A/N: This chapter is VERY NSFW - it's the night before Ilos, so you know what that means. ;)
Chasing Starlight - Chapter 18 - Us
Evelyn's computer, data pads, and floor lights gently illuminated her quarters while she reread all the information she had on Ilos. A simple, traditional table lamp next to Evelyn's bed provided the just enough extra light needed to read in the absence of the overhead lights. She sat at the table closest to the door of her cabin, its surface covered with neatly organized data pads. She was obsessing over the data, searching any edge she could find in preparation for the mission. Shepard had already been over each report multiple times.
A trio of soft wraps on her steel door brought her from her thoughts. She didn't realize it until now, but her eyes were slightly burning from staring at screens for too long without blinking. She rubbed her eyes, yawned lightly, and replied, "It's open."
The hushed swish and harsh lighting from outside the cabin revealed Kaidan at the door, but Evelyn already knew it would be him from his knock.
"Commander?" He asked as he stepped inside, the door closing automatically behind him.
"I'm not sure you should even call me that anymore…" Evelyn muttered beneath her breath, as she set the data pad down neatly on the top of one of the stacks on the table. She looked up at the approaching handsome lieutenant. "What's on your mind, Kaidan?"
Kaidan stopped a few feet from where Shepard was sitting at the table. "Just that…it will really hit the fan when we get to Ilos. If things end up going wrong, well, I just want you to know I've enjoyed serving under you, ma'am."
Evelyn slid her chair back and stood. "Kaidan," she softly breathed. "So much has happened…and I…" Shepard's voice trailed off as she took a step closer. A draft from the room wafted his fresh, clean scent to Evelyn's nose.
Kaidan closed the distance between them. "You did the right thing, Shepard," his husky voice reassured. "It's why I'm still calling you 'Commander.' Even if you don't think you deserve it."
"I sure hope so. It's just…" Evelyn sighed, erasing the hesitation from her voice and changing her tone to a categorical one. "We mutinied, stole a prototype warship, never mind the fraternization regs. If we're wrong, it will be the end of our careers." She gulped and tried not to dwell on how disappointed her mother would be. "That being said, I think we'll regret it a whole lot more if we're right and didn't do anything."
Kaidan scoffed facetiously, trying to lighten the mood. "I'm sure breach of fraternization protocol will be pretty far down the list at our courts martial." He was prepared to chuckle if Evelyn did, but instead, he swallowed as she looked down without making a sound. Kaidan glanced over her shoulder at the pile of data pads. "Dwelling on the mission? Trying to find every little detail that could help?"
"Yeah…" Evelyn nodded, unsure of what else to say.
Kaidan took Shepard's hands in his. "You know what, you're right. About everything." He looked down, squeezing her hands slightly. "I think about losing you and I can't stand it." Kaidan looked back up, his whisky-colored eyes gazing into her steel ones. "The galaxy will just keep going. Everything, even the Reapers will come around again." Kaidan paused briefly, swirled his thumbs atop her hands, and swallowed. "But you and I, we are important right now." Evelyn's heart skipped a beat upon hearing those words. Kaidan continued, "This is what will never happen again - us. Shepard you make me feel…human."
Evelyn's silver eyes twinkled as she focused on the honey colored details in his, noting the earnestness in his orbs. Kaidan, closed his eyes and bowed his head, patiently awaiting her response. Evelyn pressed her forehead to his and wrapped her arms around his waist. He opened his eyes and found hers before him. "Stay here with me tonight, Kaidan," Shepard whispered, her lips nearly brushing against his as she spoke. She moved her mouth next to his ear. "Please."
"Is that an order, Commander?" Kaidan asked coyly, his breath warm in her ear.
"I wouldn't have said 'please' if it was." Evelyn stated as she drew backwards to gaze upon his face. "No games, Kaidan. When we're together like this, I don't want you thinking of me that way," she admitted, her tone completely serious.
Kaidan grinned, relieved and intrigued. She didn't want a pet – she truly wanted him. Her words stirred something primal in him; she was a woman of power, standing vulnerably in front of him and saying please. He brought a hand up to caress her cheek, brushing a lock of her crimson hair that had fallen in her face back to its proper place behind her ear. Shepard laid one hand on the back of his neck. Her fingers grazed over his amp port, and moved to play with his dark, coarse hair. Kaidan pulled Shepard closer to him, and their lips connected, sending a spark of need through them. The two passionately kissed, their hands pulling the other in as close as they could. Evelyn tugged at the base of Kaidan's shirt, untucked it from his pants, and lifted it over his head. She moved her mouth away from his, allowing her gaze to travel down to his sculpted abdomen, where she gently laid her hands. Kaidan kissed her with a hunger; their mouths crashed against each other as Kaidan confidently slid his tongue against Shepard's. She moaned against his mouth and felt the warmth of desire between her legs.
Kaidan didn't take his lips off of hers as he brought his hands to the base of her camisole and pulled it off in one swift motion. With his eyes still closed, he moved his hands to her back to remove her bra, skillfully undoing the clasp with nimble fingers. Evelyn felt a rush of heat fly to her cheeks as she allowed the undergarment to fall, revealing her bare chest to him. Kaidan moved his lips away from Shepard's, opened his amber eyes, and moved slightly back, taking in the sight of her perfect, round breasts. His gaze twinkling with an almost boyish happiness like that of a kid opening a gift. Evelyn felt the tip of his erection brush against her, and she pulled him in for another kiss. The dichotomy of his visage and his body language cause heat to pool between her legs.
Shepard stepped backward towards the bed and Kaidan followed her instinctively, a gap never forming between them. Evelyn was so focused on Kaidan - the softness of his lips, the hardness of his erection, the warmth of his skin against hers - that she didn't realize how close she was to the bed. Her knees buckled as she fell backwards onto the bed. Her naked torso laid supine of the mattress, a sharp contrast to her yoga-pant covered legs, which were folded over the edge of the bed. The low light of the room made her pale skin and breasts almost glow . Kaidan looked at Shepard with a hunger that had to be sated. One side of his lips turned up, his visage insinuating a devilish plan. He glided closer to her vulnerable posture and kneeled at the edge of the bed. Shepard watched him intently, wondering and anxious to see what that smirk meant he had in store for her. Kaidan gripped her ankles and slid his hands up the length of her legs, stopping at her waist. He curled his fingers around the top of her soft grey pants and slowly pulled them down, revealing lavender colored cotton panties with a simple lace waist band. Kaidan moved his mouth to where his hands had started, Evelyn's ankles, and placed his firm lips to her skin, lightly creating a trail of kisses up her leg at an agonizing pace. When he finally reached the top, Kaidan teasingly kissed the soft fabric between her legs, all around her most sensitive spot, but purposely leaving it for later. Evelyn wiggled beneath him. "Kaidan, please," she begged. Kaidan stopped, and slid one finger beneath the undergarment, brushing only the inner most part of her thighs. He looked up at her with wicked eyes, and smirked again. Instead of giving Shepard what she wanted, Kaidan removed his hands and moved back down to her other ankle and repeated the painstakingly pleasurable process.
Shepard panted as Kaidan moved, whimpering soft pleads for more. Once Kaidan had reached her apex again, he gently wrapped his fingers inside of the lace waist band of her panties and swiftly pulled them down to her ankles. An instant later, Kaidan finally grazed his tongue between Evelyn's folds, and she moaned as her hips moved meet his mouth. He temporarily withdrew it, his husky voice needing to make a comment. "It looks like I've found something you can't be patient about," Kaidan accused enticingly. Shepard could barely respond, but managed to breath out a simple "yes." He chuckled in response, and devilishly placed his hands on her hips, and pinned her down. "Say please." He ordered flirtatiously.
"Please, Kaidan," Shepard whispered. Kaidan growled in approval and began to swirl his tongue around her clit, his powerful hands keeping her hips down on the bed. Her moaning grew more frequent – she didn't realize how loud she was getting. Kaidan stopped ravaging her with his mouth and looked up with fire his eyes. He removed his hands from her hips and placed one finger over his lips, signaling for her to be quiet, as another slid inside of her. He resumed licking her center, pressing her down with his one free hand, as he brought her closer and closer to her peak. Kaidan slightly hooked a wiggled his finger inside of her, finding the spot that would send her over the edge. As Shepard tightened around him,n her climax eminent, he sucked gently on her nub, causing her release. "Oh, god, Kaidan!" she shouted a whisper as she came. Kaidan slowed the pace that his mouth and fingers moved against her and made her orgasm last as long as possible.
When she was finally done he stood, wiping her wetness from his mouth, and spoke, his voice husky. "Did you enjoy that, Evelyn?"
"You have no idea," she managed to reply. As she took a moment to catch her breath, Evelyn pondered on how they were headed into an unknown danger tomorrow. This could be my last night with him. Shepard knew what she wanted, and didn't want to lose her chance to properly be with him. "Kaidan…" her voice trailed off.
Shepard pulled herself fully on to the bed and stopping once her head hit the pillows. She stared into his amber eyes, "I want you." Kaidan's cock twitched involuntarily at her admission, growing harder inside of his pants. "Are you sure, Shepard?" he asked respectfully. She responded with one simple word: "Absolutely." Kaidan smiled lovingly, light dancing in his golden eyes. He hadn't been with a woman since he joined the Alliance, but that wasn't why he was so excited – she was. Finally, after over a decade, he was going to be with a woman who accepted him for who he was and genuinely cared for him. Maybe even loved him. He was certain that he was in love with her, but wasn't sure if he should voice that yet or not.
Without hesitation, he casually unbuckled his pants and allowed them to fall to the floor, his erection springing forth freely and proudly. Evelyn blushed as the sight of his large, hard cock, knowing it would soon be inside of her. Kaidan walked to the foot of the bed and climbed atop it. He crawled across the length of Shepard's pale, toned body, planting the occasional kiss along the way. Finally, he reached the head of the bed, and placed his hands on either side of her shoulders and hovered over her. He teased her pussy gently with the tip of his member and enjoyed the sounds she made from the pleasure it caused. Evelyn was so incredibly wet; Kaidan would have no difficulty sliding into her. He positioned the tip of his erection at her entrance and paused. He looked her directly in the eye and with utmost sincerity asked: "You're positive?"
Such a gentleman, Evelyn mused. There was no doubt in her mind that Kaidan respected and cared for her. A lesser man would have simply taken her without consideration of her past, or rather, lack thereof. She nodded in approval to his inquiry, "Yes, Kaidan, I'm sure." She smiled, and he beamed back at her. Kaidan slowly eased his member into her incredibly narrow passage, groaning in pleasure as she surrounded him. "God, Evelyn, you're so tight," he whispered as he lowered his body even closer to hers. Shepard could feel the weight of his muscular chest on her, and welcomed the safe feeling it brought. The feeling of his slick warmth inside of her was intoxicating and she raised her hips to meet his. Her arms wrapped around him, held him close, and her nails dug slightly into his warm tanned skin.
Kaidan's pace quickened, his thrusts gradually growing harder and faster, until they met a moderate but intensely intimate tempo. The two softly moaned in pleasure, occasionally whispering how incredible it felt to the other. Their hands caressed the other's skin: hers on his back and shoulders, his on her arms. Their fingers intertwined as Kaidan pinned Evelyn's hands next to her head. He admitted how close he was to his climax and Shepard wrapped her legs around him. Kaidan paused his motions briefly, knowing he would come inside of her if she didn't release her hold on him. "Evelyn, I…" he started to object, but she interrupted him. "Kaidan, it's ok," Shepard winked. "I've had my shots."
Relieved, Kaidan resumed pumping and in and out of her, bringing himself back up to the indulgent pace they had just been at. He penetrated her at the perfect angle, hitting just the right spot, and Shepard tightened around him. "Kaidan, I'm so close," she softly confessed. Kaidan increased his speed a little more, and it sent Evelyn over the edge. She whispered his name as she came around him, her walls fluctuating around his cock. In response Kaidan suddenly shuddered, his cock twitching as he spilled himself inside of her, gently moaning her name. Kaidan laid his amber eyes upon her glowing, smiling face, and wiped the sweat from his forehead before it dripped down. Sated and exhausted, Kaidan gently collapsed on to Evelyn, his weight heavy but comfortable on her strong body. After a few moments, Kaidan rolled to Shepard's side. She turned to face him and draped herself across his chest. Kaidan embraced her, breathing heavily, perspiration adorning his brow. He planted a gentle kiss on her forehead. He started to speak, "That was…"
"Incredible." The two declared simultaneously, giggling afterwards, amused that they had the same thought.
The two caressed each other's skin gently and spoke of sweet nothings until wishing the other to sleep well, and drifted off to sleep.
A/N: Phew! I hope you all enjoyed reading that as much as I enjoyed writing it! Thank you to ImpSlave and VorchaGirl for reviewing chapter 17, and to Mssticha for always being willing to beta read for me. Y'all are awesome!