A lot of the feelings written here come from what she tells Rayna later on. I believe that she had been thinking that for a while. I did not want bring up everything, as will be doing that scene as well at some point. Right now she's only been the hospital overnight, into the next day.
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Juliette laid in bed with a now sleeping with Cadence.
She thought back to Avery feeding her before. The doctor said she had eat slow since she was eating on her back. Avery took it in stride. As much as she wasn't hungry, he made her taking 14 bites, about half her age plus one. Just like she did with Cadence when she wouldn't eat. "Juliette, I know you don't want this but you have to keep your energy up. Your get better soon if you eat more." He said, knowing full well she did not believe him. She pushed on for his sake and ate the 14 bites and drank some juice. He smiled back at her and gave her a kiss on the far head and as he walked he said "I am going to go tell the other how you are. I'm going to leave Cadence here with you. There probably going to want to see you, so I'm going to give you some time with them. If you need anything just let me know."
She thought about the figure who saved her. All she could remember is white cloth coming down over her, as if she was an angel. And then her singing, she couldn't remember anything else but the sweet music she was making. She was saved by angel, why me though she thought. Lord knows, Avery would be better without me. Lord knows there were better people to save on that plane, so why was I chosen to be saved. I've been a terrible mom, I abandoned my child, why choose me. I practically killed someone and I took some else telling the story for me to tell the truth, why me. I deserve to never walk again. She began to cry. The thought of not walking scares her but the thought having to depend on someone scares her even more. Thinking about, Avery I don't think he has left the hospital. Why hasn't he is the question, it is like were together or anything, he doesn't have stay here. He shouldn't stay here. Her saving grace is Cadence. I'm glad Avery feels comfortable dropping her off, I mean it is not like I can walk away. I know he said I call him if I need him but its not like were together or anything. Maybe I should just try my best for this little girl, this little girl deserves a better mom. Maybe for her sake the were doctors right. I don't know, maybe its too soon to think about it. As she cried at thought, Cadence began to wake up. She rubbed the side of her and started to singing and the little one soothed back to sleep. She couldn't believe how easy it was to put this one sleep with sound of her voice. She had learned that in therapy, Cadence loved her voice for some reason. Slowly she fell to sleep as well.
Avery was telling everyone what the doctor said, "She shattered two of her vertebra and right now there is a lot of trauma to nerves, which is why she cannot walk. The doctor says, she should be able to but he isn't sure of when and I think Juliette has taken has she will never walk again. One thing is for sure with her badly broken leg she'll be in a wheelchair for sometime. I think she'd like to see you guys."
The look on everyone's faces was same, a look of sadness as well as happiness. They were glad Juliette was okay but were scared that of what this means in terms of her recovery. The adults all knew that she might relapse after such trauma and the Daphne and Maddie knew that Juliette not being able to walk would be big deal for her.
"I'd like to see her, Mom." Maddie says. She could always go to Juliette, when she couldn't go to her Mom. She was like the fun Aunt, who wasn't afraid to tell her too much. "I'd go with her. "Daphne chimed in, knowing she did not know her as well.
"Why don't you guys go first, I think it would be nice for her to see you girls." Rayna replies
Avery takes the girls over to Juliette's room.
Deacon says, "we need support her now more than ever before. Even if she doesn't want us there, she need us there. She needs to know that no matter the result she will get through it."
"Indeed, I think we should take shifts. Also, help Avery out. At some point he needs to go home and take shower. This doesn't fall all onto him. And Cadence will need help as well. She problem needs a new set of clothes and food right about now." Scarlett says. "I can run back over to our house and some more stuff?"
"No, I'll do it Scarlett, you did it last time. I know where the stuff is and I should probably take a shower too. I'll bring back some food too." Will replies.
"After the girls are done, I think I am going to take them back home to change and sleep. They need to go school tomorrow. But I'll be back when there asleep to say hi to Juliette." Rayna says.
"I'll stay here and I'll go see her as soon as the girls are done. Hopefully, I get Avery to go home and take a shower. Maybe Will, you should hold out and take him with you."
"I can think I can convince him to go and it will be us guys going back to house." Gunnar says.
"I can stay with Cadence will Deacon and Juliette talk." Scarlett says.
"well, look at that we have plan for the rest of the day." Rayna says. "Now just have to keep up."
"Me and Emily, are still trying to get to the bottom of this possible leak but if you guys need anything were here." Glenn says.
"I think I'll help Scarlett with Cadence." Emily responds. Scarlett gives her smile. "Finding that individual is very important Glenn."
"I know. I'm going to go to talk the doctor and security to see who all has access to that information." Glenn says and walks out. He quite ready to see Juliette right now. It is a bad thing from a "dad" point of view but he probably wouldn't be too uplifting at the moment, it was ad for him to see her like that."
Maddie walks into Juliette room with Daphne and Avery. "Juliette, some ones here to talk to you," Avery says waking her up as quietly as possible and as Cadence was still asleep.
"Hey Juliette, its Maddie." And "Daphne" the girls say.
"Hi. Girls. I am not sure you want to see me like this." Juliette says attempting smile.
"Juliette, don't worry about it. Your beautiful regardless. How you doing?" Maddie asks.
"I'm okay, knowing you guys are some around helps. And having Cadence helps as well. I think there going to move me soon." Juliette responds, she hated lying but she knew that the girls didn't need to know the truth.
"Into a nicer room?" Daphne asks, looking around at the small space.
"Yes." Juliette responds, actually able crack a smile for that one. "My own room, which I think it will be easier."
"Was scary?" Daphne says.
"Was what scary sweetie?" Juliette asks.
"The flight. The plane falling down. Everything?" Daphne asks. Maddie interrupts, "Daphne, you shouldn't ask that."
"Maddie, its okay. I've been waiting for someone to ask me that. I don't think Avery can talk about it. But to be honest, I don't remember much. I think the hit to noggin kind jumbled some that up. "
"You think you can every talk about?" Maddie asks.
"I'm not sure. I pretty sure they will probably have been go into some sort of therapy for that." Juliette says.
The girls sit up on the bed. Daphne accidentally sits on Juliettes leg. "Im sorry." She says before realizing what she had. "Sorry, for what?" Juliette asks. Daphne looks at Maddie, "nothing." Maddie says quickly. But Juliette sensed that something was off, their faces has changed, like reality set in.
"Girls. I will get through this. I have too for this very special little girl." She said looking down at her. She could sense that her words hadn't helped, especially Daphne, though 13 she still was young and since numerous accidents her mother had been she could understand. "Avery, I think its time for the girls to get some rest." She yells so Avery can hear her.
Avery comes in, "Okay girls. Let's go see your mom. Juliette, Scarlett and Emily will be here shortly, there waiting on Will for some items for Cadence. There going to change and feed her."
Juliette, almost cried at that, thinking would she be able to do that again. I'm sure therapy will help me do it with wheelchair, at least until I'm on my feet if I ever do. I always managed, it will just be a little bit harder for some time. "Okay. She's still asleep but she is getting that face."
The doctor came in, "Your rooms almost ready. Tomorrow, were going to try to seat you up, however we are going to put a brace on you for little bit. It is more a precaution than anything. But we do want you to get moving, the faster you do that, the faster you will heal. Physical therapy is going to be mainly, upper arms for a while as well I'd like you see you talk someone. I bet there is tons of things going through your mind and with your history I think it would be good sooner than later."
All Juliette could muster was an "okay." The thought of talking to some scared her. But given her recent brain activity, she knew it was probably for the better.
"Juliette. Can we come in?" Emily says from the hall.
"Yes." Juliette responds.
Scarlett and Emily see Juliette for the first time, and stops in their tracks. "What! I am really that bad?" Juliette says a little loud. Mostly out frustration, not being able to move has definitely been an issue an between there looks, Daphne and Maddie's she has been edge. She quickly, says "I'm sorry." But not before Cadence wakes up crying. Emily goes to pick her up, but Juliette starts rubbing her tommy and calms down, but doesn't fall back to sleep.
"Juliette, were sorry. We did not mean anything by it. It just hard to see you like this. We've come take Cadence to feed and change clothes. We are going go in room we set up and play for a little bit. Deacon wants talk to you."
"Thank you for help. She's definitely hungry this tommy rub will not please her for long." She smiles.
Emily walks over and picks Cadence up, who at first starts cry without her mother's touch, not yet awake to realize whose holding her. "Cadence, its okay. Aunt Emily's going to feed you." At that Cadence looks up at Emily, and finally recognizes whose holding her and smiles. "Let's go, get some food and play."
Juliette, seeing Cadence leave, some warmth left her heart. It was harder to be positive without Cadence there. All she could do was cry at the moment. Before she could fall asleep, there was a knock at the door.