Disclaimer: I don't own Lucifer – which is a good thing, I guess, because otherwise something like this would've happened instead of Season 2.
Characters: Chloe, Trixie; Lucifer mentioned
Inspired by: Excessive listening to Twenty One Pilots
Spoilers: S01E13... kinda.
Additional tag: Canon-divergence in Season 1 Finale
A/N: The evil, really-not-that-small part inside of me really expected (wanted...?) it to go this way.
For Her Alone
After everything that happened, Chloe has two memories that are especially vivid and tangible, even more so since they are closely connected. They come to her at night when she can't fall asleep, and they have a tendency to stick to her throughout the day.
She remembers every single detail about the day she's been at Lucifer's and first saw the scars on his back, tried to touch them and he caught her hand, his expression carefully guarded but his eyes so full of emotion.
Chloe had asked, and hadn't believed a word he had told her.
She also remembers how she allowed him to touch her unmarred skin. The memory sends down shivers her spine – she hadn't known, then, how intense these moments had been, or would become later on.
Then, neither one of the events had made any sense to her. Now that they do, it doesn't really matter any more – still, she shifts them around in her mind time and time again, unable to shake her feelings.
Knowing now how much all this must have meant to Lucifer makes the memories more painful, and more precious at the same time.
Tears burn in her eyes now: She can still feel his slightly trembling fingers tracing her back...
– In the dark, Trixie shifts closer towards her mother, like she's able to feel her distress.
"If only... If Lucifer hadn't –", Chloe sighs, and then, pulling herself together she argues: "If Lucifer hadn't sacrificed himself, Trixie would be dead now."
Chloe pulls her daughter in protectively and places a light kiss on her head, inhaling the familiar scent of her hair.
But even though Trixie's lying at her side, something is missing.
Someone is missing, and what he did wasn't for Trixie. It had been for Chloe's sake, and her sake alone.
This is another thing the Detective knows, and the knowledge hurts.