Chapter 17: secrets
[Cry's pov…]
"I can't believe that bitch!" Kathrin said angrily…
School had ended and the four of us had gotten back to my place…
"You used to hang with her you know…" I said…
"Ryan… I have something on you so you better not push me any further than this…" Kathrin replied… well fuck…
"Sorry…" I replied…
"Yeah, you better be…" Kathrin said.
"Kathrin… how is that any better than what Miranda did? And besides, it's probably going to be like all the other parties she have held… and that means that we can leave after about an hour…" Amelia replied… wow… she really knows how to control Kathrin…
"Fuck… alright… I'm sorry Ryan…" Kathrin then said in a low voice… wow… just wow… Amelia have so much power over her…
"It's alright… I mean you got angry… I know how stupid angriness makes us…" I replied…
"Yeah… I guess the both of us get angry over small things at times, don't we?" Kathrin said… yeah I guess Kathrin and me are similar at times… but she gets angry more often than me… well I got angry at Miranda too, but I don't show it as much as Kathrin does I guess…
"Wait, what was the thing that made you so pissed that day you exploded?" Kathrin asked…
"Umm…" I replied, trying to find the right words…
"Actually that was my fault… I kinda made moves on him when he was sleeping and stuff… and on top of that I repeated it just after I told him about it…" Felix said… really? Because that doesn't sound wrong at all…
"What the fuck did you do to him!?" Kathrin asked…
"Don't worry… it was only a kiss… but still… as I told you earlier I had a lot of things to think about and it all just…" I replied…
"It's okay… I can relate strongly to that feeling…" Kathrin said… I have to get more out of her… but something tells me that she won't tell anything in front of the others…
"Hey Kathrin? Could I talk to you alone later? I have something I want to ask you…" I said…
"Why wait? I mean Amelia and Pewds could just play games and stuff… and they seemed to get along quite nicely if I remember correctly..." Kathrin said… she sounded a little angry at the last part…
"Okay… then let's go…" I replied…
Kathrin and me had been talking in private a lot lately… I wonder how Felix feels about that…
"So what did you want to ask me?" Kathrin asked…
"Well… umm… you like Amelia don't you? I mean not as a friend… but as more than that…" I said, and the reaction I got out of Kathrin was just priceless…
"N-no, I… I no…" Kathrin tried but couldn't finish… she's blushing a lot and wow… never thought I would see Kathrin ever react like this…
I had to try my hardest not to laugh…
"So that's a yes… have you told her?" I asked, and I couldn't help smiling at her…
"No… and that's kinda one of the things that's always on my mind… it irritates me that I can't tell her…" Kathrin then said, still blushing, but she seems more relaxed now…
"I'm sure everything will work out eventually" I replied.
"Yeah… and hey, were the whole other person of interest and all that the things that were on your mind the time you blew up?" Kathrin asked…
"Kinda… that plus the fact that I'm Cry and that I didn't really know what I felt about Felix… and he had already confessed to me by then, and I just… I didn't know what to tell him…" I replied… now I feel bad about it all…
"Wow, you DID have a lot to think about… I mean you have the whole burden of actually being cry on top of that… recording videos and stuff… and we have school… wow…" Kathrin said… I didn't think of it that way… I guess I had a lot more on my mind than I previously thought…
"Yeah… thanks…" I replied…
"Don't worry about it Ryan…" Kathrin said… wow, I get that sentence a lot don't I? Don't worry about it…
"And hey, don't worry about it yourself Kathrin…" I replied.
"Haha, yeah, I won't… thanks I guess…" Kathrin said…
"It's alright… I mean I know how important it is to be able to talk to someone about it…" I said…
"Yeah… I guess it really is…" Kathrin replied…
"So, should we head back to the others then?" I said, and I was about to walk back when Kathrin stopped me by grabbing my arm…
"Ryan... I'm glad we became friends again…" she said.
"Yeah… I'm glad we did too…" I replied…
We just stood there for a while until Kathrin looked down and let go of my arm…
"I… there's something else I want to talk about…" Kathrin said.
"Okay… shoot…" I replied…
"I kinda… I think that… I think Miranda's plan is to figure out which Ryan at school is Cry…" Kathrin said…
"Really? Are you kidding!? What the fuck do I do about that!?" I said… Oh I'm feeling the nerves now…
"I'm not sure… I guess she won't give up unless she gets at least some juicy facts about everyone… I don't think she's going to let anyone go unless she have gotten enough secrets… and she WILL use that happening against us…" Kathrin said… oh fuck…
"Shit… what do I do? I mean Felix is going to be there and I'm not ready for him to, no anyone to know yet…" I said…
"Don't worry about it… if the fact that the two of you are dating comes out I think she'll be more than enough pleased with that… let's just hope she gets to that secret first…" Kathrin said…
"I really hope she doesn't go there…" I replied… what the fuck do I do about this?
"Me too… I mean I can understand that you want to remain unknown…" Kathrin said…
"Yeah… but you know… this means that your secret might come out too…" I replied…
"Oh fuck… I didn't think about that… shit, what do I do about this!?" Kathrin said, and I could see that she was freaking out…
"Well… I guess you could get away with only telling them that you're into girls or something…" I replied…
"Yeah! That would be good enough for her I guess… thanks Ryan!" Kathrin said.
"Hey, if you hadn't told me about this I wouldn't be able to help you, so thanks in return…" I said… we've become such good friends in such a short amount of time… I guess that it's because we know everything about each other… I guess I really did talk to her before I shut everyone out of my life…
"Well… as I said I THINK that's her plan… because I… no forget it…" Kathrin said…
"Kathrin… tell me…" I replied.
"No it's just… that was originally my plan… and seeing as she made sure everyone will come to her party…" Kathrin said…
"Wow… really? Well that was a good plan… why didn't you go through with it earlier then?" I replied…
"Well… I kinda realized that if you hadn't told people by now you didn't want to tell us now… and it felt like that would be forcing you to tell us… and that would be wrong…" Kathrin said.
"Yeah… you're right… I don't like all the attention… I mean I get enough of it now, and you could imagine it if people knew who I was… I need breaks… I'm a natural loner…" I replied truthfully…
"Yeah I know… your secret is better left untold… especially in our class… they'd go crazy..." Kathrin said…
"Yeah… well if you don't have anything else you want to talk about… let's go back?" I asked.
"Yeah… I guess we should… they're probably waiting for us…" Kathrin replied.
"Yeah" I simply replied.
"But I swear, if those two is laughing their asses off this time too, I don't know what I'll do!" Kathrin said.
"Haha, don't worry about it, I mean it's good that they're getting along, isn't it? What if they hated each other?" I replied as we started walking back to the living room…
"Yeah that would be a problem… fine, but I'll never let them get TOO close…" Kathrin said…
"That's fine by me…" I replied, because honestly… I want Felix for myself…
When we returned to my living room the two of them just sat there and smiled like idiots…
"What is it this time?" Kathrin asked.
"It-it's nothing…" Amelia said, but I could see that she had problems with holding back her laughter…
"Yeah right… you still have to tell me though… and you never told me about last time either…" Kathrin said… if I hadn't been standing so close to her I probably wouldn't have picked up on the slightly sad undertone she had… but I did…
"We have something serious we have to talk to you guys about…"
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I've been dragged around all day so I haven't had any time to write...
(why do people want me to be so social!?)