Chapter 15: changing
[Cry's pov…]
"I love you Felix…" I said…
Felix just kinda stared at me for a while in shock… I don't blame him for that… I mean if I could stare at myself in shock, I would…
"Really!?" he then said in absolute happiness as my words kinda dawned on him…
"Y-yeah…" I replied… what am I getting myself into now?
Felix just sat there for a while looking happily at me until he gave me a hug…
"You have no idea how much power your hugs have over me…" I said.
"I'm starting to get how much you like them, yes…" Felix replied, happiness still radiating, no glowing from him… wow, I didn't think a person could ever glow happiness…
"Damn… don't you ever dare use those hugs against me…" I said…
"Haha, I'll try to not use them against you… although I have no idea how to do that…" Felix replied…
"Good" I said…
We kinda just stayed like that for a while… and when Felix eventually ended the hug I was in a daze… I just… his hugs feels REALLY good okay?
"So games?" I asked after a little while…
"I… I want to just cuddle and stuff first… fuck, I'm so happy right now!" Felix said… seeing him happy makes me happy too…
"Okay…" I said as I hugged him again…
"Haha, you REALLY like hugging me, huh?" Felix asked…
"Yeah… I told you that earlier, didn't I" I replied…
"Ryan… I'm starting to think you're only in on this for the hugs here…" Felix said jokingly…
"Fuck yeah" I replied.
We both laughed for a while…
We ended up cuddling and talking for the whole day…
Felix also slept over… don't take that wrong this time… I mean just because I told him I love him it doesn't mean that we did anything like THAT…
I kinda just drifted off to sleep as I thought how nice this day had been…
And it wouldn't have been this nice if Kathrin and Amelia hadn't found out…
This was the seventh day of the twenty days until a possible break up… 13 days left…
I woke up, and the first thing I saw was Felix's sleeping face… wow… that's one of the most beautiful sights I have ever seen…
Wait! He's sleeping? I woke up before Felix!
I just stayed like that for a while… and then he started waking up…
NO! Go back to sleep! I want to watch you when you're sleeping! I thought, but as soon as I had thought it my words kinda dawned on me… fuck I'm starting to sound like some stalker creep…
"Morning Felix" I said when he had woken up a little…
"Morning…" he replied sleepily… he's so cute when he's like this…
I leaned over and kissed him softly… fuck I love him so much…
He looked at me for a while and then kissed me back… he then smiled and looked at me for a while…
"Damn… you woke up before me… and here I wanted to watch your sleeping face…" Felix said… wow, so he's the same huh?
"Well I was hoping you'd sleep a little longer…" I said as I could feel a blush appearing on my face…
"Really? You really have fallen so hard for me, haven't you? But that's okay… I mean I kinda feel the same way about you too" Felix replied…
"I kinda have… and I'm glad you do…" I said…
"Yeah… let's go get some breakfast..." Felix said with a smile...
"Yeah… let's do that" I said, retuning his smile…
We ate our breakfast and gave a lot of little kisses while we still could…
And then we went to school… wait, today is Friday… that means another weekend have snuck up on us! And we haven't planned anything this time either…
At school we met up with Kathrin and Amelia… Kathrin came with a smartass comment as usual and we all kinda laughed a bit…
I'm getting really pleased with my life here…
I really hope Felix picks me…
At school everyone was really dumbfounded because the four of us hung out and talked a lot all the time… I mean a while ago we actually had a fight and we didn't even talk to each other at all, and now we're best buds?
After school I was supposed to have Kathrin and Amelia with me, but Felix kinda came along too…
So the four of us walked home together…
When we arrived at my house and walked inside we were met with a small problem…
The couch wasn't big enough for all of us… and I never really needed any more things to sit on…
"Well… I do have a few things in my cellar, but it'd be really hard to bring it up here… so should we do it?" I asked… and everyone kinda just looked at me for a while until Amelia enthusiastically screamed "Renovation!"
"Wow…" I said…
"Yeah, she kinda loves that kind of stuff… she's thinking of getting a job as an interior designer…" Kathrin replied…
"Okay… how about you? What do you want to work as?" I asked…
"A YouTube let's player!" Kathrin said enthusiastically… wow… really? I couldn't help laughing a little…
"Hey! I'm going to get big!" Kathrin said as she looked at me with slight anger and hurt…
"Sorry Kathrin, it's just so amusing…" I said as I started laughing harder… she pouted a little before she seemed to get infected by my laughter…
"Hey guys! Are you going to help us or what!?" Felix asked from my basement… wait what!? When did he get there!? What?
"Y-yeah… we're coming now…" I replied…
After a lot of hard work and a lot of laughing we managed to get two old chairs up to my living room… they were really big and comfortable so when Kathrin and Amelia sat down in them they stayed…
"This chair is fucking amazing!" Kathrin said…
"Well I used to have them up here, and one of them used to be my seat… but… well I kinda just took them away when…" I said, but my sentence just wouldn't finish itself… I guess I was more affected by that matter than I previously thought…
I guess I have been putting all my trouble and worries to the side to be able to function properly… but now I have someone I can talk to about it all, and that makes everything surface again… it's like I've been lost in some sort of space within me were nothing would hurt me, but then again nothing could make me really happy either… I guess I really needed someone right now… and here they are… right in front of me…
I really couldn't have asked for something better than this…
"Ryan…" Kathrin started… sympathy again…
"Thanks guys… thank you so much for being willing to be here for me… I guess I kinda needed that right now…" I suddenly said, and all of them kinda just looked at me for a while, processing what I had just said… well that was until they all kinda smiled and walked over to me…
Well that was the first group hug I've had in a really long time… and fuck it felt good…
Wow I've been missing human contact a lot, haven't I?
We ended up playing games and talking a lot together and everything was just perfect…
And when it had gotten really late Kathrin and Amelia went home…
But Felix stayed…
"Well that was actually a good day… I was skeptical at first, but this was fun…" Felix said…
"Yeah… I guess it's nice to have someone over sometimes…" I said… wow, that felt like I was talking like we were an old couple…
"Hey! You have me don't you?" Felix asked in a hurt tone, well I knew he was faking it though…
"Of course Felix, of course" I said, just like that Pewdiecry video we did together… if he doesn't get that I'm Cry now…
He just laughed… he didn't realize it now either… wow… just… wow… there's a limit Felix…
"So let's go to bed then…" Felix said… that sounded wrong…
"Yeah, let's do…" I replied…
We went to sleep and gave each other our goodnight kisses…
Sleep has come so easily to me lately…
That was the eight day of the twenty days until a possible break up… 12 days left…
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I'm still kinda sleepy though..
you see my dad woke me up about five hours after I went to sleep...
I hope this chapter is alright though...
(and I kinda made one of those bets with myself again... and it looks like I'll have to write the next chapter today too...)