Bliss.
Not even that word can sum up how I feel right now, at this moment. I wish I could save this moment forever, just looking at Tyler's beautiful, battered and bloody body and knowing his deep blue eyes are scrutinizing my deep wounds. But I can't.
"holy shit….c'mon don't give up. I'm getting you to a hospital. Just remember, don't let you let go, don't you DARE let go."
You told me to let go, remember, Tyler? I'm just being an obedient little monkey.
He crawls over and lies down next to me, and suddenly the pain washes over me. It's almost a welcoming feeling though, because that pain blocks the heartache I knew I would feel again. I let out a soft groan.
"It's beautiful isn't it? Look at that sky. Those stars. They remind me of your eyes."
Don't be silly, Tyler. I'm not beautiful. You are.
"Listen to that fire burn. We have accomplished something great tonight."
And what would that be, exactly?
His eyes shine as he speaks. "We have achieved Nirvana through pain and letting go. One of life's most important lessons."
Okay, Tyler. Okay.
"do you feel that high? It's your adrenaline rushing. It's what I would call bliss. How I feel when…" he trails off.
I only feel bliss when Tyler kisses me.
"Is that so?" he says, smirking. The little corners of his mouth turn up as he turns to face me slowly.
don't. no.
"no?" he asks in a hurt tone.
no. don't tease me. Don't hurt me.
"but I'd never do anything to hurt you…." And he leans in to softly brush his rough lips against mine. It's everything I wanted and more.
I need you, Tyler.
"Hey man, I need you too."
But our argument, you kinda sorta…
He shushes me. "Not now. Let's enjoy this while we can…till someone ruins it. Someone always ruins it. Don't be that someone."
Okay, Tyler. Okay.