Chapter 6: New brain please
[Cry's pov]
I didn't wake up from the alarm, Pewds woke me up this particular morning… imagine that would you? The first thing you see in the morning is Pewdie's face as he's trying to wake you up… most people would kill for that kind of alarm clock…
"Ryan… Wake up!" Pewds said as he gently shook me in an attempt to wake me up…
"Hmm… I'm awake… I'm aw…" I tried, but nearly fell right back to sleep… not that crazy for mornings… had it been up to me we'd all go to night classes…
"Fuck no you're not! You've been saying that the last three times I tried waking you up!" Pewds said… oups…
"Sorry…I don't like mornings…" I said, I'm too sleepy to care about grammar or sounding smart…
"Well I made you breakfast… so get up!" Pewds said. Now this perked my interest…
"What did you make?" I asked… I hate mornings, but I'm so hungry…
"Not telling you… you have to get up and find that out for yourself" Pewds said, and surprisingly he managed to say it with a pokerface, successfully making me unable to figure out anything at all…
"Damn… Pewdie! No wait, fuck, Felix I meant… Felix! Tell me! It's too damn early for this…" I said, well barely… I'm sleepy…
"Ryan… we have school today too you know…" Felix said… oh yeah… we do…
"Shit…" I said as I tried lifting myself up from my bed, which is harder than you'd think… in the morning it feels like your entire body is covered in small but heavy weights that won't come off until you finish dressing for school… well that's how I feel...
"Felix, how long have you been up?" I asked, looking up towards him as I yawned… fuck mornings…
"I've been up since the alarm went off… which is about an hour ago…" he answered… doesn't sleep concern him at all? What kind of super human are you Pewds?
"Wait… that mean we have about 30 minutes until we have to go to school! Why didn't you wake me up earlier!?" I asked, panicking all over the place, and suddenly the weights lifted as I hurriedly put my clothes on.
"Well I tried! I've tried waking you up for about 35 minutes now!" Felix said a little angrily…
"Sorry… but I told you I can't skip to much sleep…" I said…
"Yeah I know… I'm sorry…" he replied.
When Pewds had left the room all the thoughts about what he had said in that Skype conversation returned, and I couldn't help getting a little distant as my mind tried figuring out what to do about it all… I didn't notice that 10 minutes had gone by as I thought about everything until Pewds entered the room and pointed at his watch…
"Shit!" I said as I hurried down with him and ate breakfast.
We arrived just in time for school, and of course people started wondering even more now… this was after all the second time we walked to school together… and he started at our school 3 days ago… and the fact that I never really spoke to anyone made them more suspicious…
During our recess Felix and I talked about all sorts of things again, and it was like it only was him and me sitting there… nothing else seemed to matter at that time…
"So Ryan? You really like gaming, huh?"
"Yeah, how about you?" I answered.
"No not really, I like watching others play though" she answered, and that's when I realized we had attracted quite the group of people and that it was Kathrin that had asked that question… fuck…
"Wow… he actually talked to someone…" one of the other girls in Kathrin's little group said.
"Yeah, but I think he realized that we're here now…" a usually more quiet member of Kathrin's group said… I always saw her as the brains in the group… she doesn't really belong in that group though… I think she was Kathrin's childhood friend, and she kinda just stuck to Kathrin I guess… Amelia I think her name was…
"So he's not gonna talk anymore then? Is that what you're saying?" Kathrin asked, looking like that fact bored her… well I'm sorry for not liking that much attention all the time… Fucks sake, I just want to be anonymous… you guys already figured out my name, even my brother's name… and now you want every fact about me? Fuck that…
"Well excuse me for not wanting to talk to everyone all the damn time…" I said in a prissy voice without realizing what I had just done… I should not have done that… for fucks sake Pewds, what are you doing to me? You're making me reveal that I'm Cry… that's what you're doing… shit… I didn't mean to say that, it's just… I got angry and… fuck…
"Shit, he even has an attitude, who would have known…" Kathrin said, she sounded a little bemused actually…
"You know Ryan, you've always been an interesting person because nobody gets you to open up to them… that made you an unknown and interesting object… after a while we all kinda just gave up though… but now you've opened up to someone, and that makes you interesting again…" Kathrin said, and her words scared the shit out of me… I've seen WAY to many movies to not take this as a bad sign…
"You're scaring him Kathrin…" Amelia said… when did she learn how to read minds? Oh that's right! I have my powers! I could just use them to make them leave! That way Pewds and me could continue our conversation! Our conversation about… books and teachers? Wait… I've been talking to the others in the group for a little while now…
WAIT… where the fuck is Pewds!? He must have left now recently…
"Wait, where's Pewds?" I asked…
"He just went out… said something about getting some fresh air" Amelia answered… shit I'm starting to like her! Not like-like, but as a friend…
"Thanks Amelia!" I said as I started running towards the exit… truth is I was starting to feel a little claustrophobic… I don't have claustrophobia, but there was too many people around me, and they were all looking at me… STUDYING me…
After running around outside for a little while, I found Pewds.
"Felix! Why'd you leave me in there?" I asked, a little confused.
"I just… I won't do that again…" he said… now that I get to look at him up close I can see that he's kinda sad… and… angry? Irritated?
"Do what again? What's up?" I said, still a little out of breath… I ran quite fast mind you… and besides I never really liked sports…
"I… I'll tell you next time someone approaches… I…" Pewds said, but never finished…
"No need… you could just give me some sort of sign… but it doesn't matter that much…" I said… why the fuck did I say that!? It DOES matter! I don't want my Pewdiecry loving class to find out! What's up with me? What's up with the both of us!?
"Yes it DOES… I… I don't like it… it feels like I'm losing you…" Pewds said… well shit…
"I… but you're not… I still don't like talking to other people… didn't you hear my prissy voice when I told them to fuck off?" I asked… not really what I said, but it felt like it was…
"Really? You did that? Fuck, I missed it…" he said, and we couldn't help laughing a little… the aura around us had been really horrible for a while there… too much tension…
"Yeah you did" I said as my laughter was coming to an end.
After Pewdie's laughter died down completely his eyes locked with mine… shit his eyes are REALLY blue…
"Ryan?" he asked, his eyes still watching my eyes, no, searching for something in my eyes…
"Y-yeah?" I asked a little nervously… oh shit…
"I really like you… as more than a friend…" he said, and I couldn't help feeling the pressure that came from those words, like nothing mattered… only the words I would chose to reply with…
"Is there a chance that you'd go out with me? No wait, do you want to go out with me?" Pewds asked, and I could feel Frank hugging me tightly as I couldn't even talk, I just stood there like an idiot…
It took a while before I managed to figure out the words I was going to reply with… and Pewds was still waiting patiently for my reply…
"I… you haven't known me for more than 3 days…" I said… what the fuck!? That is NOT what we agreed on brain! Not what we agreed on!
"Yeah, but it feels like I've known you my entire life… and besides, I already know you more than everyone at school…" he said… well shit… he was right… okay brain, don't fuck up this time too…
"I… I guess I need some time to think about it… I… I'm not sure…" I said… how do you change your brain? Because I think mine broke a while ago… it's not working like it should…
"Okay… so… there's a chance?" Pewds asked… he looks so nervous… it's kinda cute…
"Y-yeah… I guess…" I said, my brain once again refusing to answer like I want it too…
Pewds sighed, he had clearly been holding his breath in during most of our current conversation… he looks so calm right now… like he just heard that they decided to let him live… hey wait, maybe Frank paid him a visit? So Frank bothers Pewds too…
After that we kinda just went to class…
When school was over Pewds walked over to me and once again asked, in front of everybody, if I didn't mind having him as company for the evening… and once again I said okay…
The walk back was nice, mainly because everything seemed to go back to how it used to be before he confessed his feelings to me…
What the fuck am I going to do about that?