Title: My Heart in Your Hands
Summary: After Rafe walks up to them being sweet and intimate and blows up. This is what I think should have happened. Starts in the scene after Olivia and Emma leave. Cannon until it's not
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I do not make any profit from this. I don't have a beta so all mistakes are mine.
Chapter 10
The rest of the week went by in a blur. Emma went to school as usual and Rafe worked every day that week so far. Things with Rafe were going good. He really wasn't saying much but was just observing. So far things seemed ok to him but he was reserving judgement for after Olivia was totally well and they were back to work. He wanted to see how things were with them on a normal basis.
Natalia ran the Beacon from home and only had to physically go in once for a problem no one else could handle. Olivia was ok for the most part with her restrictions. She did get a little irritable with being coddled but one time of Natalia tearing up was all it took for her to stop and just let her do what she wanted.
For the last three days they had visitors on and off. Charlie and Doris came by with food several times and to give Olivia a hard time. Susan and Mark came by just to check on her after Jody came home and told them she had been in the hospital offering to take Emma any day that week if needed. Buzz and Lillian came by bringing food as well. Frank even came by once and was quickly asked to leave. Doris had informed Natalia of what he had said that upset Rafe at Towers Monday and she told him he wasn't welcome.
Needless to say Natalia didn't do much cooking and Olivia was a ticking time bomb wanting people to leave her alone. Thursday afternoon she finally exploded. Charlie and Doris had just left after Olivia blew up and she was pacing the bedroom muttering to herself. Natalia stood leaning against the doorway just watching her.
"Do you feel better now?"
Olivia looked up sharply then looked away and continued to pace. "I'm sorry but it's just maddening."
Natalia scoffed and moved toward her. "I know. It's so hard to have friends that love you, that bring you food and just come to check on you because they care. I'm so sorry. I know that is such a hardship."
Olivia stopped and just stared at her. "That's not fair."
She just shrugged. "And what is fair? Is it fair for you to yell at them just because they came over to bring us food and offered to help out?"
Olivia shook her head and sat on the edge of the bed with a sigh. "I just hate it. I hate that I can't be for you what Charlie is for Mary. I feel fine and I can't even help you pick up the house."
Natalia uncrossed her arms and moved to stand between her legs cupping her face. "I know you are frustrated but it's only for a few days. After tomorrow you will be back to your old self and Rick will clear you."
Olivia leaned in and pulled her closer wrapping her arms around her. "But that's just it baby. I'm never going to be my old self again. I'm never going to be able to do the things I did before I got sick. I'll never be able to pick up our daughter again and put her to bed. I'm never going to be a whole woman for you."
Natalia pulled her face out of her stomach and kissed her softly. "You are a whole woman, you're all I need. Yes you have limitations but they don't stop you from living a full and happy life. So what if Charlie goes out and does whatever yard work that Mary wants. That's what we have a son for and if not him the lawn service works for me. Neither of us is the mow the lawn ourselves type."
They both chuckle and she kisses her nose. "All I need you to do is love me and our children. Be the business mongrel you are and help me around the house as much as you physically can when you are ok'd by the doctor to do so. I just need you to be health and with me."
Olivia sighed and pulled her down to kiss her sweetly. After a moment she pulled back and hugged her again. "I'm sorry. This week has just been stressful. I hate having to stay down being restricted so much and I just lost it for a minute. I'll call and apologize to the girls later."
Natalia smiled and held her close. "Its fine baby, I'm surprised you didn't lose it sooner."
Olivia just shrugged. "I almost did the other day then you teared up and I couldn't do it. I guess I don't have a problem blowing up at D and Charlie."
They both chuckled and Olivia pulled her back down for another kiss. This kiss heated up quickly and Olivia was scooted back on the bed pulling Natalia with her. Once she was lying fully back Natalia settled into her side. They never broke contact until they needed to take a breath.
Natalia looked into her eyes and smiled as she leaned back in and reconnected their lips. Olivia moaned into her as their tongues met again and she shifted until she had Natalia half on top of her. Their hands started to roam and Olivia detached from her mouth and started down her neck kissing and nipping until she suckled her pulse point.
Natalia threw her head back on a moan. "Oh god… Liv… we have to… stop…"
Olivia grunted and suckled harder running a hand under her shirt up to cup her breast. Natalia growled and moved back to take her lips again. Olivia moved her free hand up to cradle her head and hold her in place as she ravished her and almost came undone when Natalia's hands wandered under her own shirt and found her bare breast.
Natalia ripped her mouth away on a moan kneading the breast one last time before removing her hand and pulling Olivia's away from her. Olivia whimpered at the loss and Natalia leaned forward kissing her softly then rested their heads together. "We have to stop baby."
Olivia groaned. "I don't want to."
Natalia took a deep breath trying to regain her full control. "I don't either but Emma and Rafe will be home soon and we have to wait for Rick to release you and you said you wanted to wait for it to be special this weekend."
She leaned in and nipped her chin playfully "You said it would be special anyway. Let's go with that."
Natalia chuckled kissing her one last time and rolled away. "Nope, you promised me a special time this weekend and I intend to hold you to it. Besides the kids…"
"MA I'M HOME!" She didn't get to finish that sentence as Rafe yelled up the stairs.
Natalia laughed at the crestfallen look on her face. "I'll be down in a minute mijo." She rolled back over and kissed her lovingly. "Tomorrow baby, as soon as you are cleared and we make it to wherever you have planned for us you can do whatever you want to me."
Olivia groaned at the thought and kissed her again. "Ok go on down. I'm going to call D and Charlie and apologize for being an ass."
Natalia smiled and kissed her chin as she got up. "Alright and when you come down make sure you bring your purse cause you own the swear jar about $100 after going off on our friends."
Olivia groaned again and rolled over to grab her phone. "Fine, I'll be down in a few."
Natalia winked and headed out the door. Once she made it down stairs she found Rafe bent over with his head in the refrigerator. "I'm going to start dinner in an hour."
He jumped hitting his head and stood up with a hotdog in his mouth. "Sorry ma I'm just starving."
She shook her head indulgently and shooed him away from her refrigerator as she took out a small tray of celery and set it on the table. She pulled out the peanut butter and put it into three small cups then put one in front of Rafe and the other two on the table. She got out three plates and put two chocolate chip cookies on two of them and two of the sugar free chocolate cookies she made on another.
Just as she set them all on the table the back door opened and Emma came in. "Hi ma, hi Rafe."
Natalia smiled, she'd never tire of her calling her ma. "Hello baby, how was school?"
She just shrugged hanging her jacket and backpack up on her hooks. "It was fun. Jody said to not forget my sleeping bag for tomorrow."
"Susan came by today and picked up your overnight bag and sleeping bag. You're all set for your sleep over. Now, go wash up and you can have your snack."
Emma hugged her tight and ran to the sink to wash her hands then sat talking with Rafe as they ate. Natalia turned back to the sink putting away the dishes from earlier as Olivia walked in coming over and kissing her cheek. "I called and apologized. D just laughed at me and Charlie said I was whipped."
She shrugged pulling down the swear jar throwing in five $20 bills. Rafe saw and he looked up at her with a smirk. "Did someone have a bad day?"
Natalia chuckled looking over as she put the jar up and Olivia smiled. "It happens." She sat in her seat and started eating her snack as Natalia set a cup of her afternoon meds beside her. "You know, I never have asked and I'm curious. What do you use the swear jar money for?"
She chuckled ran a hand over her shoulder. "That's for me to know and for you to maybe someday find out."
Olivia looked up sharply not expecting such a vague answer and Rafe laughed. "She's never told me either. I think she hordes it away so she can run off without us one of these days."
Emma turned her head to Natalia looking concerned. "You wouldn't leave us, would you ma?"
At the tremor in her voice Natalia rushed to her. "Of course not baby, your brother is just kidding around."
She turned a glare at him and he looked down sheepishly. "Sorry munchkin I was just joking. Ma would never leave us."
Olivia just smiled trying not to laugh at the look on his face. "Anyway, are you still set to go to the Cubs game with Buzz Saturday?"
Rafe swallowed his last bite and sat back. "Yep, we're leaving on Friday after I get off work. He said we're staying at a hotel that night so we can get there early without leaving at the crack of dawn. We'll be back late Saturday night."
Natalia took all of their plates and put them in the sink. "We won't be here when you get home so make sure you lock up good before you go to bed. We're coming back Sunday morning in time for church and to pick up Em. You're welcome to join us for Church and the Sunday picnic."
He looked up confused. "Where are you going?"
Natalia shrugged. "I don't know. Olivia won't tell me, she says it's a surprise."
He looked at Olivia with concern. "It's not far is it? What if you need the Doctor or something?"
She smiled at his concerned and shook her head. "We aren't going far and I'm going to check with Rick before we leave to make sure it's ok. If not then we will change our plans."
He just nodded and stood. "Well ok then, can you pick me up on Sunday morning so I can ride to Church with you? I'm not sure where it is."
Olivia nodded. "Yea, we'll be here at 8:30 to pick you up."
He smiled started for the door. "Ok thank. I'm going to go up and take a shower. I feel gross from work."
With that he was gone and Emma stood as well. "I have some reading homework so I'm going to my room. Are we still having a movie night tonight?"
Natalia smiled and rubbed over her hair. "As long as your homework is done and you get your bath out of the way before dinner, we will watch one movie. It's still a school night."
Emma hugged her tight then hugged Olivia before grabbing her bag and heading up to her room. Olivia stood and wrapped her arms around her kissing her lightly. "I love you."
Natalia just smile. "I love you too."
Olivia nodded. "Good. You want to come watch a little TV with me before you start dinner?"
Natalia set down her dish rag and pulled her out of the room. "Sounds like a plan to me."
A/N: Ok just a short little chapter to wet your whistle. Up next their first weekend alone together.