Hey guys Everlark2004 here and I'm in a bad mood because JOSH HUTCHERSON DID NOT WIN THE BEST ACTOR FOR SCI-FI FANTASY TEEN CHOICE AWARD AND HE SHOULD HAVE!. Oh spoilers btw ;). but anyway, enjoy! ( oh and there will be many more opportunities for josh to win so I'm not too disappointed )

I wake up from nightmare, crying and drenched in sweat. It was about Peeta, in the second games. I lost him.

Tears drip onto the sheets. I wipe my eyes and try to calm down. But I can't, it seemed too real. I need him. I pull on a robe and rush to Peeta's house.

I loudly knock on his door. It takes a minute or two before he answers.

"Katniss?" he asks in sleepy voice.

"I'm sorry it's just, I had a nightmare, and I couldn't calm down, can….can you stay with me? Please" I beg.

Peeta nods.

"Yeah,...always".

He follows me to my house and into my room. We both climb into bed. He wraps his arms around me and I snuggle into him.

"Thank you" I say drifting off to sleep.

"Of course" He says.

"Can you tell me what it was about?" He asks.

"Yeah, It was in the quarter quell, and I lost you" I reply.

"Oh". "But it's okay now that I realize that you're here and safe".

I look at him, the room is dark but I can see a smile painted on his face. From the comfort of Peeta's embrace I fall into a peaceful slumber.

The sun shines brightly over the bright green meadow. Me and Prim dash through the grass to the field of wildflowers. We both pick bouquets of colorful flowers. I make her a flower crown out of dandelions and daisies. I place it on her head. She smiles happily. She makes me a matching one. We both share bright smiles.

Prim goes back to searching for more wildflowers.

"Look Katniss, a wishing flower" she was holding up a dandelion.

"Make a wish!" she exclaims.

I make a wish and blow on the the flowers. The little seeds glide with the wind and they spread across the meadow.

"What did you wish for?" Prim asks.

"Well if I told you that it wouldn't come true" I reply.

"Oh come on, please tell me" she squeals.

"Ok, I wished that we would always be safe from harm" I tell her.

"Awwww" she says.

"Here, you make a wish" I say holding up another dandelion.

She quickly blows all the seeds off the flower.

"What did you wish for?" I ask.

"There's nothing I really want, I have all I need, The best big sister in the world" She exclaims.

I grin ear to ear. "And I have the best little sister ever".

Soft sunlight seeps through the window, filling the room with light. I look over to see that Peeta is not beside me. I crawl out of bed and go downstairs. He is not in the kitchen.

"Peeta!" I call.

No answer. I look out the front window to see that the door to his house is wide open. I rush to his house. Inside it's dark and all the window are closed.

"Peeta" I call softly.

I walk around the house. I find him in a tiny room upstairs. He has his face cupped in his hands and he's quietly whispering to himself.

"Peeta" I say calmly.

His eyes fall on me. But they're not exactly his eyes. Instead of blue their black. I slowly back up. I can tell he's trying to fight an episode.

"Go katniss, run, I can't fight it!" he yells.

He sounds terrified. Without thinking I rush downstairs and out of his house. I close the front door behind me. I fall to the ground and let out a deep sigh. I can't help feeling that this is my fault. A tear escapes my eye. I wrap my arms around my legs and bury my face between my knees.

It is all my fault. I should have never let them separate us. I should have never agreed to be the mockingjay. None have this would have happen. Peeta would be the same boy he was before Snow got him. More tears escape my eyes. I hear a faint meow. I look up to see buttercup. I reach out my hand and he rubs it. I pick him up and place him in my lap. He purrs as I pet him. I start to cry.

"I should have stayed to help him" I say. He was here to help me when I needed it.

Peeta's Pov

"It's not real, it's not real" I whisper to myself trying to fight back a flashback.

Fake shiny memories play in my mind. I can feel the venom trying to take over me. She's a mutt I think to myself.

"No!" I yell.

I realize I can't fight it.

"She's a mutt! She tried to kill me!" I scream.

I push over a vase. It falls to the ground and shatters.

"I could never love her, no one could!".

I pick up a lamp and send it flying across the room. It crashes into a wall and dents it.

I snap back into reality once I see what I have done. Shattered glass covers the floor and there's a huge dent in the wall.

"What have I become?" I ask myself. Tears sting my eyes. "I'm a monster, I'm a mutt" I cry.

I'm not the same boy I used to be. I hug my legs to my chest and bury my face in between my legs. I will never be the same boy I used to be.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter, I know it was a tiny bit emotional but the chapters will get happier I promise. please please please review. I feel like you guys are not liking this story so pls review. Now excuse me while I go get my self a dounghhut and get back to watching the TCA. Loaf you all- everlark2004