I felt it, the pain in my back growing, pushing inside me, like something was grinding inside me. I couldn't take this anymore, the agony had to go away before I could.

I heard the ambulance's siren come near me, people's shouts fading through the background. Nothing was clear enough to make out, every time I look, colors mash together to create a masterpiece.

I pushed my hands trying to get myself up, instead getting nowhere - my vision blurring as the scenery lost its color. I tried cracking my neck for less pain, only for it to cause more, making blood rush out from my body more rapidly than before.

Someone had grabbed me, pulling me by the hand, gently placing me on a soft substance. I relaxed, breathing in and out, even though my heart felt like giving up.

I looked above me to see a disorted however somehow familiar women, and sounds blurred out, I could hear her voice stand out from them all.

"Don't worry, you'll make it through" She reassured, with hope sparking in her eyes.

My eyes twitched before closing smoothly, getting me in deep sleep.

—–—–

My eyes fluttered before I awoke from my slumber, my back still grinding from the pain.

I shrieked as the pain increased, as a drill was creating a hole beneath my back, it was unstoppable. Something popped beneath my skin in my abdomen, I couldn't say what it was, it wasn't like I was a doctor or something, though I hoped one comes soon.

I looked above myself, elbows supporting my weight, my eyes looking above to the ceiling. I sighed, in relief and despair - I don't really know how to feel after this. I don't remember anything, not a single thing.

I heard footsteps from a distance coming closer and closer. I hurriedly took a nearby blanket and piled it on top of my body, shivering in both fright and coldness. I could feel the goosebumps upon my skin, growing as the footsteps created more noise.

I directed my eyes towards the door, releasing my cupped hands from the blanket ; finally relaxing my body, my goosebumps sinking into my skin. It was just a doctor, a cute one.

Great, now I'm in love with a doctor, how convenient.

"Hey, you doing ok?" The familiar women asked me, placing her hand on my abdomen.

My body shivered from her touch, knowing she just placed her hand on my bleeding spot. Her touch was soothing, relaxing my body. Breathing in and breathing out steadily.

"I-I'm doing go-o-od." I reassured, internally slapping my mouth for not functioning properly.

I placed my back gently onto the bed, or whatever it was. Rubbing my brain, I felt my brain sting at me. Ouch...

I tried to ignore the pain, it intensifying as I tried.

"My name's Lapis, Lapis Lazuli. And you're Peridot according to this." She turned around her clipboard, showing me a bunch of patients name's, including mine.

"Oh." I really wasn't in such a mood to talk, I just want to remember what happened.

"Peridot," She sighed, her expression on her face dropping "Do you remember anything?"

I looked up at her, softly staring at her deep blue eyes. I forced my brain to try remembering something, resulting nothing. The women did look familiar though, but I couldn't confirm I knew who she was.

"Nothing. I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault, you actually had amnesia, a very specific one though. Affecting only this memory of yours."

"I had... Amnesia?" Amnesia had always been one of my fears. Not remembering anything, being lost in your own brain, and no matter how much you try to remember it'll never happen. Yes, people will explain what happened, but it's not like you could ever feel what happened back then, not like you could go back and laugh at those funny memories. The only thing you remember is people's explanations, their un-feelable explanations.

"Yes, not only that but you had been missing for one whole year"

Yea, yea I know. What the fuck is happening.

Don't worry, everything will be explained. This story took an unexpected turn.