AN.

I am so sorry that I forgot to post and edit a chapter last Saturday. Skyrim just possessed me yet again and here I am, editing and posting this in the middle of 10:43pm when I was writing my fanfic and I was like shit I posted this already, didn't I? Fuck me.

So here we are

Usual trigger warnings, etc. etc. Oh, maybe even grammar errors like the word buy should be by that sort of thing. Maybe. I dunno.

Sorry about that.

I'll do better at Sunday.

Y'all should be used to this by now.

"You have got to be kidding me." The Snake Sannin hissed at me, the third week of trying to get an elemental transformation out of me still not working. I told him I had some sort of chakra cancer (the doctors didn't say what I had, nor did they know what I had) but no, he was just pushing it. I did the handseals which I memorized by heart now, tried converting and blew.

But nothing happened,

As usual,

"I didn't take you in to be a failure." Orochimaru hissed at me again. Honestly, with all the killing intent he gave me, I was surprised that I hadn't dropped dead. Maybe it was the fact that I got used to it or something. I dunno, making wind do my bidding wasn't my thing.

Chakra paper wasn't working well either.

He bought a pack (the generous snake that he is) and I used it all up.

Is what I wanted to say when all of them didn't even respond to my chakra.

He saw this as a challenge; I saw this as a hindrance.

"Shishou, this isn't going to happen." I complained for the umpteenth time to the determined Sannin. He gave me his coldest glare which I pointedly ignored as he tried examining me. "I know a bunch of other jutsu that doesn't need elemental transformation. Genjutsu here, Taijutsu there, a few senbons to the throat, eye and groin would put any ninja to sleep." I reassured the man(?) with a smile.

Honestly, I was kind of sad as well since I was a big fan of elemental manipulation and the Avatar in general. I always wanted to be a wind bender, getting the air out of someone's lungs was dark; especially for a kids show.

Which, as a teen, I absolutely adored.

It was Courage the Cowardly dog all over again, with its dark yet low-key themes and the fact that it wasn't afraid to stick a dildo up the kid's brain. There was a thin line between humor, children shows and darkness that the show kept on balancing. I always liked it when it "tripped" to the dark side momentarily.

But that's beside the point.

"We are going to work on this."

And so we did.

Well, so he thought. I, on the other hand, experimented with what I can do with genjutsu. I could make a world out of thin air using chakra, butterflies and good imagination and with all the anime I watched; boy do I have a lot of imagination. Witch Labyrinths from Madoka Magica is going to be my next genjutsu after World of Butterflies but that was a far-off dream for now. Right now, I was recreating jutsu with genjutsu to stop Orochimaru's incessant nagging. They didn't show this in the anime or manga, that's for sure.

So, at the start of training (which was ninjutsu training), I successfully tricked a Sannin into thinking I did the ninjutsu. I had to do it perfectly, the wind blowing, the feeling of it, the sound of it, how the chakra senses to him. It was hard, time consuming and over all a pain but if it saved me from his…determination then it would have been worth it.

Seeing Orochimaru do a Maito Gai…

Traumatizing shit right there.

ASDASdSADASd

"A C-rank? Already? I heard Bakashi's still weeding!" Obito cackled as we walked to that ramen place he was talking about. A few weeks passed after that incident and Orochimaru decided that weeding and painting fences isn't going to befit his protégé this time. I improved my chakra control and taijutsu over the course of time. Vacuum Palm is going to become really handy. Thank God there were Branch Member taijutsu instructors. I wouldn't want to be in a perpetual standstill in one of the things I'm barely good at.

"Man, I wish someone would give me an apprenticeship! That way I'd become stronger faster, right Rin?" He nudged his crush who nodded solemnly. The brunette sighed irritably.

"With Akane-san on a mission, I do admit that not learning at my pace is getting a bit…slower." She confessed. "The Hospital's curriculum isn't as advanced as Akane-san's. All I can do is be patient, I guess."She sighed dejectedly and gave me a smile like the precious girlie she was. I could see why Obito had the hots for her. If I was gay, I would totally hit on her.

Except I wouldn't,

Because I like dicks,

With a passion,

I'm fine with gay people, don't get me wrong. My best friend in my life before was gay. I slightly envied him, though. He got a boyfriend way before I did and that just wasn't fair. I wasn't entitled to it or anything but, hey, let me get into that dick sucking before I kicked the bucket.

Woah, where the hell did that come from?

Moving on.

"How's training with Orochimaru-sama going? Not straining yourself too much I hope?" She added a slight scolding tune to that last part. She was such a mama bear when she needs to be.

"No not really, just one new jutsu and general Snake Style Taijutsu training, you know, without the snakes." I complained. Seriously, when is he going to give me the good stuff? I know that you can have multiple summons. Sasuke was a testament to that! Sure he was Sasuske but, dammit if I wanted to become a Disney Princess then so be it I damn will! "The real fun starts after I complete five more C-ranks." I rolled my eyes. "I don't really know but..." I waited for ourselves to get seated and get our orders.

"I may go on long missions. I don't know, I'm going to be passed on like a used rag since Shishou will be going away." I tried whispering quietly. Obviously judging by the Obito's shock and Rin's sad face, I failed. Genjutsu specialist that can heal?! Has the world gone mad?! Seriously, it's like Konoha doesn't have any support-nin in this generation.

"What the hell?!" Obito screeched. "What kind of mission takes four years?!" Rin tried to calm him down to save face. We are in public after all.

"Easy there, I'm still going to be in Konoha! Not just all the time..." When our orders came, I immediately dug in to prevent a potential word vomit.

"Obito," Rin, the monster, glared at Obito in warning. Like a cautious lion, he backed away slowly. "Don't worry, Tokina-chan." She redirected her gaze that could make Medusa cry in shame to me this time with a plesant smile. "We understand, we'll keep the house clean till your parents or you come back from missions" She patted my back, making the butterflies that seem to always accompany me flutter away.

To my head and shoulders that is.

I don't think they understood "I miss my parents." When I was sobbing like an angry baby out for vengeance.

I gave her a tight lipped smile. "Thank you," she grinned back and ate her food. Obito decided to speak up. "But what about team assignments?" He said dejectedly.

"That would mean you wouldn't be in the same team in me and Rin." He frowned at the thought. I chuckled "I think I'll be back for grad. Assignments. Who knows, I might be. I am a genin after all." I replied cheerily.

I knew I wasn't. I would probably end up in the Medic-Corps led by Tsunade or something. I don't know, chakra control is really valuable in wars like this. Better than the frontlines anyway. At least it boosts his mood up. "But why until we graduate? What's so special?" He questioned. I smiled mischievously "I'll just say I won't be the only student he'll be teaching and leave it at that,hm?"

Rin caught on and snickered when she saw the confusion on Obito's face.

It was cute and funny at the same time.

ASDASDADSAD

Weeks flew by as the start of my C-rank came. We were tasked to escort to escort a bunch of ninja to another team near the border.

We were running through trees far too long that the novelty of being outside of the village has wore out. We haven't taken our first break yet but I already want to sleep. "How undeniably droll." Orochimaru muttered. Wow. What an exciting first C-rank.

I fucking love it.

Boring meant No excitement. No Excitement meant nothing is going on. Nothing going on meant safe. Safe meant life. I like life. I'll choose life over excitement any day. It seems my mentor does not share my sentiments. We ran around a bit more when I needed a water break. Shishou smiled "I admitted that I expected you to ask approximately thirty two minutes ago." He said smugly. "Must be the gift I gave you. " I rolled my eyed and drank half of my canteen.

It was probably my butterfly summons making me physically lighter. I could have sworn that sometimes my feet failed to touch the branch sometimes.

Honestly, he is so proud sometimes-I'm sorry, all the time- that it's borderline triggering. As someone who killed herself, humility is one of my strong suits. I mean strong suits. Strong to a damn fault. Seeing someone act like a king that could order the world with one word and a smack of a scepter made me irritated in levels I cannot believe. Snakes are proud creatures, I get that. But holy shit, that is just killing it.

But I can't say that in his face.

Bitch would stab me in the throat.

I continued my thoughts in that happy little trail before I heard a branch rustle. We stopped for a break when we heard it. Just to be safe, I activated my Byakugan. Orochimaru perked up on the potential violence. Damn he must really be bored. I threw a senbon at the small target's tenketsu point near the neck. A thud resounded and so the rustling of leaves. I summoned a kaleidoscope of butterflies with to retrieve it with a clap. The nin with us looked curiously at the rabbit being held up by butterfly with a senbon on its neck.

"It was a rabbit, shishou. No need to get testy." I rolled my eyes at his obvious displeasure. "I'll get it for dinner." I began walking towards the dead animal when shishou put his hand on my shoulder. "Wait..." He glared at the seemingly dead rabbit.

Then three sets of tenketsu points flared into existence. Shishou roughly pushed me away. I felt a kunai whir near my ear. I turned around to find this massive wall of muscle smirking down on me. "The Snake Sanin and his brat!" He said glaring down in me with killing intent.

Puh-lease. Snake Shihou rained down that shit by the truck load.

For training.

"Ooooh, the money we'll get off if them!" He said confidently, punching his knuckles with brass fists together. He didn't have a forehead protector or any kind of sigil on so it was safe to assume that it was bandits who knew what they were doing but too stupid to comprehend it. What the fuck kind of ninja uses brass knuckles? Aren't they heavy?

"Fire Release: Blazing Hot Knuckles!"

His fist turned blue with chakra. Then red with fire. Oh, that kind. Oh shit, nintaijutsu!? It is probably safe to assume that he's a taijutsu specialist that had an affinity for fire release then. Lucky him I thought bitterly. I poured chakra into my butterfly seal and seemingly turned into butterflies at his touch, immediately caught in my genjutsu. I seemingly manifested near the Konoha ninja and Orochimaru.

"Orders?" I asked my mentor.

I can't see their forehead protector's sigil even with my Byakugan on, but that could also be genjutsu. Tsk, war time C-ranks are way different than peace time C-ranks. The same thing is, sadly, the pay. I'm running out of my parent's life savings, and need those funds.

"Continue the mission. I'll kill them" He eyed the wall of meat casually. "Let me see what I have taught you so far." He smiled sadistically before vanishing in speed that rivaled a body flicker, and then the screams happened.

Sadistic bitch.

I nodded at the three other Konoha nin. They gave me an affirmative before we set back to running, me being the in lead. Okay, war time. This was to he expected. Using my Byakugan, I could tell that there were at least two pursuers. Thinking of options, I began channeling a lot of chakra and clapped after doing the summoning jutsu. A swarm of butterflies appeared around me, flying in impressive speeds to keep up with me.

"Akinosuke-san, I need you to distract them." I told the kaleidoscope. The butterflies fell back, missing the three other Konoha nin and went instantly for the pursuers. I saw how their chakra flared up, the sign of successful genjutsu, before they lagged behind my range. I blinked my Byakugan away, not risking overuse, and focused on the mission.

So far so good for my first C-Rank mission.

Orochimaru (looking pleased at being covered in small patches of blood) met up with me at the border after two days. The mission was completed and were headed home when enemy reinforcements arrived, you know. The plot twist.

Like in all shounen anime.

Except I was a girlie.

So Naruto was being a brat even before he was born.

"Those are a lot of clones, who even has chakra reserves that many." I whispered to my sensei. We were behind a rock casually eating a rabbit while our"predators" stalked us. What they didn't know is that a hundred so vipers were surrounding them, silently climbing the trees and so on as Akinosuke's various body parts began surrounding them innocently in plain sight.

Either way, it still grates my nerves. "Training and good genes," He answered knowingly, the smug bitch. His smile got even wider, usually when a person goes into battle, they frown or something, but the nutty guy I got for a mentor smiles. For a guy who doesn't like death, he sure is okay with it. I sighed and drew three more senbon.

"By your signal, Shishou." I put down my rabbit hunch (fried by Orochimaru via oversized finger flame which I want to learn but can't thanks to ineptness) "Only use one senbon, you can't decipher clones from the real thing yet, can you?" He bit out condescendingly, oh this bitch.

"Well maybe if I had parents with Byakugan I could have." I said mildly thoughtful. "Oh wait, I did." I bit out vehemently "I wonder whose fault that was?" Before he opened his poisonous trap he calls his mouth, I threw a senbon to the man hiding on the tree, I missed the heart by a few inches but it was a fake anyway. The clones and maybe real person,

Can't really tell since no one would teach me,

I should work on that.

The snakes bit in simultaneously at their targets as the butterflies activated their genjutsu to secure them. The sound of poofing resounded the otherwise quiet forest but only one thud was heard. "Are ninjas built for falling from high places even without chakra?" I asked my mentor, mildly concerned that we lost the informant to something stupid like not catching their fall. "The poison only paralyzes the nerves. If they are half of a ninja they claim to be, they would channel their chakra to get the brunt of the damage." He said all sagely despite the insult he casually just made. "What I want to see is the person that made the ruffian I interrogated while you were completing the objective. He defended this person before I forced a snake down his-"

"Let's go get the prisoner, yeah?" I ushered, running away from a creepy and not so obviously old man who felt a bit generous with details right now. I heard him chuckle but rushed for the poisoned man. Ugh, show off. The man was twitching when we got there, and I saw a look of horror dilute his eyes when he saw me and Orochimaru. Well, mostly Orochimaru since he got the dirty Kunai he did nasty things with to his last prisoner and licked the blade. I do not really see the appeal of that. "My,my, look what the cat dragged in." He drawled, ripping the forehead protector from the Iwa-nin. In the ninja world, I learnt that ripping your village's sigil off their bodies is a great insult to their power and village. Orochimaru looked like he couldn't be bothered with it. He put it in his pack and eyed me with sadistic glint in his serpentine pupils.

Aw, at least he cares.

"Do you want to do the honors?" He looked at his dirty kunai longingly, obviously not wanting me to do the honors.

I couldn't tell if it was an act to scare the poor man or if he really means it. Either way, "No thanks, Shishou...I'll go replenish our water." I got his tumbler and head out. According to the map, there should be a grove around here somewhere.

I reached the grove which the butterflies led me to and sighed as I dunked the bottles in the clear water. I am not cut out for this ninja shit, sure I could handle myself fairly well but I literally cannot kill for shit. In this world, it's kill or be killed and here I am trying to make a path in between. Why couldn't I be reincarnated in a peace time era? I can't handle a war and keep myself alive in this glorified dog hole.

Whatever, I'll sort this shit out later. I need to go back to the bitch that started all this. Is what I thought before I felt something cold and sharp hovering near my throat.

"Don't move if you want to die." A cold gravelly voiced said.

Oh Jesus fucking Christ.

I dropped my arms to my side slowly. I silently began channeling chakra to my seal, all the while chanting 'this cannot be happening, this cannot be happening' over and over again.

"Now, girl," He pressed the kunai a little bit harder on my neck. "Tell me why you're here fucking up my mission and everything you to know." He drawled on, perfectly calm. Poor guy, though. Only wanting to get paid, probably had a rough Weekend if he was this affected by a mission. He was deep inside Konoha though, so that was worrying.

Okay, Tokina no need to panic. There are jutsus to be done in this kind of situation. Orochimaru said that the best way of winning is making the opponent lower their guard thinking they have overwhelmed you.

Well, he did.

Now what? Do a Naruto and Talk-No-Jutsu?

Oh wait, I had genjutsu and butterflies. Dur

As if on cue, I vanished from his grip, being replaced by multitude of butterflies,

"Holy-!"

Out if sheer reflex, I got a senbon and tried to stab his back but he was faster. He got my arm and twisted it, eliciting a pained scream from me before he clammed my mouth shut and continued where we left off He strengthened his grip, painfully pulling my waist length hair I gagged.

"Think butterflies are pretty kid?" He smirked maliciously before cutting a part of my neck. I gasped as blood slowly spilt out.

Nononononono.

"Okay, okay! I do not know what your mission is or what it was but I have info!" I begged. I couldn't risk activating my Byakugan to check for Shishou who really needs to teach me about these kinds of situations so I did what my self-preservation told me. Feed him little by little. "You want Yellow Flash, you got Yellow Flash. Just ease up on the kunai! Please." I strangled out and he reluctantly complied. The butterflies around me took this chance of weakness.

As he opened his mouth, and in a surprising burst of speed, Akinosuke butterfly form immediately went to scratching, poking and piercing his mouth with whatever butterflies had as they entered his throat, making him choke.

That was fucked up.

I dropped down to my knees, ignoring the inhumane muffles he made as butterflies forced themselves into him, scratching his face painfully with their chakra imbued legs. I inhaled all the air I could take in as I scrambled the seals for Mystic Palm.

When I channeled my chakra instead of the minty green hue, I found that my palm literally could not move out of panic and stress.

What the he-

Okay, calm down or you're going to drive yourself into a coma at Mystic Palm overload and or freeze yourself with this magic voodoo shit

I calmed my breathing and redid the seals I grew so familiar with my mom. My fingers are shaking and cold but it will have to do. I hovered around my neck, successful with chakra conversion after maybe twenty or so seconds and felt instant relief. I groaned in satisfaction and let the pain be taken away. Holy shit. That was a close call.

A really close call.

I never want to do it again.

I eyed the twitching body that was still choking from butterflies in my horror and astonishment as his face was scratched and red. The butterflies got out from his mouth innocently, fine and unharmed. He was still breathing, though. I stood up and stopped the relaxing jutsu and trudged slowly.

I flinched when I saw the look on his eyes. Pure unadulterated hatred. I steeled myself and picked up the kunai he was going to use to kill me from the ground. He was supposed to be paralyzed from the Monarch's enhanced poison or genjutsu but I could have sworn that his lips twitched with amusement. He continued his scathing glare even though he perfectly knew where this was going to lead to.

Do it. The cold eyes dared me. I kneeled down and drew the kunai near his neck with four large holes. The butterflies backed away in respect like the alpha wolf calling dibs on something. They really shouldn't since I was visibly shaking. When I heard my hitched breathing, I made up my mind.

I can't do this. I threw the kunai away in shame. A ninja who couldn't kill? How precious is this? I couldn't do this. He looked at me like I was a riot. "I just can't..." I muttered to myself. I covered my eyes and heard him grunting in pain. I heard him breath in desperation.

The water was cold, so cold, so very very cold.

I needed air. I wanted air. I would kill for air.

"Stop!" I ordered the butterflies that were absorbing his chakra to death. "Just...thank you for the good work. Let's go back to Orochimaru." They complied. I sensed if they had eyes they would have used it to give me a look to tell me that I was the biggest idiot in history. Maybe I was. They fluttered around me and gave the chakra they absorbed from the man. I eyed the bushy haired brunette who, if he had the will to move, scoff at me. I took his forehead protector and went back to my mentor.

When I got there he looked at me with cold eyes. He swiped the forehead protector I was using as a lifeline to calm myself down. "Disappointing." He turned around briskly as I held my arms in reassurance. He body flickered away like I my cowardice was contagious.

I let go of my arms and followed him back to Konoha.

My hands feel dirty even though I didn't even do anything.

AN.

To say sorry, I will double post. AKA I'm posting another chapter on Sunday, the last day of my SEM. Break. Which is sad, since I thought yesterday was Thursday. Damn camping at the graveyard, making my internal clock all wacky. Whatever, though. Editing is fun, writing more so.

OH YEAH! I should warn y'all.

This fanfic will change people and situations a lot. Like, I'm literally going to take away shit and change them for others. I'm not saying what, who or when but an example of this (AND JUST AN EXAMPLE) is Naruto with...I don't know, the Sharingan or something. That level of change in power. So if your not a fan of what if scenarios because this fanfic (the future of it at least) will revolve around the what if scenarios then I suggest you unfavorite, unfollow or whatever. I don't want to waste your time.

But if you DO and want to give my ideas a chance then go for it.

If you DON'T, sorry about warning you this late in.

Other than that, happy November! Stay safe, drink lots of water and DON'T FORGET TO EDIT. Have a nice life :)