Hey guys everlark2004 here, and I have a longer authors note. So I realized I haven't been getting that many reviews on this story. I mostly get two per chapter by the same people. I don't mean to be whiney but I work so hard on these chapters for you guys and I feel like you don't like my story. Reviews are what help motivate me to keep writing the story, I write the story for you guys. If you don't like the story then I won't continue it. These chapters take me two to three hours to write and I don't get much feedback. Now on a more positive note, I just want to say I wrote this chapter today for you guys since I haven't updated in a long time, so please enjoy

katniss pov

I wake up another day without Peeta beside me. I have decided to leave him alone for now.

I decide to work on the book of my lost loved ones. I haven't had the courage to make prim's page yet but will someday. I work on Rue's page. I write everything I remember about her down. Her big dark eyes, how she would hop from tree to tree like a mockingjay. I realize I don't have a picture of Rue.

Peeta.

I want to ask him to help me but I want to help him heal. I gaze out the front window at his house. The page won't look as good without a picture or drawing. Maybe drawing will help Peeta feel better. I grab my book and pens and rush to Peeta's house.

When I knock on his door it takes him a minute to answer.

"Katniss?".

Peeta has dark circles under his eyes, it looks like he hasn't slept in days.

"Oh, Peeta have you gotten any sleep?" I ask.

He shakes his head no.

"Why?" I ask coming into his house.

"I keep getting flashbacks and nightmares" He answers.

"You should have told me" I say.

"I didn't want to bother you, and I thought I might of hurt you".

I wrap my arms around his neck. His arms soon embrace me.

"Peeta you won't bother me" I tell him.

"Katniss, I'm a mutt" He says with hurt in his voice.

"No you are not, don't you dare think that!" I say firmly taking his face in my hands.

Tears appear in his eyes. I sit him on the couch. I finally see how hurt he his. Snow broke him. I sit down beside him and pull him closer. He starts to cry. Tears well up in my eyes as well. We just sit and weep together.

"Katniss please go, I'm a burden" He says.

"You are not" I tell him.

"Please, I don't want to cause you any suffering" he begs.

"But you don't" I reply.

He goes to say something else but I silence him with a kiss. He's shocked at first but then he returns it. I start to feel the feeling I felt when we kissed in the cave and on the beach. We soon break apart.

"Stop blaming yourself, this wasn't your fault" I say.

He nods.

"Now I need your help" I say pulling out the book. I flip it to Rue's page.

"Can you draw rue for me please" I ask. "

Yeah sure" he says.

He thinks a little bit and then gets to work. My head rests on his shoulder while he draws Rue. He has taken on the same concentrated face he does when he draws. When he finishes he shows the picture. It looks a lot like Rue, he even captured how she would hop from tree to tree.

"It's beautiful Peeta" I turns to the page with Primrose written on it.

"Why haven't you made Prim's page yet" he asks.

"It's too painful and I dont have the courage" I reply sadly.

"I will help you finish it if you want, maybe it will help you feel better".

I sigh. "I guess".

Peeta hands the book and pen to me. I think of all the wonderful things about Prim and write them down. How she cared for that awful cat buttercup, how sweet she was. When I'm done I run to my house and grab a picture of her. Peeta glues it to the page and draws an evening Primrose.

"Thank you Peeta" I say.

"For what?".

"For helping me" I reply.

"I think we helped each other" he tells me.

I nod. We do help each other. When either one of us breaks down, the other one is there to build them back up. That's why I need Peeta. He's the only one who can comfort me now.

"Peeta will you stay with me?"

I hope you liked this chapter, and please remember what I said about reviews. Feedback is greatly appreciated. I will start to update sooner cause the story is getting more easier to write, I will be giving shout outs to all the people who review this chapter. loaf you all -everlark2004