Hmmm. Well, A Raven in Summer's Embrace wins! Thank you all so much for giving me such wonderful ideas. BTW, I didn't pick them. They were all so good that I had someone else do it. So, thank you all so much. NyanHellcat18, wonderful title. All of you, wonderful titles! :D I appreciate the help. Here's chapter 2. It's slow and not much is really developed, but here it is!
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Chapter 2: So That's What It Is
Sap. Summer picked a mission involving sap. That is one thing that I never imagined that she would pick, maybe one with something like saving people from a burning building or killing thousands of Grimm, but sap just seems so tame. Though, what happened kind of did make it a bit more excited, if nervewrecking at the same time. Ozzie must have asked her to do it, and by default, the entire team had to go. I can appreciate her kind heart, but her 'yes man' routine sometimes gets on my nerves. She can't say no to anyone in need. That's one reason why she's an amazing friend, but I wish that she'd take her own feelings and wants into account.
I make my way down the hall to anywhere but here. I can't be near Summer right now. She's a wonderful friend, but that doesn't really explain these weird symptoms I'm getting when I'm near her. I think it'd be best if I separate from her for at least a little while to see if it'll go away. Sleep will do me a world of good. I sigh and open the dorm room door. It's dark but comfortable. It feels like home. After almost four years of living here, it's shaped up nicely. It looks like we live here, not just stay here for a time. The walls are decorated with a majority of Tai's posters. Juice boxes litter the ground around Qrow's bed, making me shake my head in disgust. This is more the boys' room than mine and Summer's, but it's still homey. It's like our own little niche of happiness. I sigh and lay down on my bed, the one right next to Summer's. I turn over in the bed, facing her bed, and slowly close my eyes.
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Later:
I hear footsteps behind me as I finish off the last training dummy. I sheath my blade as I turn around to see Summer walking to me, a warm smile spread across her face. I feel that strange weight settle on my chest again as I watch her. I quirk my eyebrow at her. "What are you doing up so late?"
Her smile turns into a frown. "I could ask you the same thing. When I saw that you weren't in the dorm, I got worried."
She was worried about me? Why does that make my stomach bubbly? "I wanted to get some training in."
She sighs. "You had training this afternoon. Why would you be out here so late?"
Her shoulders sag and her hood falls to cover her eyes, and I'm half grateful for that. I wouldn't be able to lie if I were looking her in the eye. "I just wanted to try out some stuff I've been working on." I shrug and cringe on the inside. I can't believe I just told her such a blatant lie. I'm going to Hell. I just know it. I pause in my thoughts. Well, aren't I just cynical to the bone. I shake my head and look back at Summer, who is smiling again, thank god.
She giggles a bit. "Then you won't mind accompanying me back to the dorm, seeing as how you seem to be finished." I think she saw right through that. How the hell can that girl do that? It's like she's a human lie detector. When I nod, she grabs my arm, and my heart starts to beat faster. I look away from her as she speaks. "So, are you going to tell me the real reason that you've been out?"
Damnit! She did see right through it. I knew it. I sigh. "I've been trying to figure some things out."
I look down at her to see her give me a concerned look. "Is it anything I can help with?"
She'd have to ask me that, wouldn't she? I swallow hard and weigh my options. On one hand, she seems to be the cause of these weird feelings, but on the other hand, she's really wise, even if she doesn't seem to be at first glance. I could struggle forever with this, never getting anywhere, or I could ask for her insight. If it turns out that I don't like the outcome, I can always say that it happens around someone else. I could use strictly hypothetical situations, but she'd see through that. She'd know that I was experiencing this, and she'd ask me questions, ones that I'm not willing or capable of giving answers to. I should ask, really. I should just open my mouth. Maybe she can help, and it will turn out to be nothing but my imagination. I steel myself and open my mouth. But what am I going to say? How can I possibly tell her and she not find out? Ugh, this is getting so hard. Finally, I just opt for, "Maybe."
I stare straight ahead for the next part. She's going to ask for more information, and I don't want to look at her when I tell her these strange symptoms. "Well?" I hear the infinite abyss of curiosity that she possesses seep through that concerned tone.
I swallow hard. "I get this weird feeling, here," I lay my hand over my chest, "and here." I motion to my stomach. "It's like a weight on my chest, and something squeezing my heart. Then, I get this weird, bubbly feeling in my stomach. I don't know what it is."
I can practically hear her thinking. "I don't want to automatically go to some kind of medical condition." She giggles. "Does this happen around somebody in particular?"
I look away and blush. "Um, yeah."
Summer busts out laughing. "You are so silly, sometimes. It's nothing to worry about. You just have a crush!" She throws her free arm up in excitement. "Oh, this is so sweet. Our little Raven has a crush." She throws her arms around me, and I can feel my heart beat faster. A crush? On Summer? That's ridiculous. It can't be that. I refuse it to be that. What would it do to our friendship, our partnership? I couldn't jeopardize my friendship. She's the first friend I made, or well, she kind of forced herself into my life by being my partner, but that doesn't make it any less significant. She lets go and stands in front of me. "So, who is it? Who's the lucky guy?"
I blink. Guy? What? Oh, right. She wants to know my crush. I blink again. But she can't know! If she knew, what would happen? I shake my head. "I'm not telling."
Her smile goes down a little. "Oh, that's okay, I guess. You'll tell me in due time."
I frown at this. She's disappointed. I made her disappointed in me. "I just want to confirm a few things. It's not about you, really."
She looks me in the eye, and I know she saw right through it. I could tell, and it's eating at me. I shouldn't have lied straight to her face. I shouldn't have been capable. She would accept the truth, wouldn't she? She wouldn't care, would she? Is she even gay? Wait, am I gay? Does this crush really mean that I'm a lesbian? I almost clutch my head in confusion, but I hold back and keep a relaxed posture. When I look at her again, her smile's gone completely. I made it disappear. A twisting feeling envelopes my heart, and it's painful, almost tear inducing. "That's fine." Her smile slowly comes back, but it's not genuine. it's forced. I've seen her genuine smiles. I know those smiles. This isn't it. It's far from it, and it's eating at me. "I can wait. What are friends for?" But is that all I want us to be? Maybe I need more sleep? Maybe that'll help me figure everything out.
I nod my head and look down the hallway outside the training facility. "I'm tired." I look down at her. "Let's head back."
Summer smack the side of her head lightly. "Duh. I totally forgot that that was why I even came here!" She takes my arm and starts leading me toward the dorm room. This is going to get very complicated, I can just tell. Why did it have to be her?
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A/N: Well, now she knows! Next chapter will add an unexpected element. I just wanted to say that. I do take suggestions. Frequent readers of my work know this, but you new comers should know too. Also, I jumped on the bandwagon... I have a account now... The link to my profile is on my profile. *sigh* It was suggested. I'm not forcing or begging. I'm just saying that'd be appreciated. :) Anyway! Follow, favorite, Review!
