A/N I do apologize for my lack of posting a lot of stuff has been going on. My boyfriend or now ex moved out and i've been trying to pick up shifts at work to cover the rent. And school has been kicking my ass. My cousins wedding is coming up and we've been practicing for that. All in all i forgot about this story until i was going though my docs looking for some notes from last semester. I promise when i start getting my life under control i will post more frequently. This chapter has been saved on my computer since the last time i posted and i didn't really read it over to well so again i apologize for any mistakes

But enough of my excuses! Please R & R let me know what you think and if i should even keep this story going.

Now on with the story

Tomorrow is my 9th birthday… I hate birthdays in this house. You get more chores than usual and punishments are harder. I should know, after 4 years i've had plenty of them. Oh i remember when i tried to run away on my birthday last year that was the worse punishment i think i've ever had. I had to be in the hospital for a week. Isamu told cps and the doctors i had been jumped after school and i had to go along with the story. I had 3 broken ribs, a concussion and my arm was fractured. But being away from him for a week was the best thing ever it felt so nice to be in a warm bed and properly fed.

I still hate school, nothing there ever gets better i'm still the murderer to them and they still push me around every chance they get. I still don't really talk outside of the house because i'm scared i'll get in trouble because Akio and Miya, Isamu's kids, still have to tell him everything i do. Although now its mostly Miya since Akio is in a different school now that he's in 6th grade.

I'm laying in bed staring at the ceiling just thinking about how things are gonna be tomorrow i get bullied worse on my birthday… They say "The murderer can celebrate her birthday but her family can't" i hate when they say that because i don't even like celebrating my birthday the school sings happy birthday to the kids whenever it's someone's birthday. I don't even look up when they're singing because i know the stares I'm gonna get. And i can still hear when they whisper in between words, "how is she gonna celebrate her birthday when her family can't be here to celebrate with her". It's not like i want to celebrate it… a week after my birthday is the anniversary of their deaths, I never wanted to celebrate my birthday after they died but what choice do i have in the matter i'm a kid and apparently i have no say in anything anymore

I roll onto my side and force myself to go to sleep. "Happy birthday" I say to myself.

The next morning, I'm rudely awakened by Isamu throwing my door open and yelling at me to get up and make some food. Miya and I have been cooking together for the last 2 years. I had to learn after Miya had a bad grade on a test and he beat her so bad she couldn't get out of bed for a few days. At least it was the weekend and she didn't miss any school. Ever so slowly i drag myself out of the bed and force myself to wake up before he comes back in my room. I don't need a repeat of that. When he has to tell us stuff twice it never turns out good. I throw on some simple clothes so I don't attract too much attention.

Dragging my half sleep self into the kitchen i see Akio doing his homework at the table. I never finished mine yesterday but i rarely do. I'm not really a star student. I quickly grab a pan and some cooking spray so nothing sticks because i'll get beat for that too. But this isn't surprising anymore so there's no point in complaining still but whatever. I get the egg out crack a few and do all the makings for scrambled eggs. I throw some bread in the toaster and get another pan for sausage. I haven't seen Isamu or Miya since i came down and like usual Akio doesn't say anything to me. Honestly i don't think he's ever talked to me. But i digress it really doesn't matter to me either way.

When breakfast is almost done i find Isamu and let him know so his 'food isn't cold' Because he's an ass that can't just warm it up and instead has to beat my ass about it. He comes into the kitchen yelling something about it better not be burned or whatever but like usual i block him out because i don't have time to listen to him. I make his plate and place it in front of him with a cup of coffee and get Akio and Miya a bowl of cereal but i don't put milk in Miya's because who likes soggy cereal?

I go to find her, she's in her room crying on the floor and by this time i know why. Why he needs to do it to her before she goes to school i will never understand. Honestly i'll never understand how he can rape his daughter anyway or anyone for that matter.

I remember last school year i had to write a report on family history and they said i could do Isamu's family or i could do my own and at first i was going to do Isamu's simply because i didn't want to see the newspaper articles on my family but one search of his last name pulled up a bunch of different articles about him being accused of rape and molestation and his kids being a product of raping women and them giving up the kids to him but he was never charged officially with anything because all the women backed off their claims after a few weeks or months.

I go up to Miya and without saying a word i just hug her and she cries into my shoulder. I rub her back and shoosh her so Isamu doesn't hear. Then when she calms down a bit i get up and go to the bathroom getting her a hot towel and helping her clean up a bit before giving her the towel so she can get the more private parts herself. I pick her out some clean clothes and help her get dressed using the makeup he bought her to cover up her bruises. I have some too but i never use it because i want them to ask me what happened so i can tell them all about what he does to us but since everyone hates me no one ever asks. I help her up and pull her into another hug before brushing back her hair and putting it up for her.

"Kagome! Miya! Either come eat or starve at school! The bus comes in 10 mins!" I grab her bag and hold her hand walking down to the kitchen. Even though we don't talk much we have grown pretty close. We have a mutual understanding that he can't know we're friends so as we get closer to the kitchen we let go and just walk side by side i put her bag outside the doorway and she sits down at the table the opposite end from where Isamu is sitting. I get the milk for her cereal and pour my own we eat in silence until Akio gets up to catch his bus. I get up soon after and rinse out the dishes while being told i need to do them later as if i don't already know that. Accidently i roll my eyes while walking past him and of course get a quick smack to the face for being disrespectful. It really didn't even hurt considering how many i've gotten over the years. Our bus pulls up right as i'm pulling on my shoes. Miya and i rush out to get away from him yelling out chores and get on the bus to school.

Right away i can tell what kind of day this will be. Miya makes her way to the back to our regular seat and i'm following quickly behind when a foot jumps out and trips me while someone else trips me to make sure i fall. I grab my bag and rush to the back the bus driver giving dirty looks to me and the other kids. The kids that pushed me turn around after we start moving and yell that was part of your present be a grateful birthday girl as the whole bus laughs

Oh don't you just love birthdays