"Unjust Life" (Angel beats OST)
A/N: listen to the song in the title as you read the chapter. It might give you the feeling I had when writing this. Enjoy the chapter!
"I'm sorry.. I'll miss you." Miku's elementary friend Daiki said as he stood outside a shrinkasen (bullet train), that was to be heading to Kyoto. It was a cold, snowy day. Miku was wrapped up in her usual soft scarf and teal furry coat.
"I'll miss you too.." Miku said as he got on. He waved goodbye as the door closed. "...My first love." Miku whispered.
She said goodbye, to the first love of hers, which although she was young, of only 8 years, it was true and pure. "Go find someone better than me, don't worry, I'll be okay. I'll be happy, I'll find another eventually. " Miku thought, sad but not crying. Although they had never dated, she loved him very dearly. She knew that true love cared for the other truly.
Even when she remembered him, or saw his letters of when he found a new person, Miku wasn't hurt. She knew how when you love someone, you care for their happiness, not your own. She'd smile and giggle as she read his words. "He's still the same." Miku told herself as she read Daiki's letter from Kyoto.
"Miku, look at this!" Kaito said, pointing at a necklace with a heart and a tiny camera made of metal. "You.. make my heart smile" Miku read off it's label. "it's so cute!" Miku said.
Miku was only 10 years old. A cute girl with ponytails, that was her. She was the sweetest girl you could ever find. Her love for others was not jealous, nor selfish. She was beautiful in every way you could imagine.
"I'll buy it for you!" Kaito said, taking out his wallet. Miku smiled and hugged Kaito when he bought it for her.
"I won't forget today. I came to love you, but today, my heart really smiled." Miku thought, Then wrote down another of her sweet poems on her diary that night. Miku had known Kaito for a while, & she liked all the positive things from him, she never got mad from his flaws.
"Kaito~!" Rin yelled. "What is it?" He said as they ate pancakes. "Rin, that hurt my ears.." Len said, covering his ears with his hands. "Let's go somewhere." Rin said. "It's .. warm outside. Let's go to the park. Just us." Rin said shyly, looking down. Miku looked at Rin, Then at Kaito.
Kaito blushed a bit. "Let's go! I'll take you on my bike!" he said, getting up. Miku looked down, and heard as Kaito ran outside along with Rin.
Miku knew she couldn't chase after someone who liked another. "Goodbye my dear, it was nice meeting you. I'll always remember you, my friend. But your heart is taken. I love you, & will let you be. For this is my true love towards you, today I have commanded my heart to heal from this." Miku wrote down on a journal, as she sang softly, in her room, so only she could hear herself.
She smiled and thought, "For my love for you, I will find another. I hope you find true happiness, even with one who isn't me."
"Miku?" Len knocked on her door. "Come in." Miku said, immediately closing her journal. "Hello." Len smiled in a gentle way. "Is something wrong?" Miku asked. "No, I'm just bored." Len said.
"I just bought this new video game, I don't know what it's about." Miku said, pointing at a game on her desk. It was still unopened. Len looked at it. "Seems like one of those dating games." Len said. "You can play if you want." Miku said. "Can I play here?" Len asked. "Sure!" Miku giggled.
Len began playing the game. Miku watched all the decisions he took, and sometimes he'd do things just on curiosity to see the reaction of the other character in the game. He would laugh sometimes at the things that happened.
"She got soo jealous!" Len said laughing. Miku over thought it. "Jealousy..?" Miku asked in a low voice. "Yup. happens to everybody. Although sometimes it's inevitable, it can be stupid." Len said, still playing.
Miku opened her diary. 'Why didn't I get jealous with Kaito?' She wrote at the end of her page. 'It's normal isn't it?' She wrote in tiny letters. She closed it and placed it under her bed, never to be touched again. "I'll be back." Miku said. "Okay." Len said.
Miku walked outside and looked in front. She crossed the street and stood by a tree in a nearby park.
"Kaito, I'm going to choke if I laugh so much!" Rin said, laughing with Kaito. Kaito kept laughing, and Rin pushed him playfully.
'Rin doesn't need him.' Miku thought. After loosing people whom she learned to love, she had an aching heart. Her heart was not as soft as it was before.
'Stupid people... Kaito would be happier with me.' Miku thought, as a tear fell off her cheek. She ran back and looked at the house she was living in, with all the Vocaloids. A sudden memory of all things that have happened thought her life came to her. 'Why can't I have one for myself?' Miku thought. She wiped her tear away with anger. She was no longer sad, but selfishly angry.
'I'm going to be the best. Best girlfriend & best singer.' Miku said with an evil smile.
"SeeU!" Rin said, a couple days later. "I'm back from Korea." She said with a smile. "Your back!" Len said, running to SeeU and hugging her. Miku knew Len liked SeeU. 'I bet Len would be cuter with me.' Miku thought, as she saw smiling Len. It was only selfishness, not love.
As soon as Len stopped liking her, Miku went for it. "Miku is like a sister, I couldn't imagine nothing more..." He said when a friend of his thought they were going out. Miku ran away instantly. 'Len thinks he can do what he wants..just watch.'
"Aoki?" Miku asked. "Yes, she's so cute!" Rin said, the first few days of Aoki's arrival. "She singed great in the concert.. and I think Maybe Len likes him!" Rin said smiling. "Yup!" Miku lied. 'She can't be better than me. She's not getting Len, no matter what.' Miku had reached a point of jealousy, and wanted everything her way. Her sadness, from so much repetition, had killed her beautiful love, that was pure and sweet. She had became cold from pain.
A/N: Thanks if you read this far! Sorry my updates have been all over the place, but I will update!