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Chapter 8- Selfish Decisions

Sakura stood up from her seat on the ground and wiped her tears, going to sit across from Sasuke at the table. She needed to discuss with Sasuke what they were going to do about Sarada. She knew Sarada wouldn't give up trying to find answers and she preferred it if she and Sasuke could give her the answers rather than anyone else.

"Sarada's not leaving without some answers, if not all." She said sitting down trying to avoid looking at him. He remained quite for a while and she could tell he was watching her.

"Are you okay with telling her everything?" he finally asked and she would've laughed if the implications weren't so serious. Does he think she hadn't told Sarada the truth because she thought she would come out as the bad guy? That's rich coming from him.

"I'm not the reason I haven't told her the truth Sasuke." she said and his eyes hardened at her. she wasn't scared of him; he can squint his eyes at her all he wants but the truth was still the truth. Sakura wasn't given a choice, but he was and Sakura couldn't bring herself to say it was the wrong choice since the end result was Sarada, but he definitely chose it for the wrong reasons.

"Will she hate me?" she was shocked at his question and the tiny amount of desperation in his eyes. She sighed, her eyes softening. Maybe she could be a little nicer to him, he didn't deserve to be treated like a criminal.

"If you decide to tell her, you are going to have to accept that…that's a possibility." She told him gently. He looked away from her, avoiding her eyes but she didn't miss the sadness in them. "But Sasuke… I think lies lead people to do things, impulsive things that they can't come back from. We've lied to her telling ourselves that…we are protecting her, but really we are pushing her further and further away from us." She wanted to add more but feared what his reaction would be, but she was making a point and she needed to show him the evidence. She took a deep breath before continuing, "Wouldn't everything have been simpler…if your brother had been honest with you?" Though she was afraid he would lash out at her, he only continued to stare into space thinking it over. He wasn't as irrational and impulsive as he used to be, Sakura knew that. It was then that she remembered they weren't 18 year olds clamoring about not knowing what to do. They were adults with experience and knowledge about life, they were wiser and wasn't as selfish as they used to be.

12 years ago

Karin had no idea what was happening. All she was aware of was unbearable pain like someone was trying to break her in half. She knew she was moving because every jostle and movement added to her pain.

"Just hold on a little longer." She heard Suigetsu's voice from somewhere but she couldn't pay attention enough to tell where he was. She wanted to nod her head 'yes' but she couldn't, she couldn't hold on. But his voice helped her to keep herself grounded, to remind herself that he was right by her side. She knew childbirth would be painful, but she didn't know it would be this painful. Which is why she was sure this was unusual and she didn't know if either she or the baby would survive. She listened to Suigetsu's voice as he attempted to calm her down while she continued to scream.

"She's in labor but something's wrong." She heard him say to someone but she was only aware of the fact that she had stopped moving, but the pain seemed to have increased tenfold. She screamed louder if at all possible and more tears escaped as the possibility that this child she had been carrying for the last nine months wouldn't survive.

It was long and tiring and she only remembered screaming and pushing and Suigetsu holding her hand telling her she was fine. But finally the baby came out and Karin slumped down on the pillow, drenched in sweat and tears. She felt Suigetsu rubbing her head but she was so tired she couldn't even open her eyes. She was vaguely aware of someone handing her the baby and she took it in her arms, her tears of relief replacing her tears of agony. She looked at the beautiful onyx eyes of the baby as she cried, only stopping as Karin hugged her close to her. Karin allowed herself this small moment despite adamantly refusing to feel happy while she was pregnant.

After a few hours of rest, she was awakened by the baby's crying and Suigetsu immediately gave her to Karin. As Karin opened up her shirt, she hungrily latched on. They both watched in adoration at the child whom neither of them were supposed to bond with.

"Sasuke's outside." Suigetsu said hesitantly. "What do you want to do?" he asked her. She looked up at him. "I didn't want to tell him anything without asking you first." He added gently.

Karin swallowed trying to push the lump down her throat, "Nothing's changed. If he's going to take her to Konoha, he should do it." She said even as tears filled her eyes. She and Suigetsu had planned it all. She wasn't going to let this child be used by Kabuto. If Sasuke wasn't going to take care of his child, she will.

The plan had been for Suigetsu to sneak her away to Konoha but since Sasuke also appeared to be on board, he can take her back and keep her safe. Just as she was buttoning up her shirt, they both heard a knock. Sasuke came in a moment later looking at her with what she could only assume is suspicion.

"Take her Sasuke." she said softly, her eyes brimming with fresh tears. "I wasn't going to keep her." she choked out as Sasuke came closer. She saw him hesitantly bring the baby close to him. Her heart ached like never before as he walked out with the baby, the door closing behind him. Her tear filled eyes turned to Suigetsu. He came and laid down beside her, hugging her tightly to him as he rocked her back and forth as she sobbed.

She had never wanted children. That was a decision she had made when she was barely fifteen years old. She had been through too much, she had seen too much for her to bring an innocent being into this cruel and unforgiving world. Even before starting a relationship with Suigetsu she had told him her wishes because she wasn't going to be in a relationship with him if he wanted kids. But then he had told her that he felt the same way. Both of them have been experimented on and been treated like trash by the world and bringing an unsuspecting vulnerable being to this world was the last thing either of them wanted. She had stayed true to her decision until she was forced into this sick experiment by Kabuto and Sasuke. She didn't think she could ever forgive either of them for the pain they've caused her, not only physically but emotionally as well. And she definitely couldn't forgive them for the pain they've caused Suigetsu as he watched the woman he loved carrying another man's child against her will.

She cried her heart out as Suigetsu continued to rock her back and forth.

Present

Suigetsu pushed her further against the wall as he moved his lips down to her neck, sucking hard on her pulse point. Karin pushed him away, laughing at his whining for being interrupted.

"We should head back." She said while he looked at her, though he didn't move back at all, his eyes burning with heat and slight anger at not being allowed to continue.

"Tch…they'll have a lot to talk about." He said going back to her neck, kissing up and down her neck.

"Do you think he'll tell her?" she asked after a moment, stopping Suigetsu on his track. He sighed, knowing his chance was gone.

"Don't you think he should? Its been twelve years." He said moving back from her, allowing her some space.

"What would happen…do you think?" she asked fearfully. Suigetsu looked at her in confusion. "Do you think she'll hate me for giving her away?" she added at his look of confusion.

"No, I don't think she will." He assured her though she didn't seem so sure. "If she was going to hate anyone, it would be Sasuke." He said as Karin bit her lip. "But… let's go back." He said taking her hand in his, squeezing it lightly.

Sasuke looked back up at Sakura as she gave him space to think like she always does. What would he do if Sarada hated him? Though, it wasn't like he had much of a relationship with her anyway. But, if she hated him, his dream of ever sharing a home with his wife and child would be taken away from him. His dream of ever being happy would be taken from him.

He had wanted so much to be able to kiss Sarada goodnight every night and hug Sakura close to him as they fell asleep.

Sakura was right, he had put all these aside to fight treats that haven't even come yet. He had pushed all his feelings aside to go look for threats. It was time to face the consequences of his decisions. At the time it hadn't felt like selfishness, but now he wasn't so sure. How had he made Sakura, who has waited for him all her life, wait longer for him? How had he made his innocent child think she wasn't worth loving? How had he been so blind as to hurt the two people he loved the most in the world?

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