A Few Days Later

General POV

3 days 4 Hours and 37 Minutes since Jace left with Valentine, since Alec had to hold clary back from following him through the portal.

Alec's head was spinning yet again, but not for the best. At least Jocelyn is back now, maybe she can shed some light into what is happening.

"Alec?" Clary spoke out. It snapped him out of my thoughts and back into the very real, hectic world. "Yea, I was just..." Alec started but couldn't find the word he was looking for. "Thinking" Clary said. "Yea, it's just with everything going on... it's nice to escape, even if for only a minute" He said. " Izzy found out what ship there on, so that means we can get Jace back" Clary said with a grin growing on her face. Alec couldn't figure out how she deals with it, all of the pain and stress.

The conversation with Clary ended shortly after that causing Alec's mind to sink back down to a place where he had gone through with the wedding, maybe Jace would still be here maybe it wouldn't slowly be kill me inside to be without Magnus, maybe it would kill me even more. Did I tell Magnus that this wouldn't work because I'm pulling up my shield again? Alec thought, until Magnus was standing in front of him. Alec was sure that this was a dream, but there he was standing there close enough for Alec to touch. Alec had to try and stop himself from collapsing into Magnus's arms. "Alexander, why are you here." Alec looked around, at some point he had started walking and surprisingly he had walked all the way to Magnus's apartment "I... I" Alec started but if he had a chance to continue, every front was holding up would fall and he would break down.

Magnus was still trying to figure out why Alec was at his door, that was until Alec attempted to speak. "Come inside" Magnus said moving out the way to let him in. Alec walked inside and stood he felt as if his feet were glued to the ground he couldn't move, Everything was breaking down. Magnus saw that Alec was mess and didn't ask any questions. He could also tell that Alec hadn't slept since the last time Magnus had saw him. "Down there to the left" Magnus said directing Alec to the spare bedroom. At first Alec had no idea why Magnus had directed him to the spare bedroom. Alec walked through to the bathroom to splash some water on his face. When he looked in the mirror he saw the bags under his eyes and soon realized why Magnus had directed him to this room. He lay down on the bed and went to sleep.

After about half an hour Magnus went to check on Alec, when he walked into the room he found Alec sound asleep. Magnus went back through to the study to carry on working. Even after many attempts to carry on all Magnus could think about was the Shadowhunter asleep in the next room. Then suddenly Magnus heard a loud cry from the spare room. Magnus rushed to find Alec screaming, but he wasn't awake he was having a nightmare. Magnus gently shook Alec walking him up, Alec had tears streaming down his face. Magnus just held Alec as he sobbed into Magnus's chest getting the blue silk shirt he had on soaked, but Magnus didn't care. Alec's cry's started to die down until he had fallen asleep. Even after Alec had fallen asleep Magnus continued to hold Alec.

A few hours later Alec slowly started to wake up. Unaware he was being held, until Magnus started to stir. Alec started remember what happened earlier, He had another nightmare. This one had been more vivid then the last. He could see Jace, he could see the ship but Jace was being wiped by Valentine until he was pushed into the ocean by Alec. He knew it was just a dream but it felt so real. Magnus looked down at Alec and saw that he was awake. It looked to be about 7:00 so Magnus decided to get up and get some breakfast. "Good Morning" Magnus said sweetly to Alec. Alec wanted to tell Magnus how he really felt, but Alec feared it was to late.

They walked through to the living room Alec sat down and Magnus got some coffee to appear for them. "Magnus, I – I need to tell you the truth" Alec said. Magnus stared a him with confusion "The truth about what Alexander?" Magnus asked. "The reason why I brought up the immortality thing." Alec said waiting for permission to go on. Magnus gave him a nod so Alec continued. "I brought it up because I'm scared, I'm scared about losing someone else, And I don't want to hurt you." Alec stopped for a second to collect his thoughts "Because eventually I will either die, hurting you or you'll realize that you've made a mistake and leave me" Alec said feeling better instantaneously. Magnus took a few moments before he replied "Alec, like I said before I can't see the future and yes its true you will at some point or another die. But all that matters is the time that we have now, and I haven't made a mistake wanting to be with you isn't a mistake" Magnus said. Alec's head started to spin again, he thought about all the scenarios on how this relationship could end but was it really worth it? "Alec whether it's me or the next person that comes along at some point you may well end up with heart break. The question you should be asking is are willing to risk getting hurt for something that could be amazing and wonderful?" Magnus said. Alec suddenly decided what he would choose "Yes"…

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