"...Kagome...Did this really happen to you?" Sango said holding back tears. I didn't know how to answer her so i just nodded. I looked down at my shoes, the scene kept replaying in my head. It bothered me to this day. I realize now that what that demon said was true they're going to know everything about me now.

They saw how the kids in the adoption home treated me, how the kids at school treated me as well. If they see everything else they'll never look at me the same they'll think i'm nothing more than a killer and a useless person just like everyone else did. These are my memories they'll be able to hear my thoughts, theyll know how much i hated myself at this point in my life and how i wished i died with them

"Hey Kagome" I looked up at the sound of Miroku's voice, "you'll make it through this, I'm sorry you have to relive this you probably did enough in your sleep and days when you were younger but it made you a stronger person. We'll still be here for you, that won't change." I smiled and whispered a small thanks to him. Inuyasha just walked closer to me and placed his hand on my shoulder a small gesture that meant as much as his words could've.

"Why didn't you ever tell us about your family?"

"I didn't really know how to bring it up Sango, you guys all figured I wasn't an orphan like all of you are and I guess part of me was always scared of what you'd all think. I didn't help them i didn't do anything but sit in the closet scared. My sister was brave enough to at least walk out there even if she still died… I wasn't"

Inuyasha finally speaking up, "That doesn't make you weak, you knew there was no way you'd live if you walked out there with them. So what difference does it make if you went or not? They'd still be dead and you'd be dead too. You couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 what were you supposed to do?"

"I was 5… but I've always felt like there was something, anything I could have done."

"There wasn't and there's nothing wrong with that"

"Inuyasha... I wanted to do something and even after that day I thought I should've died with them. I went on being called a murderer and a killer. I constantly had to deal with being told I killed them and it was all my fault. That I should've died with them and I believed it. I knew I was going to be called names and talked about. It got up the point where I just wanted to die, everything in me wanted to die. I dreamed of it I longed for the chance to die." I started crying as I was saying this

Sango put her arms around me, "Kagome, I'm glad you didn't die. I'm so glad you're here. If you weren't we wouldn't have met. We wouldn't be traveling together and we wouldn't be friends. You're my sister, I would hate to lose you"

A man talking behind us alerted us to the next memory…

"Your name's Kagome right? I'm Isamu. I'm going to take you home is that OK?"

I shook my head. I didn't want to go. I didn't want another family I wanted mine.

"She doesn't really talk much. I'll leave you to get to know each other while I get the paperwork" one of the caregivers said as she walked away.

He grabbed my hand and asked if I wanted to go with him to meet his kids. He said he had 1 girl and 1 boy. I still shook my head and sat back down on my bed. I even kidding led off my shoes to show that I didn't want to go. He stepped closer and grabbed my arm. He was hurting me so I tried pulling my arm away. He gripped it tighter and pulled me towards him as if hugging me over his shoulder I saw the caregiver walk back in and put down the paperwork telling him to bring it up front before we leave. He said OK and she left.

Pulling back a little to my ear he whispered, "Look bitch I didn't come all this way for you to not want to come. Now get your shit and walk out or I'll yank you out kicking and screaming… oh yeah you don't talk. Don't worry we'll change that" He let me go still smiling and went to finish the paperwork.

I was scared so I packed the little clothes I had and put my shoes back on. When he was done he grabbed my hand and pulled me down the hall to the door. I tried getting the caregivers attention but they were happy to see me leave. They didn't want my bad luck near any longer. The other kids were scared to be around me so it didn't matter to them whether or not I was around. I had no choice but to go with this man.

We walked to his car and he put me in the back seat of the passenger side. As he walked around to the drivers side I watched him. He looked mean but the same age as mommy and daddy be looks like he drinks like daddy does too. He got in, cut on the car and we left. I watched the adoption home disappear and wished I was still there. I could feel that this wouldn't be a good man to be with.

After what felt like eternity, which is only an hour, we got to his house. It was huge looked like a mansion but I could feel that it was a bad place. I unbuckled my seatbelt but before I could get out he locked the doors and turned toward me.

"I'm sorry I got upset at the home, I just really wanted you to come with me. Forgive me?" I looked at him for a few before nodding he continued, "good, now before we go in I have some rules. You will speak in my house, I don't care how traumatized you are from seeing your family dead, I don't listen to head nods. Second, everyone here has a job, yours is to clean and yes I know you're only 5 and can't do much but I have a list of what you will do everyday. Third, you will address me as sir not Isamu or anything else. If I hear anything else come out of your mouth I will smack you in it. Forth, I don't take no for an answer if I ask you to do something you do it no questions asked. And lastly, if you so happen to disobey any of my rules I will not hesitate to punish you however I see fit. Now get out my car"

I scrambled for the door handle and got out almost falling. He came around in front of me and snatched my bag from me looking through it. Frowning he walked to a garbage can and threw it away. I'm glad I had my necklace my mother gave me in my pocket and not in my bag. I looked at him confused and he simply walked away going to the door of the house. I followed not knowing what else to do.

When we got to the door he looked down at me and asked, "Do you understand my rules Kagome?" Not thinking I nodded and he sighed dropping his hand from the door frame he swung it back hitting me in my face.

I took a few steps back looking at him with wide frightened eyes. He laughed and said, "I told you I don't listen to head nods. Now do you understand my rules?"

For the first time since my family died I opened my mouth to say, "Y-yes I understand" it's been so long since I last talked I didn't even recognize my own voice.

He said good and opened the door pulling me inside behind him. Walking in 2 kids stood up from the table quickly facing the door with smiles. I could see the fear in the girl's eyes. He introduced me to them but he didn't tell me names he just said they were his son and daughter. He then pulled me back further into the house to a small room with only a bed and one sheet and a small blanket. He told me that would be my room and pushed me inside closing the door.

It was late so I kicked off my shoes and climbed into the bed. While laying their my stomach started growling reminding me I haven't ate since breakfast but I didn't like Isamu so I felt it was better to just not eat tonight. I curled up under my covers and forced myself to sleep.