My Heart in Your Hands
Summary: After Rafe walks up to them being sweet and intimate and blows up. This is what I think should have happened. Starts in the scene after Olivia and Emma leave. Cannon until it's not
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I do not make any profit from this. I don't have a beta so all mistakes are mine.
Chapter 5
Rafe pulled into the ambulance bay and took a now unconscious Olivia out of the car. Rick and a team of people met them and he laid her down on a gurney. Natalia had called him on the way so he could be ready. "I'll let you know the second I know what is going on guys." And with that he followed the gurney in.
Natalia led the kids to the waiting room and breathed a sigh of relief when Buzz was there waiting for them. "Lillian called so I came to keep Emma company."
Natalia hugged him. "Thank you Buzz, can you take her to the play area? As soon as I know anything I'll let you know I just…"
He stopped her and kissed her forehead. "Say no more."
Natalia knelt in front of Emma. "Hey baby, you're going to go with Buzz to the kid's room while I fill out papers and we figure out how mommy is. Do you want Rafe to come with you too?"
Emma looked up at her with a tiny tear. "No, he needs to stay with you so you're not alone. Will you come get me..?"
She scooped her up in a hug. "The second I know what's going on and make sure she's ok I'll come get you or have Buzz bring you to me. Just like I always do."
Emma nodded into her neck and kissed her cheek before going with Buzz. A lady came over with a bunch of forms and she sat to fill them out. Rafe watched as she filled out the papers. "Why do you fill out her papers ma?"
Natalia sighed. "Because I am her medical power of attorney and she is mine. We take care of each other."
Rafe shook his head. "I should be the one to make decisions for you Ma, not her. I know you worry about Dad's heart but…"
"This has nothing to do with Gus's heart and everything to do with the woman I love." As her voice rose so did she and he shrank in his seat a little. "I love her Rafe. I need her and if something were to happen to her I don't think I would survive it. I trust her with my life and she trusts me with hers. It should not be the job of our children to make those decisions so we had papers drawn up so that burden was not on you guys. Now just shut up and let me take care of this useless crap until they come and tell me how she is."
She sat back down next to a stunned and speechless Rafe and started writing again. When she was done she took it to the desk and started pacing the waiting room. As more time passes she got more and more agitated. Rafe watched as she slowly came unglued praying that Rick or Lillian would come out soon and keep her from exploding or having a meltdown.
He walked over to her stopping her. "I'm sorry ma; I shouldn't have said that about her heart. The rest can wait until later once she's ok."
He opened his arms and she fell into them, grateful for the comfort. They sat and he just kept her in his arms until Rick came in. They were both on their feet and next to him quickly. "How is she Rick can I see her?"
Rick sighed. "I think she's going to be ok. There is a malfunction with her pacemaker and we need to go in and fix it. It's a quick thing and shouldn't take an hour."
Natalia sighed, "She's been doing so well lately Rick. How far is this going to set her back?"
Rick shook his head. "It's hard to say just yet. I'll know more once I fix it and can fully check her out. It's possible that it won't affect her at all. Now, I'll take you and you can see her for a minute before we take her back. She's awake and asking for you both."
Natalia smiled in relief that she was awake and Rafe just looked confused as to why she would want to see him. When they made it to the room Natalia made a beeline for Olivia and sobbed into her chest. "You can't scare me like this Liv."
Olivia ran her hand threw her hair. "I'll be ok baby. Rick just has to give me a reboot or something."
She chuckled a little at their inside joke and just leaned in and kissed her softly before sitting back and holding her hand. "Buzz is with Emma in the play room. She's scared but brave as ever."
Olivia smile and finally noticed Rafe standing uncomfortably in the corner. "Come here please."
He came over and stood on the other side of her. She smiled and took his hand. "Thank you for getting me here so fast. Rick said you probably saved my life. I wanted to talk to you really quick before they take me back."
He nodded and sat in the chair on that side of her. "I know you don't like this and I'm not asking you to. What I will ask is for you to be here for your ma and your sister. If something happens…"
Natalia stopped her. "Hey, none of that."
Olivia smiled and pulled up her hand to kiss the back of it. "I need to say this to him, please?" Natalia sighed and nodded as she continued. "If something happens to me in the operating room and I don't make it…"
She paused and squeezed Natalia's hand as a small sob escaped her. "If that happens I need you to help her. I am leaving Emma in her care and everything I own is being left to her, Ava, Emma and you. They'll need you Rafe. Promise me you'll be there for them."
Rafe just sat there stunned nodding his head. Natalia had stilled while listening this was a first she's heard of this. "What did you do Olivia?"
Olivia shrugged. "We can't legally get married in this state so I made sure that you and our children were taken care of if something happened to me and I don't want Emma with anyone but you, Rafe and Ava. I don't trust anyone else with her."
Rick came in and smiled sadly to them. "I'm sorry Olivia I need to get you back there so I can get you back to your family."
Rafe and Natalia nodded as they stood. Rafe squeezed her hand, "I promise."
Olivia smiled with a nod and Natalia leaned over and kissed her sweetly. "Come back to me, I need you."
Olivia winked as she moved away. "I'll see you in a bit."
Rafe wrapped his arms around his ma as they wheeled Olivia out of the room and tears poured out of her. Natalia let him hold her for a moment then composed herself. She cleaned her face, squared her shoulders and headed out the door. Rafe followed as she made her way through the corridors. He smiled slightly when they came to the doors of the play room.
Natalia took a deep breath and opened the door. Emma looked up and ran to her. "Is mommy ok?"
Natalia scooped her up and sat with her in her lap. "Do you remember the little box they put in that helps her heart beat the way it's supposed to?" Emma nodded and she continued. "Well, Rick say's there is something wrong with it and he is going to fix it. It should take about an hour and then I will ask him how long until you can see her."
Emma laid her head on Natalia's shoulder. "Is she going to be ok?"
Kissing her head Natalia pulled her face up by her chin to look into her eyes. "What do I always say?"
Emma smile. "By the grace and power of God she will survive and come home to us."
Natalia kissed her nose, "exactly."
Emma hugged her tight and sat back looking back up at her. "Can we go to the chapel and pray now? It worked every other time and I want to talk to God please."
Natalia smiled and stood putting her down beside her. "Of course we can baby. That was going to be my next suggestion."
Emma grabbed her hand then held out her other for Rafe. He smiled and moved in next to her taking it and they headed to the chapel. Buzz shot off a text to Lillian to let her know where they were and followed them.
Once they made it there Emma moved away from them and went to light a candle. She waited as Rafe and Natalia did the same and they all sat together in a pew and bowed their heads to pray.
Buzz walked over and lit a candle himself sending up his own prayer. He went to the back and watched the others. If only Frank could see this and get it through his head, he thought, maybe he could move on. This was a family and that wasn't changing anytime soon. He smiled to himself at his next thought. Olivia finally found her home and it warmed his heart. Now she just needed to get over the latest hump and come back to her people.
A little while later Emma giggled hearing Rafe's stomach growl. "Hey, don't laugh at me, I didn't eat breakfast and I'm hungry."
Emma smile, "Well then I guess you should have been at home with us this morning and Ma would have fed you too. We had eggs and bacon and muffins and…"
At the mention of food his stomach growled again. "Stop your killing me here."
Natalia smile indulgently at them. "Rafe why don't you and Buzz take Emma and go get some lunch? I'm not really hungry so I think I'll stay here for a little while and meet you back in the children's waiting room." She handed him some cash out of her purse.
He took her hand. "Are you sure you want to be here alone Ma?"
She smiled sadly. "Yes, I think I just want to talk to him a little more."
He nodded and they both hugged her before making their way out of the room. Buzz came over and kissed her head then followed them out.
Natalia moved forward and knelt at the altar. She bowed her head as tears gathered. "Lord please see us through this. I know you would not have given me this love for her just to take her from me so soon. I finally understand what you were doing for me when you brought Nicky back into my life. You were bringing Olivia along with him. Thank you for giving her to me, now I just need her to stay."
She grew silent but didn't move silently praying and rocking in place. She had no idea how long she had been there but felt the ache in her knees as she turned when the door opened. Buzz smiled and walked over to help her up. "I was just checking on you. Your kids are in the children's waiting room playing a game."
Natalia smiled and hugged him. "Thank you for being here Buzz. I know you're still upset with me over the whole mess I made with Frank."
Buzz shook his head. "No, forgave you for that a while back. I see now that this is the right thing for you. I always did, I just wish you would have figured it out before but it's over and I see now. You and Olivia, it just makes sense. Even if no one else sees it, I do."
Tears started streaming down her face as he pulled her into his arms. "Thank you Buzz, you have no idea what that means to me. I may not have loved Frank like a wife should and I am so sorry I hurt him but I always loved you like a daughter and I was heartbroken when I let you down."
He sighed and squeezed her tight. "No more worries about me. We're good darlin'."
She smiled and let him lead her out of the room. They joined the kids in the waiting room and sat watching them play a game as they waited.
A/N: We will find out for sure in the next Chapter how Olivia is. The fairy was mean today but you gotta love her.