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I want to ask all of you before we proceed to the story, should i mention when the past is starting and when it ends? And how much years or days or hours back the past scene took place? Lemme know, because i can't really change the flow of the story now but i can surely mention at what time the scene takes place, alright?
This chapter begins with Salunkhe sir POV after his confrontation with ACP sir. The pov's are getting mixed a little in this one chapter so bear with me. Any queries are welcome.
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I have something important to ask so if you don't review or don't read the replies just skip to last A/N at the end.
CHAPTER 5 : Feeling empty
The continuous ringing of his cell phone inside his ear brought the man back from his shock state almost feeling like he took a breath after so long. He clicked the device attached with his ear either didn't knew when it had turned off initially and before he said something heard the panicked and strained tired tone from other end telling him something he hadn't thought about yet...
" FREDDY...tumne Daya ko kuch bataya toh nahi na? Abhi usse kuch bhi nahi batana hai...milke dekhte hain magar abhi aise nahi ( heard nothing from the other end so worriedly) kya hua Freddy? tum theek ho...
A tear slipped down the man's eyes for whom the truth now hit with full forceful realization leaving nothing but pain inside his soft kind innocent heart...
" SIR.."
Salunkhe sir sighed and before continuing forward took a deep breath as himself feeling a big burden now rested on his heart obstructing with his heart beat and breathing even. He didn't knew how this burden now ever subsided so he started softly, trying his best to support the humble trustful man on other end...
" FREDDY...acha ek lambi saans lo...(hearing intently and when got the man followed his order smiled painfully over the innocence of this man with whom too his friend and that officer played with, he said further still) aur abh meri baat suno...Daya ko bataya toh nahi na Abhi tak? (heard a low " NAHI" from other side so continued) freddy hum logon ko bahot shaant rehna hai...aur strong bhi...DAYA ke liye...najane iss baare mein kaun janta hai kaun nahi...hume...
Freddy interrupted the old man, may be for the first time in his life he felt his words mattered more or his question stood with more relevance than the pacifying comfort his senior was providing... " Itna badha JHOOT kyun bola sir ABHIJEET sir ne? Kya hum logon ko iss layak nahi samjha ki hum log yeh secret rakh sakenge zaroorat padhne per...ya unhe hum per trust nahi tha? Trust bhi kya sir...phir toh hum unke liye kuch colleagues ke ilawa kuch nahi rahe na...(taking a deep breath) main daya sir ko phone ker deta hun SIR...sahi kaha aapne unhe abhi kuch nahi batate...halanki unhe kabhi bhi pata chale...kisi se bhi chale... joh hum log sach samajhte the woh jhoot hi ban jana hai...main rakhta hun sir..."
Before dr . Salunkhe could have said another word Freddy cut the call making the man more tense regarding him as well now. He has heard this kind of disappointment, pain, hurt and that tinge of betrayed feeling, that negativity from Freddy for the first time in his entire working career with him. Yes, freddy commented negatively for cases, for clues, mysteries, but even at the point of dagger or with a barrel to his head, he was not a man who would say a word against Acp pradyuman or Abhijeet or daya or even any of his team members. Abhijeet and freddy shared a dynamic that may be nobody else in team shared, they had shared a mutual understanding, a trust, a respect for each other that may be no other officer had for another. Abhijeet teased, embarrassed freddy at many occasions but it was all and every time was just a play, a game, a way of showing LOVE and care. And same for pradyuman, Freddy cared for him allot, respected him, though called him with names as others did but the respect and trust had been unwavering ...UNTIL NOW that is.
He closed his eyes tightly and rubbed his face taking his specks off to provide at least some level of comfort to his aching muscles. It had been a long long Day and he didn't think now this DAY ended ever, though how much he wished for it to. He looked up opening his eyes and saw darkness all ahead wishing just wishing that may be this day hadn't ever come in their life, even if they had been living in a LIE of a life, it was not this painful and it's human nature to choose comfort and sweet lies over bitter truth and harsh success.
But now the day had begun, he thought, anger again seizing over his emotions of hurt and decided that now all they can do is to know the truth, the whole TRUTH and not from the people who had betrayed them for so long but from someone they had come to trust more today, the lady who probably had and today has ignited the flame of this whole story, he believed.
He had only thought about this when his phone started ringing so picked it up after seeing the caller ID making his voice calmer... " HAAN FREDDY?"
The man on the other end didn't say anything for a few minutes which scared salunkhe sir about the upcoming scenario but the news only made him sigh as he had suspected enough...
" Daya sir nahi jante sir (stressing) FILHAL.. magar mujhe nahi lagta hume kuch haasil hoga unse yeh baat chaupake abh...(he nodded unconsciously while heard another man take a sigh and then continued) magar sir ne yeh bhi nahi bataya ki kahan jaa rahein hain...(low tone) magar shayad mujhe andaza hai..."
Salunkhe sir nodded again with same low tone... " Mujhe bhi..."
They both knew where the gentle heart of that man taking him now. It was not a puzzle as complicated as this or as deceiving as their colleagues. It was all an open book to them now that where there all hearts leading them. Freddy said in same low tired tone which sounding strong as much as salunkhe remembered it to never have... " Sir wahi chalte hain phir...Daya sir ko akele...
Salunkhe sir agreed with Freddy although both knowing well that daya needed that alone conversation, the revealing of truth for himself at the moment and yet it was difficult for them even to leave him alone to hear a confession that would shatter all memories of past and present into small painful bits of LIES, betrayals, plans, secrets and numerous masks of a character they had considered their own, like thin glass mirror shattering into many pieces.
Abhijeet was feeling his light headache turning into a full blown ache resonating it's pain in his heart even, which he suspected was from the previous conversation with Daya more. His strength was diminished..exhausted...as he had tried to stand up many times after Daya had left but he was feeling all his energy drained in revealing a truth he had kept well hidden till now, much more than he had felt it drain after a LIE or a small secret again hidden in his closet of secrets. In so many years of hiding, of LYING, somehow the very concept had become easier then telling the TRUTH. As somewhere, he suspected the LIE had become the TRUTH for him.
He placed his hand on table now deciding he needed to get up and pressing it forcefully in order to provide his body a small back up to pick himself up. This time he managed to stand up although feeling a slight shivering in his body but ignored it for now and headed towards his room and then washroom silently.
The feel of cold water over only his face muscles shivered him to core rather than providing a sooth he had always garnered from this little activity. He gripped the wash basin tightly in order to stabilize himself while shaking his head to get rid of the cold water although after looking at his own face over the mirror realised that the coldness was not actually from water but from his life which was now turning as cold as DEAD although realising he had buried himself alive long ago when he had started that LIE.
He took a deep breath standing there trying to calm his nerves which he felt in hyperactive mode from his extra shivering and raised heart beat. He had never considered this situation when his identity revealed to his family, his loved ones so effortlessly without a previous thought of his. May be then it's for good, because he doubted he would have ever had the courage to reveal it himself.
Feeling the coldness and shivering in his body along with his headache only increasing he wiped his face and moved out of the washroom now thinking where and how he went ahead from this point? Where everyone else, Freddy, Daya, Salunkhe sir, whole team went ahead from this point on?
He jerked his head but got it as a bad move as his head started throbbing more violently now so rubbed his forehead a bit while heading towards his bedside table to take a pain killer. As he gulped the white pill down with a sip of water in kitchen his eyes fell on his cell phone which he had probably kept there while he was talking to Daya and saw it ringing indicating an incoming call. He squinted his eyes and after seeing the caller ID picked it up with a sigh as his other hand slammed the water bottle on kitchen slab...
" SIR...
Acp pradyuman got something wrong already from Abhijeet tired strained voice and wished he had called Abhijeet earlier, he still asked although suspecting what it was about... " Kya baat hai ABHIJEET...(somehow now faking anything seemed a burden to him and he found himself stumbling across a simple sentence, he started again) tum...
" Sir Daya janta hai MAA ke baare mein...(his voice trembled a little though he controlled it well as it had become a common habit for him now) magar sach nahi shayad...woh hospital wala call...
Acp sir took a small breath and interrupted Abhijeet with... " main janta hun Abhijeet (feeling abhijeet shocked and tense expressions so explained) Salunkhe bhi aaya tha...usse bhi pata tha isske baare mein...(heard Abhijeet's sigh so feeling extremely sad but still asking hesitantly) Daya ko tumhare...(gulped a little water down to calm down his trembling voice) baare mein bhi...
Abhijeet shook his head lightly understanding the question although after feeling the throbbing again, pushed himself away from the kitchen counter and headed towards the chair to sit down...
" Nahi SIR...main aage aur kuch bhi nahi...(rubbing his forehead) mujhme himmat nahi thi sir...magar woh mera..naam...poora..."
ACP sir stayed silent hearing the tensed shallow breaths from Abhijeet's side either feeling his heart stop for an entirely different reason, his own strength fading away bit by bit but he knew this was not the time for him to be weak, nor for Abhijeet and he was confident he would gather himself up so as to face their own loved ones whom they had betrayed so coldly so now they would have to be prepared to answer their questions, face those accusations, any kind of stories they made or any perceptions they created. He started slowly, knowing that would gain Abhijeet's attention... " ABHIJEET...Salunkhe ko...andaza..maine kuch kaha nahi magar...kuch toh..."
For long moments all he heard from the other end was silence and he felt guilty for taking this in his hands and unintentionally or intentionally revealing a secret that belonged to Abhijeet and effected abhijeet more than him, he was going to apologise again but heard a tired calm tone from his officer this time... " SIR...aap maafi nahi maange...main nahi janta ki kaise aur kyun...but mujhe aap par bharosa haiki aapne jaanke nahi kiya hoga ya bataya hoga toh woh humare ache ke liye hoga...( hearing further the tone which was meant to be in light mode but turned soggy) aap waise hi sirf mere liye bahot jhooth bol chuke hain sir...main chahunga bhi nahi ki isske aage abh aapko koi nuksaan ho...please aap aur...
Acp sir turned angry on this, feeling that the man he supported considering his son turned him no one in few seconds... " bakwaas mat karo abhijeet...koi bhi jhooth ya koi bhi sachai joh Maine chupayi hai woh meri apni marzi thi samjhe...isse Na koi ahsaan samjho Na khud per bhoj...( asking in same terse tone) abh dekhna yeh haiki aage kya karna hai...(warning tone) aur main peeche nahi hatunga samjhe...apne baap per tumhara game chal gaya hoga mujh per nahi...
He stopped sensing the painful silence on other end after realising what he said in anger and affection, he started again, in much softer tone now... " abhijeet mera woh...
" main samajhta hun sir...aur SIR ( Acp sir heard silently feeling the stressing of the word) main kabhi apna game aap per work Karne bhi nahi dunga..."
If not the one all considered, even then the life of this man wasn't free of guilt and remorse. As Abhijeet had commented to a man, once some years ago when he had killed his son with his own hands and people had shown sympathy and anger and hatred, abhijeet had said to one of them, everybody had some guilt and remorse in their hearts, but only few had it in their hands and blood, and even fewer had the courage to face it. Abhijeet had then made him a person belonging to the latter category but he had known even then, they both belonged to the latter, the only difference being He himself faced his with tears alone while Abhijeet did it with dry eyes among others.
He said after feeling the silence stretched too long now... " kya lagta hai Abhijeet...koi behrupiya hai joh humari sachai janta hai ya woh khud hain? itne saalon baad aise...
Abhijeet said tiredly, his very words seemed to feel drooping now... " pata nahi sir...behroopiya hai toh hume pata karna hoga ki kaun aur yeh sabh kaise janta hai aur agar sachme woh hain toh zaroor kuch badla hai sir toh phir bhi hume...
Acp sir nodded. His movements as much exhausted as Abhijeet's but more alert as his heart, he knew was not in as much pain as this man. He wondered while closing his eyes...unknowingly whispering... " humse poochenge abh sachai ya unse...(softly) main tyaar hoon abhijeet magar...(the "tum" went unsaid but both understood)...
Abhijeet said either his own eyes closing as talking with ACP sir calming his nerves to the extent of lulling him to a deep painful unsettling sleep, his voice seemed to smile painfully... "humse toh nahi poochenge sir abh...(tiredly) abh na humari sachai per bharosa hoga unhe aur nahi jhooth per...(silently) waise bhi agar woh sachme wahi hain toh Daya kuch aur soche ga bhi nahi...usske liye toh...
Abhijeet stopped and ACP sir nodded understanding even the unsaid words of Abhijeet. They both knew how much that relation had mattered to daya and now suddenly the revelation that the relation may not have ever existed would lead daya's heart only to find truth about that first. Both closed their eyes and Abhijeet after few seconds said calmly opening his eyes before cut the call... " main 10 minute mein aata hun sir aapke ghar..."
Acp sir shaking his head as he already felt Abhijeet's tiredness and he was not sure he wanted Abhijeet to travel this late all alone and with these thoughts, he trusted him but this was something unknown even to him, he said softly trying to not sound pacifying... " aaj aur abh nahi Abhijeet please...aaj araam karo beta, kuch bhi ho abh hum kal hi discuss karenge...(very softly) aur Abhijeet please bache so jao abhi...kuch nahi socho..sabh sahi hoga abhijeet...woh log naraaz honge per samjhenge bhi..."
Abhijeet's silence turned Acp sir more concerned as telling him easily about Abhijeet's thought process regarding this scenario and his hopelessness with whole. He heard a soft sigh and then a weak... " good night sir"
Acp sir just nodded and removing the cell phone from his ear kept it on the table beside him. His eyes still closed as he tried to compose himself and gather some strength to face the inevitable now. Abhijeet too was under same condition as he tiredly placed his palms over his forehead and supported his arms on his knees, sitting in a slumped position while taking deep breaths to gather his thoughts and calm his nerves.
Not only these two, but the another TRIO heading towards same destination now from different locations would need the strength to face the TRUTH, the true truth about the identity, past, LIES of the man they so strongly had called their OWN till now.
See, Finally Abhijeet sir was there in this chapter.
I hope you all had fun reading.
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Individual replies ahead...
AD Fan - No yaar, it doesn't mean step mother. You'll come to know a bit about that in coming chapter. Hahaha, No i am not at all hurt, but for this time, i think aapko isse bear karna padega caz i can't edit the whole story at this point. I am sorry for giving less dialogues but the plot of story is based more on their internal memories and emotions then anything else. I would ask you to read some stuff at least because many things are revealed in those paras. It's fine if you don't want to though. yaar, pakka i won't leave this one incomplete. I may be late with updates in future due to my college and related stuff but i WILL complete it. And no none of your words hurt me, i am glad you mentioned it. I feel same but sometimes, the circumstances just play against us and it becomes difficult to write. I am glad you liked Avinash and Healing. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing yaar. Take care!
Angelbetu - HEY dear! Glad to see that you are still with this story. Aap jaise zaberdast writers ke comments padhke hi toh mujhe confidence milta hai yaar. About memory loss...it's still not confirmed... ;). Yes, abh itna badha sach chupaya hai toh panga toh hona hi hai dono ke saath...abh dekho kya hota hai aage. Hope you are having fun reading this. Thank you so much for reviewing yaar.!
Sami - yaar, honestly, mujhe songs based OS likhne mein bahot problem hoti hai, because i find things to fit a few lines but poora song nahi fit ho pata and i don't find it appropriate then. If you want i can write something on your plot with the song line as the summary and song name as title. It's a good plot and i already have an unfinished draft based on something same. Batana ok? Thanks for reading and reviewing!
Shikha sharma - hahaha, aap bhi! Oh GOD! I am finding so many people who love an injured ABHI now that i could literally start an Injured Abhi love club...hahaha. Or open a community with all the injured ABHI stories... ;). Well i completely agree with you, he looks AMAZING when he's injured, his expressions , his eyes (haaye, those eyes), they make me tear up and curse the criminals and than thank them for showing me that side again... ;). Again, praise, yaar really i am turning complete red now with all your praise. And i really have nothing to say to that. Don't kill me with over appreciation.. :P. Thank you so much for all your love and praise and reviews dear!
Js Abhi - hey dear! I am glad aapko story pasand aa rahi hai yaar. Yaar, it's mostly all written, i just have to edit according to your reviews a bit which is not much. Sorry yaar isse jaldi toh update nahi hoga, as most people are reviewing on second day only and i can't reply to them if i update every day. Sorry for that. Thanks for reading and reviewing dear.
Duoayesha - Ooo! I said nothing about memory loss now, did I? mujhe khud ko nahi pata, i think he did, but duo are silent so i don't really know what they are planning. I am worried for him too, same here. But as you know, see, me seeing ABHI in pain enjoying the stuff... ;). And me seeing you all in shocks, that's absolute FUN as well..HAHAHA. Hope you enjoyed reading this chap as well. Thanks for reading and reviewing!
SS 1912 - your username dear, sounds like a mystery movie, ek dum classy. Dekho iss chapter mein kitna sara Abhijeet sir ko diya hai maine, as compensation na. Actually he called me moti during last chapter so i removed him from it. He's apologized now so it's all fine though..memory loss jhooth! kissne kaha? Aisa nahi bolo yaar...daya sir naraz hojayenge... ;). Thanks for reading and reviewing dear.
luvcidduodosti - Ooo! you are back! Yipee! That's the point of it, i am loving the rift between DUO. ;) hehehe...(evil laugh). Hmmm...yaar Full duo story? Yaar, basically i don't have any plot for that right now, and abh mere college bhi start hone wale hain, i can try for an OS if you can give me a plot though. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing yaar!
Duosun - hahaha...! Oh god! I am feeling all my readers and reviewers are super evil and bad like me. All enjoying Abhijeet injured and in pain. Kitni buri baat hai yeh...tch tch. Hmm..hmmm...memory loss...hmm...can't say anything right now i guess.. ;). But i think Daya sir already in pain as maa jee jhooth already be a big one for him. Hahaha...yeh dekho iss chapter mein toh tha MERA Abhi...woh bhi bahot sara. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing dear.
Krittz - Hey di! Great to see you returning! Thanks for following the story di. Yes i felt many readers missed the last chapter, hmmm. Hahaha, yes i know i am very intelligent. Specially in creating torture plans for Abhijeet sir. But you are reaching far ahead...no fake memory loss i think. Baaki toh dekhna hoga aage. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing DI.
Guest - hey dear! i think aap username dena bhool gaye, or you using guest only? Anyways, yaar maza hi aap logon ko shocks dene mein aata hai, i am developing an evil streak now a days...hehehe. hmm...abh yeh toh aage dekhna hoga yaar ki end kaisa hoga. And you'll have to decide whether it was good or bad. Thank you so much reading and reviewing yaar!
786Wahida - Hmmm...but yaar unhone itna badha jhoot bola...maa jee ke baare mein...woh thodhe toh galat hain hi na...but i think he must have had some reasons...let's see aage. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing yaar.
Duolover - Oh God dear! Aap toh mujhse bhi jyada evil streak rakhte hain yaar, bhai itni himmat nahi hai mujhme to show something like that. Daya sir punishment and torture karenge but in his own way, not physically. And i don't think he ever so much angry with his buddy to cause scars in his life ever. Thank you so much for liking , reading and reviewing dear! Hope you like Daya sir's reaction in upcoming chapters.
Kirti - hey no need for sorry yaar! And thank you so much for liking the way i describe emotions. Thank you for reviewing!
gb - Thank you so much dea! Hope you had fun reading!
BFF - Ah finally! someone appreciates it! Thank you so much, though it's not entirely my effort. Hmm...yes i am feeling scared for him too.. ;). Thank you so much for liking reading and reviewing dear!
Tia - hey no need for sorry dear! Glad you are still following the story and liking it so far! Thank you so much for reviewing!
Jyoti A - Haaye yaar ABHI sir takleef toh thodhi set si hai, but i'll try to restrain myself surely ;). Yaar Abhi toh secrets khule kahan hain? memory loss drama? kya baat kar rahi ho yaar? yeh kabh hua? yes i have long plans for this story. Thank you so much reading and reviewing dear.
Dada - AIN..! Is pyala pallot trying to trick bunni in revealing something bunni did not think she is allowed to reveal? Hmm...yaar kya kahun, your whole review based on one thing and i can't say whether it be correct or not? So no comments on that.
About you being banished from both forums if you wrote something of the sort you THINK bunni did, well i think Dada that you have a very wide range of fans. You have fans belonging to various likes and dislikes who agreed and disagreed to many things. While i have a very narrow and constricted fan base. It mostly belonged to those readers who liked reading something emotional like this stuff like me. So, my readers here mostly accepted this stuff, well they accepted something in past i still think if i posted on IF i'll be more than banished from the forum...hehehe. So, that's the difference. Also Try writing something of that sort now, Dada. I think the fandom became more accepting now. There's a reason i didn't post this 2 years back after all. Readers now are more open minded than before.
About Freddy and Asha, yaar i'll accept i showed freddy sir OTT with this, but i think Asha was justified as she was reminiscing only during that time.
Hahaha, yeah he doesn't know na that BUNNI learned master planning from Dada only... ;)
Awww...TERROR? WHO? Little cute pyara BUNNI? Hawww...
Thank you so much for reading and reviewing Dada.
Hope i didn't forget anyone? Thank you so much all of you, once again!
Missed Shubhangi's Abhi, cid duo fan, Ladddo, WisMod, SGJ and tina this time. Hope you all still interested guys! Missed your views dearly.
Also I have something important to ask you all, If it's problematic for you all to read and review within one day gap, i am ready to shift the updates at every 2 day gap as well. Because i felt many readers missed the third update specially, so if you want i can shift the updates. Though i think it would be a very big gap. Lemme know about this, OK?
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