Chapter 38: Songs for Each Other

Taylor Swift's POV:

Tonight is the night that Gerard had let Frankie get his opening act, he will do his tomorrow night. Frank takes the stage with guitar in hand as Mikey and Ray follow. Josh takes the drums as Frnk shouts into the mic, "Tonight I am taking over the opening of the concert boys and girls!"

I spot Gerard standing near the edge to watch so I walk over, "Gee you ready?"

"This song I wrote for Gerard Way." Frank says looking backstage and starts strumming. " Well, when you go, Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay, And maybe when you get back I'll be off to find another way. And after all this time that you still owe. You're still a good-for-nothing I don't know. So take your gloves and get out Better get out While you can."

Kalia walks up and starts to fix his hair as he looks down.

"When you go Would you even turn to say 'I don't love you Like I did Yesterday'. Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading. So sick and tired of all the needless beating, But baby when they knock you Down and out Is where you oughta stay." Frankie sings and I watch as Gee starts to let some tears fall.

I give Gerard a hug and Kalia rubs his shoulder and I spot Mikey who sits his guitar down and walks off the stage.

"And after all the blood that you still owe. Another dollar's just another blow. So fix your eyes and get up. Better get up While you can Whoa, whoa, whoa Well, come on, come on I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday." He finishes off the song letting the last note hold.

Gerard wipes his eyes as Frank drops his guitar and wipes his face. "Thank you all for listening. Now let me introduce to you Gerard Way and his band My Chemical Romance!"

Frank jogs back to me as Gerard goes to take the stage with Mikey and Ray. I hug Frank, "Good job Frank."

He gives a sigh, "I am just ready for this night to end."

"Frankie can you come here?" Kalia calls before I get to respond.

"I know, but give Gee a chance to apologize. Okay?" I whisper, "He misses you Frankie. He can't sleep because you're not there. He has nightmares where he sees your grave. Give him another chance Frank, because he still loves you."

He walks toward Kalia with a mhm in my direction and I sigh in frustration.

She starts to touch up his hair with a sigh, "You know he still loves you."

"No he doesn't.. he told me that much but you know i don't actually care anymore."

She gives another sigh as I shake my head, "Then why did he write you a song?" She asks.

I walk up, "Better question. Why did you write HIM one?"

"I wrote it because I needed closure."

"Frank. He loves you. You love him. For ONCE quit being so hard nosed and give him a chance to apologize!"

"If you don't give him a chance, I will cut your hair off." Kalia threatens.

"And I will hold you down so she can."

"Shave it then I don't care." He says pushing his hands into his hair that really needs a trim.

Kalia smacks the back of his head, "You need to get over yourself and look at how broken both of you are without each other!"

He shakes his head and just walks off so I follow behind him, "Frankie! Wait!"

"I don't need your help," he snaps back at me.

"Not helping you, I'm helping the man's the CLEARLY has the other half of your heart!" I shout.

"I am not in the mood for this.."

"Neither am I." I run and stand in front of him, "Frankie, it's not hard to know how you feel about Gee. The way you watch him, the way you still sleep on your back with your right arm open waiting for him, the way you glanced at him when you were singing. Frank, you love him. So why push him away!"

"It was a phase for the both of us... We are mature now and that's why we are over.. it's time to find nice girls and settle down.." He sighs. "I am over it Taylor."

Andy's POV:

The morning after Frank's concert Juliet and I went out for coffee. I must have zoned out because she bumps my shoulder and smiles, "Hi."

"Hey babe," I take a sip of my coffee.

"What's up?" She asks quietly.

"I have a lot on my mind, but it's nothing, how about you?"

She pouts a little, "What's wrong?"

"Nothing babe," I say and kiss her forehead and she nods, "So what have you been up too lately?" With everything that has been going on we haven't been able to talk as much lately.

"Nothing new," She shrugs.

I nod, "Okay babe. So my parents want to have a cookout and wants us to invite all of our friends you know."

"Oh? I don't know.. it's a bit tense around here." She bites her lip and I nod.

"Yeah i know, hopefully everything will ease down by the time they want us over."

She nods and we make small talk about the band as we finish our coffee.

Gerard's POV:

I sit there, in a nearby park, and a little girl with her older sister came up and said I looked sad. I put on a fake smile and said no but the little girl gave me her crown. At first I was going to give it back, but she refused to take it, but she asked for a picture so we all took a picture. Then she walked off and she only looked about 5. I smiled a little to myself when Taylor S comes up.

"Wow. This is the first time you've seemed happy in a while."

I shake my head, "I don't want everyone to know I'm miserable."

"Gee. You had a genuine Gerard Way smile on your face just now." I sigh and just look at her. "You do, and don't try to deny it."

"I know maybe it's because I haven't drank in a while." I shrug.

"No more drinking! You need to be sober. Sober Gee, happy Taylor. Got it?"

"I know I went to AA meetings and everything I'm not going to drink anymore."

"Good. Frank CAN'T drink anymore and you don't WANT to drink anymore. I'll take it."

I look up at her worried, "What do you mean he can't?"

She huffs, "Okay, Don't repeat this."

"Who am I going to tell?" I ask.

"Okay. Frank got some new meds that don't mix well with alcohol." I nod a bit, "You took that better than I thought you would."

"With new meds, he might get better," I reason and she nods. I look down at my hands and she takes them in hers.

I look up as she speaks, "Fight for him Gee. Show him what you've been telling me since your fight. He still loves you."

"I-I don't know if he does." I stutter out.

"I do. I've spent a lot of time with Frankie. He loves you but he believes he doesn't need you. Prove him wrong Gee."

"I don't know how."

"You will figure this out." She tries to encourage. I sniffle and she hands me a tissue, "I will help as much as I can."

*Later that Night*

I walk on to stage sighing and wiping tears away, I clear my throat and sniffle a little before going to the mic "H-hey Guys" was all I could say with my shaky voice. The crowd Awwed I grab the Mic after I put myself back together.

Ray walks up behind me and whispers, "Gerard we need another guitarist."

"I only ever had frank I don't know who else to use Ray," I whisper out.

Hunter jogs up throwing his guitar around his neck, "I'm here for you buddy, I can learn the notes quickly."

I take a deep breath and grab the mic.

Taylor Swift's POV:

I walk up as Ray and Hunter start the opening chords, "Oh Gee, you got this."

"This is a song for Frank Iero," He wipes his tears one last time before singing, "I never said I'd lie and wait forever If I died, we'd be together I can't always just forget him But he could try."

I look over at Frank, "I guess great minds think alike."

"At the end of the world or the last thing I see You are, never coming home, never coming home Could I? Should I? And all the things that you never ever told me And all the smiles that are ever ever." I turn and see Frank fall to his knees, and Kristie comes up behind him and starts rubbing his back.

"Ever get the feeling that you're never All alone and I remember now At the top of my lungs in my arms, he dies he dies. At the end of the world or the last thing I see You are, never coming home, never coming home Could I? Should I? And all the things that you never ever told me And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me Never coming home, never coming home Could I? Should I? And all the wounds that are ever going to scar me For all the ghosts that are never going to catch me."

I wipe tears from my eyes as Frankie sobs. "If I fall If I fall (down)" Gerard sings as Ray takes up the backup.

I kneel down beside Frankie as Kalia comes up behind him to sooth him. "Frankie, look at him. He's lost without you." I lift his chin and wipe his eyes, "Watch."

"At the end of the world, Or the last thing I see. You are Never coming home. Never coming home. Never coming home. Never coming home, And all the things that you never ever told me, And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me. Never coming home. Never coming home Could I? Should I? And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me For all the ghosts that are never gonna…" Gerard finishes the song taking a shaky breath wiping tears away.

Frank stands up shakily and runs to the nearest exit as the song finishes. Ray claps and Hunter walks off the stage as Ray and Mikey go to comfort Gee. Gerard turns to Ray and buries his face in his shoulder crying.

Ray rubs his back, "Hey Gee, I think your fans will want some answers soon. Take your time though." Mikey rubs his brothers back as Gee nods, "Do you want Mikey or me to do it so you can go calm down..."

"Please," He chokes out and Ray directs him to the back as he takes the mic.

"Hello Killjoys. Um so you probably noticed that Frank,is no longer playing with us... well Gerard and him are having some problems." Mikey stands still and I watch as Gerard keeps walking, avoiding all of us. "Gerard Way has officially relapsed.. this caused some unwanted words to be shared and they are no longer a couple.. Though MCR will finish this tour together."

Mikey rubs Ray's arm, "We don't know what the future holds for us as a band now."

Ray nods to what Mikey said and turns to hug him close.

Hunter's POV:

Frank ran off after the concert last night so this morning Nova, Taylor (Swift) and I went out looking for him. We approached the stage, it's the only place we haven't looked around here. There lying in the middle of it it Frank Iero, he looks deathly pale but he had a smile on his face. "Frank?" I hear Nova call out and look around "fra-" Her breath hitches and her eyes widen.

Nova takes off sprinting before any of us could process. "What happened?!"

I see Taylor fighting back tears, "Frank? Please no."

Nova checks for a pulse and sighs a little, "Call 911." Taylor quickly takes out her cellphone and hands it too Nova. She quickly explains the situation before looking up at Taylor and I, "Go try and find what pills he took, his arms aren't recently cut so he had to take something to try and OD"

Taylor nods, "Hunter! Go to his bus and look there. I'll go to Dan and Phil's Bus," Taylor runs off and I kiss Nova's head quickly before jogging off.

We both meet back at Nova and Taylor talks first, "Nothing on Dan and Phil's bus. His antidepressants were all accounted for, and that's the only meds he had there."

I shake my head, "I didn't find anything there either. What are we going to do?"

"What if he threw the bottle away? I mean, this is Frank we're talking about." Taylor questions.

"Are you sure he is not bleeding? Or the bottle could be in his pocket." I pace the floor.

"Nova? Anything in his pocket?" Taylor asks.

Nova snaps back to reality, "I haven't checked."

We all hear the ambulance pull up, as I kneel and pat his pockets, "Does he still have a pulse."

She checks and shakes her head, "Barely."

"I'm not finding anything.. someone direct the medics here and quick," I say and Taylor runs off bringing the medics back here.

I stand back as they load him up on a stretcher.. "Now only one of us can go with him... the others have to make sure Gerard doesn't find out."

"Nova should go," Taylor says.

I hug Nova and kiss her forehead, "You go and keep me updated I am going to find Ray and send him to you. Mikey should be with Gee."

Taylor nods, "Ray would never go without Mikey."

Nova nods and climbs in the back to hold Frank's hand. The ambulance pulls away and Taylor sighs, "What are we going to tell Gee, Hunter?"

I push my fingers into my hair as I pace. "I don't know.. "

Taylor sighs, "He is going to notice that he isn't here."

"If we tell him someone needs to be with him at all times.." I stop and huff. "Talk to some of the others and find someone to sit with him.."

"I'll do it." Taylor says standing up straighter.

"That's not fair because I know you want to check on Frank and you deserve that."

"I can check on him later. Nova's there. I think she'll keep us posted."

I nod. "Alright I'm going to find Ray and Mikey.. you tell Gee please.."

She nods and we parts ways.