A/N: So this one goes back to the Frerard drama! Grab your tissues dear.

Chapter 6: Love done gone.

Frank's POV:

It has been a week since I walked out and drove myself home, since tour is starting in a week I dragged myself back to where the buses are. I groan when my phone rings loudly looking at the caller ID shows its Nova.

"Frank are you okay?"

"Uh I am just headed to see if there is room on the bus with Dan and Phil..." I cough. "How bout you Nova? are you settled in Cali yet?"

"Yeah, yeah I'm settled. What happened with you, gee and blondie?"

"Nothing, I mean idk basically I haven't thought about it. Which reminds me I need to buy more cigs." I shrug a bit patting my pockets.

"No more cigs, you're gonna smoke out your lungs Frank"

"Oh well," I balance the phone on my ear and reach for my pack. "So how are you and Hunt?"

"Good, I'd be better if you quit smoking though"

I light my cig and take a drag, "You might need to take a break Nova, you are starting to sound like a mom."

"A) I do not sound like a mom, sorry for caring. B) I have to sound like a mom I'm taking care of a small child."

"Well your 'mom' voice ain't working on me because I am older than you."

"Bitch do you want me to put an actual mom on the phone?" she laughs

I chuckle a bit, "Language Nova."

"You are right I should watch my language."

I look up while walking and duck to the side quickly, "Shit."

"Language you Hypocrite."

"I just saw Gee," I try to catch my breath. "I hope he didn't see me."

"It's alright Frank."

"I don't know how I am going to do this... Maybe I should just quit the band." I start to hyperventilate.

"What! No Frank you can't, just talk it out with gee. That's how me and hunter handle fights, you've had your cool off time now it time to talk it out. You can do it, I believe in you"

"I can't, I can't face him or the band.." I slide to sit on the ground choking back tears.

"Frank you can do this, you've been friends/ dating them for years and years. You can do it"

"I have to go, I need a drink." I check to see if Gee was gone before I stand up.

"Don't do anything stupid, ok? Or else u will fly your happy little asses to California and make you sit on my couch and I will figure it out for you."

"Whatever," I say hanging up with her with a sigh.

Gerard's POV:

I sit there in the studio alone crying softly i couldn't believe Frankie left I needed him more then ever and he left but i guess this was my fault huh? I told the guys I wanted to be a'one and I was right i wanted to be alone but then again i didn't want to be all alone I wanted to draw and get out of my head but I couldn't think of anything to draw most of pictures are Frank and his tattoos I sit there crying silently staring at the wall when Taylor walks up.

I look over to see her with an acoustic guitar before she starts to play.

I hear her voice start to sing, "Clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in And I could go on and on, on and on, and I will Skies grew darker, currents swept you out again And you were just gone and gone, gone and gone In silent screams, In wildest dreams I never dreamed of this. This love is good, this love is bad This love is alive back from the dead These hands had to let it go free And this love came back to me." I start crying more as she continues. "tossing, turning, struggled through the night with someone new And I could go on and on, on and on Lantern burning, flickered in my mind for only you But you're still gone, gone, gone Been losing grip, Oh, sinking ships You showed up just in time This love is good, this love is bad This love is alive back from the dead These hands had to let it go free And this love came back to me."

I throw the pencil that I was holding as the tears stream down my face. "Gee what's wrong?"

"Nothing," I mumble.

"Gerard Way! You don't just throw a pencil across the room for 'nothing!' You don't cry over 'nothing!' Now tell me what's wrong"

"I shouldn't have let him walk out! This is my fault!"

"Gee. Listen. Frank leaving is my fault. I heard some of the other guys taking. Gee, Frank loves you, so don't put this on yourself. After the show in Cali I'm probably just gonna leave the tour. No one likes me here anyway."

"No your my friend and I dont want people to leave the tour because they are all my friends and i need them."

"I'll think about staying. But I'm not making any promises."

I sigh and slump my shoulders, "I am sorry."

"For what? Gee you didn't do anything wrong."

"For everything that happened for making you feel like you have to leave for making frankie walk out for all this flipping drama!"

"Frank left because of me. You don't make me feel like I need to leave, he does. Gee, you have done NOTHING wrong."

"And NO ONE should feel like they need to leave!" I shout.

"Gee, calm down. I said I'd think about staying." I look at her. "What Gee?"

I walk over to her and hug her, crying on her shoulder and she hugs back crying with me.

"I am sorry," she cries. "This is all my fault."

"No it's not, it's not your fault."

"Yes it is, I made frank mad."

"No frank hasn't been taking his pills he ran out and we got into the argument that he should get some more and he didn't want to he has been edgey,"

"Are you sure that's it? He acts like he doesn't like me that much."

"He has been on edge, and seriously he likes everyone."

She mumbles, "Not me."

"Yes he does Taylor," I sigh.

She hides behind her hair and I hug her as she apologizes.

*THE NEXT NIGHT*

Frank's POV:

I find myself drunk in California on a street corner. I can't handle being in Jersey or anywhere near the band. I had no one to turn to so I call the one person I can count on. "Nova, I need yoouuu." I slur.

"Oh jeez alright gimme one second to put this child down" I can hear a young girl say goodnight and the rustle of blankets. "you're drunk aren't you."

"No," I say as I stumble into the nearby brick wall.

"Where are you?"

"Fuck I don't know, the sign says stop, that's all I know." I say looking at the nearby sign and watch it blur.

"You were drunk driving!" She yells through my phone.

"No, I don't drink and drive." I sigh, that is a big no no for me since it killed Bob almost 3 years ago.

"Go find a gas station, by some crackers and a Gatorade, ask where you are and sober up. I'll see what I can do depending where you are."

"Nova! I just want to sleep." I push myself off the wall and start stumbling towards the road.

"Frank please be careful, okay? You can sleep once we figure this out."

"I don't know if I want too... I don't know why I came here…" I keep walking.

"Frank. Find out where you are."

I turn the location on my phone as I collapse on the sidewalk. "I sent you a message with my location on. You should see it."

I wait a minute before I hear, "You're in California?! Frank what the fuck!"

"Yea, well you mentioned it on the phone yesterday and idk Gee was everywhere... the tour is everyfukin where on every posterrr" I slur as I lay on the pavement.

She hangs up saying she is on the way so I put my phone up and smoke while I wait. Twenty minutes later Nova pulls up in her mom's car, "Oh jeez Frank."

"Nova I am so sorry," I cover my face. "You should just leave me here to die." She sits down beside me and hugs me, "I need to die... I am just ruining the tour."

"No you aren't, you're just sad" I frown and she rubs my back.

"I messed up... I got jealous of some whore..."

I hear her sigh, "Why don't you come to my house, sober up, I'll make you some dinner, get your mind off things?"

I shake my head, "I can't I am just gonna grab a motel here.."

"Nu uh. You're going to come to my house and sit on my couch and eat dinner with me and my mom and my little sister and you're going to let someone love you" she huffs and stands up, pulling me to the car.

I pull away, "Stop it Nova, you left for a reason! I cannot meet your family like this! I rather go to a motel and do what I need to."

"I left because my mom was sick and no one else could help her out, Frank please let me help you. I'm your best friend remember"

I shake my head pulling myself away from her, "I can't meet them like this."

"You're almost sober, they won't notice or care. Okay?" She tries to reason but I can't.

"Nova," I shake my head. "I need to go to the hospital and then home."

"Okay..but do you have enough money?"

I nod as I notice my head is spinning and I can no longer feel my arms. "I have all my cards and cash, but now i'm thinkin' those pills were a bad idea... I am so tired, i shouldn't have taken so many."

"Frank what did you do?!" She shouts as she forces me into her car and speeds off to the hospital.

""I bought pills from some guy and took em all to try and help," I close my eyes.

"Frank," and in that one word I knew that I messed up big. I hurt her.

"In my wallet I have my ID... I have my DNR meaning if I die they cannot give me CPR. I am a organ donor, Gee is my emergency contact," I trail off falling asleep.

Nova's POV:

I pull into the hospital Parking lot and run in shouting, "I-my friend needs help he took too many pills and-" before I can finish paramedics run out to the car. My whole body is shaking from fear as a nurse starts asking questions. Whenever I finally take a seat I pull out my cell and dial up Gerard.

"Hello?" Gerard answers sounding like I just woke him up.

"Gee, Frank is in the hospital.. In California."

"Frankie?! what?! what happened?!"

"He Overdosed.." I say starting to cry.

"Frankie," Gerard sounds so hurt and I know he dropped his phone. He picks it up, "I will be there as soon as I can Nova."

I stay there with no sleep or news. The next morning Gerard burst through the door still wearing his skeleton Pjs. Ray following behind him still tired but dressed.

He runs over to me, "Where is Frankie?" he asks as I notice Taylor run in soon after.

I glance at the three of them "A) gee I think Frankie will be okay, B) Ray Frankie will be ok. C) why is she here?"

"Gee was too panicky to drive and Ray could find his licensed...plus the rental car is in my name."

I sigh, "Alright, Gerard I will be back in fifteen minutes okay? I promise I just gotta go pick up my little sister" I mumble and Walk out quickly rushing to get her and a coffee. When I get back gerard is collapsed in a chair with his face in his hands. I move over with my sister on my hip and hand him a coffee.

Taylor claimed the seat by him and rubs his back, "Frank will be okay."

I try to distract myself with Emmy, and trying to get info from the nurse. I can hear Gee crying and Taylor apologizing and Ray is just pacing.

After a bit of work I come back to Gerard with some good news. "I have some good news" I say putting Emmy down "They got all the narcotics out f his system, he's still in The ICU so we won't be able to visit him for a few more hours but he'll be okay" I smile slightly.

"Good to hear," Taylor says before walking out as Gee nods still crying.

I watch as Emmy walks to him tapping his leg and raises her arms, "Hey Gee, Emmy wants you to pick her up." I watch as he wipes his eyes before picking her up, sitting her on his lap. "At least she likes you." I say with a smile sitting down beside him, "Frankie is okay."

Taylor walks back in and hands Gee the keys to the car "It's clear I'm not wanted here. I'll just head back to the Buses and cover for you, Ray and Frank." She shoves her hands back in her pockets

Ray's POV:

I rub my hands over my face, "I am gonna go with her, Gee you and Frank need to talk this out." I sigh, "This is not his first suicide attempt, and no don't try to say it isn't a suicide attempt. It is, he needs help so try and fix this." I walk out behind Taylor.

I walk up behind Taylor who stops, "What is it?"

"I am just coming with you, I don't want to wait in there with Gee like that. What's wrong?" I ask walking closer.

"I am leaving the tour after the Cali show," she says.

"Why is that?" I ask as I lean against a car.

"No one wants me here."

I shake my head "That's not true, Nova is only like this because Frank was. Frank was only like that because the teasing and then he thought you were flirting with Gerard. He has not had his meds since the tour started so he is a little insecure and depressed. "

I look up when Nova walks outside meaning she left Emmy with Gerard. "I'm going to go get some food from the cafeteria, do you two want anything?"

"No thanks, I don't think I can stomach anything until Frank is awake." I tell her.

She nods at me, "What about you blondie? Want anything?"

"You know I have a name," Taylor points out.

"Taylor, let's just calm down. Everyone is emotional and upset right now okay. She is mad and you are mad and Gee is probably crying. We all just need to calm down."

"I'm not mad. I don't need anything. Thanks for asking. Now, Ray stay here and make sure Gee eats..I'm going back to pack my bags and reassure everyone Frank's going to be okay."

I rub my face, "You don't have to leave. Plus I need to check on Mikey I left on such short notice. Nova can handle Gee I will send Hunter to help and he will be here tomorrow."

"If you are sure."

I nod, "Let's go. Nova tell Gee I am going to make sure Mikey is okay and I am sending Hunter to help since he hasn't left Cali yet."

She hails a cab and we take a long flight back to Kentucky to the buses. "I am going to pack."

"You don't have to leave you know, you are welcomed just like everyone else.."

"I know. I think it'll be for the best of I get gone before Frank gets back."

"Why?" I ask before she can walk away.

"You said it yourself. He thinks I flirting with Gee. I'll just leave before he gets back and then officially leave the tour until you guys get to New York."

I sigh, "He wasn't thinking straight but I guess you can if you want." I scratch my neck. "I am going to check on Mikey I guess I will see you in New York."

"I'm just a call away if you boys need a feminine touch." i turn and walk off "See ya in NeW York Ray!"

I sigh before dragging myself back to mikey.