p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Chapter 6: Do you see what I See?/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Gus Kinney ran into The Liberty Avenue Dinner pulling a very exhausted looking Brian behind him. Behind Brian, Justin walked in very slowly carrying Liddie who was asleep in her carrier. They sat down at the back booth and picked up the menu for their lunch. Debbie Novotny watched them from the moment they walked in and she couldn't stop the smile that came to her face. Brian had been so sad because of Melanie and Lindsay and she feared for him, she didn't want this to have a toll on his health he didn't need this, not with Joan looking for anyway to get her hands on the kids to make amends for what she'd done. She liked what she saw though. It was Brian and his family, and he had that cute little blonde with him. Now this was her time to get answers, because Michael nor any of the other members of her "family" were around./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Hey boys, look like you had a busy day? What will it be?" asked Deb./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Grandma, Justin and Uncle Brian and I had the best time today. We went and got a tree for daddy's place. Later after we have lunch we are going to go home and put it up and then Justin said that we'll make hot chocolate and roast chestnuts, and then he's going to help me make my own stocking can you believe that?" said an overly excited Gus./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Debbie was loving every moment of it, she loved how still when Gus got so excited, he would refer to Brian as his uncle. The poor kid only knew that Brian was his father for the last five years and that was only because…./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Deb, can we fucking order!" yelled Brian snapping her from her train of thought./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Well aren't we just a bucket of Sunshine today, what crawled up you and died?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""The tree. I made the mistake of having Justin help me get a tree, he made it turn into a three hour trip. He's there hugging trees and he and Gus are running around like children. People were giving me weird looks, and Liddie was screaming her ass off, we don't have to worry about problems with her lungs she's got two good ones./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Have you picked up her dress yet? Asked Deb./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Dress, what dress?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Her Christmas dress at Little Darlings just off of Tremont, Lindsay had picked it out just for her, for the pictures she set up."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Deb after everything that has happened you don't expect me to still do that do you?/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I certainly do, it's a family photo and you and your kids should do it. It'll be your Christmas card next year, Gus still wants to do it, don't you?/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Well I do but, I just wish…..Gus trailed off./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No what is it Sonnyboy? Questioned Brian./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Well in the beginning I didn't want to do the picture. But ever since that day in your office when we started hanging out with Justin, I thought that maybe I wanted to do the picture. But I only wanted to do it, if maybe Justin would agree to be in it with us."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian didn't know what to say or do. A part of him wanted to ask Gus was he nuts. They had taken up the past week of Justin's life and well he couldn't impose on him to do something like that, even though part of him was thanking Gus because he could use him and get Justin to stay. Even though he was screaming for Justin to stay. He couldn't explain it, he just couldn't get enough of the man. In the past week since Justin had decided to help him out with the children and his mother, he really liked him but could he tell him that. No, he couldn't and besides no one would want to stick around considering…../p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'll do it!" said Justin breaking Brian from his thoughts./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What? No Justin, we couldn't impose on you like that, you've done enough."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin smiled trying to hid the hurt that was in his heart, when Brian didn't want him to be a part of his life anymore. He had done everything to help Brian out with his mother and he thought that maybe Brian was warming up to him. He desperately wanted the man to make love to him like he had the first night, or even better let him fuck him, but not a touch like that since the first night. Could he really not be interested? It hurt him to think that, but then again maybe it was for the best. I mean part of him wanted Brian to want him because he wanted him, but another part of him didn't want him to want him. He scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed and he still couldn't get their blood off his hands. He was torn from his thoughts by his phone ringing. He went outside and took the call./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Hello?" said Justin./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm glad that I got you, listen Derrick fell and broke his ankle, we're going to need you to come in tonight," said Daphne./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm not coming in tonight, I'm with Brian and his family, they invited me over tonight and I'm going to get to meet everyone."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin, if you're so afraid of him finding out, why do you keep putting yourself further and further into his life? How do you think he's going to feel when all of this comes out? He's going to feel betrayed. I know you are doing this for the boy, but how do you think this will make a happy holiday for him? It'll make it the worst Christmas ever. Get down here now!"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm not coming!" Justin shouted as he hung up on his best friend./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"When Justin returned to the table, Brian was paying and getting Liddie./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Where are you going Bri?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I've decided that Liddie and I are going to go and get this dress and you and Gus are going to buy my present since he wants to do that without me knowing about it. Then you and I are going to go over to Deb's tonight, ain't that right Deb?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""You better believe it mister, Brian has been hiding you long enough."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Okay, well lets go Gus, we'll see you later."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Olivia Chambers stood in Little Darlings looking for a dress for her little girl Hannah. Hannah was one now and this was her first Christmas and she wanted to get something very nice for her to wear but something she saw out of the corner of her eye was disturbing. One Brian Kinney was standing across from her. He was talking to himself, laughing to himself really. It bothered her, why was he there? He had some nerve following her in such an intimate moment with her daughter. Something had to be done, she had to make it, so he knew that she didn't appreciate being stalked./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian knew he must look nuts. He was talking to himself picking out shoes. Well he wasn't really talking to himself, Liddie sat at his feet on the floor playing with the last pair he had put on her, but from a certain focal point he guess he could look insane./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Okay so we know we want black right?" Brian asked Liddie waiting as if he thought she'd answer./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Black it is. I love black it's our color Liddie. It goes perfect with your little dress."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian looked out of the corner of his eye and she saw one angry looking Olivia Chambers heading his way. What the fuck could she want, he wondered as he picked Liddie up from the floor and then he noticed her face soften./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't help it, the little girl definitely had his heart. The moment he picked her up, she wrapped her little arms around his neck and put her head on his shoulder. She laughed to herself and he couldn't keep the smile off his face when he heard her gurgle, something that definitely sounded like Da./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Mr. Kinney, I must say that I'm surprised to see you here." said a suspicious Olivia Chambers./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Well it's Christmas time and Liddie and I have to get ready for our Christmas picture, don't we Liddie? Give daddy a smile."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Wow, I must say that I never pictured you for a family man, Brian where's your wife?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Liddie here is my youngest, she's almost seven months. She has an older brother Augustus he's ten. As for the wife, she's dead."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh Mr. Kinney, I'm so sorry to hear that. I wasn't aware of that, how long has it been?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Not very long, right after Thanksgiving."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Olivia didn't know what to believe anymore. Her assistant had told her that Brian was very charming and that if he wanted anything he'd get it. That's why she was so upset when she saw him. She thought that he had used people he knew to track her down at this store with her daughter. She also heard that he was a gay slut, from other circles. She didn't have a problem with the man being gay but the slut part was what had her worried. She didn't want to be associated with a man who lead a colorful life, but now here was a young man, with a child no doubt, and he mentioned a wife. What was going on here?/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Mr. Kinney, I don't mean to intrude but I was told that you were gay, and that you were single."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""It's Brian, don't call me Mr. it makes me feel old. Yes I'm gay, it's a funny story about Liddie, it's a funny story about how I come to be her father. One for the record books actually."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Olivia thought that maybe she was wrong about him, there was just something so warm and caring about his face, and that daughter of his. She was gorgeous. She wanted to know the story and it looked like he was willing to share it, so she thought of a way of spending a few moments with this very intriguing man./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian, I'd love to hear the story. Maybe we could go over there to the food court and grab a bite and you could tell me the story. I'm not trying to pry, but I've been given the wrong impression of you and well, now I sort of feel bad that I didn't keep our appointment last week. Maybe you could tell me some of your ideas. Maybe I shouldn't be asking that, I mean this is your family time with your daughter."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No I could use something to eat, and Liddie as well. We can go and have a seat."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin had to admit, that spending the day with Gus was becoming more and more enjoyable. He had totally forgotten about Daphne calling him. He was not going back to that place, he was on vacation until after the holidays and maybe after he would quit. He didn't need a real profession. Lindsay had told him how incredibly talented he was and she had helped him sell some things. He was successful at his art. He didn't need his job. All he really needed, was standing next to him chatting away. Oh and Liddie and Brian. That's all he needed was them./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"He had learned a lot talking to Gus over the past hour, as they picked out Brian's gift but the most heartfelt thing and yet sad thing was how Gus himself had come into existence. The story was that Brian and Lindsay were high school sweethearts, but they realized after a couple years, that they were both looking for something else and Brian left for college. When he came back, apparently the something else Lindsay was looking for, was his sister, Melanie. Turns out Brian and Melanie was twins. Finding that out, Justin thought back to the few times he had met Melanie and yea, she and Brian were one in the same./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Gus told Justin how his mother couldn't have children and his momma Lindsay, had in fact, carried him. Gus told how they had picked Brian because he was a good man and at least this way, even though Melanie didn't carry him, she wouldn't just be his mother, she would be his aunt. That meant they were related not only by love but by blood, and that was important for them all to be joined by blood. So he was indeed part of Lindsay and Melanie and that made Justin think that Brian had a heart, far bigger than he thought. It was also very flattering that Lindsay and Melanie didn't care about Brian's condition and the fact that either one of the children could have been passed the gene, but neither one of them had been./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin was having a good time with Gus but he started to get scared when Justin told him the reason, he was finally told that his Uncle Brian was in fact, his father. Apparently, Brian had been diagnosed with Cancer, when Gus was five and things didn't look good. So they told Gus, so that he could spend as much time with Brian as possible. Brian recovered, but that got Justin wondering if Brian was healthy? It had been five years, if there were no more flair ups, then he was in remission. Damn, now he really wanted to get to Brian, he needed to touch him. They'd be at Deb's soon enough./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"The dinner at Deb's was going great. She really had a huge family now. There was Emmett and George, Teddy and Blake, her precious Michael and his partner Ben. They even had a new baby girl,named Imani now. She was beautiful and she adored her big brother Hunter, who was home for Christmas. They talked and it was hard because the absence of Lindsay and Melanie was stifling the mood, until Emmett brought up a subject./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""So have you guys met him yet? What did you think Mrs. Kinney, do you like Justin?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Joan couldn't stop the smile that was spreading across her face, she had big news and she couldn't wait for Brian to get there so she could tell him. All the people here were her family, she knew that right now they were liking her allot and they were still welcoming to her, so she would tell them first./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh Em I just adore Justin and he adores Gus and Lindsay so much, I can't wait for he and Brian to get here, so I can tell them my news."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What's the news?" asked Emmett./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I went to the court and stopped my motion. I certainly didn't want to take the children from Brian but you know how he lives his life. I was afraid that he would never find someone to let into his heart, I'm to blame for him being closed off. I know this. I thought that Brian would never want to love anyone but when I went over to the house that morning, and saw Justin, there was no way you could miss it. He loves my boy so much."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Michael was observing everyone smiling, but there was something off about his partner, Ben. Ben's smile was more of a forced one and this concerned him./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What is it Ben?" asked Michael./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Its just every time Brian gets a good one, they find out about him and they leave him. They are as frightened off about the Epilepsy, as most people are scared off by my HIV status. I just hope that this one, is a keeper."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian sat in the car outside of Deb's house looking at his mother's car contemplating should he go in or not. He knew that his driver was ready to leave so now was the time to make the decision. Was he to go in or not./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""We're going in Thomas. I won't need the service anymore tonight Justin's bringing the car and he will be with me."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Are you sure Mr. Kinney, I still have a little time before I need to get home?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No, we're good thanks Thomas."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian tipped the man and got out of the car with Liddie. Liddie had actually let Olivia hold her. She was blonde though and his little girl had a thing for blondes. He could do this, he could have dinner with his mother and not jump across the table and kill her couldn't he? Yea he could, she loved him. He understood what she was doing, didn't mean it still didn't hurt but he understood why she was doing what she was doing. Okay Liddie lets go see Grandmas./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Everyone was enjoying the dinner that was everyone. except Joan, Brian, and Michael. Brian was waiting for the other shoe to drop when it came to his mother and Joan and Michael were concerned for Brian because he kept clearing his throat and it was as if he were uncomfortable in his seat. He was feeling antsy and getting agitated. Often there were no warning signs for seizures but some people experienced a few ticks before they exploded into something that at times could be mild and barely noticeable but at other times they could be hard and violent and horrible to watch. Joan didn't want Brian to have one of his episodes before she talked more to Justin about it. She didn't want him to be scared off./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Ben couldn't help it, he knew that he had seen Justin somewhere but he couldn't put his finger on it. That blonde hair, those blue eyes, he had seen that kid somewhere, but where was it. Ben was about to ask since the room had become so quiet, you could hear a pin drop, but Joan Kinney broke the silence first./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""How are you today Brian?" Joan asked testing the waters./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Fine." was Brian's one answer reply to his mother he didn't feel like getting into it. His head was hurting all of a sudden./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I went to the courthouse today and I dropped my motion. I think that you are doing a fine job with the children and I'm proud of you. I think you've found a good man in Justin," said Joan./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin couldn't keep the smile off his face. Even if it all ended now at least he had done his part, he had made sure that Joan had given Gus his father back. He looked to the left and Gus was grinning from ear to ear./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Mom, there's something I need to tell you about Justin," replied Brian./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No, now you don't have to tell me anything, I see the two of you. You've been here an hour and although you haven't kissed or held hands, you just can't stop touching him or smiling at him and I know that if I weren't here you, would openly touch him. But as I told your sister before we lost her, I have no problem with you being gay. Which I don't, I was just concerned about the company that you chose to keep before Justin. Justin, the artist and caring man. You've found a good one Brian, you better not let him go."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't express what he was feeling. He was happy. He was going to be able to keep his family. He turned to Justin to say something, but his vision clouded and before he could do or say anything, he felt himself slipping away, he knew it hurt when he hit the floor./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Joan pulled her grandson aside, and was about to grab Brian but was shocked by what happened next, she was the only one to be shocked though. Michael was frozen in his spot but he was about to grab Brian as well, but now everyone stood back in awe./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin had grabbed Brian before he hit the floor. He quickly turned him on his side. He had seen seizures like this many times and Brian was a fighter. Some people were aware of what was happening and would try and fight through the seizure, as if it was an assailant, but others would just let go and let the body take over. Brian was a fighter, Justin could see the frantic look in his eyes and how Brian would try to speak. Justin made sure Brian wasn't biting his tongue and he whispered words of comfort to him. He needed Brian to let go. He told him to just let go and eventually he did. Brian's arms and legs were kicking frantically and he was making a weird yelping sound and then he wet himself. Justin knew Brian would be embarrassed by that, even though no one else in the room was. Emmett handed Justin a bag and told him it was clothes that Brian kept there, if needed in times like this. Justin watched the clock for the time , it had been five minutes and Brian still was going. Justin was going to have to call an ambulance, he knew it. Then everything would be blown but that wasn't important. Brian was important. Justin didn't exactly know when he began to cry, but he heard Debbie tell him that everything was going to be fine. Brian's body began to relax. Justin looked at the clock and it had only been six minutes. Brian was looking at him. He was back. He was blinking to clear his mind and try to take in what had happened, but the look on everyone's face told him and then he noticed he was wet. He had wet himself, in front of Justin. He would surely leave now./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian, do you know where you are?" Justin asked in a soothing voice./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm on the floor Sunshine, shit don't, don't look at me I need to get up."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian stood up to quickly and the blood rushed to his head, making him dizzy and he began to stumble. Before Michael could react, Justin was right there steadying Brian, which was different. Brian never had someone else be there for him. When he looked in Justin's eyes, he didn't see pity, he saw genuine concern and that look again. Okay, he was convinced, that had to be what love looked like./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Michael couldn't help it. He was still frozen, looking at Justin, guide Brian upstairs to help him shower and get cleaned up. Michael jumped when he felt the familiar arms of his lover, wrap around him./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""It's okay Michael, Brian is fine."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I know, do you see what I see Ben?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Ben looked up and saw Justin and Brian walking up the stairs. Justin was so patient, he understood that when a person comes out of having a seizure they can be scared, or confused and he was taking his time with Brian. But yes, even he saw it./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yea I see it."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I can't believe it, Brian Kinney is in love."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yea, and this time, the person actually loves him back."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Michael wrapped his arms around his lover and kissed him. He was happy that Brian had finally found someone, to love him in every way. He use to think that person would be him, and he knew for the longest time Brian hoped it would be him. Now he knew that Brian had moved on. God, it was good to feel this happy and know that Brian was happy as well. Maybe it would be a good holiday after all./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Gus Kinney ran into The Liberty Avenue Dinner pulling a very exhausted looking Brian behind him. Behind Brian, Justin walked in very slowly carrying Liddie who was asleep in her carrier. They sat down at the back booth and picked up the menu for their lunch. Debbie Novotny watched them from the moment they walked in and she couldn't stop the smile that came to her face. Brian had been so sad because of Melanie and Lindsay and she feared for him, she didn't want this to have a toll on his health he didn't need this, not with Joan looking for anyway to get her hands on the kids to make amends for what she'd done. She liked what she saw though. It was Brian and his family, and he had that cute little blonde with him. Now this was her time to get answers, because Michael nor any of the other members of her "family" were around./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Hey boys, look like you had a busy day? What will it be?" asked Deb./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Grandma, Justin and Uncle Brian and I had the best time today. We went and got a tree for daddy's place. Later after we have lunch we are going to go home and put it up and then Justin said that we'll make hot chocolate and roast chestnuts, and then he's going to help me make my own stocking can you believe that?" said an overly excited Gus./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Debbie was loving every moment of it, she loved how still when Gus got so excited, he would refer to Brian as his uncle. The poor kid only knew that Brian was his father for the last five years and that was only because…./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Deb, can we fucking order!" yelled Brian snapping her from her train of thought./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Well aren't we just a bucket of Sunshine today, what crawled up you and died?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""The tree. I made the mistake of having Justin help me get a tree, he made it turn into a three hour trip. He's there hugging trees and he and Gus are running around like children. People were giving me weird looks, and Liddie was screaming her ass off, we don't have to worry about problems with her lungs she's got two good ones./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Have you picked up her dress yet? Asked Deb./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Dress, what dress?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Her Christmas dress at Little Darlings just off of Tremont, Lindsay had picked it out just for her, for the pictures she set up."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Deb after everything that has happened you don't expect me to still do that do you?/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I certainly do, it's a family photo and you and your kids should do it. It'll be your Christmas card next year, Gus still wants to do it, don't you?/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Well I do but, I just wish…..Gus trailed off./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No what is it Sonnyboy? Questioned Brian./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Well in the beginning I didn't want to do the picture. But ever since that day in your office when we started hanging out with Justin, I thought that maybe I wanted to do the picture. But I only wanted to do it, if maybe Justin would agree to be in it with us."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian didn't know what to say or do. A part of him wanted to ask Gus was he nuts. They had taken up the past week of Justin's life and well he couldn't impose on him to do something like that, even though part of him was thanking Gus because he could use him and get Justin to stay. Even though he was screaming for Justin to stay. He couldn't explain it, he just couldn't get enough of the man. In the past week since Justin had decided to help him out with the children and his mother, he really liked him but could he tell him that. No, he couldn't and besides no one would want to stick around considering…../p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'll do it!" said Justin breaking Brian from his thoughts./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What? No Justin, we couldn't impose on you like that, you've done enough."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin smiled trying to hid the hurt that was in his heart, when Brian didn't want him to be a part of his life anymore. He had done everything to help Brian out with his mother and he thought that maybe Brian was warming up to him. He desperately wanted the man to make love to him like he had the first night, or even better let him fuck him, but not a touch like that since the first night. Could he really not be interested? It hurt him to think that, but then again maybe it was for the best. I mean part of him wanted Brian to want him because he wanted him, but another part of him didn't want him to want him. He scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed and he still couldn't get their blood off his hands. He was torn from his thoughts by his phone ringing. He went outside and took the call./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Hello?" said Justin./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm glad that I got you, listen Derrick fell and broke his ankle, we're going to need you to come in tonight," said Daphne./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm not coming in tonight, I'm with Brian and his family, they invited me over tonight and I'm going to get to meet everyone."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Justin, if you're so afraid of him finding out, why do you keep putting yourself further and further into his life? How do you think he's going to feel when all of this comes out? He's going to feel betrayed. I know you are doing this for the boy, but how do you think this will make a happy holiday for him? It'll make it the worst Christmas ever. Get down here now!"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm not coming!" Justin shouted as he hung up on his best friend./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"When Justin returned to the table, Brian was paying and getting Liddie./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Where are you going Bri?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I've decided that Liddie and I are going to go and get this dress and you and Gus are going to buy my present since he wants to do that without me knowing about it. Then you and I are going to go over to Deb's tonight, ain't that right Deb?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""You better believe it mister, Brian has been hiding you long enough."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Okay, well lets go Gus, we'll see you later."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Olivia Chambers stood in Little Darlings looking for a dress for her little girl Hannah. Hannah was one now and this was her first Christmas and she wanted to get something very nice for her to wear but something she saw out of the corner of her eye was disturbing. One Brian Kinney was standing across from her. He was talking to himself, laughing to himself really. It bothered her, why was he there? He had some nerve following her in such an intimate moment with her daughter. Something had to be done, she had to make it, so he knew that she didn't appreciate being stalked./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian knew he must look nuts. He was talking to himself picking out shoes. Well he wasn't really talking to himself, Liddie sat at his feet on the floor playing with the last pair he had put on her, but from a certain focal point he guess he could look insane./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Okay so we know we want black right?" Brian asked Liddie waiting as if he thought she'd answer./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Black it is. I love black it's our color Liddie. It goes perfect with your little dress."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian looked out of the corner of his eye and she saw one angry looking Olivia Chambers heading his way. What the fuck could she want, he wondered as he picked Liddie up from the floor and then he noticed her face soften./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't help it, the little girl definitely had his heart. The moment he picked her up, she wrapped her little arms around his neck and put her head on his shoulder. She laughed to herself and he couldn't keep the smile off his face when he heard her gurgle, something that definitely sounded like Da./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Mr. Kinney, I must say that I'm surprised to see you here." said a suspicious Olivia Chambers./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Well it's Christmas time and Liddie and I have to get ready for our Christmas picture, don't we Liddie? Give daddy a smile."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Wow, I must say that I never pictured you for a family man, Brian where's your wife?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Liddie here is my youngest, she's almost seven months. She has an older brother Augustus he's ten. As for the wife, she's dead."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh Mr. Kinney, I'm so sorry to hear that. I wasn't aware of that, how long has it been?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Not very long, right after Thanksgiving."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Olivia didn't know what to believe anymore. Her assistant had told her that Brian was very charming and that if he wanted anything he'd get it. That's why she was so upset when she saw him. She thought that he had used people he knew to track her down at this store with her daughter. She also heard that he was a gay slut, from other circles. She didn't have a problem with the man being gay but the slut part was what had her worried. She didn't want to be associated with a man who lead a colorful life, but now here was a young man, with a child no doubt, and he mentioned a wife. What was going on here?/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Mr. Kinney, I don't mean to intrude but I was told that you were gay, and that you were single."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""It's Brian, don't call me Mr. it makes me feel old. Yes I'm gay, it's a funny story about Liddie, it's a funny story about how I come to be her father. One for the record books actually."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Olivia thought that maybe she was wrong about him, there was just something so warm and caring about his face, and that daughter of his. She was gorgeous. She wanted to know the story and it looked like he was willing to share it, so she thought of a way of spending a few moments with this very intriguing man./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian, I'd love to hear the story. Maybe we could go over there to the food court and grab a bite and you could tell me the story. I'm not trying to pry, but I've been given the wrong impression of you and well, now I sort of feel bad that I didn't keep our appointment last week. Maybe you could tell me some of your ideas. Maybe I shouldn't be asking that, I mean this is your family time with your daughter."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No I could use something to eat, and Liddie as well. We can go and have a seat."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin had to admit, that spending the day with Gus was becoming more and more enjoyable. He had totally forgotten about Daphne calling him. He was not going back to that place, he was on vacation until after the holidays and maybe after he would quit. He didn't need a real profession. Lindsay had told him how incredibly talented he was and she had helped him sell some things. He was successful at his art. He didn't need his job. All he really needed, was standing next to him chatting away. Oh and Liddie and Brian. That's all he needed was them./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"He had learned a lot talking to Gus over the past hour, as they picked out Brian's gift but the most heartfelt thing and yet sad thing was how Gus himself had come into existence. The story was that Brian and Lindsay were high school sweethearts, but they realized after a couple years, that they were both looking for something else and Brian left for college. When he came back, apparently the something else Lindsay was looking for, was his sister, Melanie. Turns out Brian and Melanie was twins. Finding that out, Justin thought back to the few times he had met Melanie and yea, she and Brian were one in the same./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Gus told Justin how his mother couldn't have children and his momma Lindsay, had in fact, carried him. Gus told how they had picked Brian because he was a good man and at least this way, even though Melanie didn't carry him, she wouldn't just be his mother, she would be his aunt. That meant they were related not only by love but by blood, and that was important for them all to be joined by blood. So he was indeed part of Lindsay and Melanie and that made Justin think that Brian had a heart, far bigger than he thought. It was also very flattering that Lindsay and Melanie didn't care about Brian's condition and the fact that either one of the children could have been passed the gene, but neither one of them had been./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin was having a good time with Gus but he started to get scared when Justin told him the reason, he was finally told that his Uncle Brian was in fact, his father. Apparently, Brian had been diagnosed with Cancer, when Gus was five and things didn't look good. So they told Gus, so that he could spend as much time with Brian as possible. Brian recovered, but that got Justin wondering if Brian was healthy? It had been five years, if there were no more flair ups, then he was in remission. Damn, now he really wanted to get to Brian, he needed to touch him. They'd be at Deb's soon enough./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"The dinner at Deb's was going great. She really had a huge family now. There was Emmett and George, Teddy and Blake, her precious Michael and his partner Ben. They even had a new baby girl,named Imani now. She was beautiful and she adored her big brother Hunter, who was home for Christmas. They talked and it was hard because the absence of Lindsay and Melanie was stifling the mood, until Emmett brought up a subject./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""So have you guys met him yet? What did you think Mrs. Kinney, do you like Justin?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Joan couldn't stop the smile that was spreading across her face, she had big news and she couldn't wait for Brian to get there so she could tell him. All the people here were her family, she knew that right now they were liking her allot and they were still welcoming to her, so she would tell them first./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Oh Em I just adore Justin and he adores Gus and Lindsay so much, I can't wait for he and Brian to get here, so I can tell them my news."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What's the news?" asked Emmett./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I went to the court and stopped my motion. I certainly didn't want to take the children from Brian but you know how he lives his life. I was afraid that he would never find someone to let into his heart, I'm to blame for him being closed off. I know this. I thought that Brian would never want to love anyone but when I went over to the house that morning, and saw Justin, there was no way you could miss it. He loves my boy so much."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Michael was observing everyone smiling, but there was something off about his partner, Ben. Ben's smile was more of a forced one and this concerned him./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""What is it Ben?" asked Michael./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Its just every time Brian gets a good one, they find out about him and they leave him. They are as frightened off about the Epilepsy, as most people are scared off by my HIV status. I just hope that this one, is a keeper."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian sat in the car outside of Deb's house looking at his mother's car contemplating should he go in or not. He knew that his driver was ready to leave so now was the time to make the decision. Was he to go in or not./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""We're going in Thomas. I won't need the service anymore tonight Justin's bringing the car and he will be with me."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Are you sure Mr. Kinney, I still have a little time before I need to get home?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No, we're good thanks Thomas."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian tipped the man and got out of the car with Liddie. Liddie had actually let Olivia hold her. She was blonde though and his little girl had a thing for blondes. He could do this, he could have dinner with his mother and not jump across the table and kill her couldn't he? Yea he could, she loved him. He understood what she was doing, didn't mean it still didn't hurt but he understood why she was doing what she was doing. Okay Liddie lets go see Grandmas./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Everyone was enjoying the dinner that was everyone. except Joan, Brian, and Michael. Brian was waiting for the other shoe to drop when it came to his mother and Joan and Michael were concerned for Brian because he kept clearing his throat and it was as if he were uncomfortable in his seat. He was feeling antsy and getting agitated. Often there were no warning signs for seizures but some people experienced a few ticks before they exploded into something that at times could be mild and barely noticeable but at other times they could be hard and violent and horrible to watch. Joan didn't want Brian to have one of his episodes before she talked more to Justin about it. She didn't want him to be scared off./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Ben couldn't help it, he knew that he had seen Justin somewhere but he couldn't put his finger on it. That blonde hair, those blue eyes, he had seen that kid somewhere, but where was it. Ben was about to ask since the room had become so quiet, you could hear a pin drop, but Joan Kinney broke the silence first./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""How are you today Brian?" Joan asked testing the waters./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Fine." was Brian's one answer reply to his mother he didn't feel like getting into it. His head was hurting all of a sudden./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I went to the courthouse today and I dropped my motion. I think that you are doing a fine job with the children and I'm proud of you. I think you've found a good man in Justin," said Joan./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin couldn't keep the smile off his face. Even if it all ended now at least he had done his part, he had made sure that Joan had given Gus his father back. He looked to the left and Gus was grinning from ear to ear./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Mom, there's something I need to tell you about Justin," replied Brian./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""No, now you don't have to tell me anything, I see the two of you. You've been here an hour and although you haven't kissed or held hands, you just can't stop touching him or smiling at him and I know that if I weren't here you, would openly touch him. But as I told your sister before we lost her, I have no problem with you being gay. Which I don't, I was just concerned about the company that you chose to keep before Justin. Justin, the artist and caring man. You've found a good one Brian, you better not let him go."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian couldn't express what he was feeling. He was happy. He was going to be able to keep his family. He turned to Justin to say something, but his vision clouded and before he could do or say anything, he felt himself slipping away, he knew it hurt when he hit the floor./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Joan pulled her grandson aside, and was about to grab Brian but was shocked by what happened next, she was the only one to be shocked though. Michael was frozen in his spot but he was about to grab Brian as well, but now everyone stood back in awe./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Justin had grabbed Brian before he hit the floor. He quickly turned him on his side. He had seen seizures like this many times and Brian was a fighter. Some people were aware of what was happening and would try and fight through the seizure, as if it was an assailant, but others would just let go and let the body take over. Brian was a fighter, Justin could see the frantic look in his eyes and how Brian would try to speak. Justin made sure Brian wasn't biting his tongue and he whispered words of comfort to him. He needed Brian to let go. He told him to just let go and eventually he did. Brian's arms and legs were kicking frantically and he was making a weird yelping sound and then he wet himself. Justin knew Brian would be embarrassed by that, even though no one else in the room was. Emmett handed Justin a bag and told him it was clothes that Brian kept there, if needed in times like this. Justin watched the clock for the time , it had been five minutes and Brian still was going. Justin was going to have to call an ambulance, he knew it. Then everything would be blown but that wasn't important. Brian was important. Justin didn't exactly know when he began to cry, but he heard Debbie tell him that everything was going to be fine. Brian's body began to relax. Justin looked at the clock and it had only been six minutes. Brian was looking at him. He was back. He was blinking to clear his mind and try to take in what had happened, but the look on everyone's face told him and then he noticed he was wet. He had wet himself, in front of Justin. He would surely leave now./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Brian, do you know where you are?" Justin asked in a soothing voice./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I'm on the floor Sunshine, shit don't, don't look at me I need to get up."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Brian stood up to quickly and the blood rushed to his head, making him dizzy and he began to stumble. Before Michael could react, Justin was right there steadying Brian, which was different. Brian never had someone else be there for him. When he looked in Justin's eyes, he didn't see pity, he saw genuine concern and that look again. Okay, he was convinced, that had to be what love looked like./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Michael couldn't help it. He was still frozen, looking at Justin, guide Brian upstairs to help him shower and get cleaned up. Michael jumped when he felt the familiar arms of his lover, wrap around him./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""It's okay Michael, Brian is fine."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I know, do you see what I see Ben?"/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Ben looked up and saw Justin and Brian walking up the stairs. Justin was so patient, he understood that when a person comes out of having a seizure they can be scared, or confused and he was taking his time with Brian. But yes, even he saw it./p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yea I see it."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""I can't believe it, Brian Kinney is in love."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;""Yea, and this time, the person actually loves him back."/p
p style="font-family: verdana, helvetica, tahoma, arial, sans-serif; background-color: #f5fafa;"Michael wrapped his arms around his lover and kissed him. He was happy that Brian had finally found someone, to love him in every way. He use to think that person would be him, and he knew for the longest time Brian hoped it would be him. Now he knew that Brian had moved on. God, it was good to feel this happy and know that Brian was happy as well. Maybe it would be a good holiday after all./p