Chapter 12: found out
[Cry's pov… I'm starting to think this whole thing will be in Cry's pov… well maybe not around chapter 18 or something…]
I woke up, got dressed, ate breakfast and went to school… I've been missing Felix a lot… I've fallen really hard for Felix haven't I? fuck… I told myself to not do that… but I guess it's too late now… why did I get myself into this in the first place!? I mean he told me from the start that there was someone else for him…
Ryan what are you doing to yourself?
When I arrived at our school I found Felix pretty fast and we were together the whole school day… I didn't even care if people listened in on us when we were talking, but I never really talked to them… I only talked to Felix… although Kathrin was watching me suspiciously the whole time… oh well it's probably just because I'm ignoring her and talk a lot…
And then school was over…
Felix and me went to my house as planned and once again sat down at my couch… it's like it's pulling us inn… we can't escape my couch!
I snickered as that thought went through my mind… Felix just looked curiously at me…
"It's nothing Felix… I just thought of something funny… well no, it's silly actually…" I said… wow, now I'M reading HIS mind…
"What were you thinking then?" Felix asked.
"No, it was just that it seems like we always end up in my couch…" I answered...
Felix looked at me for a little while until he realized it, and then proceeded to laugh for a little while… I love his laughter…
"Well I guess we kinda do…" he then said after his laughter ended…
"Yeah…" I said silently as I couldn't stop a small smile from appearing on my face…
Felix got closer to me and gave me a small kiss… fuck everything is so perfect…
Well at least I thought that until I remembered the fact that all of this might end after seventeen days have passed…
It wasn't a particular eventful day, but it still felt special because I could be with Felix…
Okay so there's really no question anymore… I like Felix… a lot…
A few days passed like that and it is currently Thursday… 14 days left until a possible break up…
I woke up and got dressed, ate, and went to school… just my ordinary routine before school… Felix had actually spent the night on Tuesday, but nothing really happened… we slept in the same bed again, but it was the same as last time he spent the night… although this time I got affirmation that he actually DOES sleep… because he woke up at the same time as me from the alarm…
At school today we just talked like usual until Amelia asked me if she could talk to me alone… I said okay because I kinda think she's a cool person to be with… and I kinda respect her for not giving in to the "popular gang" in our class…
We went into an empty classroom which were located in an area at school that people didn't have any classes in until about four hours from now…
"So, what did you want to talk to me about?" I asked.
"Well it's just… Ryan? Can I… umm… can I ask you a personal question?" she asked… oh fuck… I think I know where this is going… when a girl blushes and asks you a question like that it usually only means one thing…
"Sure…" I replied…
"Well you see… umm… are you… you're Cry aren't you?" she asked, and I got seriously nervous… fuck, fuck, fuck, what do I say, what do I do!?
"Don't worry! I'm not going to tell anyone… it's just… I've kinda known for a while now…" she then said… thank God SHE was the one that found out…
"How…?" I asked, still nervous as fuck…
"I guess I realized it before Pewds appeared, but I never really believed it… but when I saw how you reacted upon his arrival I just knew…" she said…
"You just knew what?" Kathrin said as she entered the room… oh fuck…
"Kathrin!? How much did you hear!?" Amelia said as she blushed furiously… I'm so screwed…
"I heard 'saw how you reacted upon his arrival I just knew' and that's it…" she answered truthfully… it seems like she always respects Amelia's wishes…
"Okay… umm…" Amelia started, probably trying to figure out what to say… and I was a nerve wreck by now… Kathrin just looked between me and Amelia for a while, trying to figure out what the fuck we had been talking about…
"Oh wait… now I get it!" Kathrin said, and I that feeling of "my life is so over" returned…
"Y-you do?" Amelia asked nervously…
"Yeah… you just confessed to Ryan… but let me save you the trouble… he's into Pewds…" Kathrin said… WAIT what!? How the fuck!? What's happening here!? Why does everyone suddenly know everything about me!?
"Really?" Amelia turned towards me and asked…
"Fuck… yeah…" I replied… fuck it…
"See… I knew it… I've been watching him talk to Pewds lately and, well, it was just obvious… and I think Pewds likes him back… damn you Ryan…" Kathrin then said…
"Ryan… can I tell her? I promise you she won't tell… actually she'll be more on your side…" Amelia asked me… what the fuck ever… I don't even care anymore… they just… everything is… fuck it…
I nodded and Amelia walked over to the door of the classroom and locked the door before walking back to Kathrin…
"Kathrin… Ryan is Cry…" Amelia said… oh fuck, this is really happening…
"What? No way… I mean we have our 'possible Cry Ryans'… and he… he's…" Kathrin started but kinda drifted off… it looks like she's thinking things through carefully…
"Well, I kinda am…" I said… that seemed to snap her out of her thoughts as she looked up at me…
"No way… I don't believe you…" Kathrin said.
"So what? Do you want me to send you a fucking message from my account or something!?" I said… bad move Ryan… baaaad move…
"Yeah! Today you're not going home with Pewds! Today Amelia and me are going to follow you home!" Kathrin said… oh fuck…
"But I…" I started, but I never really got to finish that sentence…
"HA! You see Amelia!? Now he's trying to get away!" Kathrin said, and that just pissed me off…
"You know what!? Fuck it! I'll show you! It's a fucking deal!" I said angrily… damn she always make me lose my control…
"Good!" Kathrin replied, and then walked angrily out of the classroom with Amelia walking hurriedly after her… Amelia turned around when Kathrin was too busy unlocking the door to notice…
"I'm so sorry…" she said just before the both of them disappeared…
What. The. Fuck. Have. I. done?
I walked back to our classroom, and just as I sat down at my desk I could hear Felix ask "what happened?"
I opened my mouth to tell him something, but I never got to say anything because class started…
That was the last period…
I'm not going together with Felix today… I'm losing one of my precious last days with him… fuck…
Class ended and I kinda just ignored everyone as I walked outside of school, and stopped at the school gate…
"Ryan? What happened with you and amelia?" Felix asked…
"We just talked about stuff…" Amelia answered for me…
"Okay… then why are you here? What's up!?" Felix asked and I could see that he was really confused…
"Felix, I'm sorry, but I'm going to have Amelia and Kathrin over today… sorry…" I said as I looked deeply into his eyes…
I looked around and I could see that no one could see us except Amelia and Kathrin of course…
And then I kissed him…
"I'll see you tomorrow though… and don't worry about it… they kinda know… they found out…" I said…
"Wha-…okay… umm… how?" Felix asked… shit he looks really confused right now… it's kinda cute… and I couldn't help but smile lovingly at him…
"You guys are kinda obvious…" Kathrin said… she sounds so much more nice now… maybe it's because she likes Felix… or rather Pewdiepie… will she get like that towards me too when she knows I'm Cry?
"Umm… okay… I guess I'll see you tomorrow then Ryan…" Felix said… and I love the way he slightly pouted at the end of the sentence…
"Yeah… see you tomorrow Felix" I said with a smile…
Oh fuck I'm falling deeper and deeper here…