A/N: Let's call this one...an experiment. I've been doing a lot of that lately. Have you noticed?
This is for Amber and Gamma's Femslash Project, because the world needs more ladylove.
Also, dedicated to mah wifey, Amberita, because...just because.
Pairing: Alice Longbottom/Bellatrix Lestrange
Prompt: 37. Bet
when love (love, love, second love) storms into my life like a hurricane of carelessness and destroys everything i have built up, i want to know that you are true - before i fall.
(too far, too fast, i've already fallen for – )
that you are honest.
if there's anything i want, it's to be able to love you without doubting so much but you're so hard to believe, you're so hard to trust, with your grey (Black) eyes and your fucking devil may care smile –
who are you to take my heart as your own? who are you to ruin me in so many ways and claim innocence when your eyes find mine in battle? as if the moments we spend nestled between sheets in the early hours of the morning, crying for home, are nothing.
home. my husband talks too much of murder these days. he is starting to remind me of you.
you.
(i never understood
the insanity in your eyes
was always a blessing
in disguise;
you will always be
crazy about me)
tell me you love me.
i need to know; when he comes for me, bella, i need to know that you loved me until your bones gave in, trusted me for all the things i told you and all the things you know i meant to.
i want to love you without caution, want to know that my sixteen year old self had it oh so right when she fucked herself over and fell soft against your spine; skin against skin (against nature).
i want you to know that my heart is a torn envelope, paper thin and split where you tore me open to read my insides too quickly. my fingertips are the letters i could not write. but if i press them to your skin, i am still promising the same things.
(i promise you that
i will love you
without breaking
the boundaries
of the war
that we are
still fighting.)
i love you.
remember that when he sends you.
(i bet you'll be the first one to find me.)
alice