What You Wish For Chpt 8
Hey guys! So sorry for the delay. All of a sudden work got crazy and I've been doing a stack of work at nights too. I've been completely snowed under but here it is! Another chapter. I will do my absolute best to get another one up this weekend. I know how painful it is to have to wait for updates. Please stick with me. This story is about to get interesting :P I really appreciate all of your reviews! Keep them coming! They definitely make the motivation to write keep coming. And I love hearing who you want Liv to end up with. Believe it or not it does have some influence in my writing. Enjoy! Read and Review! And remember I own nothing!
The silence dragged on. And on. And on. Olivia was frozen to the spot, her hand half raised to her mouth, her body hanging in flight or fight mode. Her brain was running on overdrive. Had she really blurted the truth out to Elliot? Had the last words out of her mouth really being "I'm sleeping with Fin"? Her eyes were glued to Elliot; reading his expressions, trying to predict his reaction. There was a bulging vein throbbing in his forehead. He was pissed. That much was obvious. But she wasn't sure how he was going to show it. For a split second she was afraid of him. Not for herself – she knew he'd never hurt her. But for Fin.
"What?" Elliot finally asked, his voice so thick with emotion that Liv didn't know what to do.
"El…I…" Liv tried to find the right words. She wanted to explain but was scared that if she tried to speak Elliot would snap.
He turned his eyes to hers and her heart cracked a little. He looked like a young boy who'd had his favourite toy taken away by another kid. Olivia's anger flared a little when she realised that she was that toy.
"You're sleeping with Fin?" His voice cracked a little, and his eyes were wide. He was obviously trying to make it more real for himself.
"El…" Olivia's mouth fumbled around for the words. She could see his brain rapidly jumping to conclusions and knew she needed to say something quickly. He was going to get this all wrong.
"What about us?" He asked, with such a disappointed expression on his face. "I thought you wanted to give us a shot?" His eyes implored hers.
"It's not what you think!" There! Olivia managed to get something more than "El" out. She took a half step forward. Elliot's hand shot up, telling her to stay where she was. He couldn't handle her touching her right then. His emotions were too mixed up, he was hurting too much. All he wanted to do was land a fist in Fin's face for touching his partner.
"You just told me you are sleeping with Fin." His anger surfaced almost viciously. "What am I supposed to think?"
"He's helping me get pregnant." Olivia admitted, her face going red. Elliot's eyes widened almost comically.
"WHAT?" He bellowed. His face flushed beet red and that vein looked like it was close to popping. Olivia reached out her hand again, not to touch him but to try and calm him.
"Elliot, please calm down."
"Why would Fin be getting you pregnant, Olivia?" Elliot's voice shook with restraint. His fists were clenched.
"Because I want a baby!" Olivia's voice rose, her own anger surfacing. She couldn't believe that he was acting this way. Who was he to tell him off for her actions.
At her words Elliot blanched. He hadn't expected her anger, or her answer.
"Liv," His voice softens. "Why didn't you talk to me about this?"
"I don't have to ask you for permission Elliot!"
"You're my partner, Liv. I thought that meant something."
"Elliot this isn't your decision. It's mine. And I don't have to run my decisions by you first." Olivia's voice rose as she spoke. Her hand dropped and clenched into a fist. She couldn't believe this. After everything, Elliot was going to give her grief about her wanting to have a baby?
"I think…I think we need to calm down," he said finally. He watched as Liv nodded slowly, her hands resting at her sides. "Can we, maybe, have a seat?" He asked. His mind was wondering where this night had gone wrong. He'd thought it had been going great. The kiss they'd finally shared – he'd thought that meant the start of something.
They both sat on the couch, at opposite ends, the distance between them palpable.
"So…" Elliot started, his hands resting on his knees. "You're pregnant?" He guessed it was as good a point to start as any.
"No. I'm trying to get pregnant." Olivia said softly.
"With Fin." Elliot tried to keep his voice even. The thought made his stomach reel with jealousy. He didn't like the idea of anybody touching Olivia. He really didn't like the idea of someone he knew and worked with getting to have what he wanted and what he considered his.
"Fin knew that I wanted a baby. He offered to help me."
"And you just took him up on it?" Elliot asked, his anger showing. Olivia gave him a dark look.
"I was sick of waiting for you to make a move, Elliot." Olivia finally admitted. Her eyes focussed on her hands, unwilling to meet his eyes. Elliot slowly reached out and took her hand in his.
"Liv, you should have said something. I would have helped you. You know that." His eyes tried to find hers. "Liv?"
"I didn't know that, Elliot. And I trust Fin. He is giving me something that I have wanted for a long time." Elliot flinched slightly. Did she mean that she didn't trust him? Where had his partner gone?
"I would have helped you, Liv. I told you I'd support you any way you decided to have a baby." He said earnestly.
"El, people don't usually assume that sleeping with their partner to get pregnant is "support"," She gave him a grim smile.
"I said any way, Liv and I meant it." He was silent for a moment, watching her, memorising how beautiful she was. Even when she angry and embarrassed she was gorgeous. "Are you still seeing him?" He had to ask, had to know.
"El…" She was pleading with him not to ask the question. Because she didn't know the answer. Was she still seeing Fin? Was she going to keep sleeping with him?
"What if I were to have another man's child?" She asked softly.
"Are you pregnant, Liv?" Elliot's heart was in his throat. He didn't know how he would feel about that. He wanted Liv for himself. He didn't want her having anyone's baby but his. But what if she were pregnant? And to Fin. Someone they saw every day. Could he play a part in raising Fin's child? If she was having Fin's baby would she actually want to be with him at all? His mind was whirling.
"I-I haven't done a test yet. But I don't think so. Still, what if I was?" She finally met his eyes, almost challenging him.
Elliot held her gaze for several long minutes. The silence grew. Olivia was about to stand in frustration when he finally spoke.
"I'd still love you, Liv."
I know. I am evil. But you know you love it. Oh boy! So Elliot knows. As in really knows. The whole story. And what is Liv going to do with his admission? Is this the end of Liv and Fin? And oh boy…what's going to happen to Fin when Elliot next sees him? Stayed tuned! Please review!