I am currently just drawing a simple dog while working my shift at the Tattoo Parlor and I am so so tired. It's almost nine PM, right now, and I wish I could just go home and sleep. I have been here since one this afternoon, and Tori is coming in half hour, luckily. I don't think I could have properly tattooed anyone right anymore. My eyes are closing slowly and I am going crazy. It's like I try to keep my eyes open, and I do everything to manage that, but then a minute later, I "wake up" and I realized that my eyelids closed.
It has been many weeks since Four made me pancakes and we talked the whole day. It was amazing. We continued talking the whole day that I missed work. Luckily Christina rang Tori in the morning and told her that I was getting to know "Chicago" again. Which totally didn't make any sense, so the next day at work, I was stuck repeating everything that happened the day before. Though Tori did tell me it was okay that I didn't come to work that day, she repeatedly said that the shop was slow, so there was no use in me coming in anyway, she also mentioned that she would have sent me a message or called, if Christina didn't call her that morning.
Four and I have spent quite some time together since that day and it's been nice. Amazing actually. Though, I do think he might only care for me as a friend, which totally suck, because who wouldn't want that gorgeous body of his? I know I would. I have also currently found out that, wait for it, I have a crush on Four. Yes, I said it. Yes, I have a crush. Who would have thought? Me having a crush on someone. Thought I would never say that.
Though in my defense, we have spent quite a lot of time together these last few weeks, so I guess he has just grown on me, and it's not only his body I am talking about. Remember, I said crush, that doesn't mean I like him, hopefully, this is just some small "schoolgirl-crush" and will be over before I know it.
When Four and I are out, we always get these small cute comments from old people, telling us how cute we look together, and it makes me really happy inside, but, I don't know, I don't know how Four feels and I don't think he likes me, so we always avoid those comments. It doesn't help that Christina is going on and on about it. It's kind of annoying if you ask me. I enjoy Four's company too much to let anything come in my way for that. So, if that means, I need to keep my little schoolgirl crush hidden, then so be it.
I have gotten to known all of Christina's friends as well. We hang out occasionally, which is great. When they do have a night off, we go out, either to the movies or get something to eat, or maybe even both. Depends on what we feel like that night too. We might even just stay in. It's been really amazing getting to know them, they have all welcomed me with open arms and I love it. Some more than others, but that's to be expected.
Caleb came over with Cara and the whole thing was really nice. Caleb and I got to spend quite some together alone, which we needed, after my whole stay in Afghanistan. We needed to get back that brother and sister connection we had before I left, and somehow, I feel like we did. Will got to spend time with his sister, so everyone was actually really happy. Caleb seems to finally accept that Cara is pregnant and seems to be happy about it, which I think is great. You could see Cara was really happy about it all, she couldn't even stop talking about it.
"Hey." I look up from my drawing and find Tori coming towards me. I look at my phone and check the time. 9.15 PM.
"You are early." I tell her and she nods.
"Well, I thought you'd had a long day." She replies and I smile at her.
"Thank you, I will stay, though." She nods and goes to the backroom and I continue to draw.
"Is Four picking you up?" She asks coming back from the backroom. I look up at her and she smiles.
"What are you talking about?" I ask and she smiles.
"Well, I heard that he is finished at work, so I thought he might come and pick you up."
"I don't know." I tell her, but I do know. He is picking me up. He has been picking me up every day he has had the chance too, and I love it.
"You know it's okay to like him, you know." She says and I laugh. "Everybody does. You don't have to hide it."
"I don't like him." I tell her and she raises an eyebrow at me and I nod. "Well, I mean, I like him as a friend, but that's it."
"Who do you like a friend?" Someone asks coming in. I look towards the door and find Four. "Hey."
"Hey." I say and automatically there is a smile on my face. "Nothing."
"Right, keep telling yourself that." Tori says and I look at her and shake my head at her. I pack up and start walking towards Four. "I thought you said he wasn't picking you up."
"I said I didn't know, bye Tori, see you on Monday." It's now Friday night, and because of the long hours I have worked this week, I get two days off. Yes! Then I can finally spend some quality time with everyone I love. I put on my jacket and scarf and Four and I walk out.
I start walking toward his home – it's only walking distance from my work to his place, quite nice if you ask me - knowing that we usually go to his, because Christina and Will are usually at Christina's places, and when they are there, it gets kind of loud if you know what I mean.
"Are you hungry? We could eat, and then I can drive you home." He says and I look at him. Weird. We usually spend some time together before I leave his place or he leaves mine. I stop and look at him.
"Is something up?" I ask and he shakes his head. "We can bring food to your place if you want."
"No, that's fine." He says and I look at him.
"Okay." I say and he looks around. "We could eat, or I could just take a cab home if you have somewhere to be. You didn't have to come and pick me up."
"I usually pick you up."
"Yeah, but you don't have to." I say. "I can take a cab myself."
"It's late, you are probably tired and hungry, let's eat and let me just take you home."
"No, it's fine, I'll find something at home." I say and look around for an easier place to catch a cab. "You coming?" I ask and turn around looking at him.
"Tris – "
"Four, let's just go. It's cold." I say and start walking again. I don't turn back to look at him, but I know he is following me. After a few steps, he is next to me and then he does something unexpected, he grabs my hand. I stop.
"What?" He asks and I look down at our hands. "You don't want me to hold your hand, I won't."
"Why?"
"Why not? It's cold like you said, and – why can't I just hold your hand." He says and I look at him. He looks tired. He normally looks tried, but this is something else. There is something else going on, there must be.
"What's up Four?"
"Nothing." He sighs and looks towards the ground.
"You know you can talk to me." I tell him and bring my hand up to his cheek so he can look at me. He leans into my touch and my heart swells.
"I know, there are just some things I need to take care of and – I don't know. I am tried." He replies and I nod.
"Okay." I say and bring him into a hug. He immediately wraps his arms around me too and I smile. I cherry these moments with him. I love them. All too soon he releases me.
"Come and eat with me." He says and smiles at me. "Please." I laugh and smile.
"Yeah, yeah, let's go." I say and grab his hand.
"Now you are the one holding my hand you know." He says and I laugh.
"I can let go."
"No, don't." He says and holds on tighter. I smile. We continue walking in silence until he asks me what Tori meant before about him picking me up and I laugh.
"She asked me if you were picking me up again tonight as you finished work early enough to and I told her I didn't know."
"But you did know. I sent you a message." He says and I smile.
"I know, she doesn't."
"If you don't want me to come, I don't need too."
"I like that you come. It's nice." I tell him and squeezes his hand. "Plus, it's the only time I'll like, get to spend with you. Alone, that's it."
"Okay then." He replies and I smile. "Where do you want to eat."
"You want to bring it to my place?"
"You don't feel like eating out?" He asks. If I really think about it, no I don't want to eat out. I want to go to his place and eat there. Sit on his couch, with his arms around me and my head on his chest. That's how I want tonight to go, but that won't happen. I just don't feel like being out tonight. I want to be cozy with him. Urgh, why do I have this small little crush on him? Why?
"I don't know. Do you have somewhere to be?"
"No."
"Then why can't we go to your place?"
"Tris – "
"Fine, why can we go to my place then?" I say, but I realize, that even though I want to be wrapped in his arms, doesn't mean he does. "You know sorry, sorry. It's fine. We can eat where ever you want." I say, not looking at him. Why is this so hard? We continue walking in silence before he speaks.
"I want to spend time with you, but it's just, things are going on now, and I want to tell you about them, it's just that I am scared about how you will react when you hear them." He says taking a deep breath.
"What are you scared about? That I'll leave?" I ask and he avoids eye contact.
"Everything. I just don't want to lose this."
"You won't. Nothing you tell me is going to change this." I tell him honestly because I know that nothing he tells me is going to change how I feel about him.
"You don't know that."
"I do."
"Can we just not talk about it?" He asks and I look at him.
"Fine." I say and realize we have almost walked all the way to his place. "I am just gonna call Christina," I say as I take my phone out to call her.
"Why?"
"So, she can come and pick me up." I tell him and dial her number.
"I can take you home Tris – "
"Hey, Tris." I hear Christina say on the other side of the phone.
"Hey, can you pick me up at Four's?" I ask and I can hear Will in the background.
"Sure. Something going on?"
"No, we just can't hang out today." I say and look at Four and he raises his eyebrow at me.
"Why? You are at his place now, right?"
"We are walking towards his place now, yes."
"Okay, I'll be there in twenty, I just have to drop Will off at home first."
"You know you don't have to do that."
"Yes, I do. "She says and I shake my head.
"No, you don't. Then don't come and pick me up, I'll find a cab."
"Will needs to go home too."
"But, if I didn't call you right now, Will would still be there when I came home, right?"
"Right."
"So, don't take him home then."
"You know, if you two wants to stay here, I could go to Will's."
"Christina just – "
"Fine, sorry. I'll be there in twenty."
"Tris, I'll drive you home." Four says.
"I heard what Four said, let him drive you home. Tell him I said hello. Bye." And there she hangs up on me.
"You know she could've just picked me up."
"And you could've just asked me to drive you."
"But, you have things to deal with, so that doesn't work."
"I have time for you."
"Four – "
"Come you promised you would eat with me." He says and grabs my hand and we walk into the nearest restaurant, which is McDonald's. I am not a fan of fast food, but once here and there, works fine for me.
"What do you want?"
"Cheeseburger and fries." I tell him and he nods.
"Coke?" I nod. He walks over to the cashier and I walk over to find a table. I sit down at an empty table, taking off my jacket and scarf, and wait for Four to come. After a few minutes, he comes over to me with two of everything. I smile.
"Thanks." I say with a smile.
"Your welcome." He replies.
"So, how was work?" I ask, wanting to start a conversation.
"It was good. Not that busy, which is nice." He replies and I nod. "What about you?"
"It was good as well, though I am really tired."
"When did you start today?"
"At one. "I reply and he nods. We continue to eat in silence before his phones rings.
"I need to take this." He says and I nod. He picks up the phone and answers. "Hello… yes… no, I am out eating with Tris…I told you this… are you serious…. I'll be there soon… you promised… I know… yes… okay… see you soon… fine… yes… bye."
"Is everything okay?" I ask and he nods, which is weird since he seems a little bit upset.
"Everything is fine." He replies after putting his phone down.
"You sure?" I ask, knowing he is not telling me the truth.
"It was just my mom." His mom? His mom knows about me? Should that make me happy or nervous that his mother knows about me? I can't believe he told his mother about me, that should mean something, right? Urgh, it's probably nothing.
"Okay." I say eating the last piece of my burger. He seems to have an inside battle with himself, so I let him be.
"You know what, f*ck this, I am taking you to my place." He says and I raise an eyebrow at him, a little shock at his outburst.
"What?" I ask and he shakes his head. "I thought you didn't want me to come to your place."
"I do and I will if you still want to."
"Four, what's going on?" I ask, not really sure what to do. I really want to go to his place, but something seems off. I take a sip of my drink while he speaks.
"My mom, she is at my place." He replies and I stop drinking. I put my coke down and look at him.
"And you are sitting here eating with me right now? Shouldn't you like be home with her then?"
"No, she told me she was coming over after I told you I was picking you up."
"Well, you could've just told me that your mother came and can't come and pick me up anyway."
"Nope, not happening. Pluss like you said, it's the only time we get to spend alone together." He replies and I smile.
"You didn't have to."
"Do you want to come and meet my mother?" He asks, totally avoiding my answer.
"Are you sure?"
"It's the only chance I get to spend more time with you today." He replies and I smile. "I can totally drive you home later tonight if that's what you are worried about."
"No, it's not that. It's just that, I don't know. It's your mother – "
"Exactly, it's not that big of a deal. It's just my mother." He says, cutting me. He is right, it's not a big deal, it's not like we are dating. We are just friends. "She is nice. I promise."
"Okay." I reply with a nod and he smiles. He grabs my hand, which is lying on the table and squeezes it.
"Are you done?" He asks and I nod. I'll just take my coke with me, he does the same as well. "Let's go then."
Four goes and takes away our plates, while I stand up and put my jacket and scarf on. I take my coke in my hand and Four takes his, and together we walk toward the exit. He grabs my hand when we come outside and I smile. I like holding his hand. His fits perfectly in mine. We continue walking the short distance to his place in silence with my hand in his. When we walk upstairs to his apartment, that's when I start to feel my heart beating a little faster than it should. This means nothing. I know. He lets go of my hand when we reach his door and takes his keys out and unlocks the door.
He looks at me and asks, "ready?"
"Yes." I tell him and he opens the door with his left hand and grabs my hand with his right. We walk into his apartment and see something I thought I wouldn't see at his place.
A/N
Hey, people! How's everybody doin'? I am not sure what you guys will say about what I just did or am going to do. Please let me know what you thought, though because I am not sure I am that happy with this chapter. Anyway, please review, follow and favorite and I'll see you guys hopefully on Saturday.
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