AN:/ I really do not like the beginning of this story... I wanna redo it.
I will redo it.
Debating on changing and putting it on a separate file, then deleting the first and maybe second chapter. -sigh-

Though, I am hoping to further this, the inside me is telling me it won't be a too long story or a very serious 50+ chapter story.
It makes me a bit sad, because I want to make this as amazing as possible. Though it will be short, the chapters may be long. :D

So, with these depressing thoughts, I give you a semi-depressing -humorous as always- chapter!

I'VE READ UP ON THE EPISODES FOR FMA:B! I have at least 13 volumes of FMA, but... They're like, at the END, which will be helpful, just.. I need the beginning...
TO THE PUBLIC LIBRARY!
-whilst Author-chan is away, read on for the newest chapter.
She also apologizes for it being later that 'normal' for her to update as it was previously 3-5 days..-

(I've also noted how hard it actually is to write seriously, yet want it to be funny at the same time.)

With a threat pointed at me again, I wonder just how I manage to get in these situations. Why is it always violence? Why not a tea-party?
On second thought... Tea-Party's suck. Always fake tea.
Really wanting to say something, I zip my mouth shut, and my confidence wavers at the fact he could repeatedly kill me as much as he liked.
But you wouldn't really die, though.
Wincing at the thought, I refrain from shaking my head to toss it away. I didn't want to think about it... Not now... Not yet, at least.
I'm going to have to sooner or later, though...

Sooner of later...

As it turns out, the Elric brother's were here for Marcoh's notes.
"Is it that early in the series?" I mumble to myself, as I scoot a bit to better adjust myself in the tight space. "...Well, it does make sense.. Lillie did say that Hughes hadn't died yet." I say to my knuckles, which were near my nose as they were placed directly onto my knees.
A part of me was elated that I could still become a part of their lives, their, as in Ed and Al. Who wouldn't want to? It was like every Fangirl's fantasy to talk to, even get to know Edward and Alphonse Elric as a person, not as a character on a screen.
Still, even if it all seemed like a dream, like a.. Fanfiction.

It didn't seem like a great one to me.

Legs pressed close to my torso so they won't stick out under the chair, I wiggle some more to try and get as comfortable as possible, only managing to hit my head on the underside of the wooden desk.
Okay, yes, I know.
Why the hell am I hiding under Roy Mustang's office desk. Well, it isn't a long story, but I'd rather not go into too much detail:

-Flashback-

After I had figured out that there was a serial killer amongst us, I was stuck on whether or not to go on my merry way, get the hell out of there, or figure out where Lillie and AL was. Knowing Lillie could take care of herself well enough, and I wanted to see Al again, I take off down the hallway after where the 'Other-Not-Edward' went.
I still had to give myself a pep talk before I went, though.

As I kept a walking pace, I soon begun to feel eyes on me every time I passed a window. Pausing, to see if the feeling was fleeting or remained, I stared out at the blue sky lined with few clouds.
Remembering the blur I saw in Roy's office, I grow fearful and cautious. I just wanted to be left alone. Sure, it was kind of cool I wasn't on the Homunculi's blacklist, but the fact that... I am like them...
A sudden pang in my chest flashes an image of when my arm was bitten off my Gluttony. How it grew back, when it shouldn't of been able to do that in the first place.

I know for a fact that a Philosopher's Stone can take or not take to any one being it possesses. With Wrath's case, there were several other's before him, that died because they could not handle the Stone's power.
So how could I?
I'm... Just a regular human...

You mean you were, right?

My stomach churned even more so at the thought of not being me. Of being someone else, someone who can be a monster just because of this pain.
My eyes burned, and I covered my mouth with my hand, as the feeling of such a pain ripped my heart. Is this what it feels like? To be able to be so cruel and evil, just for the sake of not seeing other's enjoy their live's, when you yourself cannot ever hope to have what they have.
When you want so badly, to just be normal, for the sake of feeling contempt.

The burning grew worse, as my eyes widened. What? Father said I was Jealousy, not Envy.
This is envy. This feeling, I know it. Who doesn't it?
A sudden pang went throughout my entire body, like an ache that spread from my chest to my head, then to my toes. The pain grew as my thoughts swirled around, making me unable to even blink, causing tears to pour down my eyes.
I wasn't able to cry. Only when my eyes dried up and needed fluid, was when I actually felt myself allow myself to cry. Like I wasn't supposed to. Like it was wrong for someone like me to cry.
Until my emotions over-flowed, at how I was completely and utterly lost.
I was alone, even if I had Lillie. Didn't know where Gwen was.
I was alone.

Why do I feel so alone? People are around me, I can talk to anyone, get to know someone... Come to understand people, they could understand me...
I couldn't tell them where I'm actually from, though...
I couldn't tell them my true hobbies, my passions... My memories...
I couldn't tell them who I am, what I was as a person, and all the dreams I had.. They wouldn't be able to come true, now.

But I'm human...
-No, no I'm not-

I wanna go home...
-I'm not human..-

Please, let me go home.
-I don't belong here-

I don't want to be here.
-What am I?-

I'm human.
-Are you really?-

Covering my face with my hand, I grow the urge to laugh, just laugh until the pain goes away. Stifling a few giggles at my own misfortune, I bite my hand and cry even harder, now glad no one has walked upon me.
The eyes never left my being. In fact, the feeling grew stronger, until the bulbs lighting everything above me were shadowed, and I felt the presence of more than a thousand screaming people.
"Jealousy, get up. You're making us look weak." The cold voice of Lust brought me to my feet, that, and the nail suddenly piercing my chest as she hauled me up.
Gaping, I instinctively grab onto the lodged 'spike', and try to pull it out, and away from my body. She lifted her other hand and shot out another one near my head, and I was thrown back from my hunched state, and pinned to the window.
"Listen well. Father spared your life. We were ordered not to kill you anymore than necessary. Only when you deserve it, you shall be punished until you can act like the Homunculous you are." Even with her pretty face, the cruel gaze she settled on my bent and pained body made my heart pound in anger.
Anger at the fact she thought me so weak, I couldn't even amount to someone who delights in murdering those around them. Though, that's all they know. My heart can't help but sympathize for them.
I guess, now, with them.

My hands were shaking, at the fact of being stabbed right through twice. It was excruciating, but I immediately just imagined what being burnt alive must feel like. Shivering at the thought, I wriggle a bit, and almost gag at the way her nail had shoved right into my lung- I could sense how I could move around it, as there was a perfect hole where she pierced.
"As much as it pains me to say this, Father needs you for a mission."
A sudden spark of pain, and my newfound Philosopher's Stone flitted about me, as it tried to work it's power to heal me, but with Lust still impaling me, it couldn't manage to fix my wounds yet.
The side of my mouth twitches, and I feel a lodge in my throat as I tried to speak, and my body tried to dislodge it by coughing.
Feeling saliva drip down the sides of my mouth, my ears ring in realization of it being blood, as the liquid drips down to hit the floor in splatters.
"Wh..What f-"
"You are to gain the trust of the Elric brothers, and do not disclose any information of your existence, or his plans."
My eyes narrowed, since I was never informed of Father's plans, yet I knew only because of reading Fullmetal Alchemist. My mind grows a blank once again, and realizing this place was as real as the blood spurting from my wound and mouth.
Disgusted, my stomach churns worsen, and the need to throw up rises like the bile in my throat.
"Envy was sent here to bring you back as well as gain some information, so when you meet up with him, bring to light your powers to him. Understood?"
The pressure of her nails digging into my body left me, and I soon was meeting the floor, gravity's pull tugging me to meet a broken nose at the concrete below me, if not for the sudden flick of Lust's wrist had me pushed up, her nail now shoved into my forehead to keep me from collapsing in a heap just yet.
Powers?... What.. Powers? I don't have any powers. I'm just me.
I'm just a human.

Eyes growing heavy, my body gives me the right to pass out, promptly after Gluttony is seen out of the corner of my eye, giving my heart a rush of adrenaline and fear. Lust voice pounds into my already screaming skull.
"No, you cannot eat her."

I didn't know where I had ended up after Lust and Gluttony had left after telling me of Father's latest plans. I was also unsure of how long I had been passed out, and also wondered how no one noticed the girl sprawled on the floor.
I had decided on letting the previous traumatizing experience get locked up in the farthest reaches of my mind, for further thought later on. I knew it would resurface sooner or later, but right now, I needed to focus as much as possible.

Following the signs lined above the hallway, I faintly recall Alphonse being with two officers. Where, I wasn't sure. Possibly near the entrance?

Soon seeing a sign up above, I notice it as Colonel Mustang's office door, and I quickly stop my quick jog when I spotted a dark-haired figure exiting said room.

Raising a hand, I call out, "Hey! Lillie!" She looked my way, and smiled a little when I run the rest of the way there.
"Roy is out to contact some people on the Philosopher's Stone. I am helping Hawkeye with paperwork." She said, at my questioning glance.
Panting a bit since I knew I was out of shape, the side of my mouth twitches as I realize I'm not tired... At all. The words Lillie spoke were somewhat deaf to me, and I only shake my head, and raise myself from my hunched over position. Waving a hand to silence her, I was trying to focus enough on what was happening, not the feelings that were bubbling over. I think she said something along the lines of, "Are you alright?"
"S-So, have you seen Edward anywhere?" My mouth twitches again when I realize I had to fake taking in a breath to calm down my "racing heart". Lillie grew a blank look at my question, and I swore I could see the gears working in her head.
"Yes, actually. He just passed by... Not too long ago." Her eyes then widened at her recollection, and looked me in the eye.

"Envy." We both say, and I nod my head. "Yeah. I know." She nods as well, and turns to stare over at the hallway ahead.
"Listen, I want you to hide." At that, I raise an eyebrow. "Wh-what?.." I allow myself to stutter, since Lillie and Gwen always knew me to do this. Lately, I've begun to notice I can speak my mind rather freely, without the worries of what people around me thought.
As if, I was on some type of other level than they were. Like I was so different, even if I messed up, it would still seem like an extraordinary achievement.
When I feel a soft pressure on my arm, my eyes widen.
I zoned out, and missed what she said next.
"Now."
Feeling like a wet dog for how many times I've shaken my head today, I frown at her words. "Why?.." I ask, and instead of repeating what she said before, her mouth gapes open, and a stern, blank look covers her face.

"Ah, Edward. Suzanne was just looking for you!" She says, in her usual monotone voice when talking to someone she doesn't like.

Oh. OH. OH SHIT.

"Well, she found me. What did you need, Suz'?" Lillie could see my face contort into one of terror and curiosity. My stomach was bubbling with the fact that, "OH GOD HE ISN'T A SLUG ANYMORE" and "SOMEBODY KILL ME I AM DREAMING, LEMME HUG YOU, YOU HORRIBLE SAD KILLER, YOU DESERVE A BETTER ENDING, WHY THE FUDGE DID YOU KILL YOURSELF YOU DICK."

Cleverly masking an eyeroll, Lillie turned me around to face Edward. In order to not look too suspicious, I quickly put on a smile, and wave.
"Heyo!" After a moment of silence, I blinked as Lillie nudged me, and I flailed my arms a bit before catching myself. "O-Oh! Yeah! I wanted to find you, cos' I was spose' to lead you to Al. I kind of forgot how crazy this place can be, and well," I paused and shrugged with a sheepish grin.

I began walking, not before waving to Lillie, whom eyed Edward before waving back at me, turning, then heading on her way to meet up with Hawkeye.
Edward followed beside me, as we turned a corner.
"Sorry about Lillie, she isn't that good to people she doesn't know very well."

Edward remained silent, and I opened an eye to see what his cause of quietness was for, only to come face to face with the golden-eyed blonde, and felt the floor on my back.
My eyes narrowed, as I gaped like a fish, and Edward made a sour-looking face.
Red streaks of lightning lit up around me, and I flinched as one came too close for my liking.
"Uh, could you not do that? It's unpleasant to look at."
Gasping, I blink rapidly before closing my mouth abruptly, face growing hotter at the remark.
"Civil doesn't always mean hug's are free." I say, eyebrow twitching in irritation, yet the grin I always wore when angry was present.

Well, that's what I wanted to say. Instead, I got:

"Ci... Doh- Ah, oh wow, hi." I then nod at my fail, and close my mouth once again at the raised eyebrow.
"This is twice you've done that. Humans are so stupid."
"Sometimes."
"Shut it. You're just lucky Father ordered me not to kill you."
"If only you knew the feelings of gratitude I hold inside my heart."
"You're disgusting."
"One to talk, considering you're clothing style begs to differ."
"I SAID SHUT IT."
"Fine. Fiiine! I'll 'Shut it', so how eloquently you had put it. I do like your skort though."
At that, he makes the same soured face again.
Yes, he had shifted into his 'most used' form, when he had tackled me to the ground.

Wondering if I had super strength, I lifted my hands and pushed at him, knowing how heavy he was.
Surprisingly, he flung off me, and I hummed in awe. "Well that's satisfying."
At his dumbfounded look, I then raise a finger to explain, before letting out an 'Oh".

After his momentary confusion, he grew angry because he was confused.
"What the hell? How can you just push me off you?"
"Girl power."
"Wh- No!" He then stomped over, and grabbed both my shoulders, and I winced at how tight his grip was. Apparently, he found my pained expression soothing to his poor conflicted soul, because he shoved me into the wall beside us. Roy's door on the right side of me.
Where the heck was everybody?!
"You better tell me right now, before I-"
"Threat threat, Homunculous stuff, threat threat, gender-confusion, threat," I blabber, and a noticed a vein throb above his temple. I was only doing this to ignore the fear gnawing at my stomach.
Just because I can heal myself doesn't mean I like pain.

"Listen, you brat. I have no patience for humans like you, so tell me how a weakl-"
He stopped as the sound of footsteps echoed down the expanse of the hallway. Voices were soon added after that.
Envy cursed under his breath, and the lightning came back again, and though I was leaning away from the sparks, I couldn't help but feel amazed at how it looked to see him shift in person. It was weird, and somewhat terrifying.
Like a pretty flower that was poisonous if you got too close, but disguised itself as a regular flower to get your attention. An Envy flower.
I groaned in disgust as I just compared a murderer of thousands with no remorse, pity, or understanding of mercy to a flower.

The voices grew louder, and my heart pounded, as I felt an iron-like grip on my neck, before I got tugged forward, and Envy shoved me behind him, I got a glimpse of the blue officer uniform he now wore.

My heart almost leap up in my throat, as I felt a tingle on the edges of my skin. "We need to get you in Roy's office." He explained in a hushed tone. I raised both my eyebrows as he peered through the keyhole to see if anyone was inside. "W-Why?" I ask, stuttering.
My heart continued to pound relentlessly beneath my rib cage. My palms grew sweaty at the thought of being seen, before I realized I wasn't known as the enemy, so I didn't have to worry about being found out.

"I was sent to retrieve you, and we can't exactly fling ourselves into a window." Envy seemed irritated, as he went to turn the doorknob to Roy's office. He threw it open, and turned to me to push me in, but he froze in his spot. Raising a brow at his shocked expression, I had the urge to scratch my calf.
The tingling was coming up through my toes, now through my legs. Using my left foot to itch my right leg, I grunt at the heaviness of my foot, and look down to see a thick black boot.
Yelping, I jump up and pull myself out of Envy's grip, and I fall back, landing on the floor, and scooted back at the the red lightning swirling around me, a glowing layer traveling up my chest, flattening it and I let out another yelp when my head felt lighter, and my nose grew larger.
"Wh-Wha- What the-?!" I whisper-yell out, my voice deeper, and I stare down at the Central Military uniform I was now wearing, and my heart sinks into my stomach when I moved my gaze up at Envy.

He had an almost unrecognizable look on his face, as his fists clenched.
"So... That's what Father meant." He mumbled to himself, so quietly I thought I'd be unable to hear, but my senses seemed higher that I was used to.
"A-Ah, Env-"
"Shut. Up." He growled, and I flinched back at his rough tone. The usual raspy tone of voice he had was even worse, and I felt a pang of betrayal in my heart, then another sharper pain of frustration and confusion.
They all hurt me, to a point I felt tears prick my eyes, and as his grip on my wrist returned, and I was yanked up so hard he dislocated my shoulder, I held in a whimper of physical pain, as red flashes erupted around the wounded area, healing me, just as officers passed by us.
They gave us a few glances, but I grew a neutral look, and they continued on.

As soon as they turned the corner as were long gone, I felt the collar around my neck being tugged forward, so forcefully I almost head-butted Envy, whom was still shifted into the military officer.
"I don't know why Father decided on allowing you to live, but even more so he gave a worm like you the chance to accept a Stone. I don't care. His word is law, and you will listen to him, and obey him. He created you, and even if you do possess a Stone, you will still be a pathetic human to all of us." His voice was calm, but his eyes were razors, that shredded any ounce of understanding and confidence I had.
"Nothing will change the fact that you are still weak." He shook me, and I had to keep myself from shaking violently at his threat. He didn't voice what he would do, it wasn't even a threat.
It was a promise.

A promise that if I messed up, if I did anything against Father's wishes, he would personally give me hell.
I guess I can understand.
I had a life.
I had a great life.

But it got taken away.

And even if Envy hates humans for what they have, he hated me even more for having it, then gaining the powers of a Homunculous.

He hated me so much for still being able to have it.

Sighing at the past events of just 2 minutes ago, I waited for Envy to come back and 'retrieve' me.
After his little episode that sent me shriveled up under a desk, he shoved me in here, saying he needed to finish what he came here to do.
Which, based on what Lillie had told me, and what I figured out from the early drawing style of the background, -and what I overheard Al say-
Hughes was long from being killed yet.
And Marcoh's note were being sought after by the Elric's.

Recalling Envy's threat, I puff out my cheeks in thought.
I know I needed to obey Father's wishes, by gaining the trust of Ed and Al. I can't help but feel happy that I'll be able to get to know them now.

Maybe I can ram my way into their life by popping up where they need me the most? Which, right now, would be around the time of them getting Sheska to help them.
I could tell them about Sheska! And give clues to the true ingrediant for Philosepher's Stone's!
Fist pumping the air, I yelp when my hand throbs in pain from smacking into the underside of the desk.
"Owch. Ow." I expect to see a little flicker of red, but when I see nothing, and the pain is still present, I feel the edges of my mouth sneak up in a smile.

Maybe... I'm not so much like them after all.

AN:/

:D

I am happy with this chapter, very, very happy.

Did you like it? I hope so.
Humor, sadness, terror. PHEW. I DID IT.

I have everything planned out, and yes- This chapter was supposed to be like a huge-arse flashback. And yes, I suck at writing for Envy's character when he is first introduced.
I STILL HAVE PLANNED STUFF AHEAD! PREPARE!