ROXAS
CHAPTER 13
Is it wrong to think of him as I touch myself?
Axel didn't say anything after I told him when we could leave. His face was blank and I couldn't tell what he was thinking at all it was like he didn't even want to admit that this is my job. I walked in before Axel could find the words he wanted to say and got into my costume.
I am not proud of this job, but feeding two teenage boys is not easy. I could always just take the money from the bank but then I would feel useless if I can't take care of my family then I can't do anything right.
The job is good pay and all and after working here once I had gotten enough money to get enough food for a month. But I know that Sora blew most of that money on new clothes I told him it was money from mom so I guess he didn't mind taking it.
When I went on I was not thinking about anything just to get attention so I could leave soon. Then I found how to get it. My thoughts filled with Axel as I danced for the crowd. I trailed my hands down my body wishing they were Axel's. I felt my breath become more labored as I imaged his hands, his mouth on my body. Soon I found Axel sitting close and my eyes fixed on him. No matter what I did I couldn't turn my eyes from him. I wondered what he would have thought if he knew I wished it was his hands in place of mine.
I couldn't tell what Axel was thinking the whole time and it was slowly killing me as I danced what if he was sickened by me now? He might never want to be around me again and if that happened, Sora would give up Riku to be with me. Sora's happiness is all that matters to me. I guess I will have to lie to Sora about one more thing.