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Raven ran to the first place she thought of. Clarke's. She doesn't stop to think about the fact the Lexa is still over when she bursts through the front door.

Clarke is currently straddling Lexa on the couch, they are both very into their current make out session; hands are wandering, that is until the front door flies open, and someone strides in. Clarke leaps from Lexa's lap; Lexa's main thought is why does Mrs Griffin pick the worst times to come home. Clarke must be having similar thoughts, which is why they're both shocked to see Raven staring back at them.

Raven just stands taking in the sight before her, blown pupils, mussed hair, swollen lips. Why is it so god damn easy for these two, but in her it causes an emotional breakdown, she shakes her head and without saying a word she rushes through into Clarke's kitchen, and begins to pace, hoping that her best friend will follow her.

Lexa looks at Clarke. The blond knows her best friend, she knows Raven is upset and she needs to deal. Lexa can see the regret on Clarke's face and smiles. The brunette understands immediately, she nods her head towards the kitchen. "Go, tend to your best friend. I'll call you later to make sure she's okay."

Clarke beams. Literally perfect. She leans forwards and places a sweet kiss onto her girl's lips. Lexa stands and starts to head towards the front door. She stopped by Clarke's voice. "Send Octavia please."

Lexa just nods before exiting. Clarke takes a deep breath, she knows Raven isn't prone to emotional outbursts, but her best friend definitely looked on the verge of tears when she stampeded through her living room. Here goes nothing she supposes.

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Lexa heads back home and decides to summon Octavia prior to finding Anya, she assumes Raven's current mood is down to her older sister, and she can't imagine her sibling is going to be in a very good mood right now.

However, she decides to focus on the task at hand, which could be equally torrid. She knows that Octavia is in Lincoln's room, and she knows she needs to disturb them from whatever it is they're doing. She's been standing outside her brother's bedroom door for at least 30 seconds just looking at it, she hasn't heard anything untoward, so she decides to bite the bullet and knock.

Octavia's squeal is immediate; her new friend must assume that it's her Mum or Dad, because the bedroom door swings open a millisecond later. Octavia obviously keen to prove that she and Lincoln weren't up to anything too damning. Although the fact that Lincoln is currently frantically trying to put his shirt back on, suggests otherwise.

He stops immediately when he sees who's at the door. "Oh Lex, it's only you"

Lexa gives them both a sheepish smile. Octavia takes a breath and calms herself down at the sight of her teammate. Delighted that she and Lincoln haven't been caught out by Mr or Mrs Woods.

It's been an abnormal amount of time since anyone spoke. All a little too flustered and embarrassed. Lincoln breaks the tension. "What can we do for you sis?"

Lexa's face stays stoic, she glances at Octavia. "Clarke asked me to send you over. Raven, she looked pretty upset."

Octavia springs into action immediately, she throws her shoes back on and plants a kiss on Lincoln's cheek, smiling at Lexa before she makes her exit, leaving the brother and sister alone.

Lincoln looks confused. "What was Raven upset about?"

Lexa shrugs. "No idea, but Anya must be involved."

Lincoln frowns. Lexa gets the sentiment entirely. "Want to go and face the beast?" Lexa tries to lighten the mood.

It works a little. "I guess it's better to get it out of the way."

Lincoln moves past his sister, and they both head down the stairs; not particularly looking forward to what kind of attitude their oldest sister might be displaying when they get down there.

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Lexa and Lincoln stalk their back door, knowing that Anya is on the other side, both apprehensive about approaching their older sister. Lexa sighs, they may as well get this over with; she opens the door and strides through, Lincoln although surprised, follows quickly after his younger sister.

Anya is still sitting at the table, just staring out over the back garden. She looks up at the commotion, and see's both of her younger siblings, eyes wide, both trying their best to convey a 'look at us were so understanding' expression. Urgh.

She should have known Raven would have bolted to Clarke's, alerting Lexa to the drama, who in turn she supposes alerted Octavia, and in doing so Lincoln. She needs to process, she absolutely cannot cope with talking this out right now.

She's looks up again at her brother and sister, both still attempting to formulate a sentence. She doesn't give them a chance. She jumps up.

"I'm going for a drive."

She ignores Lexa shouting after her and slams the front door behind her. Lexa looks at Lincoln who just shrugs. As Lexa had previously predicted when speaking to Clarke, looks like they will have to wait for Raven to spill before they will actually know what's happened. She just hopes her sister is okay.

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Octavia had joined Clarke sitting at her kitchen table, and both have been watching Raven pacing for the last 20 minutes. Their best friend hasn't actually spoken as yet; so, they are none the wiser as to what has actually happened.

Octavia tries to encourage raven. "Erm Rae, clearly everything's not okay? But we can't actually help unless you talk to us?"

Raven pauses and contemplates speaking. She loses her nerve. Clarke tries to assist her. "Is it about the car?"

Raven sighs and drops into a chair opposite her two best friends. She glances up at Clarke as she has obviously just posed the question. But Raven has a completely unrelated one of her own. "How did you know you were into girls?"

The question takes Clarke by surprise in the moment, but given her previous thoughts about Raven and Anya, she's not all that taken aback at the subject. Clarke and Octavia share a knowing glance, and the blond clears her throat, to get over her initial shock, and attempts to give Raven an answer.

"I know this is a really shitty answer Rae, but I kind of just knew." She shrugs. "I just found girls attractive I guess around the same time I found guys attractive."

"So, you always knew?" Raven is interested by this point, Clarke just nods to show her answer is yes. Clearly this is not the response Raven was looking for, another almighty sigh from the brunette.

"Do you think you can just start finding women attractive?"

Octavia tries to help. "Hell yes that can happen. I had to question my sexuality after that first training session with Lexa."

This earns Octavia a slap on the arm from Clarke and a small smile from Raven, meaning the smack was totally worth it. "Calm down Griffster, luckily for you, the Commander has an even more attractive brother."

Clarke rolls her eyes. Octavia turns back to Raven, and decides to get serious. "Rae, I honestly believe that sometimes you meet someone, and gender doesn't matter; it's just that person you know, you fall for the person not the sex."

Raven nods thoughtfully. Clarke decides to probe a little further. "What exactly happened Rae?" She pushes it a touch more. "It's kind of obvious that Anya's involved."

Ravens panic from earlier is now replaced by mortification. Her head falls into her hands and she groans. Clarke and Octavia share another glance, this time confused.

Raven's head snaps back up, she decides to go with the old Band-Aid trick. Straight out with it. "I kissed Anya."

Before anyone else gets a chance to say anything, Raven continues. "I kissed her and then I freaked out and ran away." She laughs. "I kissed her and then ran away, Anya must think I'm such a loser."

Her head returns to her hands. Octavia starts to stroke her hair. "Anya won't think anything of the sort."

"What am I supposed to do?" Raven chances looking up at her best friends.

Clarke breaks the news that Raven already knows, but doesn't want confirming. "You're going to have to talk to her Rae."

Another sigh. "Urgh. I was kind of hoping I could just ignore her for the rest of the school year."

Clarke laughs out loud. "I don't think that's very likely Rae, given mine and Octavia's current relationship status with the other too Woods siblings."

"Yeah, unless you want to spend the rest of the school year alone." Octavia adds in.

Raven accepts her fate. "I guess I need to speak to her. But not right this second."

Clarke smiles. "According to Lexa, Anya has headed out for a drive anyway, so you have a small reprieve."

Raven cringes at the thought that Anya needed the space. She really hopes she hasn't messed up whatever this is between them. Clarke adds. "But I've told Lex to text me as soon as she's back, so don't think you're getting away with it that easily."

"Relax Clarke, I know I need to make this better."

Octavia decides to Change the subject, to something less awkward. "So, while we wait, you…" She gestures to Clarke "…can tell us what you were up to with Lex this evening."

Clarke blushes causing Raven to laugh. "I got a pretty decent view of what they were up too."

Octavia joins Raven in laughter which earns them both a tut and a gentle laugh from their blonde best friend.

"Seriously though, how's that going Clarke?" Octavia is genuinely curious.

"What do you mean?" Clarke is mildly confused.

Octavia quickly becomes exasperated with what she perceives as coyness from Clarke. "Come on Clarkey. S.E.X. That's what I mean."

Clarke laughs at her friend's enthusiasm. "O, we're not having sex, we're not there yet. We've only been in like two dates."

"Two official dates, but you do spend every available second together." Octavia raises her eyebrows.

Clarke looks to Raven to back her up in that Octavia is exaggerating. "Hey don't look at me, I agree with O. Not that she's much better with Lincoln."

Now it's Octavia turn to feign offence. Clarke decides to share the truth with her two best friends, she knows she can trust them with anything, and she's pretty sure they already know what she about to confess. "Plus, I'm still kind of messed up after everything that happened with Finn."

A sadness overtakes all three of them. Raven grabs her hand, knowing exactly what she means, obviously. "Well that is understandable."

"You know, Lexa is nothing like Finn, right?" Octavia makes this point.

"Of course, I just don't feel ready right now, which is fine because Lexa isn't ready either."

This takes both girls by surprise, but Raven voices the question swirling around both their heads. "Has Lexa had some previous sexual disaster too?"

Clarke knows Lexa wouldn't mind her sharing, especially not with O and Rae. "Nope, no sexual disasters. Nothing of the sort actually."

Raven picks up on Clarke insinuation immediately. "No way, no way is Lexa still carrying her V card, she's like a fucking goddess."

Clarke looks at Raven incredulously. "Wow should I be worried that both of my best friends apparently have a huge crush on my girlfriend."

Octavia laughs. "Hey, I'm pretty fucking goddess like myself, and I'm still a virgin." She aims a pillow at Ravens head as she speaks, causing the brunette to burst out laughing.

Clarke has picked on something. "Still a virgin O?" She wiggles her eyebrows.

Octavia literally wails, the frustration she feels taking over her body. "Guys, I'm like so fucking ready. Seriously I literally want to jump Lincoln every time I see him; and I do."

This causes more laughter from Raven and Clarke. "But he's such a god damn gentleman. It driving me crazy. I'm so fuckstrated."

"He Just wants it to be special O. It's cute." Clarke smiles as she speaks.

"Well it can be special and quickly." Octavia moans.

Clarke chuckles. "I mean, I'm by no means an expert, but I thought quickness was deemed a bad thing in these circumstances."

Another pillow flies at Clarke's head. "You know what I mean Griffin."

The three best friends spend the rest of the evening laughing and joking, and generally taking Raven's mind off things. Lexa didn't text to confirm Anya was home.

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Raven had been pretty gutted last night when it became obvious that she wasn't going to get a chance to speak to Anya; she and Octavia had ended up having an impromptu sleep over at the Griffin residence; hoping that even if it was late when Anya got home she would still be able to talk to her, even if it was just for a few minutes. But it wasn't to be. She's hoping that she will get to speak to the older girl this morning, and it's with great anticipation that she waiting in front of Clarke's locker together with O, eyes glued to the entrance.

Her heart sinks when she sees Lexa and Lincoln, and not the other Woods sibling. Lexa approaches and puts an arm around Clarke, she can instantly tell that Raven is bummed, as bummed if not more so than Anya was when she had the misfortune of sharing breakfast with her this morning.

Lexa and Lincoln still don't really know what on earth went down last night between Anya and Raven, given that Clarke and Octavia were too busy attempting to cheer Raven up to explain what happened to their significant others.

No one has spoken yet, Raven knows it's weird and she knows it's down to her, and she can't help that she's probably about to make it ten times worse. "No Anya."

Lexa answers awkwardly. "She needed to speak to one of her tutors before class."

Raven doesn't believe her, and everyone knows it. "Yeah, sure."

Lexa hates how sad her new friend looks right now, she reaches out and rubs Raven's arm in an attempt to show some form of comfort. "She needs time Rae, whatever it is that's happened; she always just needs a little time."

Lexa shrugs, and Raven nods sadly, before silently heading towards home room, the two couples share worried looks before following their friend.

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Raven was sad this morning, but as the day has gone on, her sadness has turned into anger, and now that has grown into a rage. Anya has ignored her all day, ignored the peace offering that she sent her via text, it's now lunch time, and she is not going to let Anya get away with this for much longer, if anything she should be ignoring Anya through her mortification, not the other way around.

She strides across the school yard, and towards the bleachers, where she finally lays her eyes on Anya; with Bellamy. Her blood freezes.

Anya had sought Bellamy out to share lunch, she knew he wouldn't care about not eating with the 11th graders, she knows she's being stupid, but she just isn't ready to see Raven after she basically rejected her last night.

Bellamy pulls her from her thoughts. "Not that I'm not enjoying myself, but it's not like you to want me all to yourself."

Anya smiles, she likes Bellamy a lot. "What can I say Bell, I guess I wanted some more mature company, you know someone my own age."

"Wow, I think that's the first time anyone has ever referred to me as mature."

Anya laughs, which in turns makes Bellamy smile, he can see his friend isn't in the best mood she's ever been in. Anya lays her head on Bell's shoulder.

"You don't want to talk about." Bellamy guesses correctly. "See I can read moods, maybe I am one of those 21st Century men."

Anya sighs against Bellamy's shoulder. "Don't ever change Bell."

She pulls her head up momentarily to meet his gaze, happy to have a friend that is just willing to let her be, and not attempt to give her the Spanish inquisition every five seconds. Bellamy smiles back, and kisses Anya on the cheek, before she leans her head back against his shoulder and takes a bite out of her sandwich, feeling a little more settled than she did at the start of the day.

Raven watches the interaction from afar; that was very over familiar. Her heart had sunk at the sight of Anya and Bellamy, its somewhere around her feet right now. Maybe there is something going on between the two of them after all. This thought makes Raven's embarrassment about last night quadruple.

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Raven again much like this morning, has stewed in her predicament all afternoon, and the embarrassment has once again been replaced by rage; Anya kissed her back, why on earth would she do that if there was something going on with Bellamy. Is Anya really some sick freak that would play two friends off against each other; and all of a sudden in her head, it's her, Clarke and Finn all over again. Her anger peaks.

She has been sitting smouldering in Clarkes front room, she startles her two best friends when she jumps up from the chair. "I'm going out."

Neither Clarke nor Octavia have a chance to question their friend, they just look at each other worried, silently questioning whether they should follow her.

Raven makes it to the Woods residence within about five seconds. Her anger doesn't allow her to knock on the front door, she strides straight through it, and when she doesn't see who she's looking for in the front room she carries on through into the kitchen.

She falters slightly when she comes across the entire Woods family seated at the dining room table eating their dinner, but she's come this far now, she can't stop.

She looks Anya square in the face, and tries her best to ignore to worried looks on Lexa's and Lincolns face, and the looks of downright shock on the faces of Mr and Mrs Woods.

"You're a jackass."

Anya flinches, she's mightily aware she probably should have spoken to Raven today, instead of sulking. She doesn't offer Raven any response, which spurs the younger girl on.

"Why didn't you tell me about you and Bellamy huh? I thought that with you knowing my history, you would have a little more respect for me than that."

Now its Anya's anger that starts to build, how dare Raven even insinuate that she could ever treat her the way Finn did.

Indra decides to try and help her oldest daughter a little, she rises from the table and gestures with her head for the rest of the family to leave the room, and leave these two to it, she knows how private Anya can be, she will not appreciate Raven airing their dirty laundry like this in front of the whole family. Gustus, Lincoln and Lexa all take the hint from Indra and within a couple of seconds they have all relocated into the front room.

Anya wait until her family closes the door being them, she sighs, as much as she feels angry, she can't begin to imagine how hurt Raven must feel if she thinks even an ounce of what she's just suggested is true. The older girl rises from her seat at the table; Raven prepares herself for battle, ready for whatever Anya has to throw at her.

Which is why she's surprised when Anya grabs her on each arm and looks her square in the eye. "You're such an idiot."

That wasn't really what Raven was expecting her to say, she's about to go on the defensive, but Anya beats her to it. "There's nothing going on between me and Bellamy."

Raven actually pouts. "I saw the two of you together at lunch, you kissed."

Anya laughs. "He kissed me on the cheek; because he knew I was in an awful mood; which by the way was brought on by me getting rejected by someone I actually like the night before."

Anya holds her breath, she's more than aware that she just put herself right out there, not something she's ever done before.

Raven is confused. "I didn't reject you."

"Rae, you ran out of here at the speed of light, I'm surprised there isn't a Raven shaped hole in my front door."

Hmm Raven hadn't thought about what it might have looked like to Anya. "An. I didn't reject you, I just freaked out."

"So, talk to me."

"I like you, I didn't expect that to happen." Raven shrugs.

"The question is, what do you plan to do about it?" Anya isn't asking with any hope or expectation.

"I don't know." Raven feels about 2 feet tall.

"So, take your time to figure it out. I'm not going anywhere." Anya pulls Raven into a hug; the younger girl can feel the tears starting to sting her eyes.

"I promise you, there is nothing going on between me and Bellamy." Raven sinks further into the hug.

"But Rae, if you ever compare me to Finn again, we will have issues."

Raven freezes, she feels awful. She pulls back to make sure Anya can see her eyes. "I'm sorry."

Tears spill over, and Anya knows that she will forgive her this one. She swoops down and kisses one of the tears off Raven's cheek. "Just promise me that you'll let me know what you want, as soon as you do."

Raven just nods, frantically trying to keep more tears at bay. "Just try not to take years figuring it out okay?" Anya tries to lighten the mood.

Raven just nods enthusiastically. "I promise."

"Good." Anya is satisfied that the situation has been diffused. "Let me walk you back over to Clarke's, so my family can finish their dinner."

Raven dies a little bit inside. Why did she let her anger get the better of her and come over here and make a scene? She closes her eyes and contemplates how she is ever going to face Lexa, Lincoln and their parents ever again. She only opens her eyes when she hears belly laughter coming from Anya.

"Come on Rae. Everything will be fine, I promise."

Anya grabs her hand and pulls her through into the front room. Anya gives Lex and Linc a smile as they meander through to let them know that they're both okay. Gustus and Indra share a knowing smile, as the front door closes behind the two young women.

It's Gustus that breaks the silence. "Come on children, your dinners getting cold."

Lexa and Lincoln drag their eyes away from the front door, and head into the dining room. They assume someone will tell them what's going on at some point.

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