We remained in each other's arms, each of us trying to calm down. I tried to keep from triggering something we'd regret by making any movement at all.
"I'm sorry," he finally whispered.
"I'm not sorry," I said firmly. I finally moved, leaning back to look up into his eyes. They were black, but not wild. His arms still held me firmly around my waist. "I'm not sorry about the vampire, or the man. I love them both. But I am sorry it's been so hard for you." His face was a mixture of emotions, too quick for me to pinpoint any one.
"You misunderstood me, Bella. I'm done being sorry for either of them. These experiences you've shared with me have also been the most sensual of my existence. And I love you that much more for it. What I'm saying sorry for, my love, is that I couldn't satisfy your needs without hurting you. When you are my wife, I will worship every inch of your body in the most thorough way I can."
My heart flew out of my chest, racing with the images filling my head. I'm sure my eyes were huge. He laughed seductively at my reaction and captured my lips. I poured myself into the kiss with abandon. Hearing Edward talk to me like that was the biggest turn on ever.
I levered my hips against him, pushing him firmly against the door with my body. We kissed passionately until I had to come up for air. I panted while he kissed along my neck. His hands guided my head to the side a fraction allowing him better access there.
"Might I suggest we move this to the bed?" he said lowly. I paused. I had just promised to be responsible. I took two deep breaths. Before I spoke to possibly slow things down, I had to remind myself that there would be more to come if we could control ourselves.
"Are you sure that's a good idea?" I couldn't bring myself to shut this down completely. This was a good compromise.
He smiled at me softly. Pleased at my new level of responsibility no doubt. He nodded, sure of his control. His eyes questioned me in return.
I bit my lip and nodded back. I squealed as we flew through the air and I landed softly in his bed. We laughed together as he crawled up the bed and crouched over me. Checking our mutual control, he lowered himself gently on top of me. Although I'm sure he was holding up part of his weight, I could definitely feel the comfortable pressure of him against my body. I smiled.
He raised one of his hands to my face and softly stroked back a stray hair, sliding his knuckles softly along my cheek bone. He leaned in and kissed me deeply. His tongue moved softly against my mouth and I opened my lips humming with the pleasure he was giving me.
He pulled away, again gazing into my eyes. He fanned out my hair to the side, along the pillow. His eyes searched my face, caressing me with his gaze. His eyes were filled with love so obvious, I warmed my skin. I felt so loved and desired in that moment, it was pure bliss.
Wanting to feel his skin, I ran my hand under his shirt and up to his smooth chest muscles. I could feel his nipples harden at my touch.. Feeling frisky, I caught his nipple between my fingers, rolling it between them. He hissed, inhaling suddenly. His eyes were black again and he looked at me with surprise and what I could definitely identify as desire. I moved to the other nipple and repeated the same treatment. His eyes were dark as he looked at me hungrily.
Feeling bold, I pulled his shirt up. He finished pulling it over his head before dropping it on the floor. Edward should always be shirtless. It was a crime to hide his beautiful chest. I trailed my fingers over his muscles, careful to avoid looking at his face. His face always distracted me with its beauty and his ever changing expressions. Right now, I wanted to memorize every inch of his sculpted chest.
His hand inched up the bottom of my shirt. Apparently, I was about to get payback. His cool fingers slipped under the fabric of my shirt, caressing up my skin. I stretched to kiss him, too anxious to wait for the delicious torture I knew was coming. He kissed me back as his hand slid upwards. He stopped at the bottom of my bra, and his fingers traveled away slowly.
"Edward," I moaned into his mouth. I wanted to tell him how much I wanted him to touch me, but my brain wasn't correctly enough for speech. I felt ridiculous with all my moaning and panting. I just couldn't help the way he made me react.
Sitting up, he straddled my hips. My heart raced at this new development. Looking into my eyes, he lifted my shirt slowly over my head. I raised my arms helping the shirt to come off completely. Once my shirt disappeared, I watched as Edward's eyes moved over my exposed skin.
I knew the bra Alice had foisted on me this weekend was probably not hiding much. I was breathing too heavily, watching him devour me with his eyes. His hands rested lightly on the tops of his thighs. His strong muscular thighs. Straddling me.
My hands twitched, wanting to run up his legs and explore the muscles there. I wanted to pull him by his hair back on top of me. I wanted him to touch me again. I nearly hyperventilated, waiting for his next action. Every second my anticipation doubled and I felt like my heart was going to explode out of my chest. I would gladly throw out all of our carefully planned rules right this second if he would just touch me. Anywhere. I was about to lose it.
With a feat of control I didn't know I had, I did the one thing I didn't want to do.
"Snickerdoodle," I whispered. Damn it. Why did I have to be so responsible?
His eyes snapped to mine immediately. Expecting a look of disappointment, which I'm sure was written all over my face, I was instead surprised to see pride flash in his eyes. He leaned in to kiss me softly as his leg swung free of my hip, releasing me. He laid on his side next to me, kissing me softly.
That wasn't so bad. We were still kissing. He didn't slow things down, just shifted the direction.
I practiced kissing him while actually breathing. Eventually, he kissed along my neck and surprised me by continuing to kiss down to my collar bone. His tongue darted out, tasting my skin while his fingers drew lazy patterns on the flesh of my stomach, tickling and pleasing the skin there.
His mouth continued along the sensitive path below my collar bone and then lower. I nearly hyperventilated again as he kissed along the tops of my breast stopping at the fabric of my bra. Each kiss was soft and open. His path traveled from the top of one breast into the valley between. He paused there with his face buried between my breasts, and I could feel his cool breath travel along my skin as he worshiped me with his kisses. I shivered again as his kisses traveled along the top of my other breast. He headed north to my other collar bone and up that side of my neck. I was a trembling, pleasured pile of goo when he reclaimed my lips.
Edward's phone rang on the nightstand. I jumped slightly at the noise. It wasn't loud, but it was definitely unwelcomed. We both ignored it for a few rings, before Edward tore his lips from mine with a an annoyed grimace. He sat up and swung his leg over me again to reach for the phone on his nightstand. I watched him straddling above me as he swiped the phone from the table and brought it to his ear. I tried not to pout.
"What?" He wasn't happy. He listened without comment, his eyes locked with mine. He hung up with a begrudging thank you. Whatever the conversation was, he wasn't pleased. He tossed the phone back onto the night stand.
"Alice says that Charlie has decided to surprise you by coming to pick you up." He frowned slightly.
An ungraceful noise left my mouth, frustrated with Charlie's meddling. Edward ran his hands through his hair and I was momentarily distracted by every single muscle in his chest and arms flexing with the motion. He smiled mischievously, clearly catching my ogling.
I blushed.
Edward groaned, shaking his head. With what was obviously an effort for him, he released me, moving away from the bed. I sat up, my legs dangling over the edge. Somehow knowing he was having a hard time stopping was making it easier for me to accept. I would have much rather continued without Charlie's interference, but I had never seen Edward so ... needy. Was that the right word? I was beginning to suspect that he felt just as needy as I did.
He knelt on the floor between my legs, making his face just higher than my chest. He smiled softly as he held up my abandoned shirt. I frowned at it and he chuckled, placing a kiss in my hair. He pulled the shirt over my head. I pulled my arms through, but he didn't release the shirt as I had expected. He held it up under my chin. I looked at him curiously.
He looked into my eyes before leaning in to kiss the hollow at the base of my neck. His lips travelled an inch lower as the shirt followed. He kissed each of my clavicle bones just before the shirt covered them. My heart sped up again and I felt him smile as he kissed over my heart.
His kiss between my breasts lingered a moment longer, his head buried gently there. Then he pulled the shirt down slowly, covering me further. I laughed as he kissed above my navel. He lowered the shirt fully over me. His task accomplished, he rested his head in my lap and wrapped his arms around my hips. I ran my fingers through his hair, holding him to me for a moment.
"I love you Edward," I whispered.
He looked up into my eyes with love and adoration filling them. "You are my life," he said simply.
The family arrived home, and Alice, Rosalie, Carlisle and Esme stayed while the rest of them took off in preparation for Charlie's arrival. I was sad to see Edward have to leave, but I knew I'd be seeing him later tonight. We held each other, kissing sweetly until Edward could hear Charlie pulling into the driveway. He walked me downstairs and left with a final kiss out the back door. My heart was filled with love and happiness.
Alice reminded me to show Charlie my manicure - I rolled my eyes, and then we sat down to watch TV surrounded by blankets and pillows while we waited for Charlie to make it up the long driveway. I had never had a better sleepover.
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