p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Chapter 2: Coming or Going?/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian had just finished brainstorming on what he was going to do with the display and still he had no idea. They wanted him to do both the inside and the outside of the entire mall for Christmas. This was not his deal, but he'd do it for Jack. Near the end Jack had finally realized what he had done to Brian as a child, Brian had forgiven him. But they said that Jack had been drunk, and the thought of that made tears come to his eyes. Brian had been the one who had to identify the bodies. All of a sudden, he was torn from his thoughts by a squeal of his name. He looked up into huge blue orbs./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Molly!" Brian squealed back./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian liked Molly Taylor. He had met her right before his thirtieth birthday. She was young and she had ridden her bike down to Liberty Avenue looking for her brother. He was nowhere to be found though but she had walked in front of a car and fell of her bike. Brian had taken her to the hospital that night and she was there when Gus was born. They had been sort of friends since, even though she was about ten back then. She was twenty now and going to become a lawyer./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Hey Moll, you home for the holidays?" asked Brian/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yea dad finally got me to come back. I'll admit I didn't want to come down, I mean Morgan and I are happy and we had plans to go someplace sunny but dad wants everyone home this year, he's even trying to get Justin this year to stay over."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Awe yes Justin Taylor, you tell me he exists but I have yet to see him."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh you're in luck he's right over…..damn you must've missed him he was on elf duty."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I was so sorry to hear about Mel, I tried to make it but the funerals were so quick why was that?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""My mom didn't take it too well, she's not taking it too well. She's lost now without Melanie and she thinks that she might have been a horrible mother to us. In some cases she was, now she thinks that she can save her soul by saving the souls of my children. She filed a motion trying to get joint custody with me, but she wants them to be in her home."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh Brian I'm so sorry, I work for a good firm, they have great lawyers there if you need help just say the word."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Thanks mollusk, speaking of the devil I see my children. I'll talk to you later."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Mother what are you doing here?" Brian asked through gritted teeth./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What does it look like? It's Christmas time and I thought Lindsey would want to have her picture taken with Santa."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""There's no Santa here, and Liddie won't remember any of this, I came down here because you wanted me too and I talked to the people about dad's commission but all I want to do now is go home and put Gus to bed and sleep."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What has gotten into you. You love Christmas, I've seen how your face lights up the past years. The smile that I have seen, I never saw when you were growing up."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What was there to smile about growing up? Oh, thanks I didn't die when I was thrown down the stairs or worse."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Daddy?" came the voice of a concerned Gus./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian this is not the time or place to discuss this. Look you're upsetting the boy."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""He's not upset I have no secrets from him, he knows about my life and what happened to me."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian you have got to be kidding me, you wouldn't tell a small boy what happened when you were younger? He wouldn't understand."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I told him what a bad mother and a bad father could cause him. I told him what the difference between a mother who said I love you but turned away and a mother who barely said I love you but showed it in more ways then he could ever imagine."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Lindsay never told Gus she loved him?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Melanie couldn't because of dad. Now come on Sonnyboy lets go."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No dad, remember I'm suppose to go to church with Grandma tomorrow you promised I could go."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't believe that he wanted to go with Joan and not him. It would be easy for her to take him if this type of thing persisted. He would not show the hurt in his heart. He pasted on his best smile./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Fine but she's going to bring you home at noon and we'll go to the diner for a special lunch okay?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Okay daddy, I love you and I'll see you tomorrow."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Gus ran to his father and was happy when his father knelt for him to hug him and peck him on the cheek. His dad didn't like much PDA but he obliged when it came to him and his sister. He didn't really want to go with his grandmother. But he wanted to go to church, he just didn't want to go with her tonight. Gus remembered what he told "Sunshine" and well maybe he would help out tonight, his dad had to be at his other job so he would stay with his grandmother./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian really couldn't stay mad at Gus. When he looked at him, he saw himself. It was strange looking at Gus now though, because he also saw Melanie. The dark hair which was just like hers and the eyes. He took Liddie out of the carrier and smelled her. She smelled of strawberries just like Lindsay. She was blonde just like her as well, that's why they had named her Lindsay. They thought it would be cute, then Brian had started calling her Liddie and no one liked that but now that Lindsay was gone, he just couldn't bring himself to say that name anymore. So she would forever be Liddie in his book. He could feel the emotion that he always tried his best to hide away creeping up on him as he wiped a tear from his eyes./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian?" asked a concerned Joan./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm fine." Brian practically barked as he shoved his mother's hand from his shoulder./p
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p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""My god Justin don't you think that you've done enough resting? The kids are getting restless and there are only about a dozen left and then we can get on with our lives." yelled a desperate Daphne./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Daphne was his best friend she had seen him through a bashing, joining a gang, being blown up at a nightclub, and just about everything in between. She was great. They were best friends and they shared an apartment. He could tell her anything, he just didn't know how she would take it./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin are you alright?" asked a concerned Daphne./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Daph have you ever felt like you could have everything in your life and it's perfect. You did everything like you were suppose too but then in the end something just isn't right?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin you're really starting to scare me, what's going on?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I was out there just now being "Sunshine" and you will not believe what this little boy asked for. He asked for a daddy."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What? That's awful. Which one is he? Is he still out there?" Daph asked as she pulled the curtain and looked out into the chaos of kids./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No his dad came and they left with his grandmother."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Wait I'm not following you." said a still obviously confused Daphne./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Daphne sat there and listened to her friend, tell her the tale about dead mothers and court cases and how this little boy wanted a father for his father so they could stay together but still there was just something about this story that made absolutely no sense. There had to be a reason for her friend to be so upset./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin people are waiting. What has got you so upset and why is it, that you want to help out this little boy and his father? I mean, I understand anyone would want to help out a kid and his dad, but you are overly into this, what's up?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin looked at his friend and thought to himself could she be trusted. Would she believe him for once finally? Or would she still think he was nuts. He decided to go for it./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""It was him Daphne. It's been what three, four years and well, it was him."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Daphne held back the groan that desperately wanted to escape her lips. She knew who exactly "him" was. Actually for awhile she didn't believe in the legend of "him". You see, it had all started the night that Justin informed her that he was going down to Liberty Ave. to find a guy and fuck him. She wanted to go with him but she had a cold and was home in bed. She had let him take her car and they were keeping each other informed by cell. She was his cover story./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"According to Justin, he was leaning up against some lamppost watching this club called Babylon's patrons leave and according to him "the face of god" came walking out with a guy in some pink leather pants. Just when their eyes met and it looked as if he was walking Justin's way, I called him and told him he needed to get back. So according to him I cock blocked him./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"That's not where it ends though, according to Justin later that night when he went to see his sister in the hospital, who had broken her arm after a fall she'd taken, he saw the guy on the roof with his boyfriend. Justin had gone to the roof to take a smoke so he was disappointed when he saw them. Justin is certain that over the years they've met and I didn't believe him. I mean I didn't until the prom./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin was always bold and on prom night he went with his boyfriend, Chris Hobbs. Everyone was shocked when Chris came out of the closet and shocked even more, when he decided that he wanted Justin as his main squeeze. Justin and Chris had ended up fighting at the prom because Justin wouldn't blow him in the bathroom so we left. We ended up, crashing this huge wedding of some lesbians that was being held in the same hotel, that's when I saw him./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"He was obviously drunk because he walked up like he knew us and he asked Justin to dance. The dance they shared could only be described as HOT and the kiss, man the kiss was excellent, but it was over quick, when a woman in a matching suit as "his" walked up and slapped him right in the face. She was screaming about he always had to ruin things, and why couldn't he let her be happy or something. I think he had slept with her new wife or something like that but yea she and Justin ended up running down to the parking lot. Chris was so angry at what Justin had done, that he bashed him in the head with a baseball bat and…./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Daphne was torn from her thoughts by Justin's voice./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm sorry what?" she asked./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Jesus where'd you go? It was like you were lost in space."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I was just thinking about him."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Exactly Daph so now you see why I have to help this kid. I mean it's been two years since our eyes locked and they locked on each other a few minutes ago. I haven't seen him since Molly's graduation."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin are you sure he was there?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm sure, listen I can't see anymore kids today. Tell Molly and my mom and my dad that I just had to go, okay. I need to relax. I came here straight from work."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Where are you heading?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Babylon of course see you later."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;" /p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian stood on the balcony over the dance floor at his club trying to feel the beat. He knew that he was getting to old for this, he was approaching forty but damn he needed to drink, he needed to drug, he needed to feel numb. No, scratch that, he didn't want to feel anything. Every time he closed his eyes he saw Melanie and Lindsay. They weren't alive though, it was the bodies he saw down at the morgue. He would never be able to scratch that from his memory. That's why he had them cremated. He couldn't see them in boxes he just couldn't./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"He continued to stare at the bodies as they gyrated to the thumpa thumpa, and that's when his eyes locked on him. He was blond, he was young, and he had seen him before. It didn't matter, he hadn't fucked him yet and it was time to let off some steam and get rid of all this tension./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Michael Novotny walked around the club frantically looking for Brian. He knew Brian, and he knew what was going on? Joan Kinney was trying to teach Brian a lesson, make him finally grow up. She didn't really want the kids, but she wanted to see if Brian would fight for them. He would fight, first he would do a lot of boozing and tricking. Especially to get over Mel. Mel was Brian's other half she was his sister, heck she was more than that she was….he was torn from his thoughts by a familiar face./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Hey Todd, how's it going?" asked Michael./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm fine." he replied./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Have you seen Brian?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yea he was up there." Todd said gesturing up to the balcony./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"By the time Michael looked up, he saw Brian heading out with a young blond in tow./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"It was really hard for Brian to drive. The blond, who was only referring to himself as "Sunshine," was giving him the best blow job that he'd ever received in his life, as he sped off to his loft. There was just something about this young man. First, he liked the fact that he was young, and judging but the bulge in his pants he was very well endowed, for such a little fellow. It must be the drugs, but Brian knew, he knew this kid from somewhere. But the drugs were clouding his mind./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Do I know you?" Brian asked as they entered his building./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No." whispered Justin./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Are you sure?" Brian couldn't believe he was asking this question but yea he was./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Maybe you saw me in your dreams, do you want to do this or not?" asked a overly aroused Justin./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yes lets."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian opened the door to his loft and they stumbled in. Brian tried to lead Justin to the couch but they just ended up on the massive black rug that Brian had in the center of his living room. Justin straddled Brian and rubbed his erection against Brian's through the jeans, before standing up and slowing removing the blue jeans he wore revealing he wasn't wearing any underwear./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian tried his best to suppress the moan that escaped, when he saw this porcelain snow angel standing before him. The boy has the whitest alabaster skin he'd ever seen. He just knew he had to suck, nibble, or lick ever inch of it. He looked him from top to bottom pausing at the boys huge, hardened cock. He didn't expect it to be that big on such a little frame. Just looking at it made his mouth water and he himself hardened and begged to be released from his jeans, so he too removed his jeans and wife beater and attacked the boy with wild unchoreographed kisses as their erections rubbed against each other sending wild jolts of electricity throughout their bodies./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian lowered the boy gently to the floor and begin to kiss down his stomach until he was face to face with his fine blond pubes. He couldn't help himself he leaned in and gave them a little whiff. He couldn't help the smile that spread across his face when he smelt the sweet strawberry masculine smell, that was Justin. He took two of his fingers and slowly eased them inside Justin and was turned on when he heard the loud gasp that escaped his lips and the suction of his body trying to claim his fingers./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Wait!" Justin shrieked rising to his feet./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""There's something you should know I'm a top."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't help himself he had to laugh the kid was so adorable as he stood there stark naked hard as a rock claiming to be a top. He knew he had this kid. He wasn't going anywhere./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh don't worry, soon you'll be on TOP of my dick." Brian said through a smile./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm serious, I don't bottom for anyone, not even you." Justin said, as he was going to stand his ground. Justin attempted to gather his clothes as he walked toward Brian's door. He slide the door open and he didn't even care that he was still naked./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't explain the feeling that he felt when he looked into those eyes. He didn't attempt to put on his clothes as he walked toward Justin very slowly. When he got face to face with Justin he took Justin's hand and placed in on his cock. Justin begin to slowly jack him, watching how Brian's face changed each time he slide his cock out of his hand./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Without loosing his rhythm and trying his best not to let on what feeling Justin's hand around his cock was doing to him, Brian gritted through his teeth. "No one is going to make you do anything you don't want to do, but I'm a top. So you have to decide, if you're coming, or going, or coming then going, or coming and staying."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin watched Brian's eyes as he made his statement. The silence between them made his ears hurt, but Brian never lost his rhythm sliding his cock in and out of his fist and one last thrust, and Justin wasn't surprised when Brian shot his load. He looked down at his fist and back at Brian and said. "I'm staying and there will be a whole lot of coming." he said as he slide the door to the loft shut./p
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p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian had just finished brainstorming on what he was going to do with the display and still he had no idea. They wanted him to do both the inside and the outside of the entire mall for Christmas. This was not his deal, but he'd do it for Jack. Near the end Jack had finally realized what he had done to Brian as a child, Brian had forgiven him. But they said that Jack had been drunk, and the thought of that made tears come to his eyes. Brian had been the one who had to identify the bodies. All of a sudden, he was torn from his thoughts by a squeal of his name. He looked up into huge blue orbs./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Molly!" Brian squealed back./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian liked Molly Taylor. He had met her right before his thirtieth birthday. She was young and she had ridden her bike down to Liberty Avenue looking for her brother. He was nowhere to be found though but she had walked in front of a car and fell of her bike. Brian had taken her to the hospital that night and she was there when Gus was born. They had been sort of friends since, even though she was about ten back then. She was twenty now and going to become a lawyer./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Hey Moll, you home for the holidays?" asked Brian/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yea dad finally got me to come back. I'll admit I didn't want to come down, I mean Morgan and I are happy and we had plans to go someplace sunny but dad wants everyone home this year, he's even trying to get Justin this year to stay over."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Awe yes Justin Taylor, you tell me he exists but I have yet to see him."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh you're in luck he's right over…..damn you must've missed him he was on elf duty."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I was so sorry to hear about Mel, I tried to make it but the funerals were so quick why was that?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""My mom didn't take it too well, she's not taking it too well. She's lost now without Melanie and she thinks that she might have been a horrible mother to us. In some cases she was, now she thinks that she can save her soul by saving the souls of my children. She filed a motion trying to get joint custody with me, but she wants them to be in her home."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh Brian I'm so sorry, I work for a good firm, they have great lawyers there if you need help just say the word."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Thanks mollusk, speaking of the devil I see my children. I'll talk to you later."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Mother what are you doing here?" Brian asked through gritted teeth./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What does it look like? It's Christmas time and I thought Lindsey would want to have her picture taken with Santa."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""There's no Santa here, and Liddie won't remember any of this, I came down here because you wanted me too and I talked to the people about dad's commission but all I want to do now is go home and put Gus to bed and sleep."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What has gotten into you. You love Christmas, I've seen how your face lights up the past years. The smile that I have seen, I never saw when you were growing up."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What was there to smile about growing up? Oh, thanks I didn't die when I was thrown down the stairs or worse."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Daddy?" came the voice of a concerned Gus./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian this is not the time or place to discuss this. Look you're upsetting the boy."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""He's not upset I have no secrets from him, he knows about my life and what happened to me."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian you have got to be kidding me, you wouldn't tell a small boy what happened when you were younger? He wouldn't understand."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I told him what a bad mother and a bad father could cause him. I told him what the difference between a mother who said I love you but turned away and a mother who barely said I love you but showed it in more ways then he could ever imagine."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Lindsay never told Gus she loved him?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Melanie couldn't because of dad. Now come on Sonnyboy lets go."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No dad, remember I'm suppose to go to church with Grandma tomorrow you promised I could go."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't believe that he wanted to go with Joan and not him. It would be easy for her to take him if this type of thing persisted. He would not show the hurt in his heart. He pasted on his best smile./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Fine but she's going to bring you home at noon and we'll go to the diner for a special lunch okay?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Okay daddy, I love you and I'll see you tomorrow."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Gus ran to his father and was happy when his father knelt for him to hug him and peck him on the cheek. His dad didn't like much PDA but he obliged when it came to him and his sister. He didn't really want to go with his grandmother. But he wanted to go to church, he just didn't want to go with her tonight. Gus remembered what he told "Sunshine" and well maybe he would help out tonight, his dad had to be at his other job so he would stay with his grandmother./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian really couldn't stay mad at Gus. When he looked at him, he saw himself. It was strange looking at Gus now though, because he also saw Melanie. The dark hair which was just like hers and the eyes. He took Liddie out of the carrier and smelled her. She smelled of strawberries just like Lindsay. She was blonde just like her as well, that's why they had named her Lindsay. They thought it would be cute, then Brian had started calling her Liddie and no one liked that but now that Lindsay was gone, he just couldn't bring himself to say that name anymore. So she would forever be Liddie in his book. He could feel the emotion that he always tried his best to hide away creeping up on him as he wiped a tear from his eyes./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian?" asked a concerned Joan./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm fine." Brian practically barked as he shoved his mother's hand from his shoulder./p
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p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""My god Justin don't you think that you've done enough resting? The kids are getting restless and there are only about a dozen left and then we can get on with our lives." yelled a desperate Daphne./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Daphne was his best friend she had seen him through a bashing, joining a gang, being blown up at a nightclub, and just about everything in between. She was great. They were best friends and they shared an apartment. He could tell her anything, he just didn't know how she would take it./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin are you alright?" asked a concerned Daphne./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Daph have you ever felt like you could have everything in your life and it's perfect. You did everything like you were suppose too but then in the end something just isn't right?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin you're really starting to scare me, what's going on?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I was out there just now being "Sunshine" and you will not believe what this little boy asked for. He asked for a daddy."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What? That's awful. Which one is he? Is he still out there?" Daph asked as she pulled the curtain and looked out into the chaos of kids./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No his dad came and they left with his grandmother."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Wait I'm not following you." said a still obviously confused Daphne./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Daphne sat there and listened to her friend, tell her the tale about dead mothers and court cases and how this little boy wanted a father for his father so they could stay together but still there was just something about this story that made absolutely no sense. There had to be a reason for her friend to be so upset./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin people are waiting. What has got you so upset and why is it, that you want to help out this little boy and his father? I mean, I understand anyone would want to help out a kid and his dad, but you are overly into this, what's up?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin looked at his friend and thought to himself could she be trusted. Would she believe him for once finally? Or would she still think he was nuts. He decided to go for it./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""It was him Daphne. It's been what three, four years and well, it was him."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Daphne held back the groan that desperately wanted to escape her lips. She knew who exactly "him" was. Actually for awhile she didn't believe in the legend of "him". You see, it had all started the night that Justin informed her that he was going down to Liberty Ave. to find a guy and fuck him. She wanted to go with him but she had a cold and was home in bed. She had let him take her car and they were keeping each other informed by cell. She was his cover story./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"According to Justin, he was leaning up against some lamppost watching this club called Babylon's patrons leave and according to him "the face of god" came walking out with a guy in some pink leather pants. Just when their eyes met and it looked as if he was walking Justin's way, I called him and told him he needed to get back. So according to him I cock blocked him./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"That's not where it ends though, according to Justin later that night when he went to see his sister in the hospital, who had broken her arm after a fall she'd taken, he saw the guy on the roof with his boyfriend. Justin had gone to the roof to take a smoke so he was disappointed when he saw them. Justin is certain that over the years they've met and I didn't believe him. I mean I didn't until the prom./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin was always bold and on prom night he went with his boyfriend, Chris Hobbs. Everyone was shocked when Chris came out of the closet and shocked even more, when he decided that he wanted Justin as his main squeeze. Justin and Chris had ended up fighting at the prom because Justin wouldn't blow him in the bathroom so we left. We ended up, crashing this huge wedding of some lesbians that was being held in the same hotel, that's when I saw him./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"He was obviously drunk because he walked up like he knew us and he asked Justin to dance. The dance they shared could only be described as HOT and the kiss, man the kiss was excellent, but it was over quick, when a woman in a matching suit as "his" walked up and slapped him right in the face. She was screaming about he always had to ruin things, and why couldn't he let her be happy or something. I think he had slept with her new wife or something like that but yea she and Justin ended up running down to the parking lot. Chris was so angry at what Justin had done, that he bashed him in the head with a baseball bat and…./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Daphne was torn from her thoughts by Justin's voice./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm sorry what?" she asked./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Jesus where'd you go? It was like you were lost in space."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I was just thinking about him."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Exactly Daph so now you see why I have to help this kid. I mean it's been two years since our eyes locked and they locked on each other a few minutes ago. I haven't seen him since Molly's graduation."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin are you sure he was there?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm sure, listen I can't see anymore kids today. Tell Molly and my mom and my dad that I just had to go, okay. I need to relax. I came here straight from work."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Where are you heading?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Babylon of course see you later."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;" /p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian stood on the balcony over the dance floor at his club trying to feel the beat. He knew that he was getting to old for this, he was approaching forty but damn he needed to drink, he needed to drug, he needed to feel numb. No, scratch that, he didn't want to feel anything. Every time he closed his eyes he saw Melanie and Lindsay. They weren't alive though, it was the bodies he saw down at the morgue. He would never be able to scratch that from his memory. That's why he had them cremated. He couldn't see them in boxes he just couldn't./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"He continued to stare at the bodies as they gyrated to the thumpa thumpa, and that's when his eyes locked on him. He was blond, he was young, and he had seen him before. It didn't matter, he hadn't fucked him yet and it was time to let off some steam and get rid of all this tension./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Michael Novotny walked around the club frantically looking for Brian. He knew Brian, and he knew what was going on? Joan Kinney was trying to teach Brian a lesson, make him finally grow up. She didn't really want the kids, but she wanted to see if Brian would fight for them. He would fight, first he would do a lot of boozing and tricking. Especially to get over Mel. Mel was Brian's other half she was his sister, heck she was more than that she was….he was torn from his thoughts by a familiar face./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Hey Todd, how's it going?" asked Michael./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm fine." he replied./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Have you seen Brian?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yea he was up there." Todd said gesturing up to the balcony./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"By the time Michael looked up, he saw Brian heading out with a young blond in tow./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"It was really hard for Brian to drive. The blond, who was only referring to himself as "Sunshine," was giving him the best blow job that he'd ever received in his life, as he sped off to his loft. There was just something about this young man. First, he liked the fact that he was young, and judging but the bulge in his pants he was very well endowed, for such a little fellow. It must be the drugs, but Brian knew, he knew this kid from somewhere. But the drugs were clouding his mind./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Do I know you?" Brian asked as they entered his building./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No." whispered Justin./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Are you sure?" Brian couldn't believe he was asking this question but yea he was./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Maybe you saw me in your dreams, do you want to do this or not?" asked a overly aroused Justin./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yes lets."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian opened the door to his loft and they stumbled in. Brian tried to lead Justin to the couch but they just ended up on the massive black rug that Brian had in the center of his living room. Justin straddled Brian and rubbed his erection against Brian's through the jeans, before standing up and slowing removing the blue jeans he wore revealing he wasn't wearing any underwear./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian tried his best to suppress the moan that escaped, when he saw this porcelain snow angel standing before him. The boy has the whitest alabaster skin he'd ever seen. He just knew he had to suck, nibble, or lick ever inch of it. He looked him from top to bottom pausing at the boys huge, hardened cock. He didn't expect it to be that big on such a little frame. Just looking at it made his mouth water and he himself hardened and begged to be released from his jeans, so he too removed his jeans and wife beater and attacked the boy with wild unchoreographed kisses as their erections rubbed against each other sending wild jolts of electricity throughout their bodies./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian lowered the boy gently to the floor and begin to kiss down his stomach until he was face to face with his fine blond pubes. He couldn't help himself he leaned in and gave them a little whiff. He couldn't help the smile that spread across his face when he smelt the sweet strawberry masculine smell, that was Justin. He took two of his fingers and slowly eased them inside Justin and was turned on when he heard the loud gasp that escaped his lips and the suction of his body trying to claim his fingers./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Wait!" Justin shrieked rising to his feet./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""There's something you should know I'm a top."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't help himself he had to laugh the kid was so adorable as he stood there stark naked hard as a rock claiming to be a top. He knew he had this kid. He wasn't going anywhere./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh don't worry, soon you'll be on TOP of my dick." Brian said through a smile./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm serious, I don't bottom for anyone, not even you." Justin said, as he was going to stand his ground. Justin attempted to gather his clothes as he walked toward Brian's door. He slide the door open and he didn't even care that he was still naked./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't explain the feeling that he felt when he looked into those eyes. He didn't attempt to put on his clothes as he walked toward Justin very slowly. When he got face to face with Justin he took Justin's hand and placed in on his cock. Justin begin to slowly jack him, watching how Brian's face changed each time he slide his cock out of his hand./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Without loosing his rhythm and trying his best not to let on what feeling Justin's hand around his cock was doing to him, Brian gritted through his teeth. "No one is going to make you do anything you don't want to do, but I'm a top. So you have to decide, if you're coming, or going, or coming then going, or coming and staying."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin watched Brian's eyes as he made his statement. The silence between them made his ears hurt, but Brian never lost his rhythm sliding his cock in and out of his fist and one last thrust, and Justin wasn't surprised when Brian shot his load. He looked down at his fist and back at Brian and said. "I'm staying and there will be a whole lot of coming." he said as he slide the door to the loft shut./p
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