A/N: Hello! i miss you guys all. I apologize for taking so long. My computer still does not work but I'm using a friends laptop because I needed to post something or I WAS GOING TO LOSE MY MIND!

Before you read i want you guys all to know that Annie still has no idea what happened to Haylee. This is a continuation of when she went to sleep with Nessie. Something else happens and you guys are about to find out.

I'm a drama queen so this is full of drama. I do hope you enjoy this because I had to re-write the whole scene.

I decided that this scene should be in two because it was really, REALLY long.

Enjoy. And Please tell me what you think. I LOVE all your reviews and it motivates to keep posting for you all.

Annalise's POV

When I woke from my sleep my muscles felt incredibly heavy like if my bones had become steel and was weighing my skin down. My head felt full; all of the thoughts still jammed and confided in the small space of my skull. I had come accustomed to the feeling; all the worry, over thinking- it was a usual routine.

I blink a few times and rubbed my eyes with heel of my right hand before the bright light spewed in the room, before they finally adjusted allowing me to take in my parents old room. The light beige walls, the perfectly blended expensive furniture, the exotic plants that gave the final touch. It had Momma written all over it. If it was down to Daddy they're just be a bed with a sixty inch television, that would be all. And he's happy.

I giggle at the thought.

I sat up and looked around once more. Then it hit me, making my brows crease in a slight frown. Nessie; she went to sleep with me. Where is she? I thought silently to myself as I looked over the untouched spot next to me. I Unfocused my gaze and focused my attention on my hearing, listening around the house.

Nothing.

I could hear nothing. Of course I wasn't looking for a heart beat, even Nessie's heart was very faint and sometimes I couldn't hear it. But at least I was looking for movement, maybe even small chatter that only my family had.

My eyes zoomed around until I spotted one of Momma's expensive wrist watch laying effortlessly on the dresser. I zeroed in and read the time. Nine-thirty. My eyes widen. I have never slept in so much. Not since … four years back. He always wanted Axel and I to be ready very early. It was forced into my system to be an early riser. Is it that why I feel heavy, groggy even?

I flung the covers off and I stood up at once. I had on black leggings and a navy blue v-neck shirt, at my feet I had white fluffy socks. One look in the mirror and there could only be one word that can describe my look; comfy. I wasn't wearing some expensive and stylish fabric, I was wearing something I can run in, walk around in, sleep in; this is my favorite wear. And for a long time I can walk out the room just wearing this and I wouldn't be reprimanded, because he's gone. Who would force me to do everything his way. I was free.

I opened the door and just stood at the arch of the door once again trying to listen in. Then I heard them, the light footsteps. My lips stretched into a smile. I knew I couldn't be alone; Momma at least hasn't dare leave me alone since my return. I wouldn't want it any other way.

I take quick steps towards the sound of the pacing; the footsteps sound louder the closer I got. The wood would sometimes squeak under the different pressures but only those with enhance hearing would be able to hear it.

I swept my hair to the side to give my right ear free passage to hear more clearly. And the footsteps lead me to Grandpa's study. Is he here? But where's Momma? Or Aunt Bella, who were suppose to stay behind from the hunting trip?

My body tensed and my chest constricted when I smelled something I had become familiar. Too familiar. But the scent wasn't alone; it was mixed with something I know too. Two smells that should never be mixed.

My hands acted fast twisting the door knob and flinging the door open. The pacing seized to a stop and Jessie looked at me. And it was until he fully turned towards me that I saw it. The blood. The red color covering his whole mouth, neck, shirt … the human blood.

I felt my face pale as we stared at each other. My eyes taking in the horrific scene in front of me. He was completely still and for once he looked very un-vampire like. Besides the blood that tainted him. Besides the pale flawless skin; I saw emotion, real raw emotion. It was Guilt, he looked frighten, ashamed. His expression is dark with completely and utter self- condemnation. Like he already sentenced him self to hell before a trial.

"Jessie - I …" Words fail me.

His lips turn grim and the dark circles under his eyes doesn't go unnoticed. He opens his mouth and pauses. "I messed up." he rasped out.
I quickly closed the door as if the simple wooden door would be enough to keep this confidential. I passed my fingers over my hair rapidly in desperation.

"Wh- what happened?"

His expression turns dark. "I killed someone."

My face falls. "Don't say that."

"I did." He says passively, his face wiped from all emotion. "I. Killed. Someone."

"I-" I pause not knowing what to say. I couldn't call him a liar if the clear evidence was staring me right in the face. "You messed up." I start and swallow "I can talk to Embry and-"

"No." He interrupts. "I deserve to die."

"Jessie!" I exclaim. "Don't say that!"

"It's true!" He yells and squares his shoulders. He looks taller, darker even. It's Jessie, the vampire.

"I … I can help you. The wolves will understand. This is your first time. It's hard for every new vampire.."

He shakes his head rubbing the back of his neck. "It happened so fast. Before I knew it I was sucking the life out of a little girl." His voice is terse and rough. His gaze snaps in my direction angrily. "I little fucking girl. Do you understand that!"

"How could this happen?" I question frantically. "You went out with everybody. They were suppose to protect you even from yourself if they had to."

"Don't blame them."

"How can I not! You went hunting as a Cullen!"

His jaw twitched and his nostrils flared. "Don't blame them. I went on my own thinking I could make hunt and then tell them how a fast learner I am." He chuckles darkly. "I guess I didn't count on a whole family camping."

"Jessie-"

"Anna stop." He scowls. "Its been a game of cat and mouse the whole fucking night. I'm tired of it."

"What is that suppose to mean?" I urge desperate.

He looks at me, and gives me no hint at what he's thinking. Nothing about him this very instant is human. It is pure marble beauty, with no real emotion. Then he spins on his heels and calmly walks to the big windows in Grandpa's study. He looks at the serene scenery of the green forest, as if he was admiring it. His shoulders still tense and his stance still dominating if you will.

"Listen." He grits out painfully after a while of deadly silence. He says nothing more.

At first I was confuse as to what he is saying. I wanted to shout at him to stop being so damn coy and just tell me what's going on. I was frustrated, confused, angry. I needed answers.

My lips parted to try and get everything out of him when I finally heard them; the voices. They were arguing back and forth. I inhaled sharply as I ran to the windows next to Jessie. I pressed my heated palms over the cool glass as I looked at the forest. I couldn't see anything, but now I hear everything.

"He is my son!" Momma shouts protectively.

"He broke the law. He must pay." Jacob snarls angrily.

"He must die!" Someone yells.

"No!" I gasp. My eyes widen looking at Jessie. "You cant let them hurt you." I shake my head.

"They already agreed. That I should die. I agree with them."

"No Jessie!" I yell angrily. "I wont let you."

In a fast swift movement I'm pinned against the wall, a large cold stony hand circling my neck. His red eyes looking at me deep. "You don't understand." He slams my body to the wall and I hold a grunt of pain in. "The guilt … I feel disgusting." He tightens his grip. "Just shut up."

"Stop trying to frighten me Jessie. It wont work." I glare. "Remember I spent four years being mistreated and beaten. I can take the pain."

It's like a a bucket of cold water fell over him an sobered him right up. He immediately let me go. "I'm so sorry Anna. I just- I …"

I take a gulp of air and I rub my neck. "Jessie it's fine."

"Anna just shut the fuck up! Nothing is fine. I killed someone."

I tense. "You learn to live with it."

"You don't get it." he shakes his head.

Before anything else was said I could smell them. The distinct wolf smell, along with my favorite scent in the world. Embry. I felt betrayal that he's amongst them. He couldn't possibly be okay with this.

"Don't you there touch him!" Momma threatens in the distance.

I suddenly feel cold. Panic strikes my every limb as my mind goes into over drive to think of something quick. I cant let him die. Not my brother.
I blink rapidly when I feel a pair of cold lips touch my cheek briefly. My eyes dart to Jessie who looks absolutely crestfallen. "Good bye Anna."

And then he was gone.

My breathing halts and I feel numb as I turn on my heels and run as fast as I can. I wont let this be his end. If anything this should be mine.
As I run through the threshold of the house there lies the scene I loath to even watch. Jessie holding to a tearless Momma, and Daddy standing in front of them protectively along with my family. The wolves all growling and looking hostile. They were allies and now where enemies.

"STOP!"

All of the eyes snap towards me. Fright takes me in a death grip and all my courage leaves me. Can I tell them what I did? I cant. No I cant. I fought so hard to keep it a secret. I … can't.

"They're going to hate you …" Richard's voice taunts and laughs.

I swallow thickly at the possibility.

"Tell them. Tell them how good you fed on innocent humans."

"Annie?" Nessie calls me softly.

I blink in her direction. "I …"

"Jessie, please. We'll protect you." Momma pleads as she holds on to him to dear life.

"Jessie, son, stay put." Grandpa speaks. "I'm sure we can come to a peaceful agreement."

"I'm sorry." Jessie's voices. "Jacob, I'm sure that when this is done the treaty between The Cullen's and the wolves stay in tact."

My eyes find Jacobs Russet wolf, the biggest of them all. His big head bobs up and down responding to Jessie's comment.

"I chose death." Jessie announces. He looks over at the family. "Please don not stop me. I am willing." he clears his throat, "I'm sorry."\

Jessie then kisses Mommas temple and forces his hands off him. Momma's heartbreaking tearless sobs makes my head pound and guilt.
I'm a coward. And because of it my brother will die.

My scalp prickles with every step Jessie takes towards the wolfs. Every thing seems so surreal. My eyes squeeze shut as I hear his poise foot steps getting closer to his doom.

"I knew you couldn't do it. You pathetic little bitch."

My eyes snap open and a surge of determination curses through me. I am done with having Richard control me. The day becomes dark and thunder rubles through the sky.

My feet find their footing and I find myself sprinting the fastest I have ever gone. My family try to intervene but nothing will stand in my way.

"If you kill him, you have to kill me too!"

Jessie stops in his path. I quickly stand in front of him, expanding my arms protectively. I stare at Jacobs brown orbs chillingly.

"You are condemning him for taking one life accidentally. I killed dozen's." The rim of my eyes hurt with the pressure as I glare at him profusely. "I enjoyed it. They came one by one, and I killed them all."

The silence that follows is palpable. Everything is deathly silent. And I feel as if the wind has been knocked out of me. It's all out now. I ma a huge monster in the eyes of all who i care about. The words ring around the forest. In a split second rain begins to pour and the sky roars.

Cold hands circle my arms and try to pull me aside but I fight back. I had to stay my ground.

"Annie?'

The waver of uncertainty in Momma's voice makes my chest hurt.

"What are you talking about baby?"

I don't dare to look at her nor speak to her, I'd crumble down and right now it's about saving Jessie. I don't let go of Jacob's eyes.
"Kill me. If that is what he deserves imagine me? If death is the punishment that I guess its what I deserve."

I fist my hands and growl. "KILL ME!

A/N: Cats out the bag!

So? Tell me what you think, write a review. Remember this is only part 1 and there is still so much to come! Part two ties everything together and (Spoiler alert) She finds out about Haylee. I wonder how she'll deal with that.

Oh and Cute moments are coming!

PS: Ever wonder where Axel is?

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~R