Hey Dark Gothic Lolita here!

So yes, I dropped off the face of the Earth for almost three weeks, correct? Let me tell you all why. As we all know, I have a summer job before I go into my first years of university, so I've been trying to rake in enough money to survive. I worked 8 days straight (there isn't even 8 days in a week!) and then once I finished, the very next day, I had to go on some musical tour that I do every year with the Church choir. That was for another week and I've only just come back and had time to breathe!

So I hope you can all forgive me for being away for a long time! I'll be away for a while again, so there won't be any guessing on the nbext few chapters as I will be pumping out chapters without any rest. Once again TheSmilingMask and Apitatoor got this chapter correct, so they'll get ANOTHER oneshot from me!

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E is for empty

Why was he feeling this way? She was his nakama sure, but she never anything special to him, so why was he ready to pull down the heavens just to make her come back to them, to make sure that she was back with him in particular?

It's not like he was in love with her, that can't be it, right? She was in love with Gray and that's how it will always be. She would never give her heart away to anyone else. Her heart was for Gray only, so why had his heart been beating at mach 20 whenever she was around? Why had he enjoyed annoying her, saying he was going to beat Gray up, just so that he could see her get angry with him and hog all of her attention? Why had he enjoyed her cooking to the point of them having dinner every night together?

They became best friends and fast. It wasn't that Lucy wasn't in the picture anymore, it was just that him and Juvia suddenly got close all of a sudden. He couldn't explain it and if she were still alive, neither could she. Maybe it was when he promised that he was going to find Gray for her, he felt like he really had to fulfill that promise, no matter how much it hurt him to see her acting this way, over a guy that wasn't him.

It wasn't like he was in love with her, that can't be it, right? She was weird, like she thought HE was Gray when they found her making it rain nonstop in that town again. He held her at arm's distance, but then she collapsed in his arms and that was when he felt how frail and weak she had become. He pulled her close to his body and warmed her up with his magic, making sure that she didn't catch a cold. He wanted to protect her and do anything for her, even if he wasn't the guy in her mind. At the time, she wasn't even the girl in his mind.

So why did it just so happen to be raining on the day of her funeral? The bleak scenery was already more than enough and he couldn't bear it. They had the service, the girls were in tears, Gajeel wouldn't look at anyone and Gray looked like he was full of regret. Natsu sneered at that a little.

"Too little too late," is what he wanted to tell him, but he didn't. That would just cause an argument and there was no way that Juvia would want him to start an argument, not at her funeral. She would be so disappointed and that was one thing Natsu didn't want to do to her, disappoint her.

He wasn't in love with her, he couldn't be, right? Even Natsu wasn't sure anymore. He stood there, in front of her freshly laid tombstone and while everyone was gone, he had fallen to his knees to let the tears run down his face, the same way that the rain dropped from the sky. The sky cried with him, almost as though Juvia was crying with him, feeling his pain from wherever she was. It wasn't like Lisanna where her body had turned into gold dust and she reappeared two years later. No, Juvia's body had been mangled and almost maimed. They saw the pain she was in before she died and she had been laid to rest.

Natsu screamed out to the heavens as he held onto her gravestone. It was cold, just like how her body had gone cold the moment she decided to give up her ghost. He hated the cold, that's why he was glad to be a fire mage. Now he knows he would hate the cold even more because that was the last feeling he got of Juvia.

He suddenly stopped his sobbing, but the tears continued. He stared at her name on the gravestone as he knelt there in quiet. He ran his fingers gently over the cursive writing that they had used to print her name. The rest of his guildmates had left him and they knew that he would act the same way he did when he lost Lisanna all those years ago, maybe even worse.

"Juvia, come back...I think I love you."

Never had Natsu felt so empty, without the one girl he never thought he would need by his side so desperately.

This was another pretty short story that I didn't realise that would be so short! But how was it? Was it alright? I hope it was!

This whole chapter was based on Juvia's death from the previous chapter (they continue from each other) and it's basically Natsu thinking about why he misses Juvia so much and of course, he's in love with her.

What's Mach 20 I hear you ask? Well, if you watch or read Assassination Classroom (I really recommend it, it's so good. Yes, it's another manga), you would know that their teacher moves at Mach 20 and it's extremely fast. It's 6805.8 m/s (meters per second) and that's how fast Natsu feels his heart beating without the exaggeration of faster than the speed of light lol. Don't get me wrong, it's still a huge exaggeration.

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