SSJ Mirai Gohan: Thanks for the compliment! I didn't actually enjoy how the story went, but your comment cheered me up, a little.
Cloy552: Ahaha yes! Oh and that fanfiction! I didn't really like that ending too! Then again, I didn't really enjoy much of the Angst or Hurt/Comfort Ansatsu Kyoushitsu fanfics...
catturner7007: YEASH! At least no one wrote about that idea yet! And thanks for the compliment!
Autistic-Grizzly: Yes seriously, surgery. I was debating whether I should let Nagisa go through it... but I am too soft hearted for him to go through that... soooo... I also know a really deep dark hole Hiromi can fit in. A toilet bowl! It is the perfect size for her head to fit in!
Danny Joey Ketail: Yay! I made a good decision allowing Bitch-sensei to adopt him then!
me: Stop what?
Guest: I am not a student studying law so I wouldn't know. But I do know that in my country, she can't press charges against Karasuma because he "has the authority to", as he is a ministy worker. As far as she knows, Karasuma is a teacher. But if she ever does try to file a complain to the ministry, they will take Karasuma's side instead.
Writer and Reader D: I really don't believe that you have not cried in 2 or 3 years... but thanks for the compliment?
SakuraFlamezz: It is not that good... I am grateful to read the "update more than most authors" part though, thank you! Yes I do update every week. One week for a Kuroko no Basuke fanfic and another for an Ansatsu Kyoushitsu fanfic, but they aren't really long chapters so I guess the fast updates makes up for it?
Juh2002: Don't worry, we'll kill her together~ And I don't mind your english, I guess being in a country that has a poor level of English does that to me...
Guest: Yes Bitch-sensei and Karasuma as the parents, but Koro-sensei will have a different role...
BlackPhoenixRose: OMG YES I CAN IMAGINE THAT! XD I can imagine Bitch-sensei having twins, one that looks like Karasuma but with her personality, and the other with her looks but Karasuma's serious-ness!
robinsonh99: Well, I am not exactly following the storyline... In this version, Nagisa's father most likely walked away from his life and never looked for him again. Hiromi is after all a real b****. And I am not so sure about the Karma x Nagisa one... I don't think I will. I did say that I am going to write a non-yaoi fic for once... But fear not! When I finish this fic (which will be goodness know when, I did not actually plan the chapters even though I do have a rough storyline out), I will be writing Karma x Nagisa fanfictions. I do have any ideas for one yet, but I will definitely write more! I am trying to brainstorm for oneshots though, so if I ever update, do look out for those!
Hey guys! This is BlueSkyBlue again with another chapter of Crystal Tears! Before I start with anything, I would like to thank you guys for supporting this fanfic! I was certainly surprised to find 110 followers and 86 favourites for this fic! I honestly never thought that it would be possible but thank you!
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ASSASSINATION CLASSROOM IN ANY WAY POSSIBLE.
WARNING: A BIT OF UNSUITABLE LANGUAGE UP AHEAD! READ WITH CAUTION!
Chapter 6: Thoughts
Run. That was the first thing that jumped into Shiota Nagisa's mind when he woke up to find himself standing in a dark room. However, no matter how much he wanted to, how much he struggled to, he stayed uprooted in that spot, unable to move.
"You are mommy's obedient little girl, aren't you?" He heard a coo, as a familiar figure of his mother materialized in front of him.
A young boy around the age of seven followed after, his innocent face twisted into an ugly scowl. "I can't believe I fell for a-a cross dresser! You... faggot!"
Then a red headed boy his age materialized after that. Orange-yellowish eyes glared at him as viscous words formed. "Backstabber! We won't listen to you just because you kicked that asshole Takaoka twice!"
Slowly, figured appeared around him, screaming, yelling and hurling at him.
"Useless."
"B*tch."
"Daughters should be obedient! Why aren't you?"
"Slut."
It was too much. The voices only grew louder when he tried to shut them out. It hurt. And finally, he cracked. It was too hard to bear, so... he snapped.
"Nagisa? Nagisa! Snap out of it!"
He screamed, trying to resist the pair of arms trying to hold him down as he flailed around.
"Nagisa, please! We are trying to help!"
He barely registered what the voice was telling him. Everything about him hurt. He bit his bottom lip in an attempt to stop himself from screaming out hysterics, drawing blood, making him hiss in pain. He barely even heard the sound of a door creaking open as a yellow octopus entered the room.
"Octopus, I would greatly appreciate it if you help out, not stand there and do nothing!" A familiar voice of a female snarled.
"H-Hai~!"
The taste of copper filled his mouth as blood started to gradually build up in his mouth. He tried to spit it out but a slimy tentacle was blocking his mouth. He resorted to swallowing the blood, grimacing as the thick liquid slid down his throat.
"Nagisa, please stop this! You are safe here with us!"
The pain was too hard to bear. His eyes clenched shut as he let out an animalistic howl.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!.!.!"
"Nagisa, please calm down! I beg of you, just calm down!"
He continued to howl, wanting to be released of this unbearable pain he was feeling in his heart, all over his body.
The tentacles who were gripping him let themselves go as he continued to to howl.
"What the hell do you think you are doing, octopus?"
Tentacles slowly began to envelop him as he howled. Then all of the sudden, he stopped howling, feeling somehow peaceful with the tentacles around him.
A voice whispered to him in his mind. "What do you want?"
Love. Acceptance. Acknowledgement.
"We can give that to you, now open your eyes."
Hesitantly, he opened his eyes, to be greeted by the sight of three familiar figures. Bitch-sensei, Karasuma-sensei, and Koro-sensei. He stared at them with impassive teal blue eyes, uncertain as to what was going on.
The three teachers, on the other hand, let out a sigh of relief. They had spent far too long trying to calm their student down.
Bitch-sensei sat herself down in front of Nagisa and looked into his eyes, trying her best not to roll her eyes as she did so. Seriously, Irina Jelavic trying to look after a kid? She is still single for goodness sake! Not to mention her attitude...
"Nagisa, please understand that nothing here is going to hurt you in any way. We are here to help, let us." she said in a soft tone, a trait unfamiliar of her normal attitude.
He nodded mutely, partly because he didn't know what to say, and partly because his mouth is too dry for him to say anything.
As if he knew of his problem, Karasuma-sensei pressed a glass of water into his hand, urging him to drink it. He nodded again and tilted his head back to allow the clear liquid to slide down his throat.
"Now, your classmates have already walked us through what happened a few weeks ago," Bitch-sensei began.
"And just so you know, I am thoroughly disappointed with them," Koro-sensei interjected.
The blonde teacher glared at him, before continuing on her sentence. "I understand that you are going through a lot of trauma right now, but can you at least tell us why you actively fought against the majority vote to assassinate the octopus?"
"Nyuya~! I have a name you know, call me by my NAME!"
Bitch-sensei chortled at the exclaimation. "I won't."
She turned back to him, looking at him expectantly, waiting for the answer to her question.
He swallowed the water in his mouth, which no longer felt dry anymore. "..."
Bitch-sensei cupped his face and tilted it up to meet her eyes. "Please," she asked, in a gentle voice, leading one to think that she is talking to an injured and afraid animal. Someone who never met her before would think that she is merely doing her duty as a teacher, but to others who know her well, they know that this action is not a familiar one to her.
His pale pink lips trembled at her voice. "I-I..."
"Go on," she urged.
Once again, he swallowed as he stared into his teacher's eyes, which he noted, were the same teal blue color as his. Odd that he had never noticed that before...
"I... don't want... him to die..." he managed to say, though it was not a complete answer.
"Why?" Bitch-sensei sensei pressed him, wanting to know more.
Red started to creep up his cheeks as embarrassment flowed through him. He tried to looked away but Bitch-sensei's hold on his face stopped him from doing so.
A movement behind the blonde distracted him as Karasuma-sensei inched closer to the two. Concern was written over the normally stoic PE teacher's face.
"Nagisa... We know that it would be hard for you..." He hesitated. "But understand that we are here to help."
He wished he can voice out his thoughts, but he just can't. The words just cannot form.
He is the father I wish I had.
Koro-sensei was one of the first adults that had probably gave him a word of praise, that felt proud of his achievements. The octopus was probably the only one who gave him his most comforting hug. Yes, his mother had hugged him plenty times, but they always lacked the warmth that Koro-sensei offered him.
Having grown up with no father figure, he always envious of the other kids who bragged to their classmates about how awesome their father's are. Every Father's Day celebration his schools celebrated, he always had that feeling of jealousy towards his classmates who never appreciated the fact that their fathers were around.
He had never known anything about his father. He never even known his father's name. His name, Shiota, was his mother's maiden name, as she had custody of him after she divorced with her husband. He had never known why his father left. Though he deduced it was because of her bizzare behaviour.
He is the one that I had ever looked up to whenever in need.
He just can't find the guts to tell them this. Somehow, it has become a secret he is unwilling to tell anyone. Just thinking about it made tears well up in his eyes.
And to the three teachers surprise, the teal headed boy hugged his knees as he began to sob. Bitch-sensei let go of his face in shock as he buried it in between his knees, letting his tears roll down like a stream.
I've been looking in the mirror for so long
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side
All the little pieces falling, shatter...
Shards of me,
Too sharp to put back together...
Too small to matter
But big enough to cut me
Into so many little pieces
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed, I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe no more
Take a breath and I try to draw from
My spirit's well
Yet again you refuse to drink like
A stubborn child
Lie to me,
Convinces me that I've been sick forever
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better
But I know the difference
Between myself and my reflection
I just can't help but wonder,
Which of us do you love?
So I bleed, I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe,
No,
Bleed, I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe
I Breathe No More..
(-Evanescense-Breathe No More)
Bitch-sensei's eyes softened and she gave the child an embrace, trying her best to give him the comfort that he probably never experienced under the hands of Shiota Hiromi. She swore right there and then, never to mistreat this child that is no under her care. Nothing will stop her, she will make sure of that.
And that's it! The end of this chapter! And yes, Breathe No More is the most commonly used song but angsty stories, but I really like Evanescence's works, no matter how dark and depressing they are. I do not own the song, so please don't sue me! So once again, thank you guys for all the support! I honestly never thought this fic will ever get this much favourites and followers, and I am extremely grateful for it! Thank you so much! And till then, have a good time and I will be updating the week after next, ja~!
Yours,
BlueSkyBlue,
a.k.a. Otonashi Hayuka