Chapter 9 Confused

It has been three months ago when I made it up with Jane, met my dad and when I went on my first date with Lucas. It has been surprisingly going well for me. I accepted a little more that my mom never was coming back. That she was dead. Jane and I hadn't been fighting anymore and we had more happy moments than ever. I met my dad and we were actually bonding really well. We even had nicknames for each other. I called him old man and he me kid. Lucas and I were after a lot of trouble in a relationship. I said yes to him because I was mad at my mom and wanted to rebellion about it. Like I was a child. Our date was a disaster and it went like this.

I was really nervous. I said yes to him. My first real date since Jesse. I decided to wear regular clothes. I wasn't expecting to get in a relationship with him. I was waiting at the starly for about five minutes when I saw Lucas walking into my direction. He was handsome that night.

'Hello, Rose' he greeted me and kissed my hand.

'Hi.' I replied.

'Shall we go inside? I am starving!'

'Sure.' He took my hand and opened the door for me. Neither of us had made a reservation but that wasn't a problem. A waiter led us to our table near the window with view of the town. The starly was my favourite restaurant and the food was delicious. I grabbed the menu too decide what I was going to eat. I was busy with reading when I cut Lucas looking at me.

'What are you looking at?' I asked.

'At the beautiful thing right in front of me.'

'Thanks I guess.' I felt weird. What the hell was I doing again? Oh, yes. I was on a date with some strange guy and all that because I was angry at my mom. Who was dead. I could be so stupid sometimes.

'You know what? I think this was a mistake. I am sorry. I am going' I said. I stood up and so did Lucas.

'Wait. Why? Did I do something wrong?' he asked.

'No' I assured him 'I don't know you and I actually said yes to you because I was angry.' I tried to be honest but I knew it was cruel.

'Oh.. Well. Goodbye then.' He said back down in his chair with a disappointed look on his face.

'It isn't that you don't seem like a nice guy or something' I rumbled. Gosh. My words came out wrong all the time. 'Wait let's do this. I will eat with you tonight and we start as friends. What do you think?' He looked up and smiled a little and nodded. I sat back down and we started talking. I got to know him more and discovered that he was sweet. At the end of the night I knew he could be someone I wanted to date.

After that horrible date we were struggling with people against us. Jane and Dimitri both didn't approve it. He seemed like a bad guy to them but I clearly didn't listen. After a month we were together. He kissed me for the first time under a tree in the park. I was really happy that night. Every time I thought about him made me happy. I liked him. I knew that I wasn't really in love yet but that could grow.

And then there is Dimitri. My best friend. We grew close the last couple of months. We hanged out a lot together. Of course I found this weird in the beginning because of Jane but we talked about it and she was okay with it all. She knew Dimitri and trusted him with me. I could tell him everything but there was something more between us then just friendship. I didn't want it to admit because I had Lucas. I definitely felt attracted to Dimitri. My heart raised when he was near me and he made me laugh. There were problems like I said before Lucas was one of them, his age, Jane and I didn't want to ruin our friendship. And what if he didn't feel the same? I would make a total fool out of myself. I would meet him later this day. We headed to the cinema for the new movie. Suicide Squad. I liked superheroes and action and so did Dimitri secretly.

I clang to his side and sighed of happiness. I always felt happy when I was near him. He had his hair loose and I liked it a lot. His chocolate brown eyes lit up in the moonlight. I saw him looking at me from the corner of his eyes. He smiled.

'I am so excited, Comrade!' I said happily.

'I can tell' he laughed 'I'd rather stayed home and watched a western movie.'

'Come on. I know you like superheroes. too. Admit it' I said teasingly. He rolled his eyes. He knew what I was doing. I threw my charm in to make him do something.

'Not this time, Rose. Not this time.'

'Then why did you want to go to this movie?'

'Because you wanted too. We are here.' We walked in and waited in the line for the tickets. There felt a comfortable silence over us and it was our turn very fast.

'Two tickets for suicide squad, please' Dimitri said. The cashier handed us over the tickets and as usual Dimitri paid. The cashier wished us a good evening. We said goodbye. We bought popcorn and soda. After that we walked into the hall and sat down in the back row. I took my coat off.

'So I am seeing Lucas tomorrow' I said casually. I knew this was a sensitive subject because Dimitri was very protective over me. He cringed at the sound of his name and I sighed in frustration. 'Why do you hate him so much?'

'Rose, we are in a public place. Not here' He said hushing me. I saw that the movie started.

'Okay. But we will talk about this after the movie.' I enjoyed it a lot. I even loved it. It was a good mix of humour and action. I needed to get this on DVD when it would come out.

Dimitri and I drove in silence to his home where my car was parked. I knew there was an argument coming. We walked into his house and I closed the door behind me. He explained to me that he lived alone and his family in Denver. His house was big too and beautiful. I was still amazed at how neat this house was for a guy. He sat down and I stayed standing where I was.

'So are you going to answer my question? Why do you hate Lucas so much? Every time I bring him up you go crazy!' I said outraged.

'I have so my reasons. I just don't trust him. You deserve way better' he said calm as always. In arguments he put a mask that hides his feeling. I cuffed.

'You don't have the right too.'

'I do. I am your friend.'

'You're my best friend, so what? That's just an excuse. Give me a good reason.'

'I know and I can't' he said as if it was hurting him badly 'I don't want to lose you, Rose and if I will share this with you everything will be ruined.'

'You won't lose me. Never. Your my friend for always.' I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around him. We didn't hug very often only if one of us needed it. He wrapped his around me too. We sat down there in silence for a minute when I pulled back. I smiled and looked at his gorgeous face. My heart skipped a beat when he looked me into my eyes. I needed to stop thinking about him like this. I had Lucas.

'I got to go tough' I said with a sorry tone in my voice 'Or I could call Jane and sleep here on the couch. What do you think?'

'I would love that' he said.

'Great! I will call here. Then we can go play monopoly or something.' I grabbed my cell phone and dialled Janes number. She picked up instantly.

'Rose, are you okay?' She asked. She would never stop worrying about me and I loved her for it.

'Yeah, I am fine. Is it okay if I spent the night at Dimitris?' I asked.

'Uhmm.. No school. Have you done your homework?'

'Jane, It is a holiday! It's almost Christmas!'

'I totally knew that' she said laughing.

'No, you forgot it didn't you?' I said back trying to teas her 'So is it okay?'

'Yes, of course. I will see you tomorrow.'

'Thanks, Bye Jane.' We both hang up and I turned to Dimitri with a grin on my face.

'You are not going to get rid of me this night!' I said laughing.

'Fine by me.' He totally knew I was teasing him. I sat down on the couch and looked at him with a serious expression.

'Now go get the monopoly! And don't let me win tonight' I demanded. He laughed stood up and was back in a few seconds. We made ourselves ready to play and we started. We played for over one and half hour and he let me win again. I acted like was mad but I wasn't of course. I always had a smile on my face with him nearby. I made myself ready for the night with a t-shirt Dimitri gave me. I hadn't thought about picking clothes up and it was too late. His t-shirt was comfy so it didn't matter. He brought me blankets and made a sort of bed ready on the couch. I laid down. I checked my phone before sleeping and saw that I had a text from Lucas.

Hey, don't forget our date for tomorrow. I thought I would let you know. Sleep tight, beautiful. Lucas.

I decided I wouldn't reply and turned off my phone. I turned a couple of times and then fell asleep but then again I had a nightmare.

I was running for my life when I turned to look over my shoulder. I didn't see the guy coming after me. I ran a few more minutes and then stopped to calm down my heart. I ended up on a road. It seemed familiar. I saw a car driving. My mom's car. I saw her sitting in the car and someone else. Someone I knew. I looked harder and saw it was me. I saw the car hitting a tree. My mom's shocked face and myself. Dead.

I screamed it out and heard Dimitri rushing out of his room towards me. I told him about the nightmares and he knew exactly what was going on. I tried to slap him when he touched me because I was scared.

'Roza, calm down. It's okay. It's me. You're okay' he said trying to calm me down. On the sound of his voice I calmed down a little. He sat down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. I hold on to him tightly. Then I realized I was breathing heavily and that Dimitri the only one who could calm me down. We sat there for a few minutes and it was going better. He noticed and wanted to get up but I pulled him back. He looked at me with a confused face.

'Will you stay with me tonight?' I begged him. He nodded and lied down next to me on the little couch. He put his arms around me again and I laid my head down on his chest. Within minutes I felt asleep again at the sound of his heartbeat. I never slept better in my entire life.

A/N: I hadn't realized when I last updated. I have no excuse and I am so sorry! But anyways I changed my summary because I have another ending planned. I don't know if you would like it but I am taking the risk. Thanks for all the people who gave this story a favourite, review or follow! You guys are awesome.

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