Hi everyone, here is an longer chapter to make up for not updating for a while.
Anyways I could really use some feedback because I'm rather lost as what to do with this story.
Anyways enjoy!
Adrien had never felt so happy: mom was alive and talking to him! his wildest had come true! For a couple of minutes, he didn't say a word, for instance he didn't know what to say and it was as every sound had abandoned him. Mom was alive! It was more than he could take, more joy that he could handle, more feelings that he could process. If he could trade his powers as Chat to teleport to where the call was coming from he would've done it without a second thought. His body didn't waste much more time to react for tears streamed down his eyes, his legs gave up from under him and his lips quivered. He must've been rather noisy because Plagg came rushing towards him. "Mom you're okay!" he finally said and that was all the kwami needed to take the phone away and put it on speakerphone. Seriously? Now? His kitten was barely starting to rebuild himself and now his stupid Lupav mother had to ruin it. He had half his mind set to hang up on her but knew it would be useless: the kid would call her again. Plus, a small part of him was screaming that he had to listen to get information and protect his charge. He hated himself for even thinking about that but sometimes you just can't help it.
"Of course I am. We talked just a week ago. Are you feeling alright sweetie?" the concern in her voice made the black god see red. Not only was she betraying everything and everyone but she favored one of her kids and made it sound like she did care, like she wasn't using him. Like she loved them. Adrien was too busy quivering to answer so the flying cat took matters into his own hands. If he couldn't stop this at least he would make sure the agony was short. The blond had to open his eyes, no matter how much it hurt.
"Yes mom, I'm sorry. It's just been a hard week." He answered doing the best impression he could of Adrien and hopping the phone would distort his voice enough to make it believable.
"Is it Adrien again? I told you is better if you stay away from him. Proximity will compromise our mission. I know keeping your distance is hard and that you want to take care of him after what happened in the hospital but it just isn't right. Stay away from him. It's for your own good." The words were like a stab to the human: Felix didn't want to keep the distance, he was just doing it because mom had told him to. What was going on? Please, please, don't let this be another betrayal. He couldn't take one more. Plagg looked at him for approval to keep talking and he nodded, not trusting his own mouth.
"I know but he's my brother! You know I would die for him." replied the kwami and his charge felt some comfort in knowing that Felix would say just that. Or would he?
"He's not worth it! And you've done enough already don't you think: killing over twenty persons just to get the miraculous and help him, creating chaos all over Paris hiding only behind a white mask, getting his father in prison to help him get rid of him. You must stop. Now." Adrien didn't know what part hurt more to know his brother had been the one terrorizing the city, the fact that it was all because of him or to know his mother thought he wasn't worth the while. They had always protected him, no matter what. They were the constant in his life, the one thing he could hold on to anytime. And now one was a murderer and the other… He had gone through horrible things: child abuse, isolation, betrayal, wounds, fear, hiding himself, lies and so much more but nothing compared to the pain he felt right now.
'He's not worth it' was he really that useless that even those who were supposed to love him didn't? what had he done to them? Why did he cause all of this? He knew misfortune followed him but this was just too much. Destruction had to be a part of him or he wouldn't have destroyed his family. They had never betrayed, he had betrayed them. He had let them down.
'He's not worth it' was that why his friendships never lasted? Because everyone ended up seeing the lame attempt of a human he was? Because people didn't think his personality was enough to put up with everything that happened around him? They were probably right: a pity case wasn't worth the trouble. If people were ever nice to him it was to gain back a favor. Not because he was fun or nice, that was just something to make the lift a little lighter.
'He's not worth it' Everything was just an act? All the lullabies, the hugs, the smiles, the love, was she just playing a part? He had defended her all his life, confronting everyone who dared criticize her. But she never had. Everytime he'd gone to her with a problem as a child she had shrugged it off telling him it wasn't important even if it was to him. She had abandoned him when he needed her the most, when his father had lost all control over himself, when he was a helpless little boy trying to find his way in a world who hated him. He should've seen it before. And then there was Felix who was less affected; it was because his mother had chosen him over the others. Over him.
'He's not worth it' he'd always just been the dirt in his family's shoes. Every time he thought he was helping he must've done things worse, it was the only reason why he could've earned the hated and disdain from those who should have love him. His intentions had always been pure but the methods were so wrong he had destroyed everything he had ever hoped for. For years he thought he thought he was keeping his family together when really, he was tearing them apart bit by bit. All the times he had convinced himself he was doing something right it'd been wrong. Even what Chat Noir did only burden the entire city. He had never been worth it.
'He's not worth it' He was an accident that should have never occurred. Years of 'I love you' all for him to realize that it was a lie. All to make it hurt even more. If his own mother thought he wasn't worth worrying about than who would? Ladybug? Please she would be better off with any other partner. Chloe? She was just there because he was rich. Nino? After all the times he had to help him he sure needed some vacations. Plagg? He was only with him because he was his chosen. Felix? He had only done all that to feel better with himself. No one cared. He wasn't worth it.
He swallowed his tears, trying to look at this conversation from a neutral angle. Maybe if he played his cars correctly he could find out more. Or maybe he should just hang up and finish this all at once so he could be alone with his misery for a while. He needed that. As he tried to push the button to end his suffering Plagg snatched it away and Adrien didn't have the heart to stop him.
"He is to me! But that is beside the point. You said you had news. What is it?" the kwami impression was pretty good but even like that his chosen could see that a shrunk of himself was in the last sentence. Just in that moment Felix entered the room. Plagg didn't bother in hiding. The boy knew too much already and he trusted that this wouldn't change a thing. The oldest looked around from his brother crumbling to pieces in the floor to the black creature hoovering over his phone. A kwami. Adrien couldn't be one of them, could he? He had been trained for years to hate the miraculous holders, knowing that they had too much power and that their intentions were never clean. His brother couldn't be part of that scum, could he? And then it hit him. it didn't matter if he was, he was still Adrien, his little brother. He wasn't scum, no matter what. Maybe his mother hatred and pain had influenced his mental image of the heroes for two long. Maybe he had to give them a second chance. Or a million more if his brother asked him to.
"Alright, I warned you. We're attacking the house. There is too much miraculous power on it. We'll destroy every stone until we find where your father hid them. As for you, get rid of the fox and the bee miraculous I don't want you in danger." She said and Felix understood that things were getting completely out of hand. he had to do something. Now.
"What about Adrien?" he asked, hopping the answer wasn't the one he thought. If she knew he was a miraculous holder….
"I'm sorry Fe, but like I told you, he's not worth it. He's part of them and we'll make it look like a casualty. It's for the best." All three in the room froze. Did she just insinuate she was going to kill her own son? Sweet Alice was really doing this?
"You promised nothing would happened to him!" exploded Felix. This had to be a joke. "The only reason why I agreed to help you was because you said he was in danger and I wanted to protect him. I'll protect him from everything and everyone and that includes you, you know why? Because he's worth that and so much more. I've doing everything you told me for years: I've trained until exauhistion, I've killed and I've hurt him thinking I was protecting him. I agreed to help you take down my father because he deserves it, not because of the miraculous which, by the way, he was only using to try and find you but because he's abused us all during years. I always thought he was a monster and you were the angel, guess it was always the other way around. He made mistakes but didn't try to kill us. I was foolish to think you were part of our family. You're not. It's always been me and Adrien, and because I listened to you now it's just him. You betrayed us all just because you're mad at Foo for taking away your precious peacock miraculous. It's over mom. Or should I even call you that?"
Hearing this didn't quite take away the fact that he had pushed him away and hid so much from him, but Adrien was still glad. Now he knew that Felix was trying to protect him, and maybe it was for the best that he didn't tell him about Alice. It only led to heartbreak and pain. Sure, his brother wasn't innocent and he was by no means okay with what he did but it was still better than what the woman who had given birth to him was planning on doing. Realization hit the young model: he never had a mother nor a father, he only had only stinky brother. It was time to face reality. And to grab on to what was real: Plagg, Ladybug and Chat Noir. Not wanting to take this anymore he stood up and broke the phone with ease. His rage could create as much havoc as his cataclysm. Silence filled the room.
"Adrien, I'm so sorry… I really thought I was doing the right thing, I never knew she was planning on hurting you, I would've never agreed to that." Tried to explain Felix.
"Shut up." Said the youngest as calm as his father was when something horrible just happened. His brother immediately hated himself: Adrien was reclusive by nature but this was too much. It wasn't fair to him. Nothing of this was.
"Adrien please don't do this to yourself! Be mad, scream, hit me! I'm begging you. Get it out of your system. Usually I would let you have your space but right now I need you to help me think of a way out of this. Please Ad, I'm sorry." Begged the grey-eyed man.
"Didn't you heard him when he told you to shut up! Stay away from him. I knew his mother was a crappy person but I had hope for you. The kid had hope on you. But you are just like your parents." Screamed Plagg putting himself between his charge and the young adult. He would keep his kitten safe. From everyone and everything.
"Plagg? You knew about my mom?" The kid's lips were quivering. Oh God! Time for the truth.
"I did, well only a part of it. I knew she was a lupav, that was all. I swear I didn't know about her planning to kill you or manipulating your brother." Admitted the kwami looking downwards. "I didn't tell you because master Foo, the person to give you the miraculous sealed me. That is why when your mother called I saw the opportunity to finally let you know. I didn't think it would end up this bad. I thought it would be gentler. I'm sorry I made this happen." For a moment Adrien didn't know if he was mad at the little god. He couldn't say anything. It wasn't his fault. It still felt like betrayal. But one he could get over. One he could forgive.
"What is a lupav?" he demanded to know. The word was appearing too often in his life.
"They are group of persons who think that miraculous are too dangerous and want to destroy them and their wielders. Your mother once was a holder, she was given the peacock miraculous but she lost it when she made a fatal mistake but she wouldn't give it up so the other chosen had to take it by force. That is when she vowed to kill them all. She's not like most of them, she has other reasons. Problem is she knows too much. She is a threat. We've been trying to track her down but it's impossible." Explained the black creature, not wanting to go into too much details. That was a story for another time.
"I can tell you were she is." Proposed Felix.
This was betrayal. If this fight went on he would probably end up being the cause of his mother's death. He would be just like her. A traitor. He looked at Felix and Plagg.
"Great but we need a plan."