, and if I did might not have got him in trouble," Julian said mournfully. Everyone looked at Julian, and then started scrabbling for the box – well, everyone but Diego who was still not used to way the institute did take-out food - every man for himself. Emma was reaching for a slice when she noticed Julian slipping towards the door. Emma sat there her inside ripping apart - she just wanted to rush after Julian, and watching Julian leave, seeing the emptiness in his eyes, it was like when she held the mortal sword, but just instead of hooks in her skins it was hooks in her heart but each one worse than the pain from holding the mortal sword ever was.
Everything around her was like white noise, until Mark grabbed her hand and gave her a quick squeeze and said "Emma you ok?" Emma looked from the door to Mark "Yeah sorry I was thinking about missing Christina." As the meal went on there were questions about Mexico and then are me and Mark together. For a guy who has spent the last few years being unable to lie held his own even Dru was believed him when Emma told her 'remember he cannot lie at all'. Then it just dawned on her she in a real relationship, not like with Cameron he was more like a teen relationship unlike Mark where she could have a future, kids and everything and even Julian - she could still be there for her family.

Julian POV
As Julian walked away from the kitchen he felt Emma's eyes follow him until the door closed between them. Julian stood in the hall way - left to his room and his studio, or right to the main door then the Toyota then the open road or maybe just a bar. Julian stood there for a few seconds then he rushed to the right and as Julian burst out into the fresh air it felt like his heart eased just a bit. Julian jumped in to the Toyota and shot out of the Institute parking area.
As Julian pulled the car up outside a bar - not a mortal bar but a shadow bar run by warlocks. It looked like a normal run down building outside but it was pretty nice inside from what he recalled from his one and only visit with Emma who last year dragged him out to bar each year on the day of her parents death since they were 14.

When he walked in it was completely different because last time it was a like a nightclub with a dance floor and bright lights but as Julian walked in it was a biker bar, and as he looked around he saw a biker gang and all the member were wolves, there were about 25 or so on a few tables at the back of the bar, and he could tell quite a few of them where young and looking for fight, they were eyeing up the vampire at the bar or milling around. There were maybe 15 or so and all looking hungry. As Julian stepped up to the bar a young looking vampire who looked maybe 15 but who knows by this point he could hundreds of years old. "What are you doing here Shadowhunter?" he snarled, like it was the most horrible word to call him, but Julian just pushed past him to the bar.

"Anything that isn't going to transform me into anything and it has to be strong," he asked the fairy bartender, who had porcelain skin and stark black hair, and he could tell just by the slight of pointed ears that she was less than Mark or Helens maybe fourth or fifth generation down, the ears made him doubt she was full fairy and since the warlock couple that owns the place wouldn't be stupid enough to hire a full fairy with the cold peace law in place but they still need mundanes that see through the mist and Faerie related people make up 80% of them, so wolf, warlocks, and vampire and the few shadowhunter families that still have people with the sight work for them all fought, since most of them didn't know about their Heritages they should not be any law against them and most agreed.

As the lady put a shot in front of him, some sort of cloudy pink drink. As he looked back up at the woman, "A few of my friends know I'm here, if I change into anything else let just say it will be a hell of a more pleasant for me then you." He warned. "You're not a mundane, wolf or vampire are you?" She asked with a smile "Shadowhunter, why?" he asked, truly amazed the she could tell, but then he looked down - long jumper hand in pocket so all runes covered. "Never mind." he said looking back up. She give him a knowing smile. "So why can I drink this?" "Well mundane don't get effected, wolves get stuck as well wolves for about a week. Vamps turn to a rat or bat for a week but shadowhunters, from that one girl who comes in normally with a redhead boy who is always telling her to slow down, but last time the girl seem to like it." At the mention of Emma he felt like hitting something, and mentioning Cameron just made it worse.

He bought the shot straight up, downed it quickly and then hit it down so hard it broke the glass, and then he looked up as she gives him a smile.
"Ex or something?" she asked, curious. "Something." "What does that mean?" "She is my parabatai." he said, a bit longingly. "Wait don't tell me Jules right." Julian felt a bit taken aback by it. "Yeah how do you know that?" "Blondie normally mention you after few." "Oh" "She really did a number on you didn't she."
"Look I didn't come to here to talk about my problems just to drink." She gave an apologetic smile, and then left him to it.

A few seconds' later three wolves were walking over to the bar, but stopped when one of the vampires wandered towards the door with mundane on his arm. One of the younger wolves swung for the vampire and knocked him on his ass, and as the vampire jumped up the wolf did the same. Julian reach for his weapons 'shit' he thought as he came back with just a short dagger - he had left everything in the institute, and although there were weapons in the car boot, by the time he got back who knows what would be happening. As he turned back to see, a girl had a silver blade in one hand and a stake with a cross on it, but when she saw Julian passed him both. Then a girl and two men came out from behind the bar, with the similar weapons.

All the mundanes ran for the exit as Julian and the other 3 bartenders got between the two groups pointing each group there respected weakness.
"Look I have trouble of the heart at the moment so I can cut you all up and go back to my drink or both of your groups can sit your ass down and get along or one or both of you leave ok" Julian ordered, getting more and more annoyed. The wolf look back and forth, like a silent argument was going on. Then the oldest wolf, who seemed to be in his late 40's or early 50's nodded. "Look," he said, "unlike the younger ones here I don't want to fight. I know vampires and werewolves can get along, just look at New York, their clan leaders' work together." Then a vampire that looked about 25 stepped forward "We are going to sit on this side of the bar and you sit this side of the bar and we then don't fight." The boy and old man nodded as the respective people go to their sides, with moans and arguments from the others in their groups.

Julian walked back to the bar as woman leant over, "Thanks Jules for that, it normally ends with a fight, and maybe a death or two." She leaned over the bar and kissed him which prompted a set of catcalls from the wolves. As she pulled back, a blush spread across her cheeks. "Do you always kiss guys you just meet and who don't even know your name?" Julian asked, smirking "Only the ones who are cute," she replied with a smile, "And the name's Zoe." "Zoe it is lovely to meet you and the name is Julian not Jules." "Well Julian not Jules I am meant to get off get in two hours," she leaned over and kissed him again, which got a second catcall. "I don't mind waiting, what time do you finish?"

Julian pulled up his jacket to look at his watch, which was a solid peace of adamas with a peace of reinforced glass. He never went out without it, and of course it was a gift from Emma. A gift from Emma 4 years ago on his birthday, when Emma had kept having a go at him about being late to practice, and about millions other things. It was his second birthday after the dark war, and because the first was only a month or two after the war he had not had any celebrations, he had not received any presents. The next year was different, everyone had got a proper birthday since then, and so Emma and Livvy were not letting him get off the hook that year. Emma told me the day after my birthday that she had called up Clary to see if she could find anything more along the lines of a sport watch or something, and that Clary and Jace were going to come to the party with the present. At the time Julian remembered that he felt kind of upset that Emma had not got him a present, until Clary and Jace jumped though the portal, covered in ichor and dirt.

"Sorry we're late." Jace said as he landed. Then Emma rushed up to Clary "Do you have it?" Emma asked. Clary pulled out a box,
"Yeah but it's not what you had in mind." "Why?" "Well I was looking for something like that for Jace, and Isabelle suggested a adamas watch." "What you can't be serious." Emma asked in awe. "Well when a hero of the dark war asks for two adamas watches they get two adamas watches." Emma gave Clary a huge hug as Jace came over to me, "Happy birthday mate," Jace said with a grin before making small talk until Emma pulled him away. "I know you think I didn't get you anything but I did," she said, as she brought out a box before opening it to reveal the silvery white metal gleaming, as Emma brought the watch out of the box. "You can't say you don't know what the time is now," she had said with a huge grin. He remembered her smile now, in the bar.
Julian looked back up at Zoe who was giving him a quizzical look.

"You ok?" Julian asked "I was going to ask you the same." Zoe replied. "Yeah I'm ok why?" "You had a strange look." "Sorry the watch was a gift from someone close to me I was just remembering the day they gave it to me," he explained with a with a slight smile at the memory of that day. "I get it, and like I said I get off at 10." "Which ones is your boss?" Julian asked. "That one other end of the bar why?" Without answering he walked to the end of the bar, and asked
"Are you Zoe's boss?" "Yeah why?" "Well business is light, the wolves and vamps are quiet, so I was hoping you would let her finish her early." "I can't do that I need all hands on deck in case the wolves and vamps start fighting again," the boss explained "What if I can promise no wolf vamp shit for a while?" Julian asked, as he could tell this would get his attention. "And how would you do that?" Zoe's boss said, mockingly. Without answering he turned.

"You and you front and centre." He shouted to the 20 year old vampire and the 40 year old wolf step forward. "Meeting tomorrow just after dusk and I want you," he said pointing to the wolf, "to get in touch with other pack leader them and their lieutenants."
"Wait what?" The man asked quizzically. "I know there are 3 main wolf packs, and I want their leader and lieutenants at the sanctuary and you," He said pointing to the vampire, "I want your clan leader and their 2 most trusted advisors of the clan, and then we are going to have a little meeting and one more thing I am going to give that guy my number." He said pointing to the bar manager. "And if he calls me saying there was a fight I will be back, and chop both of you up. I better see you tomorrow or else," and with that Julian walked back to the bar.

"Hey they said they will not fight tonight there's a meeting tomorrow between the wolves and vamps, so can Zoe finish now?"
"I guess this once." Julian scribbled his number down on a napkin. "Call me if they start." He passed him the napkin. Then Julian walked over to Zoe. "Your shift is over." "Really." "Yeah." "Ok then be out in 5." Zoe said, going to a door. Julian took a seat at the bar. As Zoe came out the room he asked, "You ready to go?" Julian asked as she reached him, and in response she kissed him. Julian lead her to the Toyota "So your place or mine?" She asked "Mine is not the most welcoming to outsiders." "Yeah I didn't think."

As Julian pulled up outside her apartment, he got out the car for just a moment of decision between going up or going home, but then Zoe grabbed his hand, pulling him toward the door away from Emma, and the weight on his heart pushed down harder, for just a second, nearly killing him, and it then it was almost gone for a second of pure bliss.