Everyone in my friend group was buzzing about the trip to La Push. I guess it was hard for me to be excited when I knew that the major reason we were even going to La Push was so Beau could find out about Edward. It was clear to me that although I was the one in Bella's body, Beau was the one taking over her plot point.
It was becoming harder and harder to think of all this as a story. Like my mind was rejecting the thought that the life I lived wasn't a reality. It gave me such strong feelings of dissociation that I got frequent headaches.
As much as I've been able to guess, Beau had a different relationship with Edward than I remember. For instance, he was hanging out with Edward a lot already, and the La Push trip was already happening. As far as I knew, Beau didn't know what Edward was yet.
Mike was super distance after the not date happened, but still offered me to sit in the passenger seat in his moms van. Jessica gave me a dirty look from where she stood. I elbowed Beau in the side.
"Sit shotgun." I hissed. He made a face.
"No. Mike is annoying, if you hadn't noticed." He said the last bit with sarcasm, and I glared at him.
"You've ditched me for Edward Cullen for the last three weeks," I snapped. "And I haven't said shit to Charlie. Now go be a decent brother for once and sit shotgun!" Guilt flickered on Beau's face, but I didn't feel bad.
He should remember his human life still mattered. I shouldn't pretend he wasn't being a terrible brother.
He walked over to Mike and talked for a minute, before simply yanking open the passenger door and sitting down. I almost laughed, but managed to keep a straight face. I was still pissed at Beau.
The drive to La Push was only twenty minutes, and that was mainly because Mike was being super careful with his mom's van. I spent it talking to Angela about the paper that we were blowing off, and she offered to help me with it on Sunday. I was lucky to have a friend like her.
After we had gotten out of the vehicle and set up our things, I stood alone, watching as everyone discussed where we were all going. Some wanted to go to the water, others wanted to see the tide pools, and the rest wanted to chill here. I didn't know what I wanted to do.
A pair of hands covered my eyes, and I would have screamed had it not been for the familiar voice that said, "Guess who?" He was laughing to hard to make it difficult.
"Jake!" I squealed, ripping his hands off my face. I whirled around and jumped on him. He barely stumbled as he hugged me back. Two boys stood back a little, whispering, looking a little uncomfortable. I waved at them as Jake set me back on the ground. "Qeumbry!"
After having gotten to know Quil and Embry, and realizing how much they hung around Jake, I mashed their names togetehhr so it wouldn't be so much of a mouthful. Thus, Quembry was born.
"Hey," Embry smiled shyly. The boy was easily embarrassed around me for whatever reason. Almost like every time he saw me, he needed to warm up to me again.
Quil merely winked at me. Weirdo.
I introduced them to Angela, who of course was shy yet charming. The three boys latched onto her, asking all sorts of questions. While I was looking out at the water, I noticed Beau walking over. He was awkward around the group, considering he had ditched us all for Edward. Next thing I know, he and Jake are heading down to the beach. I snorted. It looked so romantic, but it was anything but.
I thought again about how Beau was taking over Bella's path. Maybe Jacob swung both ways.
I let out a small giggle at that.
Quil tossed his arm around me, making a joke that he and I were destined to be together. I rolled my eyes and smushed my face against his.
"Not even in your dreams!" I shouted in his ear, and then pushed him away from me. Embry barked out a laugh and Angela giggled. Quil slapped a hand to his chest, feigning hurt.
"Dear Izzy, must you hurt me so?" I raised my eyebrows daintily, leaning back and crossing my black skinny jean clad legs, pursing my lips.
"Perhaps because I've got standards?" I asked lightly. Quil's mouth dropped.
"That's just plain mean!" He complained indignantly, with a small smile on his face. Thankfully he was the type of person that was able to take my brand of teasing. Embry howled over in laughter, nearly pulling Angela off the driftwood as he fell over.
"Em, be nice to Angela!" I chided through my gigles. "She doesn't know how to put up with your bullshit!" Angela turned red, which fueled our laughter.
By the time Beau and Jacob returned, we were getting ready to leave. Beau had a troubled look on his face, and almost looked sick. Of course, I knew why.
"You and Jake find out everything you needed to?" I asked innocently, stifling a laugh at the cartoonish way his face paled and his mouth dropped open. He swiftly walked past me rather than respond. Okay, fuck you. I walked with Angela instead.
"It was nice," She commented after a moment.
"Yeah, the beach wasn't too bad." I played with the end of my braid. She smiled, but shook her head.
"Seeing you with your friends." I quirked an eyebrow at that.
"You see me with my friends every day?" It came out like a question. "I mean, you're my friend. So it Jeremy, Mike, Jessica- only on a good day- but you get the picture." Angela climbed in the back of the van first, and I thankfully was right at the window. Miraculously, Beau still rode shotgun.
"No, it was different today." She explained. Everyone ellse was chattering away, so we wouldn't be overheard. "You're a lot more open around them."
"I'm open around you too, Ang," I assured her. She smiled and shook her head once more.
"It's different with them," She fiddled with her glasses, a sign she was nervous. "You're.. you're yourself when you're with them."
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Beau hid away in his room the minute we got home, no doubt to start the draining google process on vampires.
"What's got him in a hurry?" Charlie asked. He had pizza on the kitchen table, as usual. The La Push trip had gone later than I thought it would.
"Dunno," I said as I snagged the only piece without pepperoni on it. "Probably fell in a tide pool and didn't want to tell anyone." Charlie snorted and I laughed.
"Wanna watch the game with me?" He offered. I didn't care about sports at all, and felt a bit tired after the day.
"Nah, I gotta send an email to mom. She's sent me about four this week and I haven't answered one yet."
I quickly typed a response to Renee, telling her about the La Push trip and how I was "absolutely loving Forks. Really, mom, I mean it." I felt bad for ignoring her emails, but come on. I didn't really know her. Though I was starting to forget why ii felt uncomfortable talking with my own mother.
Oh, fuck. She wasn't really my mother. How could I forget that?
Wait. What was I talking about?
I blinked at the screen and sent the email to Renee. I tapped my fingers on my chin, head in my hand, suddenly bored. I didn't have homework since Angela and I would work on the paper tomorrow. There wasn't a Barnes and Noble nearby anywhere, so my library options were lacking. Perhaps Jake and I could take a trip to Port Angeles to restock my book collection.
My phone buzzed, and I looked to read a text from Angela asking about the spring dance and if I was going. I laid on my bed, sighing deeply. Mike and Jeremy were no doubt going to ask me and I would have a hard time saying no, simply because I didn't want any hurt feelings.
We went back and forth for a bit, and finally at the end of our conversation I had convinced her to ask Ben to the dance. They obviously liked each other but were both painfully shy.
I settled into my bed, pulling my laptop over from my desk. I had finally had a good day for the first time in forever. I decided to end it by watching pointless YouTube videos, starting with Shane Dawson. It had been a minute since I binged his videos.
I ended up falling into a restless sleep, vampires and werewolves running recklessly through my dreams.
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gengigod19: he cannot read Izzy's mind, she and Bella share that aspect. though as you may recall, Izzy did however plan out going to Italy and talking to the Volturi, and she, for a moment, seriously thought about doing it. so someone may have seen something alarming ;) and honestly not sure what to do about the Izzy pairing yet. I like your idea though! thank you for always reviewing my chapters!
my apologies again for how chapter five initially updated. hopefully that won't happen again!
-theflyinggraysons