I know what you guys have been waiting for and I'm sorry for being such a dick... Hahah read to find out what I mean. Love you guys! feel free to review, it always makes my day thousands times better! : )
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''Fuck!'' Beca muttered when she was trying to open the door, but she couldn't find a keyhole, and Chloe kissing and biting her neck didn't help as well.
''Give me that.'' Redhead giggled, and as soon as she got the key, she opened the door without a problem.
''Pff, I probably opened it, you just pulled the handle,'' Beca said, quite embarrassed that she couldn't open her own doors.
''Nope, you're just too drunk to open it yourself.'' Chloe giggled again. 'God, I love her giggle,' Beca thought. They both stumbled on the doorstep and fell on the ground with a loud thud.
'Yep, I think we both are too drunk,'' Beca said and stood up. She closed the door, and turned to the redhead, who was still laying on the floor, laughing.
''You want to lay here all night? Because we can do a lot of different, interesting things.'' Beca smirked and reached for Chloe's arms, helping her to stand up.
''What interesting things?'' Chloe said, biting her lip and smiling at Beca.
''Hey, don't bite your lip!'' Beca said and touched redhead's lips with her thumb. ''I'm going to be doing this tonight.'' She smirked and gently pressed their lips together. Chloe wrapped her arms around her neck, and the brunette's hands rested on her hips. When the kiss got more heated, they moved onto the couch. Beca pinned her girl between her body and couch, kissing her roughly. Her hands travelled under the redhead's dress, caressing the back of Chloe's bare thighs.
''Is this okay?'' Beca breathed out as she nibbled on Chloe's bottom lip. Chloe was too occupied with controlling herself, and she didn't trust her voice.
''Mhmm,'' she hummed into the kiss, and her hands travelled under Beca's plaid, red shirt. She massaged her back with gentle circles. The kiss was slow, neither felt a need to rush. Just the need to feel each other lips on themselves. Beca kissed Chloe's jawline painfully slow and pushed Chloe up. She gently unzipped her dress, softly tickling her back with her fingertips. She threw a dress on the floor and settled herself again between Chloe's legs. Only then did the brunette notice the lack of Chloe's bra. Her eyes went wide. She couldn't stop herself as she leaned forward, kissing redhead's bare chest. Chloe's hand immediately shot to Beca's hair, gripping it strongly.
''Becs,'' Chloe moaned, and the brunette knew exactly what that meant. She cupped the girl's breasts and squeezed them firmly, earning a gasp. Then, she took Chloe's right nipple into her mouth, sucking it lightly. The redhead's back arched, pressing her chest harder into Beca's mouth and hands.
''God, you're so gentle,'' Chloe moaned, and Beca's body immediately tensed. She looked up at the redhead with a worried expression.
''What do you mean?'' the brunette asked, still looking at her girl.
''My ex… He was always so… aggressive… and rough.'' Chloe shrugged and faked a smile at a thought of her ex-boyfriend.
''Hey, look at me,'' Beca said and gently pulled her chin up. ''You are the most beautiful person in the whole world. You deserve to be cherished and loved and… You deserve to have everything. Don't ever doubt that, okay?'' Beca said and kissed her with passion. Her heart skipped a beat when she felt Chloe smiling into the kiss.
''Yeah… It's just… A lot of things are going here now, you know?'' Chloe said, gesturing at her head.
''Okay, wait a second,'' Beca said, standing up and leaving living room. She came back a minute later in her sweatpants and shirt. ''Lift your arms,'' she said to the redhead, and she pulled her favorite t-shirt on the redhead's body. ''Now get your ass up. I can't talk with you while you're naked.'' Beca smirked and helped her put on her shorts as the redhead had a lower absorption of alcohol and was a little clumsy. Then, they both sat beside each other on the couch, and Beca covered them with a blanket.
''Now, talk to me,'' she simply said and looked at the redhead. Now, she could see clearly. Chloe's make-up had wiped off a little bit, and she had dark circles under her eyes. She looked tired.
''I don't even know where to begin.'' Chloe shrugged and looked down at her hands.
''How did you meet him?'' Beca asked as she thought that it could be easier for Chloe if she was just answering her questions.
''We met in college. At first it was just for sex, but then we fell in love. At least that was what I thought,'' Chloe said, smiling bitterly.
''So he actually was your first and only?'' Beca asked, clearly shocked. '' I bet you had a lot of boys going after you.'' she added with smile.
'' Yeah, he was my first and only. And yes, there were a lot of guys around, but I just wanted to be with him. For the rest of my life. And I thought that he wanted it to,'' Chloe said.
''So what happened next?'' Beca asked, resting her hand on Chloe's knee under the blanket, squeezing it lightly.
''Then we moved in together, I got my job at school, and he was working in his father's company. He was well-paid, handsome, sweet. He was telling me every day how much he love me and that he want to spend his life by my side. But one day he came back home drunk as hell. He forced me to have sex with him, he was really rough and aggressive. I cried that night a lot.'' Chloe sighed, wiping tears that rolled down on her cheeks. '' Next morning I went to work, I came back in the evening. He was home. He gave me flowers, kissed me softly, and he apologized a hundred times. He made dinner, and he was really sweet. He proposed to me that night, so I forgave him, and I said yes. And despite that previous night, I was the happiest person in the whole world,'' Chloe said, and more tears started escaping her eyes.
''It wasn't just once, was it?'' Beca asked, terrified. She didn't actually want to know the answer. She didn't want to know that someone so beautiful and caring could hurt so bad.
''No,'' Chloe whispered, and she finally broke down in tears. Beca quickly pulled her into tight hug. They laid in comfortable silence as soon as Chloe calmed herself.
''One day,'' Chloe surprisingly started talking again, ''he was so rough that I ended up in ER. I was bruised, and I hit my head on the headboard so hard that I cut it.'' When Beca heard this, she gripped the redhead's body stronger, like she wanted to protect her. But it was too little too late. All that shit had already happened to her girl.
''I can kill him, you know?'' Beca said with a serious face.
''You know me one day, and you're willing to kill someone for me?'' Chloe said and smiled.
''Yes. You're special. You're perfect. You're intelligent. Your lips are amazingly soft, and I adore your body. Look…'' Beca sighed and looked into Chloe's beautiful blue eyes. '' It's okay if you're a little broken. I don't know anyone who isn't. And comparing us…Damn! I'm fucking damaged. I'm a wreck! But what's important is what we will do with our broken pieces. That's what matters, Chlo. I know you're awfully strong. Your job helps others. You are a good person, that I like so fucking much. And I want to spend every day getting to know you better and deeper. What else do you want to hear?'' Beca smiled and gently pressed her lips to Chloe's.
''That you won't hurt me,'' the redhead almost whispered against the brunette's lips, and Beca cupped her face with her hands.
''I will never hurt you purposely,'' she said and kissed her on the corner of the mouth. ''Now, we need sleep, you're still drunk.'' Beca smiled and made herself comfortable with Chloe on top of her.
Next morning when Chloe woke up, she carefully curled up from Beca's hands and went to the bathroom. She threw up a few times, and when she finally could stand up, she washed her mouth and make-up. Then she heard Beca's voice.
''Chlo? Ohh fuck, not again…'' she whined, and in the same moment, Chloe came back to the living room.
''Something happened?'' Beca jumped when she heard someone.
'' Ohh… No, I just… I just thought you left again,'' Beca said sadly and combed her hair with her hand.
''Yeah… I'm sorry about that,'' Chloe said, slightly embarrassed with her behavior.
'' It's okay, you're here now so…'' Beca said and walked closer to the redhead. ''I hope you don't regret things that happened last night,'' she added and took Chloe's hands in hers.
''I do not,'' the redhead answered and kissed the brunette softly.
''Okay, I'm hungry.'' Beca pulled away and headed to her kitchen. '' You want some pancakes?'' she asked as she opened the fridge.
''Pancakes are my favorite,'' Chloe said, smiling at the brunette.
''I will remember that. I hope I'll do it more often for you.'' Beca winked, and Chloe blushed. They sat in the kitchen almost two hours, they talked and ate.
''Hey, can you promise me something?'' Beca suddenly asked.
''What is it?'' Chloe said.
''Don't be afraid to fall in love again,'' Beca said simply and smiled. ''Not everyone is an asshole. I know you wanted to fix him, but not everything is fixable. And I know that somewhere in this world is a person that deserve you more," she said and stood up to clean the dirty dishes. Then she felt a hand wrapping around her waist, and another body pressing to her back.
''Things aren't easy, but they still can be good. I promise,'' the redhead whispered into Beca's ear and kissed her on the cheek.
''Someone said to me one day 'Gravity won't be held responsible for people falling in love'. So I think that, if I fall in love with you, it for sure won't be easy, and I will never understand it."
3 Years Later
''So before everyone will be too drunk to remember any of my words that I'm planning to say now…'' Beca smirked and smiled at her girlfriend of three years. They were at a family party at Beale's house. She managed to gather hers and Chloe's family to that special party. It was quite hard, but they managed to do that. And that was the night. That was the best moment. They were ready.
''It was the first time that I saw you, baby,'' Beca said and smiled at Chloe. ''I've never seen anything so perfect in my life. I remember thinking 'I have to have you, or I'll die'.'' She laughed. ''I thought that you wouldn't be with such a loser like me, and then you whispered into my ear that you loved me. And God… You thought that I choked on my water but… I almost had a heart attack.'' Again, everyone laughed. ''And after a few seconds, I felt so peaceful and safe. Because from then on, no matter what happened, nothing could be that bad, like it used to be in my life. Because I had you. The most beautiful woman in the whole world. And when we moved in together, you persuaded me to try with music. And I did. I did, but then I fucked up and lost my way. I blamed you for my failure. And then, we had a hard time, and we broke up. And I asked Jesse, my best friend, what to do. He simply asked me 'Have you always been that selfish? She defended you when people attacked you, she had always helped you when you needed her.' And he walked out on me. Then, one night I got drunk, and I called him. And what he said? Well, I can say it now. If not for you Jesse, I wouldn't be here tonight."
Flashbacks
One Year earlier
''For God's sake, Beca! You know how lonely I've felt these past few months? You were barely home, and when you finally were, you were too tired to do anything else! We don't talk anymore, we didn't have sex for two months and… Even now you say nothing. God, I can't take it,'' Chloe screamed, waving her hands in the air.
''I'm here now…'' Beca said, like there was no problem between them at all.
''You don't get it, do you?'' Chloe sighed and ran her hand through her wavy red hair. ''Beca… I can't do this anymore. I need someone who cares about me, who talks to me, who… who is here!''
''Jesus, Chlo, don't be ridiculous… I can fuck you right now so hard that you won't be able to go to work tomorrow. We can talk all night, I can hold you in my arms all night. What do you need me to do?'' Beca said, walking closer to her girlfriend, but Chloe stopped her.
''You don't need to do anything. I'm leaving Beca.'' And with that, she walked out. She packed her bag and headed to the front door.
''Baby, come on. You don't want this. Please, Chlo, talk to me,'' Beca pleaded.
''God, Beca! I had to break up with you for it to become important enough for you to talk to me?!'' Chloe screamed, tears already running down her face.
''Baby, I'm so sorry. I can do better, I'll try my best. Chlo, please, don't leave,'' she begged the redhead.
''How, Beca? How you'll do it? When was the last time we actually talked? You're drinking and partying and doing all these stupid things!'' Chloe said, feeling that she had no energy to fight anymore.
''Becs… I want us to be happy. And we are not happy right now. I don't know what to do to make you feel better because you won't talk to me. I don't know why you're so scared, but I'm scared too,'' Chloe said. ''I just need some time away from you, Beca.'' Chloe sighed and ran her hand through her hair again.
''Chloe, I don't want this to end it this way,'' Beca said, looking deep into those beautiful blue eyes.
''Well… You just caused it to end it this way,'' Chloe said coldly, and with that, she left their apartment.
A week after the fight
''Jesse, I don't know what to do. I'm so fucking down lately,'' Beca slurred into the phone, crying and laying on the couch, surrounded by empty bottles of beer and whiskey.
''I bet you're sitting in your own shit, thinking about her. About how she walks or talks. Or how beautiful her blue eyes are. How you love waking up next to her. How she smiles at you, and how she gets mad at the constant smirk on your face. You think about how she loves your sarcastic bad-ass. How she makes you unbelievably happy, like you're on top of the world and you can do whatever you want,'' Jesse said.
''Yes.'' Beca sighed, and hot tears rolled down her face.
''Go, Beca, go and tell her that you're sorry and tell her how much you love her.''
''Jess… Why does it hurt so much?''
''Because it is real love, honey.''
''I don't want her to go away. No one ever stuck with me for so long. No one ever loved me the way she does. I don't want her to give up on me. I want to be with her. I want to apologize for disappointing her so many times. Jesse, I'm nothing without her. I feel so miserable. Jess, I'm hurting her all the time, she doesn't love me anymore. God, I'm suffering''
''Beca…Do you know the difference between pain and suffering? Pain is something that… Pain is always there because life is painful. You know it well. But suffering is a choice. And… I know that maybe it's not my place to say that, but you are my friend, Becs. And you're suffering.'' He sighed.
''What do I do, Jesse?'' she asked, clearly exhausted.
''Go, get your girl back and be happy,'' he said, and the call ended.
End of flashback
"With this hand, I will lift your sorrows.
Your cup will never empty, for I will be your wine.
With this candle, I will light your way in darkness.
With this ring, I ask you to be mine."
''So you see, it wasn't easy for us. It really must be love. Chlo, you're the brightest thing, that ever came into my life. Your love kept me alive. So, Chloe Anne Beale, my love grows for you each day that passes, and if you give me the chance to spend the rest of our days together, you would make me the happiest girl alive. You're the love of my life. Can you do me the honor of being my wife?'' Beca said as knelt in front of Chloe, opening a small red, velvet box with a beautiful diamond ring.
''Becs… Of course I will marry you!'' Chloe squealed and let her, now fiancée, put the ring on her finger.
''God, I love you so much,'' Beca said and pressed her lips hard to Chloe's. Suddenly, they heard the clapping and cheering of their family. They were so happy that they didn't even knew how everything will change in only two years.