Title: My Heart in Your Hands
Pairing: Olivia/Natalia
Rating: NC-17
Summary: After Rafe walks up to them being sweet and intimate and blows up. This is what I think should have happened. Starts in the scene after Olivia and Emma leave. Cannon until it's not
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I do not make any profit from this. I don't have a beta so all mistakes are mine.
Chapter 6
It had been almost two hours and they hadn't heard anything. Natalia was starting to get very worried. Rick had said it was an easy fix that would take less than an hour. What was taking so long? Emma had fallen asleep a half hour ago and she being there and aware of every move Natalia made forced her to be calm but with their baby sleeping she was losing her mind.
She paced across the room again and Rafe shared a look with Buzz who just shrugged accustomed to how Natalia was in the waiting room. "If I were you I'd let her be."
He shook his head as he stood and walked over to her. "Ma, you need to calm down. You're going to give yourself a heart attack and then you're no good to anyone."
Natalia looked at him like he'd grown another head than resumed pacing. Buzz just shook his head. He tried to warn the boy. If he bothered her anymore she would blow up. She just needed to move.
Rafe sighed and moved to stop her again but Buzz stood and pulled him back speaking quietly in his ear. "Leave her if you don't want her to lose it. She will blow up if you don't leave her be."
Rafe wanted to argue but sat anyway and just watched her. "Why does she do that?" He whispered to him.
Buzz looked at him incredulously. "You're joking right now right?" Rafe shook his head looking confused and Buzz just shook his head. "Your mother loves that woman more than life itself. The only thing more important to her than Olivia is you, Emma and Ava. Until she knows that Olivia's ok she's going to be going crazy."
They looked up as the door opened and Natalia left the room. Rafe moved to follow but Buzz pulled him back down. "She's just going to the nurse's desk to ask questions. She'll be back she just has to keep moving. Trust me I've seen this every time Olivia ends up here."
Rafe just sat looking at the door. "You're wrong though. She cares more about Olivia than she does me. She's choosing her over me."
Buzz shook his head. "You really are that stupid. That woman would stand in front of a bus for you. Gun to both your heads and she could only choose one she'd choose you every time and that is exactly what Olivia would want her to do too. But if you are trying to keep them apart that is selfish of you and I know she raised you better than that and she knows this too."
Rafe looked at him confused and Buzz smiled sadly. "Did you tell her you didn't want her with Olivia?"
Rafe nodded. "It isn't right and she needs to stop this before she gets hurt."
"Is it not right because of the fact that she is with a woman or because it's Olivia?"
Rafe just looked away for a moment thinking. "Olivia will hurt her. She doesn't know how to love. Frank said…"
Buzz grabbed his arm and shook it. "You cannot listen to Frank where this is concerned. All he cares about is that he wants your Ma for himself not what is best for her. Frank said your Ma is making you come home with them and I know Olivia moved back in yesterday because she came by Company for coffee on her way to pack. She's forcing you to be around isn't she?"
Rafe nodded still upset about that. "Yes she is and it's crap."
"No Rafe it's not. You want your mom to be happy right?" Rafe nodded and he continued. "You're afraid of Olivia hurting her and you're not 100% ok with them both being women. She wants you to be around on an everyday basis so you can see how real it is. And let me tell you, I have known Olivia for many years and that woman is 100% devoted to your mother like I have never seen her with anyone in the 10 years I have known her. You'll see it too if you give it a chance son. Just be there and watch them."
Rafe took an angry breath and Buzz sighed. "Let me ask you this, I heard you talking to Daisy behind company the other day and I know you have a date this week. Are you going to discuss that with your Ma and ask her for permission?"
Rafe looked up shock and a little irritated. "Of course not it's my life. I can date who I want."
Buzz just raised an eyebrow looking at him poignantly and light went off in his head. He looked down at his hands and sighed realizing what Buzz was getting at. Before they could say any more they looked to the door as Natalia came back in and started pacing again.
Buzz leaned over and spoke quietly in his ear. "Just think about it."
Emma started to stir and Natalia was instantly sitting next to her calming herself and Buzz breathed sigh of relief that she had started to wake up.
Emma sat up rubbing her eyes and looked to Natalia. "Did Uncle Rick come to tell us about mommy yet?"
Natalia smile sadly. "Not yet baby."
Emma's looked at the clock and her bottom lip started to quiver. Rafe got up and scooped her up in his arm. "Hey, none of that. He's probably just taking his time so he does his very best work. No tears munchkin, there's no reason for them and they make me sad."
Emma smiled slightly and burrowed into his neck. Natalia mouthed thank you and looked toward the door as Rick popped his head in. "Natalia can I see you for a moment?"
She nodded and kissed both kids. "I will be back as soon as I can to let you know what is going on."
They nodded and she headed out the door. Rafe handed Emma to Buzz and followed after her wanting to be there for her if needed.
Rick turned and sat on a bench in the hall pulling her down with him. "Ok, she's doing good and is in recovery. It took longer than anticipated because we ended up having to totally replace the pacemaker because it was shocking her heart. I don't foresee any problems and she should be back to normal in a few days. I'm keeping her tonight and if all goes well I will send her home tomorrow."
Natalia started to speak but got choked up and had to clear her throat before trying again. "So she's fine?"
Rick smile with a nod. "Yes, it was just a faulty pacemaker. Thanks to this young man's quick thinking she is going to be terrorizing us all for a long time."
Natalia finally totally deflated as tears started pouring out of her eyes. "Thank you Rick." She turned into Rafe and fell into his arms. "Thank you so much Mijo."
He just held her close and let her cry it out, Rick smiling sadly next to them. Once she finally calmed she turned back to Rick as she wiped her eyes. "When can I see her and when can Emma?"
Rick stood taking her hand to help her up. "I will have Lillian come to get you once she has Olivia settled into a room and Emma and Rafe can go in after Dinner for an hour before visiting hours is over. I want her to rest but I know she won't unless you are with her. We are getting you a bed for you to stay with her."
Natalia noticed the time and looked to Rafe. "Do you mind taking Emma to dinner at Company and bringing her back at 7:00? I think she would like being with you better than me having to call Jane."
Rafe smile, "I don't mind Ma. I'll take her to dinner then bring her back. I can take her home tonight if you want to sleep here and I'll put her on the bus in the morning."
Natalia sighed in relief. "That would be great honey but you can stay at the Beacon if you want so you don't have to drive all the way home."
He just shook his head. "I don't mind, besides Emma still has homework to finish and I need to get ready for work tomorrow."
Natalia sighed as she pulled an envelope out of her purse. "I forgot about that, here is a debit card for a checking account I set up for you. There is a little bit of money in there to help out until you start making your own. The account number and everything you need for your job to do direct deposit is in there. Go get your boots before you guys come back tonight."
He nodded putting the envelope in his pocket as they all stood. Natalia turned to Rick. "I'm going to talk to Emma and send them on their way. Please have Lillian come get me the second I can see her."
Rick smile and squeezed her hand. "Of course she will. She already knows."
With that he left and Natalia composed herself cleaning her face before heading back in to Emma. When she came through the door Emma looked up at her so worried. Natalia smile holding her arms out for her and Emma ran into them. "God heard our prayers baby. Mommy is ok, they had to but a new box in since the old one was bad. She has to stay the night but should be able to come home tomorrow."
Emma squealed in delight. "Can we see her now?"
"Not just yet. They are going to let me go and see her in a few minutes but you and Rafe have to come back at 7:00. Rick wants her to rest for a little bit before she has visitors. Rafe is going to take you to get some dinner at Company and you're going to help him get some boots for his new job then come back and visit with mommy. He's going to take you home after that and let you get ready for school tomorrow and get some sleep."
Emma pouted and sighed. "I wanted to be here tomorrow when she comes home."
Natalia smiled and kissed her temple. "We don't know what time she's coming home yet so you can go to school and if all goes well she will be home and settled by the time you get off the bus and we can have a movie night after dinner."
Emma beamed. "Ok ma I like that." She turned to Rafe and lifted her arms to him. "Can we go now I'm getting hungry?"
Rafe scooped her up and kissed Natalia as she released her. "Sure thing munchkin then we can get my boots and maybe an ice cream cone at the mall before coming back to see mommy."
Buzz stood as they moved to the door. "I'll be going then. Tell the troublemaker that I will be by with coffee and breakfast in the morning."
Natalia kissed his cheek and smiled brightly seeing Lillian in the doorway. "She's ready for you Natalia."
She gathered her bag and followed after her anxious just needing to see for herself that she was ok. When they rounded the door frame she made eye contact with Olivia and sighed. She rushed to her side and kissed her softly but passionately. "How are you feeling baby?"
Olivia smiled groggily. "I'm ok honey, tired and happy the donkey isn't kicking my chest anymore."
Natalia kissed her nose. "Did Rick tell you what happened?"
Olivia nodded. "Yea and I think it sucks. I wanted to enjoy a picnic with my family today."
Natalia smiles indulgently caressing her face. "I know baby but it will have to wait until at least next Sunday after church."
Olivia smiled and leaned into her hand. "Ok Love."
Lillian awed at them. "You two are too cute together I don't know how none of us saw it before. I for one am happy for you. I'm going to be here until shift change at 9:00 then I think Mary is here so if you need me press the button."
They nodded and Natalia sat on the bed next to Olivia stroking her head. Olivia was fighting to keep her eyes open and Natalia leaned in and kissed them both. "Stop fighting sleep baby. I'll be here when you wake up."
Olivia sighed and finally let sleep take her. By 7:00 Olivia was awake and the kids brought back food from Buzz and extra clothes from home for tomorrow and tonight. Natalia got a burger and Olivia got some Lillian approved soup and a tuna sandwich. They visited with Emma for the hour she was allowed to be there but Rafe was quiet for the most part.
At 8:00 Rafe gathered up Emma and they headed out for the night. Once they were gone Natalia cleaned up from dinner and changed into her sweats and a t-shirt for bed. When she came out of the bathroom Olivia had scooted over and was holding the covers for her.
Natalia smiled sadly. "God honey I want to hold you so badly but I don't want to hurt you and I'm sure the night nurse will not like it."
Olivia dropped the covers and tears gathered in her eyes. "I know but I…"
Natalia rushed to her and carefully climbed in with her. "Hey don't cry sweetheart, I'm right here. I'll fight the nurse if I have to."
She kissed her deeply and Olivia melted into her calming down. When they broke the kiss Olivia snuggled in and her eyes were drooping again. Natalia shifted settling comfortably in together and within a few minutes Olivia was asleep again.
Lillian came in to tell them good night and introduce the new nurse personally. She smiled seeing them snuggle together and Olivia sleeping. "I'm leaving for the night, this is Mary she's awesome so don't be afraid to call on her."
Mary came out from behind her and almost didn't control her volume level. "Oh my god Natalia, what happened? I haven't looked over any charts yet."
Natalia sighed in relief seeing Mary from church standing there. "Olivia has a pacemaker and it was malfunctioning. She collapsed right after we got home from church today and they had to replace it so we are here for the night."
Mary rubbed her arm. "Well, if you need anything let me know. Is it ok if I let Charlie know what's going on? She couldn't stop talking about Olivia today and telling me about some of the things they used to do to get in trouble together."
Natalia smile, "Of course. Olivia thinks highly of her and considers her a friend so it's fine."
Mary nodded and turned to the door. "Call if you need anything," and she was out the door.
Lillian smile. "Great, I'm glad you know her already. It will keep this one calmer." She leaned down and kissed her head. "Ok, I'm off for the night. Call my cell if you have any problems but with Mary you shouldn't."
They said their goodbyes and Natalia settled in and let sleep finally take her. Olivia was ok and would be going home tomorrow. Both kids were home and in bed. All in all not the most horrible day in her life but she prayed tomorrow would be better.
A/N: So I have all these stories to write and I plan on writing a chapter per story and rotating round but as you can see that isn't happening. For whatever reason this story is my fairy's favorite right now but I promise I will post more on There Will Always Be An Us soon. I will never abandon a story it just may take a little longer to get done. So for now enjoy this one and the stray chapter to Can I Tell You I Love you.
Much love to you all
Jen