Ever since that day at the hospital Asami hadn't been able to shake the off feeling. Thoughts spun around the recesses of his mind, too vague for him to catch barring the unsettled feeling they left him with.

Akihito hadn't said a work about their test results and had immediately taken to planning for an adoption. The process was long and arduous but the kind hearted young man was nothing if not determined. Asami could admit that he was just as keen for a family as his lover was, now that he had had time to warm up to the idea. But still, something didn't sit right with him.

For some reason, it irked him that Akihito just made the assumption to go into adoption without talking about the results. Why, he couldn't say. Because quite frankly, that had been the plan.

And yet…

It rubbed at him but he couldn't place his feelings on the matter. Akihito treated his continual odd mood as disappointment over the results and had made attempts to cheer him up. It only made the unsettled feeling worse but he tried to hide it from his lover. He didn't want to cause him distress over something so stupid.

It finally came to him one day as he sat in his home office staring at a printout of the lab results and a contract to undergo the procedure with his name in place of Akihito's.

He had been the one to push for this procedure.

He had been the one to demand a child of their own instead of adopting, refusing to budge even after Akihito's insistence.

He had asked Akihito to make sacrifices to undergo a procedure with risks and drawbacks and the young man had agreed with little hesitation.

Yet he was not willing to stand up and commit to the same thing.

He held Akihito to a different standard than he himself had been willing to hold himself up to.

How could he ask something of Akihito and not be willing to do the same?

Hadn't he told him over and over again that he would go to the ends of abyss for him?

Wasn't this a paltry thing in comparison to such lofty words? How could he stand up and mean his dedication if he baulked at this?

He wanted a child of them mixed together, a new life born of their love and dedication and their DNA.

He had the money, resources, and body to make it happen.

There was no reason that the slight change in circumstance should hold him back.

With new resolve, Asami picked up his favourite pen and scrawled his signature over the contract. He stood, bring the document with him, and went to seek out his lover.

Akihito sat at the dining table with paperwork spread out in front of him. Asami didn't even have to look to know it was the adoption papers for the young boy they had been considering.

"Ryu!" Akihito greeted as he stepped up behind him. He twisted around in his seat to plant a quick kiss on his cheek before holding up a photo. "I am pretty convinced on Daiki. We've met him a few times now and while he still thinks your scary, when I went to see him one on one this morning, he decided that maybe you were scary enough to scare away the bullies!" Akihito giggled as he put the photo down, affection clearly on his face. He had clicked with the young boy almost immediately. "I said I'd bring you back again before we decided and he seemed really excited!"

Without a word, Asami reached over and pulled out the adoption papers, signing his name on the appropriate dotted line. He'd read over all the details himself earlier and had no qualms about bringing the bright and enthusiastic Daiki into their household, especially when he had bonded so well with Akihito already. While his lover was still gaping at the abrupt change of events, he dumped down the signed pregnancy contract as well.

The only immediate response he got was a strangled sound from Akihito as he swayed in his seat as though he was suddenly feeling faint.

A satisfied grin spread across his face as he steadied the other man, there was going to be some rather interesting changes in the time to come.