Authors Note: I don't own Haikyuu or KageHina, I wish I did
I tried to respond to all your reviews. Thanks for giving me reviews, I really appreciate it! Anyways on to the next chapter. I tried to keep this as close to cannon as possible. So for those of you have haven't made it through season 2 of Haikyuu SPOILER ALERT! This should also explain some of the difference in writing style. My plans for this chapter was to make it all the way through their fight and a bit after it. Seems I made it a lot farther. Sorry it's so long Please enjoy.
Doom hung over Kageyama and Hinata in the club room. Each of them held a failed test in their hands. They had tried so hard yet they had both managed to fail one of the tests. Hinata's head hung in utter defeat.
"Hinata failed English?" Suga asked in astonishment. "But you were so confident…"
"Apparently Hinata figured out right before time was up that he filled in all of his answers off by one." Tsukishima replied.
"Seriously?" Asahi asked turning his attention to the conversation. "That's hard. Ono-sensei isn't one to let those things slide." He said, as if he had experience.
"Yachi-san was really shocked too, sad things is, his answers were all right." Yamaguchi answered as well.
"Seems Kageyama failed modern lit" Daiichi said taking the paper from Kageyama and looking it over.
Enoshita had already looked over the paper and responded to Daiichi. "Apparently there were a lot of comprehension questions this time around and Kageyama had focused on memorization."
"Wow," Daiichi said as he looked over the paper. "He got a perfect score on Kanji… amazing." He said handing the paper back.
"Well don't be too discouraged," Suga said. "This won't be our only chance to go to away games in Tokyo."
"To hell with that," Kageyama grumbled out. "We'll run there if we have to." He said in all seriousness. There was no way either of them were going to miss this chance to go to Tokyo. And by all rights, Hinata's answer had been correct, so technically he didn't really fail the exam. But they both knew that they were going to have to take the supplementary exam on Saturday morning.
In the end, Tanaka's sister ended up picking them up after their tests and taking them all the way to Tokyo for the games. They really were grateful to her for giving them a ride, but they both doubted that they would ever get in a car again with her behind the wheel, she was a complete menace when it came to driving. Tanaka sure had been right when he warned them he couldn't guarantee their safety. But they had made it safe and sound in time for the last few sets.
That first night had gone well for the two. Hinata really enjoyed seeing Kenma again now that he had presented as an omega. Kageyama was a little annoyed at the setters almost board attitude when dealing with Hinata but since Hinata didn't seem to mind Kageyama said nothing. Kenma was another omega so there was no fear of having to deal with prejudice against Hinata. In fact all the Nekoma players seemed to be happy and accepting that Hinata had finally presented as an omega. The only snag was with Kuro.
Kuro seemed to be the only one that caught on just how much Kageyama's scent was all over Hinata. Even though they hadn't been intimate in weeks their scents were strongly mixed and Kageyama had trouble not leaving his scent all over Hinata, potentially warding off other alpha's like Sumita and the crap they had dealt with because of him. Kuro remarked about their scents, teasing Kageyama while Hinata enjoyed his time with Kenma. Kageyama wasn't one to just let barbs slide if he could help it, remarking that Kenma was as cute an omega has Hinata was and that Kuro should be careful someone doesn't come and snatch him up. That effectively pissed Kuro off to no end and completely ended their conversation.
Kageyama and Hinata had been careful about their fate marks as well. They made sure they were the last to bath for the day and that they were alone when they did so. Before they went to bed they had slipped on a few air saloplas patches knowing that makeup would just rub off through the night. No one really noticed much about the patches thinking that they just wanted to keep their right shoulders loose for the practice matches tomorrow. It could be passed off as a normal thing. But in the morning it was hard for everyone to not to notice something was going on between the two.
Unwilling to risk being triggered, since Kageyama tended to bury himself in his blankets, when they were sure everyone had fallen asleep Hinata slipped out of his own futon and under the covers of Kageyama's futon. They knew that when morning came it would be quite awkward and they were right. Kageyama had buried them in the blankets, Hinata curled tightly in his arms, snuggled safely into his chest. When everyone awoke that morning they were all surprised at the site. Kuro had shushed them all, grabbing his phone and snapping a picture before the two woke up again and began fighting and competing as usual. Kenma sighed and went over to the two, shaking them awake, commenting that if they were really that cold there were more blankets in the closet.
"That's not it…" Hinata cried out as he blushed, before reminding himself that he wasn't actually supposed to tell the Nekoma team members anything. He really was bad at keeping secrets. But Kuro chimed in teasing Hinata about nightmares and that Hinata was still such a kid despite having presented as an omega. Hinata fumed at that but it seemed to be the end of it.
The real problem actually came around near the end of the day. There were a few more sets left but all of the teams they had faced were quickly becoming used to their freak toss and spike combo and it had Hinata quite unhappy. But he played as hard as he could despite the small growing fear in the back of his mind. Things didn't really come to a head until Hinata collided with Asahi in the air. Hinata had honestly just been moving on instinct. Because of his worries he had put his brain in volleyball mode so he wouldn't overthink things and miss things in the match. But the toss had been right in front of him, just there, waiting for him to spike it, so his body had moved of its own accord, going for the spike. When he collided with Asahi he went flying in the other direction, the ball dropping forgotten in light of the two smashing together. Kageyama was the first to berate Hinata and Hinata had apologized right away but it was here that he realized he couldn't stay the same if they were to beat Oikawa and Aoba Josai.
Deciding on his path he walked up to Kageyama. "Oi, Kageyama…" He said to get the setters attention. Kageyama could feel that something had changed with Hinata over their bond, but he wasn't sure what had set off the change nor what exactly the change was but there was an overwhelming amount of determination in Hinata's heart.
"Yeah?" Kageyama replied, waiting for Hinata to say whatever it was.
"That quick that goes whoosh… I'm going to stop closing my eyes." Hinata announced. The entire team stood shocked at his declaration. "I can't stay like this. I can't just keep hitting quicks that are set specially for me." Kageyama frowned, placing his hands on his hips responding.
"You can't, that's why we learned how to do normal quicks. I don't know what's going on with you right now, but if you have something to say I'll listen to it later. But if you're going to do that right now, I'm not going to set to a guy I know will miss." Kageyama turned around and walked to his place on the court waiting for the game to start again.
Hinata balled his fists as pain swirled through his chest. Hinata clenched their bond closed as tight as it would go wishing to keep his emotions to himself, effectively cutting it off through sheer will power. Unknowingly Kageyama had just proved his every fear right. The whistle blew and Hinata turned around, dropping into a receiving stance, waiting for the ball to be served. True to Kageyama's statement not a single toss came his way for the rest of the game and with no decoy or freak quick they lost the set.
The entire team was on edge after Hinata and Asahi had collided. After all, Hinata had said the one thing each and every one of them had come to realized. If they stayed the same, they would never be able to beat Aoba Josai. With two more losses and sets of penalties the day ended with everyone in a funk. Hinata most of all. The coach had pulled him from the remaining sets to rest and collect his head but it didn't really help. In a matter of seconds Hinata felt like he had gone right back to where he had started. Right back to Kageyama refusing to toss to him. He wasn't essential anymore, and that hurt more than he was willing to admit. By the end of the day when they got back to Miyagi prefecture his disposition hadn't changed.
Determined to show that he wasn't wrong Hinata asked Kageyama to toss for him. They had planned on doing private practice afterwards anyways. Kageyama indulged Hinata but with every ball Yachi tossed for them it was only one miss after another.
"One more time…" Hinata called out breathlessly. Kageyama grit his teeth.
"Instead of practicing an attack we're not sure if you'll ever be able to do, you should be working on the attacks we've been using as well as serving and blocking." Kageyama growled out trying to get Hinata to understand.
"But if this quick doesn't work, then there's no point in me being on the court!" Hinata yelled out.
"And I already told you, your will isn't needed for that quick. I'll give you tosses that won't be stopped by blocks." Kageyama countered. He opened his mouth to continue but Hinata cut him off.
"But then I'll never get better!" Hinata yelled with all his might thinking that Kageyama would at least understand that. After all, Kageyama had been inside Hinata's head, he should have had a clear understanding of what it was Hinata was trying to say. But Kageyama continued on.
"The prelims for the spring tournament start next month, they're right around the corner. So what's better, a complete quick or an absolutely useless quick? Huh?" Kageyama cursed in his head. Their bond was still closed and he couldn't understand why Hinata was still hanging on to this idea when it wasn't going to them or the team any good.
"Please don't fight." Yachi said fearing the two would come to blows as Kageyama grabbed Hinata's shirt.
"I want to be strong enough to compete by myself." Hinata declared.
"And that selfishness is going to do nothing but destroy this team!" Kageyama said tossing Hinata backwards. Hinata landed roughly sliding against the gym floor. Yachi gasped in fear and took off for the door, running as fast as she could to find someone to help. She didn't want to see these to fight. They weren't supposed to fight like this, after all they were mates.
Kageyama turned to face the door, looking over his shoulder. "I'll toss to anyone who is essential to winning." He said, repeating his words from their first day of working together. "I feel the same way even now." He said, walking towards the door to leave.
Pissed, Hinata stood up from the floor and charged at Kageyama. "KAGEYAMAAAAAAA!" He screamed attaching himself around Kageyama's waist. "I won't let go until you toss to me. That quick was stopped by Aoba Josai and again today by more than one of those teams."
"YOU ASS, are you trying to say that my toss was somehow at fault!?"
"NO! It was perfect, your toss was perfect, but that quick was still stopped. If I don't get better then it's not going to work on stronger opponents! Now TOSS to me!" Hinata yelled as he grabbed a hold of Kageyama, refusing to let go.
"Get the hell off of me you dumbass." Kageyama bellowed shifting his wait and throwing Hinata off of him. Why couldn't the dumbass get was he was trying to say? There was no point in trying to practice something that was never going to happen. It would be better for Hinata to focus on the basics and get better at his receives and regular spikes. It would help the team a whole bunch more to be stable. If Hinata's best weapon became useless simply because of stubbornness Kageyama would be forced to send his tosses elsewhere, and he didn't want it to get to that point so he had refused to toss, hoping it would knock sense into the dumbass before things got to a point where they couldn't fix it.
"Toss to me!" Hinata yelled again grabbing hold of Kageyama. Hinata was terrified. He knew he had to improve but he also knew that he was right about this. He wanted the ability to fight at the top on his own. He couldn't keep relying on Kageyama's toss set just for him. That toss had been countered time and time again by so many strong opponents. And Hinata knew deep in his heart that it had nothing to do with Kageyama's skill. It was all about his skill. If he didn't improve it or his ability to fight in the air on his own then he would be left behind. And that was what scared him the most. He didn't want Kageyama to leave him behind. They were supposed to stand on the court together, they were a set, half of a whole, the fact that they were fate mates only deepened this belief of his. But if he wasn't careful Kageyama would go on and improve. Kageyama was becoming able to play with others as he learned to be a part of the team. But Hinata felt stuck. He had no other skills for Kageyama to use and if his only skills became useless on the court against strong opponents then how could he stay on the court when there were others with more strength and skill that could be utilized.
Kageyama's words about tossing to only those essential to winning were true, so why? Why couldn't Kageyama understand? If he stayed as he was now, useless… then Kageyama's tosses would go to other spikers and there would be no place for Hinata to stand beside Kageyama. Whether it was fate or not, Hinata would be all alone and he didn't want that. He had been on his own in volleyball almost all through Jr High and he didn't want to go back to that. Hinata had thought that he had finally found his place, beside Kageyama, and when they had mated he had thought he would never be alone again. But he was wrong. Those fast tosses came less and less over the course of the weekends long practice matches, and when Kageyama repeated his words about tossing to those who were essential to win, Hinata's heart had sunk, he was left in the air without a toss to swing at.
So caught up in miserable thoughts neither of them were aware of Tanaka approaching until his fists connected with each of their faces. "YOU IDIOTS" Tanaka roared as they tumbled from his punches, effectively breaking up the fight. Yachi-san stood at the doorway, her hands over her mouth as she shook in fear. She had never seen these two at such odds with each other. She knew they fought all the time, but nothing like this. She waited at the door has Tanaka scolded them. Wanting to keep the two separate Tanaka sent Hinata out first. Yachi-san walked with Hinata to the bike stand and waited as he unhooked his bike. She was unsure of what to say to Hinata as they walked towards the bus stop.
"I'm sorry Yachi-san." Hinata said when they reached the bus stop. Surprised Yachi stammered.
"Oh no… I… I'm fine." She said but the look on Hinata's face…
"You know, in my first and final match in Jr High, we were destroyed by Kageyama. I vowed that I would defeat him in high school but when I got here I ran right into him. He was even worse than I imagined and we went through a lot, but once we started playing our matches I though we understood each other. It wasn't that he was the first friend I ever made. He was my partner and when we mated, I finally felt complete. At that moment I knew, I would do anything to stay on the court with him" Hinata's breathing hitched as tears fell down his face. "I guess it just isn't the same for him." He said as tears streamed down his face, finally letting out all the hurt he had been trying to hide the entire day. He climbed on his bike and pedaled as hard as he could through his tears wanting to just go home.
It only took him 20 minutes to get home going as fast as he could, it was probably his best time yet but none of that mattered now. He had stopped crying somewhere along the way. When he arrived at the house it was really late, the whole house was dark, his parent probably already in bed. He couldn't blame them. It was late and they hadn't been expecting him back that night as he had planned to stay at Kageyama's house, even packing an extra set of clothes for the occasion. Hinata went inside the house quietly only turning on the kitchen light so he wouldn't disturb his parent or sister. He put the tea kettle on and searched through the drawer with all the tea in it looking for anything that would calm him down enough to help his mind turn off and go to sleep for the night.
Hinata hadn't expected anyone to be up so when his mother came into the kitchen it startled him quite a bit.
"Sorry honey I didn't mean to startle you." She said in a soothing voice.
"Nah it's fine mom, it's just been a long day." Hinata said turning towards the drawer to continue rifling through the tea.
"What happened, I thought you were staying at Kageyama's tonight, did you two decide to come here instead?" She asked. Hinata stiffened at her question. He really didn't want to talk about it, it was still much to fresh for him to be able to do that.
"N… no." He mumbled. "Kageyama's staying at his house tonight." Hinata said hoping he could leave it at that and his mom wouldn't say anything. And sure enough he didn't. His mom moved forward and shut the drawer he was looking though and opened a cabinet above the stove. She pulled down a box of special tea she had hidden behind the fancy dinner plates.
"Here." She said handing Hinata the tea. "This one will help the most." Hinata took the tea in both hands as he again fought against the tears. His mom smiled. She understood what had happened without even needing an explanation.
"Mom…" Hinata started but she cut him off.
"You know, I looked the same way after my first real fight with your father," she said putting an arm around Hinata and guiding him to sit down at the table. "We fought over something so stupid but that didn't meant I wasn't truly upset about the whole thing." She went on as she sat next to Hinata at the table. Hinata stared at her in disbelief, he hadn't thought his parent ever fought. "Your father still doesn't know how hard that first fight was for me, you know?" When the water boiled she made Hinata a nice cup of tea from her special box. When he asked his mom what kind of tea it was she replied that it was a special blend made especially for omegas. She had bought a second box when she had Natsu, thinking it would be good to have some on hand for the girl if she turned out to be an omega. She never thought she'd share a cup of it with her son.
Hinata sipped at the tea letting the warmth seep through him, his mind and body finally starting to calm down a bit. They talked for a bit longer about nonsense things really. When they finished the tea his mom cleaned up and sent him to the bath to clean up and get ready for bed. While Hinata was in the bathroom his mother knocked softly on the door.
"Yeah?" Hinata called through the door.
"I left a bag of things for you on your futon." His mom said. "Once you finally calm down you'll understand what they're for." At that she shuffled off to bed, leaving Hinata to his own devices. But he was having a slight problem. Though his emotions and mind had calmed down quite a bit thanks to the tea, his body was still energetic, and in a way he didn't want to deal with after everything that had happened that day. He tried to ignore the erection and dressed in a clean set of pajamas. He went to his room and laid down on his futon, brushing aside the bag his mom had set there. After half an hour of staring at the sealing he groaned in frustration. That erection just wasn't going to go away. Annoyed he sat up. He didn't really want to take care of it, he knew his mind would wander towards Kageyama if he did and Hinata was still upset.
Hinata glanced at the small white bag his mom had left on the bed. She said it would make sense after he had calmed down. He grabbed the bag and glanced inside. There was a folded paper on top, probably a note, he moved it aside only to drop the bag in astonishment, his entire face becoming as red as a tomato. Inside the bag was a small bottle of lube, a pink fleshlight and a medium sized orange vibrator. Hinata definitely wasn't expecting that. When he remembered the note, he tentatively put his hand back in the bag to grab it and read it.
The first time I had a big fight with your father I just couldn't get things to "calm down". Just after you and Kageyama mated I went out and got a couple things for you to help out just in case you had the same problem. I wasn't sure which item you would need most so I got you both. Don't let it bother you. I know your upset and your body just won't listen to you. The best way to explain it is that even though you're upset, you are still subconsciously yearning for your mate. As an omega we seek comfort from our stronger alpha mate, so your reaction is normal. It's just that your mate is what made you upset. It won't happen every time, so just take care of yourself and get some rest. Love Mom.
Hinata put the note down still blushing like mad. He couldn't believe his mom had just given him a bag of sex toys with instructions to actually use them. He glanced at the note and then pinched himself to be sure this wasn't just some messed up dream. "OW!" he yelped. No, this wasn't a dream. He bit his lip and reached for the bag. He just wanted to get this over with and go to sleep. It had been one horrible day and he wanted it to end. He pulled out the box for the fleshligh and looked at it. He set it aside and pulled out the vibrator and lube. He stared at the lube for a moment thinking. He wasn't in heat so there wouldn't be any slick, he would probably need to use quite a bit. He took a deep breath and let it out, was he really going to do this? And how would Kageyama react to him doing this? Things were already horrible between them and Kageyama was quite possessive, would this just upset him even more the next time they ended up connecting together?
Hinata didn't have an answer to any of these questions, his persistent erection throbbing, almost to the point of pain. Unable to take it any more Hinata opened the package of the vibrator and set the toy down beside him as he pulled his pants and briefs down out of the way. He wrapped his hand around his erection tentatively and gave it a tug. He moaned in pleasure and tugged again thumbing his slit at the top. He really loved it when Kageyama did that to him. Hinata moved his hand a bit faster. It felt so amazing but he knew he needed more. He opened the lube and poured a bit onto his finger and then snaked a hand down past his balls to his entrance. The lube was a little close against his skin as he circled a finger around his entrance. Hinata loved it best when Kageyama would tease him just a bit.
Hinata moaned when he slipped his own finger inside himself, an image of Kageyama in his head. He pumped his finger in an out, trying to find that special spot Kageyama always seemed to hit almost immediately. When he couldn't find it he added a second finger, stretching himself open more. He pumped the and around his erection in time with his thrusting fingers. His fingers were smaller and shorter than Kageyama's and he couldn't quite reach the spot he wanted. Frustrated he removed his fingers and grabbed the vibrator and spread the excess lube onto it. Hinata moved to his hands and knees reaching behind himself with the vibrator. He took a breath in nervousness and tried to imaging that it was Kageyama behind him as he pushed the toy deep inside himself.
"Ahh…" Hinata cried out. Pleasure slammed into him and he bit his lip to try and keep quiet. It wasn't nearly as pleasurable as Kageyama's thrusting inside of him, how he wished it was his mate. Yet here he was, all alone using a toy to calm his body. Tears spilt down his cheeks as he pulled the vibrator out, switching it on and then slamming it back inside himself. He imagined Kageyama thrusting into him, arms rapping sweetly around him as their bodies connected to each other over and over again. When the vibrator hit his prostate he climaxed right away, shooting out his load as he cried out in at the pure physical bliss of orgasm collapsing into a puddle on his futon. He pulled the vibrator out and curled into himself, not bothering to clean up or wipe himself off. He let his imagination wander the tears leaking from his eyes. He imagined Kageyama wrapped protectively around him, breathing softly into his ear. His mom and been right, as mad as he was, as upset as he was at Kageyama, all he really wanted was to be held and comforted by his mate. To know that his mate needed him, on and off the court.
Hinata rode to school slowly the next morning. Morning and afternoon practice had been canceled as the gym was to be inspected and fixed should they find anything wrong. Hinata was relieved. He didn't want to see Kageyama again so quickly after everything that had happened the night before. But now they were in the same class and he probably couldn't avoid him for the whole day. At least while classes were going he wouldn't have to worry, they had been separated long enough that they would just trigger themselves if their eyes met. Hinata would do everything to avoid that. Even though he wanted so bad to be held in his mate's arms he didn't want it to be forced because of heat or rut. If Kageyama didn't want to hold him of his own free will then there was no point to it, and it didn't solve the other issue either.
When Hinata arrived at the school he parked his bike on the opposite side of where he usually did. He didn't want to run into Kageyama in case he were waiting there to talk. He didn't even know if Kageyama wanted to talk. He had kept a tight grip on their bond since the fight and he wasn't about to let it go. It was important to him that Kageyama understand, but he wanted it to be Kageyama's choice and not due to some misguided emotions of guilt or protectiveness simply because they were mates and Kageyama was pinned down with Hinata's feelings. It took him a few moments to work up the courage to go inside the building, but he didn't go right to his classroom. Instead he headed for the teacher's office hoping he could catch Takeda-sensei for a moment.
Hinata asked Takeda-sensei if he could got to another classroom for the day. Though originally he was reluctant to ok something like that Hinata begged him to make it just for the day. Takeda reminded Hinata just why he had been moved to that classroom to begin with and Hinata frowned. No he vividly remembered why he had been moved to Kageyama's classroom.
"What if I go to Tsukishima and Yamaguchi's class?" Hinata asked instead. Takeda deliberated for a moment and then consented that it would be ok just for the day. So for the rest of the school day Hinata stayed cooped up in the back corner of Tsukishima and Yamaguchi's classroom. He didn't budge for breaks or lunch. Tsukishima had wondered what the shrimp was doing there but when asked all Hinata would say was it's just for the day, offering no reason as to why. At the end of the day Hinata bolted from the room, grabbed his bike and headed straight for Ukai's shop at the bottom of the hill. Thing might be a mess for him right now but he wasn't going to stop. Even if Kageyama didn't help him improve, he would improve on his own. He wanted to be by Kageyama's side and he would fight his damn hardest to do so.
Kageyama walked through the street, his face menacing to those around him. He was pissed. Yeah he and Hinata had fought the night before but he hadn't actually expected Hinata to skip out on class because of it. Kageyama had waited for Hinata at the bike stand where he normally parked his bike. His mood growing even more sour with each passing moment that his mate didn't show up. He gave up and walked to the classroom, even if Hinata hadn't brought his bike that day he would still have to come to class. When class had started and there was still no sign of Hinata, Kageyama snapped. And on top of that the shrimp had kept their bond completely closed. He was tempted to scream at Hinata with his mind for his stupidity but he doubted whether it would go through with the bond being closed.
In his walk he hadn't expected to come across Oikawa. When he relayed the fight situation to Oikawa he was surprised at the advice he received.
"Well chibi-chan's the one who controls that quick of yours, for you to think otherwise is just arrogance. What good is your kings toss without chibi-chan to spike it?" Oikawa asked as he stared at Kageyama. "Honestly Tobio-chan, the setter is the control tower for a team yes, but without your spikers functioning at 100%, there's no way your attacks will succeed. Besides, all chibi-chan seems to want is your acknowledgement. He fights with his entire sole on that court, and puts his trust in you to send tosses his way. It's only natural that he wants to get better" Oikawa smiled as he walked away from Kageyama. Genius setter or not, sometimes Kageyama could be completely dense. Even though chibi-chan was completely natureless still, it didn't take a genius to see just how much Hinata wanted to be equal to Kageyama. For heaven sakes, the boy would swing at air with his full strength, waiting for Kageyama to toss the ball to him. Iwa-chan wouldn't even do that for him, and they had been together as friends and teammates since grade school.
Kageyama sighed as he walked back toward the gym to see if maybe the inspection had finished. He hoped to work off some of his stress with a few good serves. Oikawa's advice had made more sense than he cared to admit. When he looked at things from the perspective he understood a little better. But it still didn't help him fix things with Hinata. He had a feeling the fight they had was about much more than just a new toss and spike. Hinata had seemed desperate, but with the bond closed it made things so much harder for Kageyama to understand and get a hold of. Kageyama sighed. It would be so much better if he could just connect with Hinata's mind and understand him that way. But that would require them to mate, and though Kageyama may be dense, he wasn't a total retard. He knew neither of them wanted that. Not while they were upset with each other. It would be best to talk and resolve the fight before their eyes met and forced the issue.
An entire month went by before the two had known it. Though they sat next to each other in class, they were completely separate outside it. Kageyama had wanted to approach Hinata but backed out at the last moment as Hinata ran from the class room at the end of each day. What was worse is that Hinata and Kageyama weren't practicing together at all during practice. Hinata would spike with Suga's team during spiking time, but would sit out for any matches they had between the two teams careful to keep his eyes well away from Kageyama's prying ones. Hinata could feel Kageyama's gaze and he knew that Kageyama wanted to talk but he just wasn't ready. He wanted to be stronger before that. He wanted to be able to say, here I am, strong and able to fight, send your tosses my way.
The rift between them remained. They had even refused to meet for an appointment with Dr. Ryugazaki. The doc had been forced to meet with them separately.
But with summer break fast approaching and their trip to Tokyo drawing near, he knew it was only a matter of time before that had to come back together. The day they were packing to get ready to leave Kageyama sent Hinata a text.
We should meet up… take care of things… before tonight. Hinata sighed. He should have to use a text. Deciding he didn't just want to take care of the physical only Hinata let go of the grasp he had kept on their bond, finally letting Kageyama in.
Will you come to my house? Hinata asked with his thoughts, knowing Kageyama was well aware that he had finally reopened the bond. Nervousness and relief rushed through the now open bond between them, the nervousness from Hinata and the relief at finally being able to feel his partner from Kageyama. Kageyama willing to agree to anything answered back.
I leave right now. Kageyama thought as he rushed about his room to stuff things in his bag. He felt Hinata's surprise at the quick and willing reply. Grabbing his now full bag he went out to the living room.
"Mom, will you give me a ride to Hinata's?" He asked. Mrs. Kageyama looked up from her book, her eyes coming to rest and her restless son. She had been waiting for this. It had been more than a month of them not seeing each other. At first she had worried a lot about her son and the stress the situation was causing. She didn't know what exactly had happened as Kageyama had refused to give her the details but she did know that it was serious.
"Sure, I assume you'll be there until your team leaves for Tokyo tonight?" She asked, putting down her book and moving to grab her keys and purse.
"Yeah," he replied and went to the door to put his shoes on.
"You sure you have everything?" She asked. When Kageyama replied in the affirmative they headed out the door. In the car she decided it would be best to give her son a little bit of advice. "I know that you two don't have a choice on what happens after your eyes meet…" she said glancing at her son and then moving her eyes back towards the road. "But I think you should do that first."
"What?" Kageyama asked in surprise staring at his mother as if she had just suggested the weirdest thing in the world.
"Look I know it sounds backwards to you… but I really think you should. You've been separated since that fight almost a month ago. And as weird as it may sound, I can almost promise the only thing Hinata has wanted since then was to be held in your arms and told that everything would work out in the end."
"But…"
"Pissed as he was at you, and even though he may still be upset, he still wants to know you love him. He's an omega after all." She said with authority and knowledge. "All omegas rely on their mates for comfort and you, as Hinata's mate and alpha, are the only true source of comfort he has." This was the last thing she said to him on the subject as she pulled to a stop in front of the Hinata household. "Have fun in Tokyo Tobio."
Kageyama got out of the car, pulling his bag along with him. He walked up the drive noticing that Hinata's parent's cars were gone. So they were alone… that was good. They needed to be. When he got to the door he rang the doorbell.
Just come on in. Hinata thought at Kageyama. I'm in my room. He said. Kageyama took a deep breath and opened the door, he dropped his bag at the entrance and took off his shoes before stepping fully into the house. Kageyama went straight to Hinata's room. When he came into the room Hinata was looking outside the window, his back turned to the door. Kageyama turned around and slid the door shut, locking it. He had decided that maybe his mom was right. It would be easier to resolve the fight if they were connected. He walked over to where Hinata stood and place a hand on the omega's shoulder. Happiness rushed through them both at the touch. They had both wanted to see the other, touch the other, over this long period of a month.
Hinata turned around in a flash and buried his head in Kageyama's chest, arms wrapping around his mate. Kageyama returned the embrace, relishing in the feel of his mate in his arms. It was here that he knew his mother was right. Hinata's emotions churned back and forth from relief and happiness to pain and upset. Kageyama separated them and with his hand tilted Hinata's head up, their eyes meeting for the first time. Heat and rut slammed into both of them harder than it ever had before. It was no surprise, they had been away from each other for far too long.
But Hinata turned his face away from Kageyama as he came in for a kiss. Kageyama frowned at the reaction glancing away from Hinata, the feeling of rejection stinging him deep. He knew Hinata didn't want to do this. Hell, he didn't want to do this either, but they didn't have a choice in the matter. They hadn't spoken to each other since the fight, they hadn't even looked at each other, let alone made up after the fight. Kageyama could already feel his body heating up, his mind fogging with lust and desire and he knew Hinata's body was doing the same, soon to be lost completely in the throes of heat. Their bodies were demanding to be connected in the most intimate way possible regardless of what their hearts or minds wanted. And they knew they had to take care of this before the bus left for Tokyo that night. Before his mind was lost completely to the desires of rut Kageyama closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He pushed the sting of rejection away, knowing that this situation was hard for both of them. He opened his eyes and brought his hand gently to Hinata's face and turned it so their eyes would meet.
"I know you don't want this now, and neither do I. Even if my body demands it, I'll do everything in my power to walk away from you. I won't EVER force you to do this will me or use your heat in such a way." Kageyama kept his eyes on Hinata as he waited for the boy to understand just what it was he was saying. Hinata bit his lip as he fought back tears. He wasn't ready to do this, he was still upset and he was afraid of connecting with Kageyama. So much had happened since they last connected, his emotions were still tossing and turning about. It wouldn't be a help to either of them to share those wishy washy feelings. But Hinata was also grateful that Kageyama was willing to go so far for him, but not doing this would only make them both suffer.
Hinata nodded his head that he understood. "It's fine." He said moving in to connect their lips like Kageyama had done before. The emotions turned between desire, pleasure, sorrow, and consignment as they tried to make the best of the situation. But within moments their bodies were hot, pulling at each other only to be closer. Kageyama pushed Hinata towards the futon, positioning himself above his mate as their tongues met over and over again, moaning when their hips came in contact with one another. But unlike the other times there was no ceremony to this, no desire to draw things out and make it last longer. There was only a sense of urgency.
Kageyama divested Hinata of every single piece of clothing within minutes, his own clothing coming of in record timing as well. Deciding it best for the both of them Kageyama turned Hinata face down raising his hips in the air. Slick was pooling at Hinata's entrance already, his erection throbbing for attention. Kageyama obliged gripping Hinata firmly. When he began stroking Hinata he was rewarded with a loud moan. Pleasure coursed through Hinata at Kageyama's ministrations, rocking his hips in time with the gentle strokes. Hinata's body wanted more of that delicious friction.
"Faster…" Hinata whispered as he fisted his hands in the sheets below him, only to holler when he felt Kageyama enter him with now warning. He had expected faster strokes, and perhaps a finger or two, but not that. He bit his lip as his entrance was stretched completely, his body stuffed full from his mate. "Kageyama…" The name came out all on its own as their hips began to rock. It was slow at first but quickly turned harder and faster.
Kageyama moved with ferver, concentrating on bringing his omega to climax quickly. He slammed into Hinata with as much strength as he could, relishing in the slapping sounds their skin made with each deep thrust. He felt his knot begin to swell as the pleasure built up. His hand stroked Hinata's dripping erection in time with his almost violent thrusts. Kageyama bent over, pressing his chest flush to Hinata's back, pulling them as close together as possible. He knew Hinata was close, he was too. Kageyama could feel the alpha in him raging, the desire to take charge of his troublesome little omega pushing him forward. Unable to completely fight it Kageyama turned his head, whispering his first order to his mate in Hinata's ear as his alpha came to the front of his consciousness.
"Come for me…"
Kageyama heard Hinata's breath hitch and take in a short gasp of air before his world shattered with pleasure. Hinata's body released, his orgasm hitting them both in wave after wave of pleasure. Kageyama felt Hinata's muscles tighten around him, his knot catching as it swelled and Kageyama released everything inside his mate. Both boys panted heavy as they fought to stay upright through the pleasure. When their bodies finally relaxed they dropped onto their sides trying to catch their breath as their connection established.
When Kageyama finally came down from his orgasmic high horror and guilt filled him. He had used his alpha on Hinata. He had known Hinata hadn't wanted to do this in the first place. Neither had he. So he had allowed his alpha to slip out, to make the process go faster, but he hadn't actually meant to order Hinata to do such a thing. Kageyama's breath sped up again, upset at himself. He had promised he would never order Hinata to do anything. He didn't want his mate to be obliged to do things just because he was the alpha.
"It's fine…" Hinata chimed in, finally catching his breath and catching up to Kageyama's thoughts. "I think that was probably the most intense orgasm I've ever had…" He continues. But Kageyama was not satisfied with that.
"I'm sorry," Kageyama whispered as he closed his eyes against the tears he knew were going to fall. "I'm so sorry, I never meant to actually do that. I knew you didn't want to. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He repeated over again.
"I said its fine." Hinata said in an annoyed voice. "To be honest I'm glad you did." Kageyama was surprised at Hinata's words. "I didn't want this to take that long anyways." Hinata's hands reached back and pulled at Kageyama's to embrace him from behind. Kageyama obliged, hugging Hinata to him. They stayed that way for a few minutes just letting their minds wander. They both thought they should talk but neither one of them knew where to start. Finally Kageyama sighed.
"Do you mind if I look at the memory of our fight?" He asked in a timid voice. If they were going to fix things between them it was best that they start with understanding what was going through both of their minds at the time.
"You know you don't have to ask, you can just go through them. It's not like I could stop you anyways…" Hinata replied closing his eyes to listen to Kageyama's thoughts as he went through the memory.
"I won't do it unless you are okay with it." Kageyama said. "I already broke my promise to never force you to do anything earlier when I whispered that order to you… I don't…"
"Arrrgh," Hinata growled in frustration as he brought up that memory from just moments before and practically forced it into Kageyama's brain. "Don't be sorry." Hinata stated again as he shoved his thoughts and feeling at that exact moment at Kageyama. Hinata had thought it quite hot when he had done it, in fact he wouldn't mind Kageyama doing it again in the near future. Kageyama blushed at Hinata's feelings, his groin twitching at the remanence of pleasure that lingered in the memory. Much more of that and they would be going for a second round. "Now that you understand, let's start with the fight."
Kageyama nodded as he sifted through the memories of the fight as Hinata did the same. When he listened to Hinata's thoughts he finally understood just how much more that fight had been about. It wasn't just the spike and toss. Hinata had been truly terrified of being left behind, being useless to his mate in the one thing they both enjoyed more than anything else. Kageyama wanted so much at that moment to kiss Hinata but he couldn't and instead hugged his mate close to him.
"I'm so sorry…" Kageyama said, the memory filling him with remorse and pain. He hadn't meant any of what he said that way, had he known Hinata had taken it that way he would have remedied it immediately.
"I know," Hinata replied to both Kageyama's words and thoughts. "I'm sorry too, I shouldn't have closed the bond." He said, snuggling back into Kageyama's embrace. They stayed that way for hours, going through each and every moment they had missed. Hinata had actually tried to pull away when Kageyama went through the memories of that first night apart, his face heating up as Kageyama watch the memory of him masterbating on his own. Kageyama took it in good stride understanding why he had done it. Kageyama was going to have to find that vibrator though. He would not tolerate his mate being satisfied by another, toy or not. Hinata had frowned and told him if he touched it or broke it he'd pay for it.
"Besides, you saw that I'd very much rather have you." Hinata countered. Kageyama couldn't deny that and gave in, letting Hinata keep the damn thing on the condition he only use it when Kageyama was not available. Hinata agreed to that, also asking if he was allowed to use it with Kageyama for a bit of fun. He had mostly meant it as a tease but when an image of Kageyama using the toy on his mate popped into Kageyama's head he agreed readily, Hinata blushed a deep read and moved the subject on to something else.
Kageyama had been about to move on to the next day's memories but Hinata became fidgety and asked him to stop.
"Why?" Kageyama had asked, almost tempted to go on, but he wanted to keep his promise. If Hinata didn't want him to see then he would try to respect Hinata's wishes.
"Well, I started training a little different." Hinata said as an explanation. I don't want you to see it just yet. I've been working really hard to get better and I want you to see it on the court before you see it here. Hinata explained. At that Kageyama relented and they moved the talk to Dr. Ryugazaki's visit. They had both seen the doc and talked to him and though they didn't go through each other's memories any further they verbally shared about the docs visit.
"So he have you one too…" Hinata said when Kageyama mentioned the special watch the doc had given him.
"Yeah, he said we could wear it on our wrists during the day and the band would stretch enough to wear around our ankles for practice." Kageyama thought it was pretty cool even though it would be annoying to remember to wear it at the beginning. The watches were special made for the two of them. It was kind of like a really fancy fit bit. It tracked their heart rates and exercise for the day and it tracked their location but the special feature is really what the watch were for. It had a built in timer on the watch, set for 30 minutes and if they ever went out of eye sight from each other the timer would start. After 30 minutes the watch would vibrate and beep to let them know they had a few minutes to find each other before their trigger would be reset.
All in all it was a handy little gadget to have. They would probably need it for the training camp. At that thought Kageyama paused. And just where were they supposed to go when they needed to take care of that anyways? They hadn't talked to Takeda-sensei or the coach about it. Perhaps that would be a good idea.
When Kageyama heard the front door of the house open and shut he sighed. He wasn't ready to pull away from Hinata. Hinata chuckled at the childish thought happy that his mate wanted to stay connected to him. But they knew that it wouldn't be long before Natsu was knocking on the door begging to play with Tobio-niichan. And sure enough within minutes there came a knock on the door.
"I saw Tobio-niichan's shoes, I know he's here." Natsu hollered. "I wanna play!" She said knocking on the door even louder.
"Natsu," their mother's voice chided. "Leave them be. They need some time alone" She said. Hinata smiled and pulled away from Kageyama, turning around and planting a passionate kiss on his surprised mate.
"Come on…" Hinata said when he pulled away, she hasn't seen you in a while. I'm pretty sure she missed you." Kageyama smiled evilly pulling Hinata in for another hot kiss. Though he may have a soft spot for the little orange haired bouncing child he had much more of a soft spot for the one right in front of him. Only after a tiny make out session did he finally concede and let Hinata drag him up and out of the bedroom to clean up.