Voices In My Head
Chapter 3
Saeran awkwardly walked into the house, his brothers gaze followed him all the way to the couch. He sat down and watched as Saeyoung sat in his usual spot at his computers. Saeyoung ran his fingers through his hair and stared at the floor. "You had every reason to yell at me today." He said softly while looking up at Saeran. Saeyoung's legs started bouncing, cluing Saeran in that he didn't want to talk, but was forcing himself to. "I have been watching you closely just because of two months ago. I don't want you to die!" Saeyoung told his brother, his voice was thick with emotion and his eyes were filled with tears that threatened to spill. Saeran was silent, he wasn't sure how to respond to his brother. Saeyoung let out a frustrated groan and slammed his hand down on his desk. "Say something damnit! You can't just yell at me then leave! That's not how this shit works!" Saeyoung yelled, standing up so quickly that his chair got pushed across the room.
Saeran stood up and balled his hands into fists. "What do you know about how this shit is supposed to work?! You abandoned me for years, while you had a life of fucking luxury!" Saeran yelled back at his twin. Saeyoung glared at him, Saeran didn't care. They had to confront each other, now wasn't the best time to do so but, it had to happen. "I told you, Saeran, that I didn't abandon you! I was going to come back! I just needed time! I thought that V and Rika were taking care of you, not teaching you how to hack like me!" The redhead couldn't control his anger. "Well if I had never learned how to hack, you never would have found me! You don't know the shit I went through at home!" Saeran shot back. If this wasn't solved soon, one of them would end up getting hurt. Saeyoung was taken aback before he pointed his finger at his twin. "You tried to kill someone. You should be happy that I found you and took you away from that shithole called Mint Eye!" Saeran knew what his brother was trying to do, he was trying to make him feel guilty for everything that he's done in his life. Saeran already felt guilty for everything, he just learned to deal with the guilt instead of letting it consume him. Saeyoung was fuming, if he got any angrier, he would probably have steam shooting out of his ears. "You didn't take me away; your rich businessman friend took me away. All you did was freeze up and get shot because of me. Oh, you also entered me into a hospital and tried to make up for years of abandonment. I don't have to be happy because of you 'Seven'." Saeran made air quotation marks at Saeyoung's other name. Saeyoung glared at Saeran, but he didn't care. This argument was just Saeyoung's way of trying to get Saeran to feel like he owes his brother his life; like he's indebted to him. Since Saeyoung hadn't found words to counter Saeran, the white-haired boy pulled out his phone and started to dial MC's phone number. "I have a call to make, don't stalk me while I'm outside." Saeran said while walking out of the house.
He heard yelling and crashing from inside. His brother had gone overboard with yelling at Saeran. The pain of him yelling didn't hit until he was about to call her. Saeran took a shaky breath and rubbed the back of his neck. He didn't want to yell at Saeyoung, but today was so fucked that he just snapped. Maybe I should apologize? Saeran thought before dismissing the idea, he didn't start it which meant that he didn't have to finish it. Saeran was about to call MC before the door opened behind him. Saeyoung stood behind his brother, his eyes were red again.
"Get out." Was all Saeyoung said. In that moment, Saeran felt scared. His brother was kicking him out of his house. "W-what?" Saeran stuttered while turning to look at him. "I said get out! It's fucking painful for you to be here! So just get your shit and get out!" Saeyoung yelled so loudly that his neighbor's lights turned on. Saeran was shocked, he didn't think it would come to this. "Fine. Whatever you say." Saeran muttered while walking inside to back a bag. He went into his, now old, bedroom and threw his clothes and phone charger into a duffle bag. He grabbed the book that Rika taught him to hack from and his contact case. His choker and bracelet got thrown into the bag as well. Saeran pulled out his phone and called MC.
After three rings, she picked up. "Hey… What's up?" She said groggily. "Can I come over to the apartment? We had a fight and I got kicked out." Saeran sighed as he threw the bag over his shoulder and left the house. Saeran didn't turn back as he walked out to the road. "Yeah… I'll text you the address, I don't feel like driving to pick you up. Just tell the security guard in the lobby that you are there to see me." The girl yawned. "Got it. See you when I get there." Saeran said before hanging up. He knew the way to the apartment already, since he spent a good two weeks staking it out when he was in Mint Eye.
About half an hour later, Saeran arrived at the building. He walked in and went to the front desk. "Uh… What are you doing here?" The lady at the desk asked. "Hello, I'm here to see Miss MC…She told me to check in with someone here in the lobby, I'm guessing that's you." Saeran said as politely as he could. The lady nodded slightly and typed something into her computer. "She should be waiting by her door…" The lady couldn't look Saeran in the eye. He nodded and went towards the stair well. "Uh… What floor is she on?" Saeran asked. The lady made a number three with her fingers and went back to her computer. Saeran entered the stairwell and started climbing up to floor three.
Once he reached it, he exited the area. Saeran looked around for MC for a second before walking to the apartment door. He knocked and heard a quiet voice call for him to come in. Saeran opened the door and placed his bag on the floor. "Hey Saeran! I'm in the kitchen, do you want something?" He heard MC call out. "Yeah do you have coffee?" He asked her while walking to the kitchen. Saeran saw her nod as he sat at the breakfast bar. He watched her small form stretch up to reach the coffee beans. "Do you need help?" He asked while yawning.
MC shook her head and started to make coffee for the both of them. Saeran yawned again and slumped in the chair. "Haven't been getting much sleep?" MC asked while grabbing sugar. "Yeah. Nightmares always wake me up around four in the morning." He explained while rubbing his eyes. MC finished making their coffee and sat next to him. Saeran took a sip of the warm beverage, the liquid burning its way down his throat woke him up slightly. "Until I clean out the other bedroom I hope you don't mind crashing on the couch." MC told him after taking a few drinks. "Yeah that's no problem. I can help clean it while you work tomorrow, if you'd like me to." Saeran offered while staring at his drink. She nodded and stood up, going towards a closet in the hallway. Blankets were tossed in his direction, along with a couple pillows. "Thanks." He muttered while picking up the bedding and tossing it onto her couch. "I hate to leave you alone but I need to go help Yoosung with something for school early tomorrow morning. I'll wake you up before I leave." MC said while walking back to her bedroom. "Sweet dreams MC." Saeran said, attempting to sound cheerful. He heard her laugh and close her door.
Saeran went to the bathroom and changed into his pajamas, a loose shirt with sweatpants, and took out his contacts. His naturally golden eyes reminded him of his brother, that's why he only took the contacts out at night; when he remembered of course. He left the bathroom and made his bed on the couch. He hadn't been in this apartment since he broke in, what seems like forever ago now. Saeran finished making the couch bed, then went to grab his coffee. He silently walked out of the front door and leaned against the railing.
Why don't you just jump? Your brother doesn't love you anymore. That girl only wants to hurt you.
His mother's voice seeped like poison into his head. She was right, Saeyoung didn't love him, it seems like he never did. She was wrong about MC though, they were friends, she helped him today. MC wouldn't hurt him… right? Saeran sighed and downed the last of the coffee. He went back inside the apartment and locked the door behind him.
After washing his cup out, he laid down on the couch and stared at the ceiling. Did Saeyoung not want him around anymore? Would MC really hurt him? What would things be like if Mint Eye was still around? Questions flew by in Saeran's mind like flies, they were annoying and wouldn't go away. Saeran groaned and buried his face in the pillow. Minutes turned into hours, eventually Saeran fell asleep, the nightmares were nowhere to be found that night.