Izzy

I have no idea how Gigi think our father is going to just quit all the drugs and stuff he's on but more power to her to try. I'm in the room Gigi and I share because God only knows why she couldn't find a three bedroom place but whatever I'm sure I'll live. The room situation isn't the only thing I'm upset about, when we came here Gigi didn't mention we would be living with Johnny and Ava. Honestly, Ava is actually really cool she's taking time to learn sign language and she's getting really good at it. Johnny on the other hand sucks and doesn't seem to be picking up on anything.

Gigi

My sister is locked up in our room and I'm fighting with our father about quitting drugs it would be really nice if she'd help me out some I'm getting a little sick of her standoffish behavior. She's always sorta been behind me all our life but anytime I'd try to pull her to the front shed freak out. Mom eventually gave up and let her stay my shadow which never bothered me because she was always there to help but lately I've noticed her keeping to herself and it's driving me insane that she isn't with me. I know we both have to do our own thing but I like it better when she's involved.

"Damn it dad,"I say to him when I walk into the room,"I know you've got pills let me have them,"

"I need to be on something Gigi,"he says annoyed,"I can't write with out something,"

"You missed the first 25 years of my life, I'd really like it if you were around for the next 20,"I say with a sigh.

"You want me around...does Izzy?"he asked and it's the first time I see the guilt in his eyes. Maybe he really does love us and want to be apart of our lives. Izzy doesn't seem to think so or care but I do.

"Izzy doesn't seem to really want to be around anyone right now so don't take her mood to heart,"I say,"but seriously dad I love you and want you around,"

"Alright fine," he says holding out the drugs for me to take.

"Thank you,"I say as I walk out of the room.

There's a knock on the door and Ava walks in slowly.

"Hey Izzy,"she says with a smile. It reminds me of my mom and makes me miss her a little.

"So umm Rehabs niece is in town and she's about a year older then you and since your sister is busy and I have to go to rehearse I thought you guys could hang out,"she says not giving me a chance to say anything,"get dressed and come out she'll be here in like five minutes so hurry up,"

She walks out of the room and I frown, but manage to get up and throw on a pair of jeans and a tee shirt. My sister always dresses to impress with her boobs out and tight cloths that show off her butt, but not me I dress like that when she makes me but I'd much rather be comfortable. I sleep on my worn black converse and walk into the living room just as Ava lets in who I assume to be rehabs niece.

"Hey Izzy this is Lindsey, Lindsey that's Izzy,"I wave and smile.

"Hi Izzy, it's nice to meet you,"she says and signs it as she speaks. It's slow and I can tell she's having trouble but it makes me feel good to see her try.

-nice to meet you too- I sign back making sure to take my time.

"I'm new to it so my teacher said its best if I sign as I speak so I can practice. I hope that doesn't bother you, I know your not deaf but the only way to learn to read it and sign is to just keep doing it,"she says with a slight frown.

-no it's great- I sign back- nice for you to learn-

She smiles again and Ava excuses herself out the door.

"So do you want to go catch a movie? Train wreck came out and it looks funny,"she asks. I nod and we head out.

After we decide that dad needs to be doing some sort of drugs I head back up to the loft. I stop dead when I hear a girl laughing and it takes a moment before I remember my sister was hanging out with someone. As I walk into the living room I see my sister and some blonde sitting closely on the couch. Izzy is smiling and the girl is laughing like crazy as they both take a shot.

"Okay okay,"the girl says and I see her moving her fingers again but Izzy stops her quickly and shows her what she's doing wrong and then they both take another shot"I didn't realize I was so bad with my signing or I wouldn't have suggested this,"

I clear my throat and both girls heads snap to look at me.

"Hi you just be Gigi,"the girl says through her giggles,"I'm Lindsey,"

My sister waves as I sit in the chair across from them.

"What are you guys doing? Izzy you don't like ever drink,"I say crossing my arms. She really doesn't drink much and when she does it's always with me or I'm around because her signs get mixed up and someone might not understand her so I'm not so sure I like this.

-we went to a movie and came home, was bored so we found some of Johnny's stuff and well here we are- she signs

"Izzy your not suppose to drink with out me,"I say knowing o sound just like our mom and it kills me.

- having fun and I'm in the house Gigi what's the big deal-

"The big deal is something could happen to you!"I yell as dad and Ava walk into the house.

"Hey what's going on," dad asks.

"She's drinking!"I yell before looking at her.

"Why can't she drink?"Ava asks from across the room.

"Because she isn't suppose to drink with out me she could get hurt,"I spit out

"She's not stupid Gigi and she's at home I don't see what the deal is,"dad says sitting down,"pour me a shot girls.

"No stop this! Izzy your done! No more drinking...your being so stupid no one is going to be able to take care of you if something happens,"I yell.

When I see her face I instantly regret being upset. She looks like she's about to cry but her face quickly changes and she stands up.

-fuck you Gigi! Your just mad because I'm doing something with out you for once...well news flash it's not always about you! I'm having fun so fuck off-

She stands up and grabs a very stunted and confused Lindsey's hand before heading to the door.

"Where do you think your going?"I yell

-where ever he fuck I want-she signs before slamming the door.

I storm off into my room slamming the door before falling onto my bed. My fathers on drugs and my sister is turning into a drunk it's been a wonderful day.