A/N: There is an imagined part initalic. It's not real, just Sebastian's dream or wish.

CHAPTER 13: WISH VS REAL

Sebastian drove Kurt home. Hummel was talking about how bored had been the party and how awful was the kids' screams, but Smythe didn't listen. They usually did that, one of them talked a lot and the other pretended to be interested. It was always like that.

When they arrived, Sebastian stopped the car but didn't look for parking because he knew he didn't go upstairs. They didn't have sex often and didn't spend so much time together, it was a more public relationship.

It was so different from his relationship with Blaine. The needed to hide because their age difference and because they were scared for Blaine's parents.

"You need to make it up for this afternoon. It was so boring! I had to pretend that I like children and I'm happy for Sophie's second birthday. That was hard."

"Fourth." Sebastian said without looking at him.

"What?"

"Sophie is four now, not two."

"Four, two, eight… What's matter? They all are unbearable." Kurt gave a little pick on Sebastian's lips before coming out the car.

Smythe thought about how different would have been his life if he was with Blaine and he missed that life.

Sebastian got closer to Blaine for his back while he was looking at himself in the mirror, trying to fix his bowtie for sixth time in the last ten minutes. Sebastian put his hands over his shoulder to relax him. They were in Sebastian's house waiting for the right time to go out.

"You are perfect… Why are you so nervous? It's just a children party." Sebastian asked.

"It's not 'just a children party', it's Shopie's birthday. Four years! It's a very important day and I don't want that 'uncle Blaine' ruin it because he can't tie a bowtie." He untied the bowtie and tried to do it again.

"She won't remember it in a phew months, so it didn't matter… And nobody ruins a party because a bad tied bowtie." Sebastian hugged Blaine, pressing his chest against the other's back. He helped his boyfriend to do the tie he was unable to do because he was nervous. "Done."

"Let's go."

Before going out the room, Blaine took a big gab.

"Are those gifts?" Sebastian asked.

"Of course… What else can it be?"

"They are too much."

"I couldn't choose, so I took them all. A doll, a ball, a DVD film, a tale and a box to do craftworks."

"I love that you love my family so much." Sebastian kissed him softly.

While Sebastian drove to the party, they were smiling and staring at each other, but not too much because they didn't want to crush the car. When they arrived, they kissed Julia and shook Richard's hand.

"Uncle Blaine, uncle Seb." Sophie run to them. Blaine took her up and kissed her cheek after saying 'happy birthday princess'. Then was Sebastian who took her to do the same.

Blaine was charming at the party. He talked with everyone, he listened to them, hoping he can use some advises when he was father.

At the end, everyone was gone but the Smythe, Marley and Sophie. She was sleep in Blaine arms but he didn't care. Marley took her because the couple want to go to the car.

"Do you wanna go home or wanna stay with me?" Sebastian asked when they were inside.

"I want us to be alone."

"Whatever you want, you will have it."

"I think you should get ready for an interesting night."

Sebastian was sad. He missed Blaine more than ever, maybe because he was in his life more than ever. He needed him so much that he went to look for them.

When he arrived to the club, the receptionist told him that he had to wait if he wanted to be with Blaine, so he waited because he was the only one who can comfort him.

When he could come into the room, he realized Blaine was tired and he had red spots in his body. It seemed like someone had hit him. Even all the pain he had done to him justified that.

Sebastian got naked and lied next to his ex. They were looking at each other eyes for a while before kissing. Smythe moved so he was over the other one, between his legs and kissed him more passionately.

Their moves were soft and sweets and they only got apart their lips for breathing. At the end, they had sex without using condom.

They felt like it was magic and Blaine forgot everything that had happened, where they were or how different was his life. Four years without being loved, without being really desired, had taken away his self-esteem. He saw him like goods, like he didn't worth it; except in that moment, with the love of his life's arms around him, remembering him that he was loved and happy, wishing he could take the time back.

However, that moment couldn't be forever and, after some orgasms, Sebastian went away to let another man to pay for being with him. He felt guilty because he had cheated on Kurt twice. And the worst was that it wasn't just physical. He knew his heart belonged to Anderson and he was scared. He needed to do anything to get back to the hate because it was the only way to not be hurt.